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He bites it again.
The warm liquid flows from the neck to the back. Eren sits still. No move, no word.
"I'm sorry…" Porco lowers his head, regretfully. It occurs to him like a flash -- the anger, toward his own powerlessness.
"Nothing. It will get better soon anyway." Eren grabs Porco's hand and takes Porco to touch his neck. Porco rubs his own fingers. The wound is not obvious. Eren's blood left on his fingers reminds him of the last time. Wait, how many times did this happen before?
Ever since he ate up the woman, he started to lose control of his jaw when he was having sex with Eren. When he turned into the Jaw Titan, he could easily satisfy his desire of biting and chewing. And all the comrades and officers would be proud of his jaw. With this jaw, everything can be broken.
Bite, crunch, masticate -- that is Porco's attack strategy.
But he already forgets about the feeling when he uses his jaw and teeth as a Titan. He only knows that he still has the desire to fill in his mouth and uses his jaw to puncture or even grind.
He starts to worry that he could hurt Eren even when he is transformed back into a human. He already refused to give Eren a blowjob after he inherited the Jaw Titan.
But endurance does not solve the problem. Porco recovered from his thought and is surprised to find he cannot get rid of the aftertaste of the blood that Eren left on his teeth.
After realizing this, Porco starts to blame himself for the cruel things he has done to Eren.
"Maybe we should stop seeing each other."
When thinking back to the last words he left to Eren, he kind of regretted his tone. He was planning to show he was pleading or feeling sorry for his problem, but when the words actually came out of his mouth, he sounded irritating.
That guy acts as if he doesn't have pain receptors. No matter which part of his body gets bitten by Porco, he acts as he cannot feel the pain. Even though Porco has told him about the danger of his jaw, that guy still tried to force Porco to give him a blowjob. However, despite the fact that he doesn’t give a shit to Porco's effort of endurance, Porco believes that he should not continue having sex with Eren, he cannot pretend that everything is just as fine. After all, he doesn't like to fight when he needs to stay alert all the time – which, also, is the reason why he loses his last combat with the devil from Paradis.
"Galliard, do you feel anything uncomfortable after you get the power of Jaw Titan?" Everyone at the military meeting of Marley suddenly fixes their eyes on Porco.
"Uh…."Porco is not used to speaking in such an important military meeting. "Everything is fine, so far. You saw it, you know how I performed in the last battle right?"
He paused for a bit: "Uh…But it is maybe a little bit funny to say, I think I am losing control of my jaw."
"Indeed, Porco immediately masters the Jaw Titan." Zeke does not pay much attention to Porco, he just absently adds a summary and writes something on the note.
"It is probably just the sequelae of your Titan." Pieck gently smiles at Porco and says something to comfort him.
"Yeah..I think so…" It is likely that she is right. Pieck is always right. Porco thinks.
But how should he get through the crazy feeling when he is not in the form of Titan during the wartime backout? It can be a trivial thing, just like an itch. But sometimes he feels he is almost driven crazy by the small itch.
Porco stares at Pieck, who is lying down on her stomach with hands gathering in front of her breast, and he looks at Zeke and Reiner.
The Titan makes everyone inhuman.
Animal? Animals do need tooth-grinding though…
Porco imagines himself biting a teeth-grinding toy just like a dog. Perhaps, what he exactly needs right now is a dog teething toy.
- Reiner.
"…Galliard."
Porco just loses in thought, his attention returns back to his hands. He was writing the combat report. He quickly glances at Reiner. Reiner is already sitting on his own bed. Reiner just wanted to say hi to him, so there is no need to greet him back.
Porco forces himself to be focused on his work. But the air in this room makes him anxious for no reason.
These days he seems kind of off. Every time he tries to work on something, fragments of memory will dash into his head. This must be the memory of that woman, Porco thinks. Take it as a movie. Alright. It is impolite to peep at other people's minds, but my memory will be played within someone's head one day anyway.
Porco once saw Reiner and Bertholdt's faces in one of these fragments. But he cannot find Marcel, not a trace. Reiner told everyone Marcel died in order to save him. It is hard to imagine. Porco thinks. And excerpt for Marcel, even Bertholdt…
Reiner is the only one who came back. To be honest, Porco did not know how he was supposed to behave when he saw Reiner coming back from the other side of the sea like a drowned mouse. He was supposed to be angry, but he could only feel powerless.
We'll all end in the same way. Porco takes another sip of wine.
"Galliard, do you see Marcel in Yumier's memory?" It seems that Reiner is waiting for the right time to ask this question. He breaks the silence and asks cautiously.
"NO."
Very quick response. The emotional climate of this room seems to be invaded by a cold front again.
"But I see you!" Porco puts off his pen and lays back to the chair, he wants to talk about this in detail. "Not realizing you are such a good actor, you were such a crybaby weren’t you, suddenly you play as a reliable big brother among the devils? Are you imitating Marcel? I can tell how much you enjoy their company! They are devils of Paradis!"
Reiner sits with his back turning to Porco, his face is hidden in the shadow. Porco starts to feel regret about what he has said. What is he doing? What is his intention? What I did is just satire him just like I did in our childhood, or I may just try to at least say something to lighten the atmosphere. Or do I intend to provoke his guilt? Porco feels none of these explanations are correct. Anyway, Porco realizes that it seems inappropriate to treat Reiner like before, they are not children anymore, and things change drastically, Reiner keeps calling him Galliard since the first day he went back here.
