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"fuck," I muttered walking into the hospital room, Jonathan was laying on the bed, IV's in both arms and electrodes around his hair line. there were scratches all over his face and his eyes were closed.

at the end of his bed was a bag of slightly brown urin from the catheter, and there was a small amount of blood around his stomach on his hospital gown.  the sight was truly awful, I wanted to cry. the most fun, amazing, huggable, kind, loving, hilarious person I had ever met was laying in a hospital bed covered in a bunch of medical shit. I think this was the worst day of my life.

I walked over to the side of his bed and sat down, being careful of the IV's while taking his hand as gently as I could. I couldn't believe this had happened, only an hour earlier Jonathan and I were laughing over facetime. 

Lea Michele came in behind me, "oh my god Jonathan," she muttered.  it was an odd situation, Lea had gotten a from the hospital her saying Jonathan had been in a car accident, so she called me and told me she was coming to pick me up so we could go see Jonathan together, I guess Jonathan had given her my number, becuase I don't ever remember giving it to her and it came up as an unknown caller when she called.

"excuse me, are you the family of Mr. Groff? I'm the Neurl Surgon, Dr. Jeffery Stevens" a Doctor asked entering the room, I looked at Lea and nodded in a 'you tell him' way since I was shit at talking to doctors, hell I hadn't seen a doctor since I was 11 and faked  a spinal injury to get out of summer camp (A/N: true story btw), yes I felt like shit about it know,  "I'm his best friend Lea and this is his other best friend Lin-Manuel,  Jonathan's family doesn't speak to him anymore," Lea explained.

that was a watered down version of it, when Jonathan came out as gay at 16, his parents kicked him out, he spent many years on the streets before starting on Spring Awakening where he met Lea, she let Jonathan live with her until he got back on his feet and he got his own apartment. A few months after that he met me when I made the "Im Lin Miranda" video and we've been friends ever since.

"well, I guess you two should be the first to know," Dr. Stevens said, Lea and I looked at each other and then at Jonathan before returning our attation back to Dr. Stevens.

"Mr. Groff has a T-9 spinal cord injury from a piece of  of metal going through his Liver. the Liver bleeds a lot so when we did the surgery to close the wound, we found the spinal cord injury. We won't know how much sensation he has until he wakes up but since it is a complete injury we know that he won't walk again,"

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"Lin-Manual Miranda: Hey People, it's Lin. I got some terrible news. I really don't know how to tell you all this, but our dear friend Jonathan Groff was in a car accident yesterday, I and @Leamichele stayed the night with him in the hospital and he seems to be getting better... But the terrible news is that Jonathan isn't going to walk again😭😭😭. I can't believe it, I'm in so much pain right no, but I know we'll get through this, Jonathan is strong and he's got all the help in the world. please DM me videos of you giving all your love to Groff, Im sure he'll love to see them when he wakes up - LMM" I never thought I would ever have send a tweet like that out.

Lea had to leave at around 6:30 because her husband had to go to work and there was no one to watch her son, so it was just me waiting for my beloved Gremlin to wake up. And yes I call Jonathan my beloved Gremlin cause why not. 

I just wanted to see those beatiful blue eyes again. I missed my groffy.I loved Jonathan, but he had only just gotten dumped by his Fiance, Zachary, the week before so I just decided to keep my feelings to myself for a while. But it was hard knowing that I almost lost the one person who makes me happiest in life. Hell, the one person who makes my fucking dog happy.

I still held Jonathan's hand when he started stiring a bit, "Jon, Im here," I said moving from the chair beside his bed to the edge of his bed. "L-L-Lin?" Jonathan rasped, his voice dry from not being used. "It's me Gremlin," I smiled almost crying. "How do you feel Rey," I asked, yeah, I have a lot of nicknames for Jonathan. "Fucking cold," he muttered.

I nearly burst into tears, fuck, he couldn't feel the blanket over his legs. I smiled the best I could and pulled the blanket up to his chin. "Better?" I asked gently Jonathan just nodded. He wasn't all there because of all the drugs but at least he wasn't dead or something. I was scared of when the pain meds wore off and then he'd be in serious pain

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"Ahh! Ahh! Fuck!" Jonathan yelp, "what's happening Jgro?" I asked. "My... Back is ki-iling me," i groaned in pain. I pressed the nurse call button and Jonathan's nurse, Edith, came rushing in and hitting the dose up botton on his not so loopy pain ones. "Is that better Mr. Groff?" Edith asked Jonathan just nodded before she walked out, Jonathan looked at me like 'I need cuddles now, please save me' and of course, I was happy to provide them.

