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It was a rather cold winter afternoon, the sky was gloomy and dull along with the slight rain trickling down the roof, this did affect your already bothered mind. The cold was visible on the windows, small raindrops forming, racing back down to the ground and slowing down ever so slightly due to the frost.
You were sitting on your futon, wrapping yourself in your small blanket in an attempt to stay warm. Your room was cold, yet you didn't do anything about it. You felt like you deserved it. You weren't at ease, you were brought so far down by your very own self-doubt, you no longer had a clue what to do anymore.
You felt hopeless, worthless and all that. You couldn't give your thoughts a place, they were overwhelming, voices constantly repeating the same phrases. It was too loud. They were too loud.
You would allow them to cloud your mind, this caused you to not hear the knocks at your door, until they got more persistent.
It was your boyfriend, Thoma.
"(Y/N), sweetest? Is everything okay..? We didn't see you at lunch today, nor when I served up some tea.."
You would refuse to respond, only humming just about loud enough for Thoma to hear. You would soon hear a small thud, realising it was probably him sitting down against your door, you shuffled off your futon, to lean against your side of the door.
"Listen, I know that you've been through a lot, I shall carefully assume that's what is bothering you right now. It's all those memories isn't it..?" He received no response from you, yet he would continue talking, understanding of your current situation. "Heh - I assume you do not wish to talk back, that's perfectly fine my dear, I just need you to listen, okay?"
He never needed an audible answer, he knew just what to say. "I want you to remember that I, no matter what mental state you're in, will always be here for you." His soft tone would make you smile ever so slightly. His cheerful yet calm personality and his soothing voice always did work wonders on you.
"Life can and will have its ups and downs, sadly there is no avoiding this. All we can do is deal with it, and right now, I know that you are in need of assistance through it."
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He would continue. "These ups and downs are what defines us, it is what makes us human, and you're allowed to experience these emotions. You matter most to me, I hold you dear to my heart and wish to stick with you through times like these."
Thoma would continue to comfort you for hours on end, you never replied even once, yet it felt like you two were having a whole conversation.
"I-..." Thoma would pause the moment you muttered something under your breath, but just loud enough for him to hear. "Thoma I'm so sorry.. I just, do not know what happend.. It washed over me all of a sudden, it caught me offguard.."
"I know dearest, I know.." He carefully interrupted you. "You once again feel like you're the problem I assume, please correct me if I am wrong.."
You let out a small, approving hum to signal him to continue. You heard a relieved sigh from the other side of the door, as if he was collecting so much tension that it could break him.
"Well, I can assure you that you're not a problem, you never were the problem or any kind of burden. I still love you and I shall never even think about leaving you in such a state. You matter most to me, and I am here for you, I'm here to assist you through your troubles.. We shall conquer any issues you face together."
"Together, we are undefeatable.." He would whisper at the end.
You were tearing up, his words would always be on point. He always knew what to say and that is one reason you loved him. He cared, he never left and would always be by your side.
He wasn't just your boyfriend. He was also your best friend, your missing half, someone you could always rely on during hard times.
"If you wish to be alone for now, I shall accept and respect that. But I shall be checking up on you, I want to make sure you're alright.. You mean the world to me."
"Your happiness is mine, I do not need anything in life except that amazing smile of yours, it brings me joy to indescribably levels."
Tears were streaming down your face. You refused to only hear his voice for any longer, you simply needed to see him, to be near him, to inhale that soothing scent he always carried around. You slowly slid the door open, this surprised Thoma ever so slightly but he couldn't help but smile. He was happy you opened up to him, even if it was just a tiny bit.
The both of you stood up, and you launched yourself into your boyfriend's arms. You could stay like this for hours, and you would do just that.
You gently dragged him into your room, he carefully closed the door behind him as you let go of him. You would sit down on your futon, patting the spot next to you with your hand, letting Thoma know he could take a seat aswell, and that he did. He sat next to you with a slight thud, and you let your head rest on his broad shoulders. It was the best type of pillow to ever exist.
Thoma would grab an extra blanket, and took a hold of you. He held you close as he wrapped the both of you in said blanket. You felt all warm and fuzzy again, yet you were sleepy aswell.
The two of you never exchanged words, there was no need for it. Thoma simply knew what you needed.
As he held you close to cuddle, you felt yourself drift off, the emotions you experienced earlier having drained all your energy.
You got a well deserved break, in your boyfriend's arms.