He grows old too fast. Especially compared to his peer comrades. Galliard has to admit the distance, but he avoids thinking deeply about this.
He can imagine what Reiner is going to say.
“Galliard, I am so sorry…” See? I did not intend to make you say that.
Galliard knows that it is meaningless to say anything, why won't he shut up?
Shut up – that eagerness comes for him again.
He drinks off a bottle of wine. It does not help.
“Galliard, I know you hate me…” What’s the bitch talking about.
“I wish…If it was not Marcel if it was me…” So annoying, I can understand the meaning of every word, but together they are nonsense….
“Galliard…”
If you do feel sorry!
“Galliard…?”
An intense pain hits Reiner as a whip Swished on his body, but he somehow manages to hold back the screaming.
Porco hugs Reiner from behind, with mouth biting hard on his nape.
Pain. But far from the tolerance limit. Reiner tightens his muscles, trying to keep balance while carrying Porco’s weight. His body starts to recover right at the moment when Porco’s teeth pierce his skin. He recovers much faster than Eren, Porco cannot help noticing this.
Everything can be heard clearly. The chuff sound of the steam of recovery. The breaths. The heartbeats. And then the gulp sound. Porco ‘unlashes’ Reiner, gently bites on his left ear. Then Reiner’s ear is stained by his own blood.
“Sorry.” Porco sincerely apologizes with a flushed face. He is so awkward that he wants to disappear from the room immediately. But it is just Reiner. Just – Porco feels ashamed, but at the same time, he persuades himself that there is nothing to be ashamed of. He can only see Reiner across the back of his ear. His ear is still red. Did I bite so hard? Porco does not know how to explain his weird behavior.
Reiner covers his face with his hands: “Galliard, if you want to kill me, you have right to do so.” Porco is terrified: “nononono… hell no!” He saw how red Reiner’s face is. It can’t be.... Is he crying? It occurs to Porco’s mind. Although this is unbelievable…. Should he apologize or something?
It seems he doesn’t change that much from that crybaby.
“I didn’t intend to kill you.” Porco softens his voice, “I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me, it is probably some sequelae, you know, weird things happen to our bodies after we inherited the power of Titan.” He wants himself to sound serious. “…Anyway, I was not attacking you.” Reiner suddenly turned back a little, which slightly scares Porco. Uh… so you didn’t cry. Porco feels like he was cheated.
With facing blushing, Reiner’s eyes become wet. But instead of calling that tear, that is more like….
Yes, Reiner is turned on. Obviously. Porco’s eyes flicks over toward the lower part of Reiner’s body, and he tries extremely hard to hold back the scream. He feels at first, embarrassed, and then it all becomes angry. He mustn’t be homosexual! Suddenly, a cold shiver runs down his spine. He retrieves back from Reiner’s bed but accidentally falls down to the floor.
“Ga...Galliard... Are you alright?” Reiner wants to grabs Porco’s hands, but the moment he touches Porco, Porce bites on his big thumb unconsciously. Reiner wants to Drawback his hands, but he persists to grab Porco.
“Sequelae, you mean… bite people?” Reiner keeps a straight face and tries not to say -- like a dog.
“You seem to enjoy it? You monster…” Porco stands up, pretending he is looking for something on the floor to avoid eye contact with Reiner.
“When I was in Paradis….” Reiner realizes he is misspeaking, “I mean, the devils….”
“You mustn’t?” Porco loses his words, he knows how serious it is, and he tries to lower his voice.
“Those devils--! They are real devils--!” Porco uses one hand to muffle his voice. Reiner becomes like this, is it all because he was tempted by the devils?!
He not only had sex with devils, but he also was tempted to become a homo. Porco pulls a long face. This is a political issue. He does not want to betray Reiner, but he believes that Reiner no longer deserves his trust. He feels disgusting. Who is it, and how did it happen? He has no mood for knowing these. He even thinks he cannot tolerate breathing the same air as the political criminal.
Porco walks out of the room. Although he did have sex with Eren, he keeps thinking that “ he is just a victim of a fraud.” The first time he met Eren on the street of Marley, he thought Eren was a girl with beautiful long black hair. Porco cannot ignore the fact that Eren, the poor girl with only one leg, was pushed over by a passenger, he immediately ran over to argue with the passenger. And then he helped Eren get home, then had sex -- and he promised himself he won’t do this for a second time. But the second time came very soon. And then the third time, over and over again. Every time how did he walk to Eren’s place, and how did the thing happen. Porco can’t remember.
But he has only one leg, he does not have the power to force me to do all this. Porco’s face always becomes red and warm when he thinks about this. But now he knows the secret of Reiner, which makes him feel much better about his secretive relationship with Eren.
But at least, mine is not as serious as his. It is the devils from Paradis who fucked him.
Porco can’t help imagining how Reiner is forced to have sex with a male devil.
- Porco
If it is Reiner, he will recover immediately after being hurt by my jaw. These days, Porco cannot help thinking of Reiner when he puts anything in his mouth.
Different than the body of Eren, Reiner’s body can release his guilty. For the Armored Titan, every wound will disappear right away, even the blood will become steam and fade in the air with no trace.
Porco stares at the steam rising from his forearm. The bloody wound slowly recovers before it festers. Recently, he still cannot control his jaw, but he only allows himself to hurt his own body. He is not that tolerant of pains. How about buying a muzzle? Porco sometimes will think like this, when he hurts himself to tears.
「TBC.}