Carefully I sat on the edge of Jonathan's bed and even more carefully layer down next to him. My arms wrapped around around his waist. at that moment I was glad me and Jonathan had the type of friendship where we were definatly more affectionate then most best friends. but hey, it's 2016, Lea and Jonathan have slept in the same bed before. "L-Lin," Jonathan said looking at me with pure shock in his eyes, "I-I can't feel your hand on my waist," he added looking like he would pass out from shock.

Dr. Stevens said that it's best if a close friend or family tell Jonathan about his injury, and since Lea wouldn't be stopping by until the next day, that ment I had to tell him. it as going to be hard as hell though, "Jonathan, I-I really, I really don't want to tell you this, but uh.. the doctor said you're nver going to walk again," I said trying my best to keep it together without bursting into tears. I watched as Jonathan tried to hold it together, I held him tighter, but he finally let the flood gates down and hot tears started to flow down his face, I made quick work of wiping them away.

"I'm so so so sorry JD," I said. I couldn't think of anything else to do but hold him tightly, but around his shoulders this time. "my career is over," he sobbed into my chest. "no, no it's not Jay, I promise, I'll do whatever it takes for your career to continue, I promise," I said. and that was one promise I was planning on keeping.

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(A/N: there is a video out there of Lin telling how he faked a spinal cord injury to get out of summer camp, I suggest watching because it's fucking hilarious)

Lea and I were both at the hospital that day, it was about five days after the accident and they were going to be giving Jonathan a shower (not gonna lie he needed one BAD) and they wanted Lea and I to help because I guess they had it in there heads that Jonathan was going to be depenent on one of us forever. which knowing Jonathan, as they fiesty Queen Bitch he is, he would not be ok with that at all. like I wouldn't either but I was actually kinda scared of what Jonathan might do (i.e throw a bottle of shampoo at someone because he would actually do that).  but also, everyone know that I have a horrible habbit of making jokes about everything.

"Jay, Promise not to murder anyone, I don't mean to be rude but you stink," I said, Lea chuckled slightly at my joke but Jonathan gave me a death glare "fuck you" he muttered, just making Lea and I laugh even harder, like holding our sides laughing histarically and almost peeing our pants. carefully two nurses, Edith and Josephine, got Jonathan into a wheelchair, I went over and took his hand kissed his cheek comfortingly.

I could tell that Jonathan was still having a hard time coming to terms with it, like he kept running his hands over his legs and the way whenever I would forget and put my hand on his theigh, he would sort of tear up a little like he was still thinking that his career was over. "ready to have a shower, Jay?" I asked softly, he just nodded, I was kind of thankful that Lea wasn't saying much, personally I needed just to have time with Jonathan.

then Lea wheeled him into the shower-stall thingy and then I started the shower. "you ready, Dad?" Lea asked, from her spot behind him. "yeah, I am mom," he sighed. I had a feeling this was going to be quit an experiance.

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(A/N: I thought this picture of Groffsauce might make you guys feel better after reading the shit storm that it the first 4 chapters)

Lea and I totally went against what the nurses told us, we just let Jonathan have his shower (we turned around) and didn't really help other then to ocasionally make sure he was ok. but we only did that about twice since if we kept hearing an ocasional mutter of "fucking hell" under Jonathan's breath. we knew he was alright. I also, I know this sounds bad, but I also turned a little just to see Jonathans well formed body

"thanks for coming Lea, bring Ever some time," Jonathan said while Lea was getting ready to go pick up her son from her moms (I could walk Home). "I sure will Jonathan, now make sure you sleep enough and eat enough, I'll be checking with Lin to make sure you are ok?" Lea said in a jokingly motherly tone, "yes, Ok, mom," Jonathan said, rolling his eyes at the way Lea said. I just laughed hysterically.

Jonathan had a look on his face of someone who had been thinking for a long fucking time "Lin, I have something  to tell you," Jonathan said looking petrified to death, I got nervous, but beeing the amazingly terrible actor I am kept my emotions in check to hear Jonathan out, what he had to say might not be that horrible, but I had no way to know that, all I knew that Jonathan needed to tell me something, still he could have told me that he was dying or something.

"you can tell me anything Rey" I said taking his hand, a tear started to flow down his cheeks, "I love you as more then a friend Lin, like I LOVE you," Jonathan said, tears flowing down his eyes, I knew exactly what he meant. carefully I sat down on the edge of the hospital bed and placed my hand behind his head before leaning in, our lips met, fireworks were going off in the background  as violins played, Jonathan's lips were soft and warm.

