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Today was… strange, to say the least. Hooty attempting some sort of “helping” spree ended up having a LOT of unexpected consequences, but all that aside, the day actually ended quite well.
Luz was lying down by the living room, furiously taking notes as the echo mouse narrated more and more entries from Wittebane’s journal. There was still a lot she did not understand, and lots of math she was certain she wouldn’t ever learn, but it was a start.
The whole evening felt like a fever dream, if she was being honest. From King gaining cool voice powers to Eda taming her curse and being able to turn into some sort of harpy at will. Not to mention asking Amity out and her actually agreeing to date.
For a moment Luz felt like slapping herself; surely this was all some big wacky dream and she’d wake up the next morning, but as she looked to her left, Amity was still there, sitting beside her, giving her glances she thought she was good at hiding, looking away at the last second with a big red blush on her face.
It felt so surreal, but it was there. It was true, tangible . If she reached out she could touch it. Never in a million years did she think that Amity Blight, of all people, would actually, really, like her back.
I mean, how could someone as cool, beautiful and amazing fall for someone like me? Luz thought, not daring to say that out loud.
Perhaps she was being too hard on herself again. She didn’t dare dwell on it further.
Suddenly, the echo mouse stopped right as it was about to start another entry. She felt disappointed at first, but they’d gotten plenty of information already. Some basic components to collect, the foundations of a set of blueprints, and something about a place called the eclipse lake?
She supposed that would have to wait.
“It is a bit late, I think the mouse deserves a break. You too, Luz.” Amity’s voice broke her out of her thoughts. It was rather late, past midnight by now. It made sense that the little mouse would be exhausted, and after putting the pen down and setting her notes aside, the exhaustion began to set in on her too. After everything that happened today, maybe they all deserved a break.
King had already gone upstairs to sleep, as had Eda. Hooty’s snores could be heard lightly from the other side of the door, and the lights were dim as a result.
For a moment, all Luz could do was stare. “Yeah, maybe you’re right, I’ll go change.” Luz replied, snapping out of her trance. She stood up and began walking to her room before something dawned upon her.
“Oh, uh, do you need me to walk you back home? I guess it’s only fair after Hooty kidnapped you…” She asked, her voice faltering slightly near the end. I still can’t believe he did that, but I guess it all worked out in the end, huh.
Amity let out a short giggle, then turned away, as though she was contemplating something. “Actually, I was hoping I could maybe stay the night? I hate to ask last minute but it is really late a-and if I went back now I’d probably have to answer a lot of questions that I really don’t feel like dealing with right now. I can text Ed and Em to cover for me if my parents ask anything.” Though they probably won’t leave me alone for days once they figure out why... Amity left that little detail out. It was worth it.
“O-oh! Sure, that’s perfectly fine! I have some extra clothes if you wanna change into something more comfortable, and I should be able to find a spare toothbrush in the bathroom.” Luz replied with faux confidence as a blush slowly creeped into her face.
Was Amity suggesting they have a sleepover? Together , just the two of them? Right after they decided to make things official between them?
Nervous feelings aside, Luz led Amity upstairs to her room, putting the echo mouse back inside its glass terrarium as she walked in. She opened a box where she kept her clothes, pulling out a set of PJs for herself and Amity, handing the lilac haired girl her set as she did.
With clothes in hand, the two girls both stood still, fidgeting slightly, not really knowing what to do next.
“I uhh, can probably find a second sleeping bag somewhere around here for you to use… O-or we could share mine, th-that’s an option too! If you’d like.” Luz blurted out, another blush appearing on her face.
Did I really just suggest that Amity and I cuddle on my sleeping bag? Dios mío is that moving too fast? Oh shit is she gonna think I’m weird now?
Amity blushed hard again, but thankfully let out a genuine laugh, putting Luz’s concerns to rest. “Yeah, that sounds n-nice, actually. I wouldn’t mind.” She replied, her voice stammering. Did I say that out loud? She thought as she looked away. The two avoided looking at each other for a moment, before suddenly laughing together.
