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Another very long and tiring day of school, it was like any other day for me. I ended up making a complete and odder fool of myself. Overusing my quirk and frying my brain again. I feel like I've been doing this more and more often but it’s not purposely, of course it’s not purposely. I can’t control it and I don’t know if I ever will learn how. Things have changed, it feels like my friends are starting to care less and less about me when that happens. Like they don't want me around anymore. Like they are embarrassed that I was ever even considered a friend to them. And so I've given up on trying to be around them or talk to them. It’s no use anyways.
We got our most recent test back today, I was disappointed with my results. I am barely passing at this point. I'm not really surprised but I’m frustrated. I studied for three hours yesterday with no distractions and still didn't do better. It all seems useless at this point and even worse I no longer have anyone to talk to about it. I don't know what else I can do to improve in my classes and physical training. Iida has already tried to help but it was of no use, I didn't get any better. I feel completely useless in school.
If I can’t pass my written tests with good notes I want to at least try and bring up my physical abilities. I could train more, I’ll ask mister Aizawa to let me use a room to train, I’m sure he’ll agree. Deciding that I shouldn't waste any time and just get right to it I made my way to mister Aizawa's office and knocked. I wasn’t surprised to hear an aggravated sigh and a quiet ‘come in’ and I did so. He seemed surprised to see me but I just cut right to the chase, “Would I be able to train somewhere? Even if it’s just for a bit.” When I said this he seemed even more shocked but nodded, he handed me the keys to the gymnasium and I went on my way.
It was awfully quiet throughout the school halls, giving it an almost eerie feeling. Arriving at the gym I was about to unlock the door but was surprised to find it already unlocked, hesitantly I opened the door. To my surprise there seemed to be no one there at all, a teacher must've just forgotten to lock it. I put the keys on a bench and set up some dummies to practice precise aim and began my practising. Music blaring as I was doing quite well at controlling and using my quirk like I had originally planned. And thankfully all was going extremely well. I felt focused and calm, so much so that I failed to realise one crucial thing, I in fact was not alone.
As I was training I started to feel pain, I was pushing myself to my limits on my quirk and I would do this until there was no limit anymore. I want, no I need to get better and stronger. I won't stop till I am as strong as Bakugou and Todoroki. It doesn't matter how much it hurts or how difficult it is, I need to keep going.. But everything goes black.
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As far as I knew I was alone. I was hiding to get away from everyone and everything but I heard the door to the gym open, so I made sure to stay quiet in hopes that whoever was here wasn’t planning to stick around for too long. I could hear music and it sounded like whoever it was has been training nonstop since they got in here.
Normally if I'd hear someone training that hard I would assume it's Bakugou but I don't hear explosions. Contemplating opening the door to see who it was, I decided it'd be a good idea. I soon regretted it when I was shocked, but now I know who's there, Denki Kaminari. This was a surprise, I've hung around him a few times, not really by choice, and he never seemed like the type to train when it's not necessary.
I tried not to worry myself with it too much and just decided to wait it out. As I started to focus back on my book the music seemed to take a break as the song changed, but it wasn't silent. There was a loud crash and everything seemed to stay quiet after. I saw the glow of Denki's electricity from under the door then nothing. Now I'm really worried.
Cautiously I opened the door to make sure he was okay but saw him lying on the ground. Panic rushed through me and I ran over to check on him. Sighing of relief when I saw he was still breathing and had a decently steady heart beat. I looked at his arms and my worry grew, he had burn marks all over.
Once properly inspecting them I grew confused, not all of these were new. I'm pretty I would've noticed these before but it seems I may have missed them. Trying to figure out how I could've missed them I realised he always has a long sleeve on. But why hide them if its just an effect of training his quirk?
I had so many questions to ask him but I couldn't really ask him in this state. I got his things and put them in my bag before walking over to him and lifting him into my arms. Holding him in a way that his head was resting against my shoulder comfortably. I went to my dorm avoiding anyone so as to not be questioned.
I placed him on my bed gently, going to get some water and snacks for when he gets up. On the way I ran into Sero and decided to see if he knew anything. "Hey, have you seen Denki? He seemed upset earlier and I wanted to know what was going on." Sero looked at me and sighed, "Honestly I don't know and I don't really care to ask. He just wants attention I'm sure." I almost attacked him, how could he be so uncaring about someone he called a friend.
I walked away annoyed. I just grabbed some snacks and drinks heading back to my dorm seeing him tossing and turning a bit. I put the things down and rushed to his side softly shushing him so he'd calm. Once he did I decided to do some homework while waiting for him to come too.
My attention was grabbed again when I heard him whine a bit and I looked over. Waiting he soon opened his eyes and I walked over to sit by his side. He looked over and seemed shocked, “Shinsou..?” He mumbled softly, sounding extremely tired. “Yea.. How are you feeling?” I asked with worry very evident in my voice.
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What happened… It was weird, the last thing I remember was training in the gym. I was forcing myself through the pain that I was feeling and now.. I’m in Shinsou’s room. “I’m fine.. Tired is all.” I responded to his question with a very obvious lie. Shinsou seemed to realize that I was lying since he sighed. “Why do you force yourself so far past your limits..?” I froze at the question and looked away, this seemed to only worry the purple haired bot more.
I continued my silence not wanting to tell him that I enjoy the pain it makes me feel, that’s weird. I must've started to cry without even noticing as I felt a soft hand caress my cheek and wipe the tears that fell. I looked up at him and sniffled and he gave me a sad smile. I wanted to ask for a hug but didn't want to be more of a pain then I already am to the other.
But as if his quirk was mind reading instead of brainwashing he pulled me into a gentle and caring hug. I originally wanted to push him away softly and act tough but the embrace was just so warm I couldn't help but melt into it. I felt all of my worries and pain wash away as tears began to stream down my cheeks uncontrollably. Shinsou hushed me gently and rubbed my back allowing me to cry on his shoulder.
“Talk to me Denki, please. I want to do everything in my power to help you..” He whispered to me softly and I whined, I’m scared of what he’ll think. “I.. I enjoy the pain. And I know that’s not normal and probably makes you uncomfortable but please don't leave ‘toshi..” I all but begged the other, not realizing I gave him a nickname.
“I’m not leaving, I promise.” He spoke softly with a hint of sadness in his voice. I clung to him like my life depended on it, which felt true. I looked up at him, “You won’t tell anyone right?” I asked and he seemed hesitant. “You know I need to alert M. Aizawa Denks..” He mumbled, making me whine and tear up again.
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When he began to cry again I panicked, I didn't want him to cry. I hugged him to my chest and tried to calm him but it didn't work. I need to think. “He’s my dad you know.” I stated cursing myself for telling him that when it should’ve remained a secret. But any regret left my body when he looked up at me and stopped crying, he had a curious look. “Really?” I smiled softly, “Well adoptive, but yea. I might be able to convince him to do something that would make you feel better. What do you think?” He nodded softly.
“Can we go see him tomorrow though, I’m tired.” He spoke with a yawn punctuating his sentence. I just nodded and laid him back on the bed softly, this elicited a whine. “Don't leave.. Please” He spoke with the cutest pout and I think it may be my weakness. I just laid next to him and he snuggled against me happily making me chuckle with a rare smile. Hopefully dad can help him, I don’t want him to hurt.