"god I love you," I muttered when we seperated, Jonathan had the look of pure shock, yet he looked the happiest I've ever seen him, "I-I love you to Lin," he whispered. "Jonathan Drew Groff, will you do the honour of being my boyfriend?" I asked, a tear ran down his cheek, "of course I will Lin-Manuel Miranda," he said putting his head in the crook of my neck.

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it had been the hardest ten weeks of my life, I hated seeing Jonathan in pain, and he was in so much pain while in rehab, I would show up with donuts and coffee after his physical therapy and he would just cry and cry and cry. it broke my heart to see my baby so upset.

but now here I was, making sure everything was perfect at the new house I had gotten for Jonathan and I in the Washington Heights area of Manhatten while waiting for the time to go pick up Jonathan. he had insisted that I just renovate his apartment but honestly I wouldn't be able to sleep without knowing he was alright. "Lin you go, we'll finish up here," Daveed said, yeah, the whole hamilcast might have shown up to help with some of the last minute stuff like cleaning and stuff, which I will forever be greatful for.

"thanks I don't know what time we'll be back, I'm going to be taking him out for lunch afterwards so.. just don't be here when I get back," I explained before running out the door. I felt like I was running late even though I was leaving 20 minutes before I should, but I'm always running late so I always felt like I was running late.

I pulled up outside the rehab hospital, I took a deep breath, that was the day my life would change forever, the day I would finally have the love of my life in my arms in our first home together. I got out, got Jonathan's new wheelchair from the back of my car and then started to walk in, when I got to Jonathan's room I saw him filling out the discharge paperwork, already dressed in the outfit I had brought the day before.

"hey, ready to go JD?" I asked wheeling the wheelchair to the side of his bed so he could transfer. "yeah, get me out of this dump," he said I chuckled a little, "ok bebé," I said wheeling him out of the room for the last time. "I love you," he said turning to smile at me, "yo también te amo," I said smiling back at the cutest person in the world, Jonathan Drew Groff(-Miranda?)

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(A/N: funny story, I found out that my grandma had a still born Aunt who was never named, so me and my Godmother decided to name the baby since everyone deserves a name, we named her Stella)

I don't think I had ever seen Jonathan so peaceful, just laying in our new bed, wrapped in my arms, he looked like he hadn't slept this well in years. really if you were to look at him, you wouldn't be able to tell, with how peacefully he slept, gently pressed against me. I didn't want to wake him, but I, as his boyfriend, needed to make sure he ate since he slept for 17 hours. like I get sleep is amazing but I don't think it's healthy to go that long without food. and also, the cast of Hamilton was stopping by today.

so carefully I shook Jonathan, "Jay, amor, it's time for break fast," I said praying that he wouldn't accidently punch me like he did that one time when we stayed the night in the theater. "mhm, let me sleep," he said, his voice thick with sleep, "sorry, love, but the gang is stopping by today and we need to be ready" I said, softly. "fine," he groaned transfering from the bed into the wheelchair that we named Mary-Juana (yes we are that weird, but it's funny).

we went into the living room and turned on the TV to Pocahontas then I went into the kitchen and made eggs with bacon. "babe! do you want ketchup with your eggs?" I asked Jonathan in the living room. "yeah! thanks!" he yelled back sounding like he was in a transe with the movie. which is what happens every time we have any Disney movie on, especially Cinderella.

I came back into the living room a few minutes later with are breakfast and gave Jonathan's his just as Color's of the Wind started playing. "I love you," he said kissing my cheek, "love you too," I smiled kissing him gently

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"Mi Amor, I'm Home!" I called coming through the door of Jonathan and I's house, I was wearing my glasses because I knew he it would be easier to convince Jonathan with them on, "hey how was the show?" Jonathan asked wheeling into the foyer, I smiled a little and kissed him, "I came to pick you up for the first show with the new and improved King George," I smiled, Jonathan just gave me a confused look, "I might have rewrote your parts so you could still be in the play," I explained plopping down in his lap.

the look on his face was one of pure happiness, "y-you did-didn't," he stuttered in shock, I just nodded, "I fucking love you," he said smashing our lips together. not breaking the kiss I stood from Jonathan's lips and picked him up, "I love you to," I said carring him out to the car, I set him in the passenger side of the car before running back into the house to get Mary-Juana (his wheelchair) and coming back out, putting it in the back seat.

