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"Do you think im disgusting?"
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When they first met, Hua cheng was standing on the edge of the roof. His tie loosely hanging around his neck and his shirt untucked and untidy. His ear was filled with the many different type of earrings and his hair long and messy.
Xie lian wasn't used to someone else being on the roof.
"Hello?"
Turning around, Hua cheng cocked an eyebrow, widening his eyes in surprise as he took in the figure infront of him.
Soft pretty features, with his neatly combed hair tied into a high ponytail. His posture upright and tall, uniform ironed to perfection, with no creases to be found.
"Hello," Hua cheng greeted, "What are you doing here? Prince."
Xie lian blushed at the mention of the nickname. It was what people in school had called him. His appearance was just too prince like and he gave a strong dominating aura.
"Ahem," Xie lian cleared his throat, "I needed to escape my friends, sort of, so i came here instead."
Hua cheng nodded, "Then would gege want to accompany this lowly schoolmate?"
Smiling, Xie lian nodded. "Gege? Do i look that old?"
"Gege is so well known, of course i would know your age. Im 2 years younger than you."
"Oh, you're 16?"
"Gege is correct, so smart. As expected of him," Hua Cheng grins, a small laugh escaping as he sees the blush creeping onto Xie lians cheek.
"Whats your name?"
There was a pause. Hua Cheng was surprised Xie lian didn't know who he was, given his.. reputation.
"San lang. Gege can call me San lang."
"So San lang? Hm, i like it."
After that, they became friends, hanging out more and more every chance they got.
It wasn't until one day when Xie lian was with Mu qing and Feng xin. Listening to their arguments as they walked was a normal occurence. He didn't know why they argued or what started it but he still listened somewhat.
As the two argued. He spotted the familiar man. "San lang!" He waved, smiling. Hua cheng turned around as he heard his name got called, "Gege, hello!" He shouted back as he waved.
Satisfied, he turned back to his own friend group to realised they had become quiet. The argument was forgotten.
"What?"
Mu qing stared at him, and then at Hua cheng. "Are you both friends?"
"Yeah?"
"What the fuck? You're friends with someone like him?" Feng xin asked in disbelief, grabbing onto Xie lians shoulder as he shakes him. "Are you fucking crazy?"
"What???" Xie lian was confused. Very much confused. Did they know San lang?
"He's an asshole. And whats San lang?? His name?? His actual name is Hua cheng." Mu qing scoffed, rolling his eyes.
"He fuck girls like they're objects. He literally is a piece of fucked up shit." Feng Xin curses, before continuing, "Don't associate yourself with someone like him."
Xie lian keeps quiet. They seemed satisfied and resumed their argument.
What was Xie lian gonna do with this new information about his new friend??
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Xie lian was siting beside Hua cheng as he smoked his cigarette. Xie lian had gotten used to the smell of tobacco.
"Your name is Hua Cheng right? Why didn't you tell me? Also, how many girls have you actually slept with?" Xie lian asked, feeling somewhat disappointed.
Hua cheng eyes widened. He knew that one day he had to come clean, but not so soon??
"If i told Gege, would he still be here?" Hua Cheng asks, looking at Xie lian.
"I would. I wouldn't waste this friendship just because of that you know," Xie Lian somewhat pouts, hitting Hua Cheng at the shoulder.
"You don't think its disgusting?" Hua cheng asks, "That i fuck girls?" he smirks, inching closer to Xie lian.
"W-well, no. The idea of it is, but im not disgusted by the idea that YOU do it. You know what i mean?" Xie lian says, confused by his own words.
..
"Then, do you want to know something that is disgusting?" Hua cheng asks. Xie lian nodded, "Sure, i don't see the harm in it?"
Hua cheng laughs, but xie lian didn't. What was there to laugh about?
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
"You may wanna never associate yourself with me again."
"I told you, i won't be disgusted."
Hua cheng pauses, grabbing Xie lian by the chin. He leans in, stopping just an inch above from his lips.
"W-what are you doing??" Xie lian stammers as he closed his eyes shut, his heart beating rapidly fast.
"Does Gege know that.. this lowly schoolmate of his, is a dirty sinner?"
"Gege, i don't just sleep with women, i sleep with men too. I'm gay, did you know that? I like men." He lets go of Xie lian, staring up at the sky.
"Isn't it disgusting?" Hua cheng laughs, but his lips trembled. "Do you think im disgusting?" His voice cracks.
Hua cheng was a strong person. He doesn't cry easily, nor does he show weakness, but as of right now, his vision was blurred as tears welled up in his eyes.
"Why isn't Gege saying anything? Is Gege truly disgusted like the others?" He chuckles.
Seeing that there was no response, Hua cheng figured that Xie lian was probably thinking to leave. To expose his little secret. He's probably disgusted. Didn't He say he wouldn't be though?
Hua Cheng got up to leave. But Xie lian finally said something just when he was about to leave.
"No. I don't find it disgusting. Why would i?" Says Xie lian suddenly, walking towards Hua Cheng as he wrapped his arms around Hua Cheng. He placed his hand on Hua chengs cheeks, wiping the tears away with his thumb.
Hua Chengs breath hitches as it happens.
"Don't lie. Its pretty disgusting. I've had experience the hatred. My body wasn't just touched sexually, my body was constantly getting punished for being a sinner. For liking men." Hua Cheng sobs, leaning into the touch, feeling very vulnerable right now.
"Im disgu-"
But his words got cut off as a soft pair of lips landed on his.
"Stop. You're not disgusting, stop saying that. And, im not disgusted either. You're perfectly normal, you're fine." Xie lian's spoke with a sort of authority in his voice, but at the same time gentle.
Somewhat demanding Hua cheng to stop calling himself that.
Hua Cheng says nothing but cried as Xie lian held him.