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San was in trouble, god, he had this huge-huge crush on Yunho, a sweet lovely man and San felt like shit having indecent thoughts about his angelic friend. Damn it. How can he face Yunho? Day by day, it was just getting worse. He is sure Yunho, like the good cute puppy he is, would forgive him and treat him the same if he ever comes to know the truth or if San stupidly confessed, but god, he still feels so ashamed thinking about him in such a way. He really didn't want to come across as a creepy person.
And to make matters worse, Yunho didn’t even swing that way! San’s dumb habit of falling for straight men would be his undoing- wait- no, he only has a crush on the taller man- he is not in love. He is not. Fuck.
“You know… instead of pining like a sore loser, you can just confess and move on- or get laid somewhere”
“Yeosang! Be gentle with me!” San cried out, nursing his drink like the pining idiot he was. Yeosang worked part-time in a club and San doesn’t miss any opportunity to annoy the blond man. Usually, Jongho, Yeosang's boyfriend, warded off everyone given how protective he was, but he did have a soft spot for San, so he lets him get away with teasing the blond.
“Ur join us in bed, Jongho won't mind if it’s you.” San almost choked on his drink, it wasn't unusual for them to proposition him each chance they got, but it still didn't stop surprising him.
“Oh my god, Yeo!”
“Who’s joining us in bed?” Jongho suddenly came beside him, startling San who jumped a little at the intrusion. He was blushing red as Jongho appraised him, brow raising at the two of them, and taking an empty seat in front of Yeosang.
“He is moping around because of Yunho, I told him to get laid or try with us,” Yeosang said casually like he was talking about the weather and not his sex life.
“Isn’t he still a virgin?”
“Yah! I am here, you brat” San grumbled, he was older than Jongho but had yet to lose his V-card. It’s not like he had many opportunities, he had to work hard in academics to ensure he got into a good university, and then just as he graduated, he was given a good internship. He used all of his energy for the job just so he could get good references. His father was a hunter, he had barely been home half his life, and then when he left permanently, leaving behind a sick wife and two vulnerable kids, San had to step up. Even more so. His mother’s health didn't get better. with his sister trying to get into law school- Instead of his father, he was the one raising their family. It was tiring. And so, his situation didn’t let him have any time for love-like business. And honestly, who would want baggage like him, along with the fact that he was completely a novice in relationships too?
“Well, San isn’t too bad, I won't mind,” Jongho said indifferently, grabbing the drink Yeosang put in front of him. “But he is too innocent for a threesome”
“Why am I friends with you both?” San pouted, trying to hide the unnecessary redness on his face.
“it wouldn’t work, I guess” Yeosang continued, ignoring San’s mumblings, “he is a hopeless romantic”
“Too bad, I wanted to hold him down by his tiny waist”
“Hmm, his ass is perky too”
“You g-guys are the w-worst” San shuttered in embarrassment, still not being able to get used to their blatant flirting and praising. Yeosang only laughed in return, and Jongho had a teasing smile tugging on his face. He knew it started as a serious offer, the duo were attracted to him, but when they became good friends with Yeosang realizing what San truly wanted and how they clicked well, the duo welcomed him like family. It was a running gag by this point, and it never failed to make him laugh or embarrass, or feel somewhat confident about himself, it helped in certain situations.
A few orders came rushing in with the crowd thickening so Yeosang got busy. It wasn’t too crowded when San came to sulk, deeming it a good time to rant to the other man but as the evening approached, it tended to get hectic. Unexpectedly, it was Jongho who started the conversation, normally, the younger man doesn’t care much about things outside his interests. He wasn't a busybody, minded his business, and only interfered when requested. San must have looked a bit too pathetic for Jongho to step in, he mused to himself.
“I am friends with Mingi, from what I heard Yunho doesn’t mind advances from either party. I am not sure about his orientation, but he has no problem with them or get offended if he gets hir on by guys.”
“W-what- you sure? He is such a good guy.” Jongho raised his brow again as if to say ‘really?’ in his comically unimpressed way, San giggled before asking "How do you know Minig?"
“Who is Mingi?” Yeosang interrupted the conversation. Poking his head out from the drink he was supposedly blending.
“Yunho’s best friend” San replied, sighing sadly.
“Shouldn’t you befriend him too? He can help you out too if he knows you well” Yeosang wondered, looking at him expectantly. San shook his head, he may be an extrovert but only for the sake of work, when it comes to personal life, he is as good as an introvert. Yunho was the one who interacted with him first, and from then on he helped San out in various situations. Not even two months passed by, and San was falling like rain for the kind-hearted man. “Right, if I haven’t adopted your sorry but perky ass, you would be sitting alone here too." Which was true, not that Yeosang was any better, but he had his moments, he could be unexpectedly depraved or scary when he wanted to be. "Jongho-ah, why don’t you bring Mingi to this bar?”