"I can't believe you did this," Jonathan said, taking my hand when I got into the drivers seat, "well believe it astuto, because I spent a month rewriting it," I smiled at him. I still couldn't believe that this angel was mine. it felt like it was yesterday I was crying myself to sleep, wishing that Jonathan would love me back, and now, here we were, Jonathan holding my hand as I drove us to the theater.

"ya know, I was thinking that maybe we should think about getting you a car off your own, you know one that you can drive," I suggested glancing off the road for a second to look at Jonathan, and then quickly returned my gaze to road. "maybe, I don't know though," Jonathan said.

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I almost cried watching Jonathan do King George again, it was like he never left. I got a quick kiss in before I had to run back on stage. "you did great," I whispered into his ear before I had to run stage to do 'A Winters Ball'. Jonathan did an absoultly an amazing job, I was so so proud of him. Jonathan had gone through so much in such a short amount of time, and yet he still pulled through to do this show.

the intermission couldn't hae come fast enough. once it came, I ran off stage and into the dressing room that Jonathan and I shared to see him on my computer, "hey JD," I said sitting down next to Jonathan "checking your email for you, you got one from the Tonight Show, they want you to come on next week on Friday," Jonathan said, well crap, I knew I would have to go on, but I as kind of avoiding interviews, mainley because me and Jonathan were keeping a lot of things about his injury out of the public view, just for privecy sake.

"do you want to come?" I asked, hoping he woul cause I don't think I would be able to do this alone. presides, it's about time people saw Jonathan's gorgeous face. "do you want me to come?" he asked I kissed him, "yes, that would be amazing, and I hate leaving you alone," I said, "I hate being alone," he sighed. I moved from my spot on the couch to sit in his lap.

later that night after the show, we got home and just went to bed, don't get me wrong, I love Hamilton, but damn it's exhuasting. Jonathan looked extra tired since he hadn't been doing it for so long, "do you want to take a bath or just lay here?" I asked coming into the room with hot chocolate, "just lay here," he said lazily taking a sip of his hot chocolate. I just smiled and turned onthe TV, today was a good day

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here I was, sitting in the dressing room at The Tonight Show, Jonathan next to me , "your going to be great love," he said glancing up from his Agatha Christie novel. "I know," I sighed just as my name was being called, another wave of nervousness went through me as I gave him one last kiss as I excited the dressing room and went on stage, only looking back once to see Jonathan watching from back stage, well he was just kind of sitting off to the side reading his book.

"it's good to see your still alive Lin, may I ask how Jonathan is doing?" Jimmy Fallon asked when I sat down, "he's doing really well, he still has a lot of doctors appointments because of bleeding on his Liver, but that's not horrible. we have moved in together, and just last week he reprised his role of King George,"I explained "and we're offically dating," I added, everyone started clapping, a few women cried, some fainted, I saw Jonathan blushing like crazy back stage. I couldn't believe that amount of support we had gotten, I couldn't wait to see the twitter comunity.

"so how long have you two been together?" Jimmy asked, "four months on Wednesday, the best four months of my life," I responded, I could tell the tough questions were coming up.  "so do you mind telling about when you found out about the accident? and finding out about how seriousley Jonathan was injured?" Jimmy asked, "Jonathan was on his way to my house, his Fiance had just left him so we were going to have a sleep over at my house," I paused, I whiped some tears away, I always had a hard time tell this part of the story.

Jimmy handed me a tissue, "I got a call from Lea Michele saying that Jonathan was in a car accident and that she was coming to get me, she came a few minutes later and we went to the hospital, I swear I've neer seen anything worst, Jonathan was laying there covered in medical shit... Lea and I were holding his hands, I was saying a thousand prayers, then we were told he would never walked again" I said, looking backstage to see Jonathan's gorgeous smile.

"so how was Jonathan told about being paralyzed?" Jimmy asked, "I told him, we were cuddling and I placed my hand around his waist right where he can't feel anything, he had tears in his eyes, I was crying I just told him that he's not going going to walk again, then I promised to make sure his career would continue, and as a lot of people know by now, I was able to go through with that promise last week." I sighed

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I was terrified. my parents were coming over for lunch, they didn't watch TV that much and they don't have social media, so they didn't know that Jonathan and I were dating because I wanted to tell them inperson. I also swore my sister, Luz, to secrecy. All they knew is that I and a friend moved in together because the friend, Jonathan, had a accident and needed a little help here and there.

