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Toshinori knew something wasn't right the minute he poofed back into his true form, everything just felt off. Yagi Toshinori didn't feel like Yagi Toshinori, well he didn't feel like Yagi Toshinori in his All Might form either but this was different. He wasn't in his All Might form was he?
Walking over to the mirror he could very clearly see that no he wasn't in his All Might form but he still felt off and looking in the mirror just made it worse because who he was looking at in the mirror did not look like him.
'Is that really me'? Toshinori felt horrible as he thought and questioned if he was really looking at himself. 'This doesn't feel real, why is my body moving but I'm not telling it to? Why does that look like me but doesn't feel like me? Why is this happening again'?
Toshinori had experienced this a few times before, all experiencences happening just after he changed between forms and in recent years he felt like this even without changing. None of his forms felt like him, he can see that they are him but the movements he sees his body makes doesn't match the feeling, he doesn't feel like he's moving but he is.
Something that Toshinori refuses to acknowledge is that this feeling has shown up more often than not while in hero form. While it seems like it's not affecting his hero work, it's still very off putting feeling like you're not in control and watching yourself from somewhere else in the room while you apprehend villains. 'This feels disgusting' was all Toshinori could think, feeling like a spectator in his own life.
Another thing Toshinori won't acknowledge is that he can't escape this feeling when it happens, 'why won't 'it' go away!? I've tried everything! I'm All Might! I can't be weak enough that I can't get rid of whatever this feeling is! Am I really that weak'?
If you ever asked him Toshinori would swear that he's tried every method under the sun to get rid of this feeling, meditation, self help books, over the counter meds, signing up for online therapy with a fake name, hell he even got wasted a few times trying to rid himself of this bullshit.
Even after all that Toshinori tried he can't get rid of it. All he can do is carry on with his day and wait for it to fade while trying not to cry.