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"Hyung, we'll be out till noon today, alright? Sunoo and niki are in the mood for arcade and me and heeseung and jay hyung are tagging along. Sunghoon is passed out in bed till now. You'll be okay by yourself?"
Jake could barely register what was the young leader saying in his sleep haziness. But he nodded anyway, at least he knows he'll be home alone for few hours.
Jungwon smiled and ruffled the soft messy black hair of the older, endeared by the sleepy jake in front of him who did nothing but yawn then smile at him, "Enjoy your time guys. I'll be perfectly fine."
Jungwon nodded then headed out. Leaving jake to gaze into nothingness for few minutes, till he climbed off the bed to the kitchen for some water.
Then it dawned on him, he was home alone for few hours! Well, basically, sunghoon is still right there but the boy was sleeping and he's definitely not waking up any time soon from how deep in his sleep he looks like.
And that means he has the bathroom for himself all this time.
Ecstatic at the thought, jake hurried his way to the bathroom. Opening the drawer to collect his showering products, when his eyes fell on a certain box behind them. He bit his lips. Can he..?
The idea of him losing control of himself immediately crept into his mind, making him slightly panicked. But he thought about how a bath bomb won't let him completely slip like that. It's just a pretty purple with tiny yellow dots as stars bath bomb.
What's the worst that can happen?
So he grabbed it and filled the tub with semi-hot water then sank into it; feeling how his aching body is gradually relaxing now, after a very long month of constant full schedules, jake's body is finally resting.
His hand grabbed the purple ball and threw it in the water, watching the pretty colors fill up the once transparent liquid.
His smile stretched up, his mind screaming with the word "pretty" and he felt himself feeling that way again so he immediately took hold of himself, instead grabbed his phone to look through his social media accounts.
Minutes later, and definitely many laughs and chuckles at their fandom's memes and topics, jake found himself washing his hair with his favorite shampoo. And scraping his body with his favorite body wash.
Milk. That will probably be jake's favorite scent, and what he most loves to smells like. It makes him feel soft, fluffy, and just, cute. Which he never admits to anyone, not even the harsh voice in his head telling him he's too old for that, too masculine to feel this way.
With a hum, he dry blew his hair till it's perfectly fluffy again and put his things back to their place then left with a towel around him to his closet to get something on. In the corner of his eyes, sunghoon is still in the same position he left him in an hour before.
He quickly wore underwear, then rummaged through his belongings to some certain piece of clothing but couldn't find, so he sighed and sat down, his baby lotion in his hand, with milk and vanilla scent, he allowed himself to space out as he applied it to all his body. Ending up feeling soft and content.
Giving up about the earlier sweater he wanted, he wore a white shorts then opened sunghoon's closet, grabbing that one oversized gray hoodie he really loves on the taller and threw it on him, taking a moment to sniff it when his head was buried in the middle of it.
Smells like woody, lavender scent which definitely belongs to sunghoon's favorite body splash, and a hint of milky scent which is probably there out how much jake clings to sunghoon when he wears this hoodie. Or anytime at all.
He finally put it on and it pooled over him, he wasn't that tiny by any means but sunghoon's shoulders are broad and his limps are tall, and in this hoodie, jake can't help but feel small, and cute, again.
He frowned at the ugly thoughts in his mind, sighing in the process but decided not to overthink it and let it ruin his precious almost free day.
He walked back to their shared room and headed to his bed in search of something. Kneeling down to the floor and bringing his black box (that very much resembles a shoebox, but isn't. That trick is intended) from inside, and placing it on the bed.
He took a deep breath. He's here just for his fuzzy socks. Nothing more, nothing less. Just the fuzzy sock. Not that hard.. is it?
He opened his eyes the moment he opened the box. His eyes immediately fell on his hand-designed white pacifier. His mouth waters and he chewed on his lower lips.
It had been months since he had it, his whole body was aching for him to just grab it and place it where it should be. In his mouth, not the box.
He was having a huge hard time controlling himself, and when he finally took hold of his pacifier, he heard a quiet rumble from behind him, making him panic immediately and turn around with wide eyes.
His mind was screaming on him not to panic but his vision was blurry with tears already as he feels himself slip away at the sight of sunghoon sitting on the opposite bed, hardly 80cm away and his hand in his hair trying to understand what jake is doing.
Sunghoon, although just woke up, immediately sobered up in alarm when jake's cheeks stained with fat tears. He rushed to kneel in front of the smaller boy and checked if he's hurt first but couldn't find anything so he just pulled him in for a hug.
"Hey, hey. Sweetheart, why are you crying?" He tried to say as soothingly as his morning voice let him, not really expecting any answer from the older. But jake curled into sunghoon's white shirt and tried his best to hide.
"I-is scared.." came the tiny voice a few sobs later. And the younger's heart broke. "Why? What's wrong? Why are you scared, sweetie?" As much as sunghoon knows, jake is so fragile when he's crying, he needs acceptance, reassurance, and praises to pull him slowly out of the dark place he traps himself in.