"When will will your parents be here?" Jonathan asked wheeling into the kitchen were I moving the take out from the take out containers to actually plates (don't judge me, nobody ever taught me how to cook), "in about an hour, but knowing my parents that means they'll be here in an hour and a ha-" I stopped mid sentence when I saw Jonathan staring at his phone screen in shock

"Miel? What's wrong?" I asked concerned he just showed me his phone screen. Someone was calling him, and the caller ID said 'Mother who never calls' I was in shock, from what Jonathan told me his parents hated him. "What are you going to do?" I asked. I think he was in too much shock because he just handed me his phone, so I did the only logical thing, I answered it and put it on speaker phone so Jonathan could hear what was being said.

"Hello, Jonathan isn't able to pick up right now, can I take a message," I asked "who is this?" An women I'd say from the voice would be around 60, "this is Lin, Jonathan's boyfriend, and bodyguard,"  I said. "can you just put Jonathan on, this is Julie his mother," she said. "One minute... JD, do you want to talk to your mother?" I asked putting his phone on my chest so she couldn't here our side conversation. "No, I can't," he said looking up at me with eyes full of pain.

"Sorry Mrs. Groff, Jonathan told me the story of how you trated him when he came out and I can't let you talk to him," I said into Jonathan's phone. "Please, I regret telling him all those thibgs, its-its I just filed for divorce from his father and I want to talk to him again, please," Julie said. I looked at Jonathan, tears were running down his cheeks, 'explaine what happened, she doesn't watch the news,' Jonathan mouthed to me. i just nodded.

"Mrs Groff, I don't know if you know this, but Jonathan was in a serious car accident a few months ago, he... well... uh he's paralyzed from the belly button, so Im going with what he says and he doesn't want to talk to you, but maybe he'll call bacl," I said hanging up the phone and handing it back to him. "Your my hero,"  he said I just shrugged and went back to moving the take out to plates.

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"that must be them," I said after there was a knock on the door "do I look ok?" Jonathan asked a look of nervousness plastered on his face as he straightened his hoodie (that for the record was stolen from me), "you look great niño de miel, and promise not to run over there toe's" I said sarcastically at the end, turning as I reached the door. 'I Love You' I mouthed before quickley opening the door. "Mamá, Papá! thanks for coming!" I greeted my parents when I opened the door. "thanks for having us Lin-Manuel," my mother said giving me a hug, same with my dad.

"this is my best friend Jonathan," I said leading my parents through the foyer into the living room where Jonathan had been waiting, "It's nice to meet you Mr. and Mrs. Miranda," Jonathan said, waving awkwardly. I could sense that he was feeling awkward so I thought of a quick conversation changer, "well lunch is ready, we should go eat before it gets cold," I said guiding everyone into the dinning room.

after some light conversation about simple stuff during lunch, I quickly put all of the dishes into the dishwasher and then retook my spot at the table next to Jonathan, we were in silence for a few seconds before I decided it was time to tll them that Jonathan and I were dating, "Mamá, Papá, I have something to tell you," I said, my heart rate raising, Jonathan took my hand from under the table, "you can tell us anything Hijo," my father said, I knew they were going to be accepting, they had always had been supportive of this sort of thing, it was just scary since I actually hadnt come out to them yet.

Jonathan and I looked at each other and he nodded. I felt tears in my eyes as I raised our joined hands my face hidden in my other hand. I couldn't bare to look at them, I was just so terrified of how they would react, I guess the story of Jonathan's coming out had made me paranoid. "I knew it! Pay up Luis!" My mother said. With just that me and Jonathan busted out laughing hysterically as my dad handed her 20 bucks. "I knew you were dating, how long has it been?" My mother said. "Four months," Jonathan said. "How'd you start dating?" My father asked.

"Jonathan was still in the hospital, and I was staying with him while his other best friend Lea was watching her son whole her husband was at work, so it was just us in the room, when he just said that he loved me, and well, I kissed him, it's been love ever since," I said. "That's adorable," my mother said. "It was really sweet," Jonathan said shyly, he was still a little self conscious about it so I put my arm around his shoulders

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I carefully picked Jonathan up out of his wheelchair, his arms wrapped around my neck as I held him by his waist. I carried him over to the couch and sat down with him on my lap, I loved the amount of time we had together seeing as we had just quit Hamilton. But soon we were going to have to long distance for a while seeing as I had to go to London to film Mary Poppins and Jonathan had to go to Pittsburgh to film 'Mindhunter'.

I knew the traveling was going to be extra hard for Jonathan seeing as he's a paraplegic. So that why a few hours earlier when I had to "run arrens" I got Jonathan a car that he can drive without having to use the pedels, and also, I'm normally the one to drive Jonathan places but I won't exactly be able to do that if I'm in London. It was the coolest shit I've ever seen. I figured Jonathan could drive to Pittsburgh since its not that far. And for Christmas and other things we could just meet up here.