We’re officially dating and we’re still this nervous around each other? Titan, what hope do we have?
“Sorry, sorry, it’s just, this is so new to me. Honestly, part of me still can’t believe this is happening.” Amity apologized, gathering the courage to look her girlfriend in the eyes.
“Heh, yeah, I get it, same here. It still feels like a dream. I don’t know how someone as amazing as you fell for someone like me.” Luz spoke softly. Her tone was genuine, but something about that didn’t sit right with Amity.
Does she think she’s not amazing? Oh that’s not gonna fly. She thought to herself.
“Hey, don’t sell yourself short.” She reached for Luz’s hand, wrapping it with her own, and looking her in the eyes. “You are the one that’s amazing. If I hadn’t met you, Titan knows where I’d be right now. Probably still being my parents’ puppet, pretending to be a bully just to keep up that perfect Blight status. You changed my life, Luz. You’re so smart, and pretty, and brave, and selfless. You helped me be friends with Willow again. You make people’s lives better just by being in them, so don’t you dare say you’re not an amazing person, okay? I’ll say that as many times as it takes to get it to your thick skull.” Amity’s threatened playfully.
God, what did I do to deserve this? Luz thought but didn’t speak.
If Amity thought she was amazing, who was she to argue?
For a moment, neither of them spoke. They didn’t have to. Slowly, Amity’s expression turned to something more serious, focused, like she was deep in thought about something.
Amity looked uncertain for a moment, before speaking up. “Why did you destroy the tunnel of love, Luz?”
The question caught her off guard, so she looked at Amity and let out a small confused hum.
“At the tunnel of love, why did you do it? It was so amazing and pretty but you were freaking out the whole time… Why?” If Luz hadn’t known better, she’d think that Amity still felt hurt about what happened, but she could tell that Amity sounded genuinely curious, if not slightly concerned.
Her expression must have faltered somewhat, because Amity gasped softly and spoke up once more. “Hey, it’s okay if you don’t wanna talk about it. If it makes you uncomfortable, we can just leave that topic alone.”
Luz appreciated the concern, but Amity deserved to know the truth. “No no, it’s fine. I… I wanna talk about this.”
“Back in the human realm, things were… different for me. For as long as I could remember, I never really had any friends. Not real ones, anyways. I was always the weirdo, the outcast, so any friendships I started never lasted long.” Luz sighed deeply. Just keep pushing forward.
“I’ve never had anyone really like me, either. Never like you have. Everyone back on earth always said that I was cheesy, or too much of a nerd, or just… too much . I never really fit in. I was always getting in trouble for being weird. And I had my fair share of rejections too. After all, why would anyone choose to date the weird outcast nerd over anyone else?”
“So, when you kissed me at your place, I thought that maybe you liked me back, and I thought for days how to ask you out. I wanted it to be special, you know? I thought that someone as amazing and classy as you deserved something extraordinary, and, well, when we fell into the tunnel, I… I thought that-”
“You thought I was gonna make fun of you…” Amity finished the sentence. Luz looked so… small. Amity hated that. She hated that Luz had to go through all that growing up. She hated that everyone treated Luz so badly. She hated that now Luz was sad, all because she wanted to satisfy a curiosity.
“Hey, I would never do that to you. You know that, right?”. Amity spoke firmly, but her tone was not accusatory, instead reassuring. Amity moved closer, wrapping her arms around the latina from behind and holding her close.
Luz leaned into the hug, feeling better than before, ever so slightly. “Yeah, I know… I just, I felt scared, that you would think less of me for being dorky, or that you’d think I was too much to deal with to be worth it.”
“Luz, you being so dorky and weird is actually a big part of what I love about you. I love how passionate you are, and I love when you feel like you can really be yourself around others. I don’t need you to be classy, or proper to impress me. You being you is more than enough for me. And hey, those assholes don’t know what they’re talking about if they thought they were better than you. They don’t know what they’re missing.” Amity spoke softly, tightening her hold on Luz, as small tears of happiness began to form on the other girl’s eyes.
