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he stopped.
he couldn’t leave just yet. he swore he would tell them, it has been too long.
‘No, i'll do it
I have to’
jisung shook his head in frustration.
Falling in love with not just one of your best friends but the two of them. he wondered what was wrong with him to feel such inappropriate feelings towards people he shouldn’t.
actually it wasn't his fault, the boys were just too much.
too cute, too caring, too lovely, too good, too good looking, too nice, too pretty, too lovely.
they were way too much
if everything goes right, they'll just forget what he was going to confess.
he was convinced that none of them, nor chan or changbin , would ever have romantic feelings for him.
‘why would they’
after giving himself a small pep talk, trying to calm himself down he carefully knocked on the door, wich would reveal their small but comfortable studio.
‘here goes nothing’
his best friends behind the door letting out a synchronized "yes", signalizing he could come inside.
jisung opened the door and walked inside, standing visibly uncomfortable in front of them.
"oh hi jisung, didn’t you wanna go back home 5 minutes ago?" chan asked, looking up from his notebook and facing him with an exhausted look on his just way too handsome face.
jisungs heartbeat quickened at his voice.
oh he was so in love.
"yes uhm- yeah. but i can't go home until i finally talked to the both of you. i really can't hide it any longer"
"what's going on sunshine ?"
"everything's okay ?"
silence.
how should he say what’s on his mind, without making things wired or uncomfortable.
his mind going blank, not knowing how to put his thoughts into words he just bursts out a nervous “i love you”. barley loud enough for himself to understand.
“im sorry ?”
"i love you two" he repeated, feeling his hands getting sweaty.
confused looks painting their faces, they were not sure what he was talking about.
"we love you too jisung, but what did you want to tell us ?" chan asked in a soft voice, still visibly confused.
god, this is too much.
He couldn’t believe it, of course they wouldn’t understand him. they would never return his feelings for them, just seeing him as a good friend.
a high pitched “nothing” escaped his mouth, signaling his hyungs that it was in fact not nothing. turning around quickly, just wanting to leave.
his way home was quite.
he wasn’t able to cry, feeling too much to even process and react to this wave of sadness, embarrassment and disappointment overflowing him.
arriving at home, their home, made him finally break down. tears running down his face, now finally realizing what he just said.
he confessed to something he shouldn’t have.
changbin and chan.
their names floating around his mind, making it hard to think about anything else.
starting to doubt himself, his worth, he made his way to his room to lay down.
why would they ever love him back,he doesn’t deserve it.
caught in his thoughts he didn’t notice the door opening, only realizing he wasn’t alone anymore when he heard them whisper his name.
"sungie?”
he kept quite. not wanting to face the upcoming situation.
"jisung baby, what's wrong" changbin asked, sitting down to his left.
"jisungie?" the oldest added, now taking his right side.
“i already told you”
chan looking at him now, confused feelings turning in to worried ones. what if something happened, he thought. "you walked away jisung what happened?"
jisungs face turning red now, feeling embarrassed to having to say it yet again.
"the thing i wanted to tell you guys was that i love you, both of you” he paused, looking up to find them staring at him.
quickly lowering his head again, suddenly feeling small.
"yeah and we said that we love you too” changbin continued, putting an arm around their youngest.
jisung sighed.
"im was trying say that i love you” he cleared his throat before continuing “in a romantic way, not just platonic”
chan and changbins eyes meeting, smiling at what they just heard.
"jisung, we know. we thought that it is already clear that we love you too"
“yeah” changbin confirming chans words while starting to rub his back, trying to comfort the still sad boy.
"remember when we started getting more and more touchy and started calling you by pet names ? you never told us to stop, turned red, clearly enjoyed it and always did the same so we thought that it is already clear. We just haven't kissed you yet because we thought you’re not ready yet and we didn’t want to rush things and accidentally cross a line"
"I-" jisung couldn't finish it. he felt so stupid for always thinking that they acted that way for no specific reason.
he couldn’t believe it.
trying to speak again, he sat up straight, looking at the two next to him.
" i always thought you just see me as a close friend and i to be honest i never thought someone could love two people at once. i myself was confused about my feelings for a long time. i never even dared to think you both would like me…”
"i actually only had a crush on you at the beginning" changbin confessed "but slowly fell for chan as well and i felt so stupid until chan told me he has feelings for me. at first i thought this would end really bad- i mean because i love you and he loves me."
chan nodding, while looking at his two favorite boys, a soft smile on his lips.
“yes and i felt stupid as well, i was afraid to tell changbin that i like you as well after i just confessed that i like him but when he told me he likes you i couldn’t help but tell him i did the same and then we thought we all could be boyfriends”
‘oh’ jisung mouth opening and then closing again, not knowing what to say.
happiness finally finding his way, letting him relax into changbins arm a bit while listening to chan.
"baby we are really sorry for reacting like that, we just thought you’d know" he apologized.
jisung dared to speak again, “so you love me ?”
"not only i love you, we both love you angel"
jisung blushed at changbins words. he felt happy. too happy.
changbin now fully taking him into his arms while chan patted his legs.
"i really love you two" jisung said, this time with confidence.
"i love you two too" chan.
"and i love both of you too" changbin.
jisung couldn’t believe it, he never dared to even think about the possibility of them liking him back. this was a lot to take in.
too much.
but just enough.
he looked up to changbin and then turning around to face chan as well, analyzing his face.
he could only find love in his eyes, too much love for him to handle without turning red once again.
chan giggled while leaning in to place a soft kiss on jisungs lips.
“ey, i want one as well” changbin teased while pocking jisungs side.
jisung felt like on cloud nine. or ten. because why would something with his now two lovers ever feel normal and not too much.
too much, but right enough