"I love you," he said. "I love you more Mi Amor," I sighed. "I got you something today while I was running arrens," I said "oh? Other then that snickers bar?" He asked raising an eyebrow making me laugh. "Yes, it's outside," I said placing Jonathan bacl in his wheelchair. I wheeled him outside to reveal the convertible Cadillac in our driveway, "well, do like it?" I asked getting slightly nervous when he didn't say anything. "I-I love it," Jonathan said whipping tears away from his eyes. "Good, it was a bitch to drive home," I laughed.

I wheeled Jonathan around to the Drivers side and handed him the keys, "ok, you press this button and to door will open." I said, once the divers door was open he wheeled himself on to this onto the thing that locked his wheelchair in place. He pressed the botton that closed the door and I went around and got into the passenger seat. "ok, this is the complecated part, this lever," I put my hand on the one with green tape on it (curtesy of Lea) "is the gas, and this one," I put my hand on the lever with red tape on it "is the breaks, Lea color coded them for you to make it slightly easier," I explained.

"can we go for a drive?" Jonathan asked looking over at me with the puppy-doggiested expersion I had ever seen, "sure, let me go get our wallets," I smiled kissing Jonathan's cheek before getting out.

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You'd think Jonathan would have more common sense when it comes to road safty, since the car accident. But no, here we were in his new car, me and Jonathan in the front seat, Lea, her boyfriend Zandy, Darren (Criss), my sister Luz, her Husband Miguel, and Daveed in the back, yeah 6 people in the back. And Pippa, Renee, Chris, Jassmine, and Anthony riding in the trunk, yes we had 4 people riding shot gun. It literally looked like a high schoolers car, not a 31 year olds car.

It was Jonathan and mines second to last day in New York before we had to leave for our new projects so we were going out to dinner. "Babe, are we almost there?" I asked not recognizing where we were. "Yeah, just taking a different way," Jonathan said, squeezing my hand a little tighter.

The song that was playing was "The Origin Of Love" from Hedwig and The Angry Inch, the Neil Patrick Harris version though. For some reason, we chose it to be our song since it just kind of fit our love story, when I met Jonathan at a bridge in Central Park, it didn't feel like I was getting to know him, It felt like I was remembering him from somewhere.

Soon the car stopped, I immediately recognized where we were, we were at the place of our first date after the car accident. "What are we doing here?" I asked looking in the back quick to see everyone had some sort of shit eating grin. "Mi Amor? What's going on?" I asked confused as hell. "Come on, just get out of the fucking car," Jonathan said already pressing the button to open his door I got out and opened back seat helping everyone out before helping the peeps out of the trunk.

Jonathan wheeled up to me and patted his lap, "your chariot is here," he said I sat down in his lap and we started to short walk or wheel to the bridge where we met. Everyone followed, I was laughing with Lea about something when we got to the bridge, Jonathan stopped in the middle and slightly pushed me off of his lap, I turned to face him ya know, to see if I was hurting him or something, dumb I know, the guy can't feel his legs.

"Lin, from the moment we met, I've loved you. You were the first person I thought of when I woke up from the car accident, you were there when I needed you, you let me cry, honestly I have no idea why you let me into your heart, but now that Im in, don't expect me to leave... Lin I'm not good with words like you, but Lin-Manuel Miranda will you do me the honors of being my Husband?" He asked opening the ring box that Darren handed him. "Yes, yes oh my god yes!" I said Almost jumping, Jonathan slipped the ring on my figure . i didn't even realize I was crying until I lent down to kiss him and he whipped my tears away.

My parents showed up out of nowhere, everyone was cheering but I couldn't hear them. all I was focused on was my beautiful Fiance the soon to be Jonathan Drew Miranda (he told me once that if we got married he would take my ladt name but keep his as his stage name) "i love you," I whispered to Jonathan "I love you to Linnybear," he smiled

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"My High School ring will have to do until I can get around to getting wedding band in London," Lin said slipping the ring onto my fingure, "you don't need to give me a ring," I said, placing my hand on my cheek, "I know, but I want to," he said. I almost cried, I don't even know why. I think it was just how selfless Lin is, I still couldn't believe our last week together was almost over.

his agent arranged for him to fly to London from Pittsburgh so that way he could drive me to the apartment my manager had rented for me while I was staying in Pittsburgh. even though Lin hates driving my car, he insisted on driving which is like the sweetest thing to me for some reason. thankfully, the way my car was modified made it easy for the passenger seat to be pushed all the way back so I could be in the passenger side.

