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izuku always checked their phone, it was always the first thing they did every morning.
they looked at the amino icon, remembering their old account and everything that happened.
where they met their first online friend !! all the amazing memories and secrets told through their chats.
the group chat where they met their.. girlfriend,, moni. the uncomfortable memories that would always be attached to that.
"Midoriyan-kun? Are you awake, you're normally downstairs by now?"
"AH! So-Sorry Todoroki-kun!! I'm coming down now, aha.."
they silently turned their phone back off and sliped it into their pocket, heading down to the common room.
as they approached the counter they locked eyes with bakugo - who quickly took notice of his red rimmed eyes.
katsuki always took notice of things with them the quickest.
thankfully bakugo kept his mouth closed - not knowing what to say without knowing the reason of the red eyes.
as the day came to an end and they ventured back to their room all the memories came crashing down.
telling moni about their step-dad , telling moni about how they wanted to rip their skin off and scream.
moni promising to never make them feel like that.
their friends not approving of moni.
just because she was 22 and they were in middle school.
moni always told them how they were mature and how she would've guessed they were over 18.
they remember talking with their online friend in the group chat, and how they were whispering back and forth.
remembers asking moni what they were doing and moni said taking care of it , since they had an asmr kink.
the disgust they were filled with as they walked to school.
how all might seemed concerned during their training.
"Midoriya, My young one! What's been bothering you?"
"Ah, Sorry Mr. Yagi!! I had.. a fight? with my girlfriend."
"A girlfriend already? You've been getting the girls, eh?"
"Yeah.."
izuku only felt more disgusted as they once again mentioned his step-dad and moni called him some colorfull words, that honestly izuku would call moni.
moni and his s-d had so much in common, it terrified them, but they found comfort in the sweet words they were called by both. (to gain their dependence, their trust)
"DEKU COME GET SOME FUCKING DINNER YOU SHITHEAD"
ah, kacchan, the only person who had an idea.
"Com-Coming Kacchan!"
all that was going through their head today was memories.
their mom turning a blind eye to their s-d, moni eventually just blocking them after they mentioned telling yagi about her, their online friends blocking them.
the screaming and crying and hitting.
telling yagi they broke up.
never her age.
neverherage.
her age would be stuffed into the deepest parts of their mind, not a word spilled.
cps making their s-d and mom break up.
never telling anyone what he did to them.
they told everyone he was innocent.
i n n o c e n t.
the sick part of them that missed him, that missed her.
the cutting. the smoking and starving.
anything they could do to numb the memories.
the bliss of alcohol burning as it ran down their throat.
they were forcfully shoved back into relaity by no other then todoroki asking if they felt ill.
they smiled and said they did, and claimed they were going to turn in.
they got to their dorm, shut the door and cried and screamed.
they were tired and sick and wanted the memories out.
the guilt whenever they ate, the giddy feeling seeing their skin rip open, the feeling of need for the alocolohic burn, the addictive feeling of the smoke falling from their lips.
they were so tired.