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Before being able to notice him for his extreme emotion and happiness, his thin and long fingers were intertwined, he felt a tingle when he saw how his fingers danced when they met, he could stay with that feeling for life.
He could feel Ryuunosuke's own heartbeat, it was out of control, he would say a thousand fucking times an hour, and he could dare to say that his was the same, or even worse.
They both had light tears forming in their eyes, supposedly of joy, that was precisely what they both wanted for a long time, that freedom, that desire to be able to caress each other and finally be together and go home like that.
Akutagawa's feet; for some reason he was making a strange but tender movement with his toes.
The aforementioned let him appreciate a fool, but such a beautiful smile on his face accompanied by his great blush on the contrary, he should take advantage of the scene, very rarely did it give him that beautiful feeling, although he felt superior to being the only one to whom it was delivered. Her face was simply a beautiful and simple poem.
"sweetie, you are beautiful."
That was, precisely this was with the image that the youngest had been dreaming for so many days, there were so many that right now he could say that this is another dream, a dream from which he never wanted to wake up.
Ryuunosuke unlaced his hands to place them on the elder's neck, they were still really weak, he trembled before the cold and the high temperatures they were in, in addition to still being in recovery. Chuuya could easily notice it.
"Hey here, it's not good for you to catch a cold now"
Again I gave him that beautiful smile that made him feel safe, that simple feeling of warmth and security, he was calm and happy that they were together again.
Ryuunosuke continued with his arms perched on the neck of the indigo blue-eyed, the aforementioned saw how the jet was slowly approaching him, believing and wishing that his next action would be to join both thin lips.
When what he really did was get close to the elder's little ear and whisper three words:
"Honey, please wake up"
again ... it didn't even surprise him when he woke up, every day, for three long years, he had that dream, which turned into a nightmare when he woke up.
"This time he said it in a sad tone"
When he opened his eyes he no longer felt anything, his body weighed, he felt that he was sweating cold, he slowly got up from his bed to go to the bathroom.
I look at his reflection carefully, his eyes; He already believed that he could not take it anymore, since the last three years, that beautiful indigo blue color in his eyes did not show.
Red, black, they were frequently dull or tired of tears. Dark circles could also be seen in the bottom of them.
The first year he did not even consider sleeping, he only spent his nights lamenting and with several bottles of the highest quality wines, nor did he feel the need to save them for a special occasion, if he was not there, there would be no more.
Akutagawa Ryuunosuke had passed away three and a half years ago.
had been a couple for several years, some of them, hidden by their reputation, the last who could live together had already made it public.
Chuuya missed him body and soul, he missed his voice, he remembers that it took him a while to convince him to call him by his partner's nicknames, it was nice to hear him calling him like that, really cute.
Throughout the three years, Nakahara had thought millions of times about committing suicide, although he did not like to feel pain, he was already feeling too much not having his loved one next to him.
But no, he couldn't, Ryuunosuke had asked him two last requests, and he himself knew that he had to fulfill them whatever they were; at least one of them.
They were simple, but it was difficult for the one with light eyes to try to accept them, but he was his partner and he loved him more than his own life.
Akutagawa recited his requests to him with the last of his strength, he simply said:
«Honey, promise me that, take it as you take it, I want you to live, to live for both of us. Nor do I allow you to show any expression of sadness on your face, remember that I do not like to see you like that, your smile is too pretty not to have it, I, in any case I will always be with you »
After that, they just smiled at each other.
Autagawa's was sadly reflected, he knew that he would not survive, and more than anything, it hurt him to say goodbye to his beloved.
On the other hand, Chuuya's seemed sincere, but he refused to believe that this was the end, he did not want everything they have lived to end like this and much less so soon, he trusted that Ryuunosuke would live, even if The aforementioned would deny it to him, he did not care, no matter how much time passed, he would look for him from that hospital one day, and they would return home together.
It was really funny and sad to be able to see how after a few weeks, that naive illusion that the redhead had made was shattered before his eyes.
It was autumn, which meant it was cold, only that day, for some strange reason, more than normal.
Chuuya believed that that would be the day when she would return home to her beloved, her smile was beautiful for believing that; however, upon arriving at the hospital, I felt that that beautiful smile would no longer be reflected ... ever again.
"I'm very sorry, but, you should have already prepared, young man."
Chuuya didn't want to hear anything, see anything, he couldn't even feel anything anymore, just as if his life had been taken from him, although that happened somehow, didn't it?
He just wanted to hear Ryuunosuke's voice one more time, allow himself to see his awkward smile once more, he wanted to feel his lips against his again, he missed his kisses, he missed every part of him.
Anyway, they both had it more than clear, people, as well as memories and feelings, are totally ephemeral things.
From that day on, she felt that she should keep the promise she had made to her beloved, although now she knew that she could not keep it, he was her life, and they had taken him away.
"really miss you, Ryuu."