I couldn't have asked for a better Fiance... Fiance. I liked the sound of that. "babe, you ok?" Lin asked breaking me out of my thoughts, "yeah, I was just thinking about how amazing it is that we're engaged," I smiled, "yeah, I honestly always thought I would be the one to propose, but you did it better then I ever could," Lin smiled. I didn't realize I was tearing up until Lin whiped them away. "are you sure you're ok?" he said.

"I remember driving this road when I was 16, on my away to New York after my 'family' kicked me out," I sighed. feeling a little bit of weight come off my shoulders, "damn, babe, do you want me to take a detour or soemthing?" he asked sounding like he might explode from the amount of emotions running through his body, "no, I'm fine, just feeling sorry for myself," I said laughing at my own lame joke and for some reason Lin laughed along, I guess that's in the fiance contract.

"we're going to be driving through my home town, do you mind if we stop somewhere?" I asked starting to recognize the houses of my dads meninite friends that we use to drive hours to go see. "sure, want to switch drivers?" he asked, I just nodded, I didn't even need the GPS, I knew exactly where to go

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"Hi Mom," I said nervously, looking into the office I remember so well from my childhood. "Jonathan? Oh my god Jonathan! It's been to long!" My mother said running over to give me a hug, "yeah it has," I said, wanting nothing more then to tell her how much pain she had caused me over the years. Fuck, she hadn't so much as text me in 15 years.

"Mom, this is my Fiance Lin, Lin this is my mom Juliette," I added. "It's nice to meet you ma'am," Lin said politely shaking her hand, "oh please call me Julie," Mom siad. "So what brings you to this part of the country Jonathan?" Mom asked. "Well, Im filming a show in Pittsburgh, so I thought we'd stop by ob our way through," I said. There was an awkward silence for a few minutes. Damn I hate this, I couldn't help but let my mind wander to how much I fucking hate my "mother", I don't even know why I came. I was never going to speak to here again after this.

"I don't mean to pry. But can you tell me how you ended up paralyzed?" Mom asked. "Lin you tell her, your better at telling the story,"  I said giving Lin the 'pretty please I don't like telling this story' look. Sighing Lin said down in the chair beside me. I don't really hate telling the story, I just like to hear Lin tell it, his voice is perfect for this type of story... At least he doesn't freestyle rap it.

"Ok, so Jonathan's Fiance, Zachary, had just called off the wedding. Jonathan was really really distraught, so we decided that he would spend the night at my place, ya know to kind of have a sleepover, well, he didn't show up... At around 7:30 or so that night I got a call from Jonathan's best friend Lea, saying that Jonathan got into a car accident. I was in total panic so Lea came and picked me up, and we went to the hospital. when we got there Jonathan had just gotten out of surgery and he was really, really pale. I held his hand for the longest time before the doctor came and told us, Me an Lea, that Jonathan was a T-9 paralegic," Lin said.

Julie's reaction disgusted me, the tears she shed had to have been fake, I got my acting talent from her, I knew when she was acting, and she was most definatly acting.

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it was around midnight by the time we got to the apartment in Pittsburgh, it was all my moms fault because she insistead on taking us out for dinner, I tried to decline but the bitch insisted, so I had to suffer through another hour of talking to the woman who was one of the people who made me, there SIXTEEN year old son, homeless for 7 years. I would have been homeless longer if it wasn't for Lea who I am forever greatful for.

I didn't have to start filming for seeral more days, but it was nice to get there before having to get up everyday at like six am. "are you nervous?" Lin asked when we finally got to bed that night at around one am, "yeah, like this is kind of a big role, I'm going to be portraying a FBI agent and like... I don't know, I got the role before the accident and I guess I'm scared of screwing everything up," I sighed, Lin smiled comfortingly at me, god I love that smile. "you won't screw it up JD, you're the best actor I've ever met, and if David Fincher doesn't like, then he can go fuck himself," Lin said.

"when will we get married?" I asked trying to change the subject, "I don't know, I was kind of thinking when you finish filming and we're back in New York," Lin said, "I like that idea," I said. that was another six months or so away, and Lin would have finished Mary Poppins by then, so it was really the perfect time. "your going to be the most amazing looking groom," he said, making me blush like crazy, that's when Lins phone rang, "I'll be right back," he said kissing me gently as he got out of bed to take the call in the other room.

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I wish I could understand what Lin was saying, but he was yelling in spanish to someone named Vanessa, I could tell it was quite heated by the way he was yelling. I know it sounds stupid but, I was worried about him. Lin isn't a confrentational guy and when he gets that angry, well let's just say he sometimes gets himself hurt.