“Please leave my ass’s description out of a normal conversation” San groaned “And what? Why?”
“Yeah, why should I?”
“Because we need to get San laid, and if he ain’t having one night stand then we need to get him a relationship. Better yet, tell him to invite Yunho too. I will see how much chance you have with him or if he is even worthy of you”
“Hey! Yunho is a good man, Yeo” San vehemently defended “He is so nice and warm, like a golden retriever, he’d never hurt anyone. And you’re acting like my mom-” His phone suddenly rang, “Ah let me take this call” He said and hurried out before the call was cut.
“He is that nice, huh?” Yeosang murmured, as he caught a moment of peace, he was just glad it was not a Saturday night- he shuddered just thinking about it. Jongho looked like he was contemplating something, Yeosang had noticed his reluctance when it came to San's crush, while the shorter man loved to go on and on about how much of an angel Yunho was, Jongho had a conflicted expression on his face.
“…Yunho is a nice guy no doubt, but- he is not a saint. At least I don't think so.”
"What does that mean, Jongho-ah? And you said you knew this Mingi person, how?"
"... Occupational hazard" Jongho muttered. An understanding dawned on Yeosang's face. Ah.
“You still didn't answer, what do you mean by 'he is not a saint'?"
"Honestly? I am not too sure either, it's just a feeling I have. And I don't think anyone who seems too nice can truly be just that, a nice person."
"I don't know, it sounds like you do know what you're talking about. Why does his niceness make you wary?" Yeosang asked, not getting the point his boyfriend was trying to explain. What could turn on the red alarms in Jongho's mind?
“You will know”
“You’re being cryptic again" Yeosang scowled, it was a very annoying habit Jongho had, "Huh, why is San messaging from outside?” Yeosang opened the notification, tilting his head “Ah, his office, he must have been called for overtime. Seriously, he works too hard. He needs to have some fun... anyway, my shift’s about to end too. Let’s go together” Jongho made a sound of confirmation.
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“San, let me help you” Yunho smiled, taking the files from his hands. He had at least twenty thick files that he was carrying to the storeroom. Unlike him, Yunho easily lifted more than half of the files, leaving only a few in his hands as he walked beside him. San swallowed inaudibly, eying the way Yunho's huge hands became veiny, they were so big and- goddammit it was so hot but he really didn't want to think these thoughts, not when he was alone with Yunho, in a quiet hallway.
Why is he so sexy?
“Thank you, Yunho-ah, why are you still in the office?” San asked as unaffectedly as he could, though inside his head, he was jumping around, elated at the fact that he got to spend more time with the taller man, without anyone interrupting. Though it was dangerous too, San was nothing if not a brave idiot.
“I was about to leave but Hyunjin said you’re still working so I came to check”
“Ah, you didn’t need to! You could have gone home early. But thank you.” He smiled appreciatively at Yunho. He was so touched by Yunho's thoughtful actions, as he had always been. Yunho was one of a kind.
“I don’t mind waiting for you, Sannie” Ah, San is gonna have a heart attack- how adorable can this man be? But his behavior always ended in getting his hopes up. Sometimes Yunho was all in his business, around him constantly, complimenting him, and just- it was hard to not think about how easily he could grab Yunho's shoulder and plant a kiss. They didn’t speak for a while, silently making their way to the storeroom that was at the end of the fifth floor- it was a hassle.
“So… how’s it going with your girlfriend?” Wow, San. What a topic. He needs to be applauded.
“Oh, we broke up”
“What, why!?”
“We both wanted different things. I thought maybe I could develop feelings for her but… it was futile. I know it’s not okay but I feel so… unexcited when it comes to relationships, I don’t know why” Yunho shrugged, his face looked weirdly void. San tried not to dance in victory internally- but hey, his crush is single now- even if it doesn’t mean he has a chance- but it was still good to know. Sue him. They finally reached their destination and San started putting the files in place.
“Hey, it’s okay. It happens sometimes. Why don’t you try something different, hmm?” San advised, feeling like an idiot- because he had almost little to no experience and he was giving relationship advice. Nice. There was a comfy couch in the room, since they were having heart to heart, it wasn’t a bad idea- to be alone with Yunho, kyaa!
“You think I should give it a try with guys?”
