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Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.
Changkyun press the passcode for the dorm. He expects to be greeted by emptiness but he saw a big shadow of a person sitting and trying to hide inside a blanket, and that is one and only Yoo Kihyun, his boyfriend.
“Kihyun-hyung?” A head poked out from the blanket with fond eyes looking directly at him. “Are you waiting for me?” Kihyun just nodded.
“Why? Did I say that I will be very late? Why don’t you sleep yet? I know you’re tired, hyung. You had a photoshoot then directly host midnight idol with me. Also, I gave you our good night kisses, right?” Changkyun rambles.
Changkyun tried to remember what he did before the driver of their van dropped him to a jjampong restaurant to meet his old friend. He remembered clearly that he already kissed Kihyun on the forehead, both cheekies, and even boop his nose. Usually all of that is enough to give Kihyun a good sleep.
“M-hm,” finally Kihyun answers, and shrugs.
“Let’s go to bed, hyung?” they enter Kihyun’s room and when Kihyun is laying on the bed and tucked, Changkyun gets up and ready to leave the room.
“Where are you going, Kyunnie, baby?” Kihyun starts to panic, why Changkyun wanted to leave so quickly?
“Bathroom. I haven’t changed into my pajamas, don’t you see?” Changkyun teases, already thinking that his boyfriend is in a gloomy mood, so he hoped to make him laugh a little.
“Oh.” Kihyun pouted. “Okay. Be quick and let’s cuddle to sleep,” Kihyun turned his back to Changkyun.
Oh? He wanna be the little spoon? This is very unusual…
Quickly Changkyun take a shower and readying himself to sleep. When he entered the room, Kihyun is still in the same position since Changkyun left.
“Hi baby,” Changkyun hugs Kihyun from behind and Kihyun moved closer to the wall so Changkyun had enough room to be comfortable.
“The dorm is so empty. Where is Minhyuk-hyung?” Changkyun tries to start a conversation to make whatever bothers Kihyun be forgotten. He knows really well that Kihyun mind is thinking really hard about something. Changkyun never push Kihyun to tell him everything as soon as possible, even though they already dated for a while. He knows that when Kihyun is ready, he’ll share the thought with Changkyun.
“He goes to the snoring dorm,” Kihyun mumbles, “Joohoney is afraid to be left alone.”
Before Changkyun can ask, Kihyun continues.
“Hyungwon want to spend the night with Wonho. They haven’t seen each other much recently,” Kihyun yawns and put his hand on top of the younger’s. “Let’s sleep, Kyunnie…” With one last kiss on the elder’s head, both of them lulled to sleep.
***
It’s not a secret that Changkyun is a light sleeper. Sometimes he woke up by the sound of his hyungs step in front of his room. But right now, he hears small whimpers beside him. His boyfriend looks so distressed in his sleep. And…. is that tears?
“Kihyun-hyung? Kihyunie-hyung? Baby? It’s okay, I’m right here, you’re okay…” Changkyun tries his best to calm Kihyun. He whispers, softly pats the head, and runs a hand over the latter’s back, hoping to sooth the stress away. Now that he looks closely, Kihyun’s frowning in his sleep, both of his eyes wet by tears. He never saw the elder like this.
“What are you thinking, baby…” Changkyun mumbled to Kihyun’s hair. He kissed Kihyun softly, on the forehead. It helps. Kihyun is not frowning anymore.
“Changkyun?” the elder speaks, voice hoarse because of sleep and evidently crying.
“Yes baby, I’m right here.” He envelopes Kihyun into a hug. Kihyun just clings, grabs into Changkyun’s pajamas and grips. Hard.
“I’m sorry I wake you up,”
“It’s okay, hyung. The sun will rise in any minute. Come on, let me make you some tea.”
Both of them got up from the bed still in hugging position. Changkyun caress Kihyun’s back for some more minutes and then slowly guide him to the living room. It bugs him a lot why is Kihyun acting like this. It is very unusual. Their morning usually start by Kihyun waking up first, already make a breakfast or a cup of coffee. But here they are in the living room with two mugs of warm tea and a problem to solve.
“Do you want to talk about it?” carefully, the younger asked. Kihyun just stares at his steaming mug.
“It’s… actually nothing.”
Changkyun put his tea on the table, gesturing to Kihyun to do the same. Kihyun complied, and a little surprised by the younger reach out to hold his hands.
“You know you can tell me anything, right?” Kihyun shrugged, and answer, “Yeah. I know I can. But it feels like unimportant thing,”
“Nothing unimportant when it comes to you,” usually Kihyun will smile and comment on how cheesy Changkyun was, but nothing. Okay, this is serious. Kihyun takes a deep breath.
“How long that we’ve been dating?”
“What?” Changkyun is taken aback by the question. “Almost 8 months, why…?”
“You know I love you, right?” the younger frowns, but nodded. “Do you love me?”
“Of course I love you, hyung. I will never ask you out if I don’t. You know I never lie about feelings,” Kihyun squeezed his hands.
“I know, Kyunnie. I’m not doubting you. I was just,” he paused, “don’t know if I’m showing my love to you enough.”
“What makes you think that? I feel a lot of your love, baby,” Kihyun lift up his gaze, look straight into Changkyun’s eyes.
“Actually… whenever you go out or working on your studio at night… when I didn’t have any schedules or not tired enough to sleep, I’ve been lurking,” he hesitated. Changkyun thumbs softly on the elder’s hand. “I opened twitter and look at our tags.” Kihyun flashes a tiny smile.
