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When we first met my heart was in the clouds
my head wondering if I was dreaming.
You took all of my attention without warning
and I wasn't ready for it for even a second.
No one else was in sight
not even myself
from the moment we met I was gone.
My heart never had never beaten so fast
and words always on the tip of my tongue when it came to you.
I stared at you memorizing every feature you had,
hoping just hoping you did the same.
But I was wrong
You never looked at me like I was your whole world
because that look was for someone else.
Waking up from my daydream with a force that shook me awake
You would never feel the same
why would you anyways?
Your eyes were always somewhere else
but never on me
Always keeping your distance from me
building walls to keep me out
Shutting the door every time I thought there was hope
How childish I was to think it was only us
Then you would change into someone completely different
Endless conversations that was filled with so much laughter
Then there was also the deep conversations we had about life
You gave me hope that maybe you felt the same
If only I knew at the time it was always going to be hopeless
I wish I could take back all of the tears I cried over you
The scars that I carved because of you
I want everything back
But that's not how life works
you can't take back the things you gave away
I gave you my heart
and all I got back in return was heart ache
I wish we never would've met
but if given the choice to go through it again?
I would go through the pain of loving you over and over again
Because loving you were the best and worst moments of my life