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This island is really special.

It’s amazing.

It’s very relaxing.

The air is clean.

The sky is beautiful.

The sea is charming.

It’s like a dream.

My dream became a reality.

I’m living the best days in my life right now.

That’s why I want to write about this special day.

Today is the happiest day in my life.

But before that I want to write something about this diary.

There are many reasons why I started writing.

The first reason is learning from others how to keep their memories.

The second reason is my feelings.

When I saw everyone here.

I learned a lot of stuff.

I saw the other girls here writing about what happened.

They continued to do that everyday.

Keeping their beautiful memories.

Mahiru is taking photos also.

Ibuki is making new songs.

Everyone is having fun.

They want to keep their memories about this beautiful place.

I wanted to do new things as well.

I want to keep my beautiful memories also.

I used to read a lot but rarely wrote anything.

But when I came to this island I did a lot of new things.

I never thought that someone like me is capable of having fun.

But it’s very different here.

I learned it's possible for me to do something new.

Including writing this diary.

So I started to write this diary.

A lot of things happened. 

I have written a lot since we came.

I’m not a good writer but I thought it’s an important experience for me.

Everyone abused me outside of this island.

And finally I found this place.

It’s a lot of fun.

But I’m still not used to it.

I still need time.

But I’m trying my best.

I always ask myself what should I do?

I only think about helping others but I don’t know what to do.

I did embarrassing stuff.

I thought everyone was going to abuse me.

But he forgave me.

I was happy.

This is my first time someone told me this.

It’s my first time feeling like this.

A strange feeling.

It’s my first time someone respected me.

The feelings I have are my treasure.

The next day we went to have fun.

Ibuki made a live concert.

I don’t know a lot about music.

But I think it was fun.

Everyone tried to play an instrument later.

I was clumsy as usual.

But Ibuki told me I made a very good melody.

I want to have as much fun as possible on this island.

Everything is amazing.

It’s very peaceful.

I can live peacefully.

No pain and none is hurting me.

I thought it might be a bad thing but then I learned the truth.

Of course, he told me that.

I can sleep and eat peacefully on this island.

All of our needs are met.

I don’t need to escape from my home.

There is no poverty here.

I can eat different things.

The food is delicious.

I don’t like to eat a lot, though.

But I can swim and do activities, so it's not a problem to my health.

I have a lot of problems.

But they all fade away when I look at him.

I’m clumsy.

I fell after I woke up.

I hurt my leg.

However, I healed myself. 

I’m used to it.

It’s hard to write when I’m in my cottage.

I feel lonely.

I thought nobody wanted me.

But now I understand there is something new.

When I went outside of my cottage.

I kept looking at him.

Endlessly.

It soothes my heart.

A feeling I never experienced before.

He went with everyone to the supermarket.

But I decided to stay.

I’m shy.

Hiyoko would talk a lot about me.

And I won’t be able to enter my fantasy world.

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I’m sorry.

I’m clumsy and my hand slipped and made a line.

I’m not used to writing.

I only wrote about my talent before. 

This is my first time doing this.

My hand is shaking.

The past hurt me a lot.

I’m very happy he helped me.

Now it’s my chance to heal myself.

There are a lot of things I can do here.

I want to try new things.

But I’m afraid.

So I mostly think about nursing.

I don’t know what movie I should watch.

I don’t know which game I should play.

Chiaki was playing and I don’t know about the games.

It looks weird.

But she said there are a lot of games.

And there are games that suit me.

I was happy to know that.

And it looks like games have options.

Like two players or multiplayers.

When I played with her, I immediately lost.

I imagined him playing with us.

But then she told me to not feel bad.

Games are played to have fun.

I don’t know about winning or losing. 

It was a strange and new experience.

To play a game.

I have a feeling.

That he told everyone to not hurt me.

I noticed that.

But Hiyoko is still the same.

I think it's not a big problem.

He cares about me.

And I’m only wandering.

Between the cottage, pharmacy and hospital.

I want to have fun.

But the only thing I do is nursing.

What can I do to be near to him?

I want to be with him.

I only heal wounds and injuries.

I give them bandages and medicine.

I don’t want something to happen to him.

Even if it’s a chance to be closer.

I had an idea.

I’m going to check his health everyday.

That’s what I was thinking about.

And I’ll do it anyway.

But he promised me today.

Thank you, Hajime.

This is my first time someone has promised me.

I’m going to have fun.

Maybe we are going to watch a movie or something.

I can’t wait.

I want to have fun with him.

I don’t know how long we are going to stay on this island.

But he promised me.

He won’t let anyone hurt me.

He will stay with me always. 

Forever.

From the bottom of my heart.

Thank you. 

Hajime.

• Mikan.