“I see a lot of our fanarts, you know? A wide range of arts, from cute to filth. Also, a lot of pictures of you staring at me with lots of love. That’s what they said…” he smiles, but soon dropped it off. “But I never see any pictures of me carrying the same amount of love while looking at you. I’m so sorry, baby,” eyes started to brim with tears, Kihyun retracts his hand from the younger’s to wipe it. Changkyun’s frown deepened.
“Hey, hyung, it is okay really. You give me lots of love behind the cameras. I feel it, and that’s what the only thing matters, I don’t need other people to realize it… you’ve been taking care of me even before we dated, and I know you know that,” Kihyun sniffs.
“It still gets to me, Kyun. Other people can’t see that I love you and it bothers me so, so much. I’ve read tons of fanfics of us and a lot of them didn’t have happy endings…” his eyes saucered. “Oh.” Kihyun’s face reddened, and he continues, “yeah. I read fics about us too… but it is so different from other pairings, you know? The fans always said that Hyungwon and Wonho is the perfect couple from the start, and it’s going crazier since from zero. It reflects on their fics too,” Silence. Two minutes, and Changkyun told him to continue. “They always have a happy ending, you know? I mean – I haven’t read all, but at least the one I read had it. When Wonho hyung is still the part of the group they are not afraid to show the world that they love each other. Same thing goes to Minhyuk and Jooheon. They always together like a glue. They hugged, kissed – even in front of the cameras! I always seen comments like, I wanna have what they have or something like that. Never once I see comments about us like that. And it makes me, sad?”
It’s very rare to see his boyfriend let the burden out to him, so Changkyun just listens while holding his lover hands.
“It’s understandable though, hyung,” Changkyun finally talks, “they have been in a relationship longer than we do, so their love is more apparent to the fans,”
“But it’s not okay Kyun, at least for me. Most of them just see us like a mere mother and son relationship. Or brotherly love,” the older sighed. “Even the fics about us are mostly unrequited love and a one night stand. I hate it.”
Changkyun knows very well that Kihyun is not the type of person that shows PDA much. When he confessed 8 months ago, after pining for years, he knew that he will not often held hands or sit beside his boyfriend at interviews. That situation never bothers him, nor lessen his love for the older.
“As I said before, hyung, what matter is the fact and our truest feelings for each other. The fics that fans written are just fantasies. But this,” the younger placed Kihyun’s hand on his chest, right above his heart. Kihyun can feel Changkyun’s heartbeat, and it’s similar to him. Their heart beats in tandem. “are not. Believe me. This is beating just for you,” he continues, “even if you changed your mind later, I won’t –“ Changkyun can’t finish what he’s saying because now his mouth is covered, by his boyfriend’s lips. Kihyun kissed him, no tongues involved, but Changkyun can feel the love and sincerity from the older.
“Don’t ever finish that sentence, Im Changkyun. I will never changed my mind,” he bumps their forehead together just like in All In music video. A hand comes to caress Changkyun’s nape.
“Sorry I’m being an emotional mess,” Kihyun said.
“No need to feel sorry, baby. I’m glad that you can share what’s bothering you to me. It means we trust each other, and it’s important to a couple.” The younger pecks his lips. He suddenly parts himself from Kihyun, and make himself comfortable on the couch.
“Now, why don’t we search our happy ending fic to read, together? I can read it out loud, in details,” Changkyun’s wiggling his eyebrows. Kihyun’s ear reddened.
“Don’t,” punch. “tease,” pinch. “me!” The couple giggled while Kihyun still throwing little punches on the younger torso. In moments like this, Changkyun felt very loved. And he loves to see the smiles forming on Kihyun’s lips, that caused by him. An overwhelming feels. So he stopped giggling, stared at Kihyun’s face, until the older stopped giggling too. Kihyun tilts his head.
“I love you,” Changkyun said. He then kissed Kihyun, hard. To show the latter that he loved him so much, more than words. They kiss and kiss, until they’re out of breath because their heartbeats quicken. Kihyun open his mouth to let the younger tongue wanders inside. Little moans can be heard, and the kiss soon is being more heated.
“DON’T DO FILTH ON MY LIVING ROOM!”
The couple keeps kissing, only lips touching now, ignoring Minhyuk that now being their audience. A few minutes later, they parts. “I love you too, Changkyun.”
“You stained my baby’s innocence you dumbos! You have two free rooms right there, why you choose living room!?!?” Minhyuk screams while holding his hands in front of Jooheon eyes so the younger can’t see what happening in front of him.
“Relax, hyung, we’re doing nothing but kiss. You and Jooheon have done worse in front of us!”
“Nuh-uh, no reasoning with me Im Changkyun. Go to Kihyun rooms to moans freely! I’m just stopping by to take some food here. The other dorm has no food. I guess the universe hate me to witness all of that,” said Minhyuk dramatically, “and why don’t you stop when you hear someone’s enter the password?”
“Uh, hyung, can I open my eyes now?” Jooheon asks. Kihyun laughed and answered, “Yes, Honey, you can. Me and Changkyun are just innocently kissing, Minhyuk is just being dramatic as always. And, no, Minhyuk, we didn’t hear the beeps, sorry not sorry,” he got up from the couch. “Changkyun, let’s go to my room,” Kihyun winked. Minhyuk rolled his eyes but feel happy because it’s apparent that his bestfriend is in a good mood, not like before. Changkyun blushed, follows the older to his room. Inside, they write a fic for themselves, beyond any other people’s imagination.