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“Have you ever wanted something so much you’d die just to have it once?”
“No.”
“Nothing? Really?”
“Why are you asking? Do you?”
“I want a lot of things.” *laughs* “I’m a bit greedy.”
“Tell me.”
“It’s a lot.”
“We’re talking about things you want so much you’d die to have it once, right? You have a lot of those?”
“I guess it’s really just one thing, then.”
“What is it?”
“Okay, well. It’s connected to a bunch of things. Like, I want a house in the future. Not a big house. Just something that’s mine. And I want a few dogs and stuff. Nothing big.”
“Okay.”
“I also want a nice job that’ll make me happy. Not like now. I want something that makes me feel like I’m not working. I wonder if it’s possible. To have a job like that. I mean, they say it’s not realistic.”
“I’m sure it’ll work out, Baekhyun.”
“Also. I want to move closer to the beach. But still somewhere that has four seasons. See? I’m greedy. I feel like I would get bored being in a place that’s always hot or cold. I need variety. It’s also nice because then I can go sledding but I can also go swimming, you know?”
“Mhm.”
“Okay, it’s cheesy, but I also want to cook dinner most nights. But not just for myself.”
“You’re kind of a hopeless cook.”
“Hey!”
“Fine, not hopeless. If I teach you, you’ll be fine.”
“Would you?”
“Yeah, if you really want. If it’s really something you’d die to have once.”
“It’s not. I mean, none of these are. These are just connected to the one thing.”
“Continue, then.”
“No, it’s fine. There’s more, but those are the main things, I guess.”
“Honestly, it just sounds like you want to be happy.”
“Yeah. Kind of.”
“You’re being very vague.”
“You really don’t have anything? Nothing that you want?”
“I do want things. But none that I would die for.”
“Oh.”
“I’d live for them, I think.”
“It’s you.”
“What?”
“You. The thing I want. Ugh. It sounds so cheesy to say it like that. That’s not how I meant for this to go. Just forget I said anything. I didn’t say anything. You didn’t hear anything.”
“I- what are you saying?”
“You know what? Fuck it. Yeah. I’m being all cryptic and whatever because I’m a coward and I want to talk in poetics, but no, really this was me trying to figure out how to say that I’ve been thinking about you a lot. Us, really. Like, us that doesn’t exist. We’re friends, right? I can say this, right? You’ll forget this later and move on and pretend I didn’t say anything, right?”
“I don’t even know what’s going on right now.”
“I love you. There. I said it. Anyway, that’s not important. I mean, it is important. To me. But it doesn’t have to be to you. This is going horribly wrong. Oh my god, why did I do this? I told Jongdae I would fuck this up. Please forget this entire thing happened. I’m an idiot.”
“You love me?”
“Don’t say it again.”
“Baekhyun.”
“No, don’t say my name. I’m going to die.”
“Look at me.”
“No.”
“You’re all red.”
“Stop laughing at me, you asshole.”
“So your point, the whole point of this entire conversation, was so you could tell me that you love me.”
“Actually, it was to say that you’re the thing I want so bad that I’d die to experience having you once, but that sounds less embarrassing, so let’s go with that.”
“You don’t have to die to experience it.”
“What do you-” *pause* “… Wow.”
*laughs* “Wow.”
“Wow. You, uh. Okay. Did you plan this? This feels staged.”
“It’s not staged.”
“Have you ever kissed someone before? Because it feels like you’ve kissed someone before.”
“I’ve never kissed anyone before.”
“You’re pretty good at it.”
“You, too.”
“Um… so… does this mean…?”
“Yeah, it does. I’ve been thinking about you, too. And us.”
“So something you’d live for…”
“Oh, I wasn’t talking about you.”
“You’re so mean.”
“I’m kidding. I was. But I wasn’t going to tell you. So thanks for doing it for me.”
“Yeah. Uh…”
“Yes?”
“Can I kiss you again?”
“Yes.”