"Hey," he said lazily getting back into bed with me, "what was that about?" I asked cupping the side of his face in my hand. "Th- it was my ex... Wife, Vanessa, she said that before we got divorced a year ago she found out that she was pregnant, and now h- my kids She had triplets, are 6 months old, and she found out that she's dying... She has 18 months to live and wants me to take them," Lin said, tearing up at the end, "what was the yelling about?" I asked, "oh, um, her sister, Jessica, wasn't to happy to find out that I'm gay as heck, whenI was yelling Vanessa's name it was me telling Jessica to give the phone back, don't worry, Vanessa doesn't have a problem with it at all" Lin said.

"Jay, I know we decided to wait until after we get married to have kids but know with this, can we take them in when you come bacl from filming Mindhunter?" Lin asked, looking terrified. I honestly had to think for a bit, they were young so they could easily get use to me being around, "boyd or girls?" I asked like it really mattered, "girls," Lin said, "names?" I asked, "Vida Rose, Trinidad Eloise, and Azalea Deanne," he said. I actually almost cried, when I (secretly) started looking into names for our future kids I had the names Vida, Trinidad, and Azalea picked out for our daughters.

"Are you Daddy or Papá?" I asked with a huge smile on my face, "Daddy, and your Papá," Lin said. We then cuddled into each others arms and went to sleep on one of the last night's we'd have together for a long while.

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I was in tears as I watched Lin get out of my car, I pressed the button that allowed me to exit the car and wheeled up to him. I couldn't believe this was the last time I would be seeing him until Christmas, Lin knelt down and kissed me, "I love you baby," he muttered almost crying. "I love you too," I said, tears were streaming down both our faces by that point as he kissed me again.

"promise to call me everyday?" I asked, knowing we both were going to have busy schedules, but figuring it would be easier for him to call me then for me to call him. "of course, and we'll be together at Christmas, that's when we'll get to meet Vida, Azalea, and Trinidad," Lin said smiling a little, "and remember, if it's an emergancy, call Lea then call me, I don't care what time it is, or what's going on, I'll come, but call Lea first since she can get here faster," he added. I just smiled and Nodded before kissing him again.

after that we said a tearful goodbye before he left to go to London. I got back into my car and started driving back to the apartment building, tears pouring down my face as Lin and mines song came on the radio. I didn't realize how attached I was to Lin, he was there hen my old life ended and my new one begain. from the moment the accident happened, he had always been there to hold me while I cried, and he never judged me for any quirks I had.

when I got back to my apartment I went into the "office" and started getting ready for the next day where I would be meeting John Douglas, the man who my character, Holden Ford, was based off of. and the other cast members, yeah, I was absolluely petriftied. for me, at least there was really no preparing for this, I was going to be kind of going in blind.

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Holy shit, I was shaking as I wheeled into the building where I would be meeting everyone. I wasn't so much nervous to meet the people I would be acting with, but I was definitely nervous to meet Agent Douglas, like what the fuck, a real freaking FBI Agent! I would do anything to crawl into a hole I was so scared. 'fuck, didn't David think' I thought I thought when I realized that the doors didn't have the automatic opening button.

"let me get that for you," an older gentleman, I'd say around 70, said rushing to get the door for me, "thank you, sir," I said entering the building, "no problem," the man said. 'damn he looks familiar,' I thought, as I wheeled down the hall to the room that David Fincher had told me to go to. thankfully this door was propped open. at least with this part, he was thinking.

"Jonathan! it's good to see you again!" David said coming over to shake my hand, "same to you," I replied taking my place, at the other end of the table which had no seat. "ok, I think everyone's here," David said when the older man who opened the door for me came in, "Jonathan this is John Douglas, the man who Holden Ford is based on," David said gesturing to the older man who took a seat next to me.

"Nice to meet you, Agent Douglas," I said shaking his hand, "please, just John is ok, and it's nice to meet you too," John said, "I hope you don't mind the character who is based on you is portrayed by a paraplegic," I said, silently praying he wouldn't, "oh no! not at all, I find the idea quite fascinating actually, do you mind if I ask what happened?" John asked, I sighed, I wished Lin was here to tell the story.

"I was driving to my best friends, now Fiance's, when my car was struck head-on with what the police believe to be a drunk driver, they don't know, the person fled the scene. the next thing I know I am in a hospital bed, my now Fiance holding my hand as tight as he could, he told me right then that I would never walk again," I said, in my opinion, it was a pretty cliché story