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Late at night, your head was spinning. Nothing was going your way and you began to lose yourself. You didn't even know how long it was until you realized you were having a panic attack. You tried to stable yourself until your eyes stung with tears. Everything began to be too much. The texture of the floor you were on, your clothes, mostly your emotions. What was the thing to calm down? Name one, two what? You couldn't think. Fuck wh-
You jolted awake and slightly sat up.
"Hey?" Said a soft worried voice said. You looked at him, it was dark but you could make out,, Ranboo? Why was he h-, right you were spending the night together. "Are you, okay?" He asked
"Oh, yeah, sorry did i wake you up?"
"No, i was already up I think i just caught you having a bad dream."
"Yeah" You half mumbled, remembering the dream. You laid down, watching Ranboo talk to you.
"Want to.. talk about it?"
"Well honestly it just was so realistic and i had a panic attack and i lost grip and- " You cut off yourself and started choking on tears. You sat back up.
"Hey it's okay, it was just a dream, you won't lose control, you're fine" He pulled you in for a hug mid sentence.
Tears were already streaming, you were so scared of having a panic attack. They sucked. Ranboo suddenly flinched as you pulled away from the hug, remembering water burns him.
"Fuck sorry." You said in between your crying.
"It's fine, I just didn't expect it, it won't leave a scar or anything."
He was so nice and considerate, he didn't want to hurt you more. This just made you cry more instead of trying to say anything.
"Don't lose control now on me," He grabbed your hand that wasn't wiping your eye "Okay name 5 things you can see, you don't have to out loud, just try."
You frantically looked around, your heart pounding. You could see your blanket, shit uhm
Ranboo interrupted your troubled thought process. "Want to do it together?" You nodded, embarrassed he had to do this for and with you.
"Okay you can see me," His eyes the most noticeable in the soft lighting. "Your hand," He squeezed your hand, interlocked with his. "You can see that poster too" You looked at a poster you hung up. "Hmm that table and that makes four. Oh you can see your stuffie" Ranboo reached and placed your favorite stuffed animal you had near you.
"Going good?" He smiled at you. You nodded hesitantly, one of your hands swiping across your face to clear the tears again. The exercise helped the smallest bit. He started naming things you could feel, like your hand in his. After he went though touch, you started to calm down, your crying stopping.
You took a shaky breath "Thank you Ranboo" You looked at him as you cuddled your plush in your arms.
"So you're good now?" He made sure
"Mhm, at least to the point that i can control myself." "And thanks for always putting up with me, and always helping" You thanked, your voice occasionally shaking.
"It's really no problem, I understand sometimes you just need someone to be there. I lose myself too sometimes."
"So want to watch a movie or two?" You abruptly asked
"Yeah sure, I'm gonna go get two drinks for us, you'll be fine?"
"Yes, you'll only be a minute or two." You assured
"Okay the just pick out whatever." Ranboo got up and you turned on the tv.
The night ended with you recovering from your meltdown while laying on Ranboos lap, a movie playing you were half-paying attention to.
You were thinking of saying goodnight before you could fall asleep but as you were thinking that, sleep consumed you.