Jake shook his head, holding tighter on the taller's shirt. Then when sunghoon finally looked behind jake to see the open box, that contains multiple supplies for what looks like.. a toddler's?
But based on the way jake is crying, and the opened box, then the discarded pacifier next to him, sunghoon put one and one together and it clicked why the older was crying out of fear.
This must be what jay once talked about.
He quickly pulled jake on his lap. Now fully woken up, he held him close to his chest, softly rocking him up and down on his thigh as he shushed him slowly, "Hey, sweetheart, it's okay, sunghoon gets you. You're safe here, please stop crying."
After his soft words, jake's sobs subsided, and he slowly looked up, "meant.. meant dat?" He mumbled, lashed wet with tears, eyes hopeful yet still scared.
Sunghoon's free hand reached the red and wet cheek, slowly cupping it and drying the tears away, smiling softly at him. "You're always safe with me, baby. Please don't cry okay? Nothing here is scary, it's just sunghoonie." Sunghoon tapped jake's nose gently, earning a soft chuckle out of him.
"There you go sweetie, hello." The taller encouraged. Jake, although looking hesitant, cracked a soft, "Hi," back at him. "Good boy," sunghoon immediately praised and ruffled his hair.
Jake looked up quickly, eyes sparkling, "jakey's good boy?" He asked ever so cutely, so endearingly that sunghoon swears he can see the tail behind him wiggle.
"Yes angel. Jakey is the best boy." And sunghoon saw the blush spread along the pretty honey skin of the Australian. "Sweetheart, how old are you?" Was a necessary question. Sunghoon should know how to treat jake at the moment. Knowing he was in his headspace is a thing, (now he's thankful for all the sometimes really not necessary information jay talks to him about) and knowing how to handle him is another.
Again, jake wasn't sure at first but then he bit on his lip nervously, " 's four" and as much as sunghoon was shocked, he didn't show it at all. Jake was so well behaved for four years old, or that's what sunghoon thinks.
"Alright pup, do you like me to call you that?" He said naturally then decided to ask, just to be met with an enthusiastic nod that made him chuckle. "Okay pup. What do you like to do? Eat? Cuddles? Watch cartoon?"
Jake looked around to think it over, and sunghoon took his time to admire Jake's outfit, of course, he had recognized his hoodie on the younger, feeling a bang of satisfaction at how the little chose his clothes and how he basically drowns into it.
"Paci.." jake trails off.. looking at the ground.
Sunghoon followed his gaze to meet with the white item. "You want it, sweetheart?" Again, jake nodded quickly, shyness overtaking him for admitting that to sunghoon and he buried his face in the younger's chest. The scent is so familiar that he immediately felt safe.
" pup's so safe" came the mumble against sunghoon's skin that made him smile affectionately. "Alright. I'll prepare your pacifier for you, what do you wanna do till I come back?" He proceeded on getting up, the little still in his arms, securing him with his hand under his bottom.
Jake looked alarmed first, holding into sunghoon immediately, "hoonie's leav'n?" And the taller doesn't know if his heart fluttered at the cuteness or broke for the fear in his eyes. "I'm not, pup" he emphasized his words by brushing their noses, something even big jake loves, then smiled, "hoonie will be right back in three minutes, does that sound good?"
Jake looked around, then back to sunghoon's eyes, "socks..," he nodded, "pup wan' socks!" He giggled and nodded to himself this time.
Sunghoon, yet again, endeared by the sight of completely innocent jake, placed a kiss on his forehead without much thinking, earning a blushed yet very happy little in his hands.
He put the smaller down, next to his box and told him to wait for him. And jake isn't much of a rule-breaker, he's very polite and cute little. Probably was even more as a kid back in Australia.
Quickly he boiled some water and made sure the white pacifier was clean and hygienic enough for the little, and it was when he took it out that he noticed it has a tiny crown on it and the word "prince" was glued on it by tiny blocks.
Just when he thought the little won't get any cuter, jake who was previously staring at his white fuzzy socked feet, raised his head when the taller entered the room and made grabby hands at him.
Sunghoon knows that his boyfriend is adorable, but him as a little, was probably the cutest thing ever.
He placed the white item where it belongs finally and saw how jake munched contently on it, physically relaxing and closing his eyes.
Sunghoon, who now was able to change his shirt to a light sweater, and threw on some sweatpants, noticed the tired boy, "wanna get some cuddles, pup?" And jake nodded, very thankful for sunghoon to understand him like this, and made a note to hug him warm and tight as a thank you.
Again, the little made grabby hands up to sunghoon, who was very happy to collect the smaller in his arms again, three steps towards the other direction and they were laying on sunghoon's bed, with jake almost completely on the pale boy's chest.
"Let's take a nap sweetheart. I'll order us food when we wake up." And if jake didn't actually understand what the other said because he was busy feeling warm and content listening to sunghoon's heartbeat and breathing. Then the other doesn't have to know, because in no time both of them drifted back to sleep.
Jake holding tight on sunghoon and sunghoon holding even tighter.
They have so many things to talk about once jake is big again, but sunghoon didn't care, as long as his boyfriend is comfortable and in his arms, he'll be more than happy to help.