Luz felt shocked. For once, someone actually liked her for who she was. She didn’t have to pretend, not anymore. She shifted, turning so she was facing Amity directly, and pulled her into a hug. “Thank you.” was all she said. They didn’t need to say anything else.
After a while, the two broke the hug. After all the talking, who knew what time it was, and they were tired. Luz let out a yawn, with Amity following suit. “We should get ready for bed.” Luz said, and Amity quickly nodded in agreement.
The two got up, heading to the bathroom to brush their teeth and get changed before bed.
Once they were done, they settled back down on the sleeping bag, cuddling together and pulling the blankets over themselves. Clearly yesterday’s events had taken their toll, as the purple haired girl fell asleep nearly instantly.
Yet all Luz could do was think. She should be thrilled. Amity was her girlfriend now. Her girlfriend for god’s sake. But the more she thought about that, the more she thought about the implications that came with it.
Everything is so crazy right now and I have no idea what my future holds.
Luz’s earlier words clung to her mind like a leech. It was true, she really had no clue what was going to happen next.
What would Amity’s parents think if they knew the two were dating? I mean, they literally tried to kill me just for being friends with her . What about Willow and Gus? How are they gonna tell them? And what about the portal?
I’ll have to go back to earth eventually, right?
What then? If she went to the human realm, would she come back here? Could she come back here, even if she wanted to? What if things with Belos got worse? Eda did say that Belos was planning something big.
What if it was too dangerous for Luz to say, and she had to leave forever? Not that the Boiling Isles were ever particularly “safe”, but still.
Could she even maintain a relationship with Amity then?
It was clear she wasn’t going to get much sleep with all these thoughts plaguing her, so she slowly got up from the sleeping bag, unwrapping her arms from around Amity, careful not to wake the girl, and walked over to the window, sitting down to admire the view in silence.
She was taking a big risk by being with Amity. Luz had a feeling they both knew it. In every story she’d read, the protagonist always had to leave the cool fantasy world behind forever. Would that happen to her too? She truly hoped not.
But she still had to go back home, at the very least to see her mom again. She probably thinks I’m missing right now! I can’t just sit here and let my mom be hurt like that.
Maybe… just maybe, things would work out. Maybe they would take down Belos and everything would be fine, safe, and Luz could have a life here. With Eda and King. With her friends. With my girlfriend…
They’d build a new portal door and Luz would go visit her mom every weekend. She’d become a full fledged witch and have a palisman. Maybe Amity would become a coven head like she always planned, but not under Belos’ tyrannical rule, instead working on making a real difference. They’d be together, and everything would be fine.
Luz sure hoped so.
Perhaps it was naive. Maybe she was letting herself be too optimistic. This wasn’t a fairy tale, after all. Maybe there won't be a happily ever after. God knows what her future would be like.
But it would be so cool, if you were in it.
But no matter what happened, Luz cared about Amity. She wanted to see her happy. She wanted to be with her for as long as she possibly could; the rest of her days if she had her way.
Luz couldn’t say if she loved Amity or not. She cared deeply for her, and she knew Amity felt the same for her. Perhaps it was too early to say. Hell, we haven’t even really kissed yet. Luz turned red as she thought of the very real possibility of that happening sooner rather than later, but she shook those thoughts away for the moment.
Maybe all that mattered was that they cared for each other. I just have to enjoy the moment, and whatever happens happens, right? Perhaps getting caught up in all the what ifs wasn’t worth it.
Maybe things won’t work out in the end.
But who knows, maybe they will.
Feeling a bit more calm and confident, she quietly walked back to the sleeping bag, cuddling back into Amity.
They’d have to talk about all this some time. If their relationship was to continue then they’d need to be realistic about what could happen. But that was a problem for the future Luz and Amity to deal with.
Even if just for a moment, Luz allowed herself to pretend that there was nothing to worry about. She dug her face into Amity’s soft purple hair, satisfied. Softly, she planted a kiss on her girlfriend’s head, and closed her eyes.
This relationship was a big risk. She knew it, deep down.
But perhaps, for Amity, that was a risk she was willing to take.