“W-w-what- wow where did that come from?” San said with difficulty, god, Yunho was bad for his heart. The other man simply smiled, as he settled on the couch, telling San to sit beside him.
“I mean I don’t find it gross, it’s okay with women but I still feel something is missing. I just thought why not give it a try?”
“O-Oh- I-I see. Uh- g-good good”
“Will this change your view on me?” Yunho asked with a disheartened voice, his eyes drooping- if he was an actual puppy, he could see his ears and tails sagging in sadness. Huh, San was whipped.
“O-Of course no, Yunho-ah! I like both too- so you have no problem f-from my side”
“That’s… that’s awesome!” Yunho brightened, lips stretched wide and his fluffy black hair seemed as if they were bouncing. “You have any experience?- I don’t want to go unprepared”
“A bit, yeah” San laughed awkwardly, hand rubbing his nape as Yunho watched him in wonder. If Yeosang was here, he would smack him for letting the opportunity go. But how could he say try it with me? He doesn’t just want to be an experiment- even if that’s the only chance he might have at touching Yunho. Ah, it was gonna be a tough few days. He could feel the metaphoric cracking of his heart. “Y-You can go to clubs for um-”
“I think I would be more comfortable if it was someone I know- and I trust you” San’s mind short-circuited. What. “Of course, I don’t want to feel like you have to, but I would be happy if you can help me out” Yunho took San’s hand in his, staring at him with utmost trust and admiration. San didn’t know what was he supposed to do in such a sudden unexpected situation.
“H-help you out l-like- uh- ki-kissing?” his stupid habit of shuttering was annoying, San thought, and he stopped as he looked at Yunho’s eyes, glinting something dark, as he leaned closer to him. San moved back unconsciously, his back hitting the wall that was just beside the couch but Yunho didn’t relent, his face too close to San’s.
“And more” he whispered, voice surprisingly low. San gulped, nervous, and turned on. Fuck. When was Yunho not hot? “What do you say, Sannie?” One of Yunho’s big hands came to rest on his chin, lifting it slightly- fuck his face could be covered by Yunho’s palm- damn, he really had a thing for these giant hands. His answer turned into a gasp as he felt the other hand slipping inside his shirt and stopping at his waist.
“Y-Y-Yunho- I-”
“Yes?” Yunho smiled teasingly, then he moved his face closer, dropping a wet kiss on San’s unsuspecting collarbone, the squeak he heard in reply was music to his ears and the sight in front of him too seductive. The shorter man was looking up at him with big wet eyes, skittish like a scared kitten. Fuck.
The sudden noise of the door opening and Mingi’s loud voice startled San out of the trance that was Yunho. A look of irritation flashed in Yunho’s face but it disappeared in a second, making San wonder if he imagined it. Yunho wouldn’t react like that, no way.
“Yunho! I have been calling your ass like fift-” he stopped abruptly, taking in the scene in front of him. Yunho threw him an enraged look before getting up from the couch, his demeanor getting back to gentle. “Oh hey San”
“H-Hi- uh- I will get going” San swallowed thickly, mind spinning at the event that just happened. He didn’t know if he was grateful or annoyed at Mingi for interrupting. San was about to leave when Yunho suddenly grabbed his wrist.
“Think about it, okay?” Yunho said softly “I will call you”
“S-Sure”
“What the hell was that about, Yun?”
“Your timing is a nuisance”
“I thought you weren’t gonna approach him?” Mingi asked, incredulously, well aware of his best friend’s tendency.
“Yeah but-”
“Yun, after that incident, didn’t you say you won’t approach friends for… for whatever you wanted to do? And what about your girlfriend?”
“We broke up” Yunho shrugged, ignoring the first part of the sentence.
“What? When? Why?”
“Yesterday. I don’t go for guys but for some reason, even between the scenes, I couldn’t enjoy it. San- he- I think I like him more than I thought”
“you have liked people before- this isn’t anything new” Mingi sighed, he was getting sick of dealing with Yunho’s antiques- especially if he had to be the one picking the pieces of others. He loved his best friend but he got on his nerves sometimes. Yunho didn’t need to act on his tendencies often but when he did, it was troublesome. He had no mercy inside him when he was in one of his episodes. He liked San, the shorted man was a good friend to Yunho and his crush on the latter was obvious, and he would have encouraged it if not for the fact that Yunho will leave him broken apart.
“Yeah, but I never wanted to see anyone cry as much as I want to see him. Or make him” That sentence alone made Mingi shiver, also the fact that Yunho’s eyes had an animalistic expression in them. He sighed. Not again.
“You sicko. Let’s go now. I am hungry”