Work Text:
I feel so stupid
Standing next to you
With my heart on my sleeve
I know I'm a burden
for what I am
So how could you ever
Adore me like I adore you
I ponder
as we stand there
Next to each other
Feeling the warmth
But with our hands
Not meant to meet
As you tell me how wonderful
a person I am
guiding me through my dark hellspace
You feel light years away
For you never mean it how
I would like you to
Our hearts are not aligned
For mine is beating
far more like a colibris
To your steady drum beat
And I would be relieved
To finally be able to
put down my love for you
Like a soldier can readily let his
Battle-worn blade go
After the combat is over
And go home
Instead it's dull
In my aching hand
Pulling me down
This heavy load
So burdensome
After so many years
Of trying to ignore
Your smile
So radiant and bright
I'm still as smitten by you
As on the first day I felt this.
Hard to explain
After all those years
of loving you
That I just want it to end
To be free and move on
But my page is written
With waterproof ink
I can never be unwritten
My love for you got tattooed
Into my brain
Forever scarred as token
Of my loyalty
Stupid
This stupid heart of mine
Can't let it go
So I am what I am
And I feel what I feel
Let's just get this over with
I love you
You see?
At least you get confirmation
Now for how I feel about you
So let me out of these chains now
And let me fly away
For good