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Five years you've known an idiot named Oikawa Toru as you went to the same junior high as him. Idiot? Well, that's because of your first meeting at a park.
"She's finally awake, Trashykawa." A boy with dark brown hair and sharp green eyes scowled at his friend.
"Thank goodness!" Trashykawa(?), the boy with a charming brown eyes, exclaimed. "I thought my volleyball career would be immediately over with your carelessness."
Carelessness?! Wasn't he the one who hit you with a volleyball right on your face?! Where the heck did he got the audacity to blame you?!
Because of those questions, you snapped.
"First of all, It's your fault!" Your cheeks started to twitch in annoyance. "Second, What kind of set was that?! My grandmother could have done a better job than you and she's in her 70's!"
After that eventful day, he pesters you quite enough for you to bend and said yes to be his friend. On the bright side, Iwaizumi won't be suffering alone from keeping his childhood friend in check.
400 days into your friendship you realize your feelings for him has evolve into more than friends. Whenever he invites you to his practice matches or games, you always find yourself breathless as you watch him play.
Aside the passion he has for volleyball, he treats you different. Sure, someone call you a cliche bitch for falling the usual trope but in your defense, you strongly deny it at first.
Yet, slowly but surely, that idiot always find a way for you to fall for his charms. Eventually, you find his smiles more charming than they already are. His compliments makes your heart skip a beat. Lastly, his kindness finally seal the deal for you.
Three summers has passed ever since you first met him but something happened underneath the night sky full of fireworks. It left you becoming the happiest girl in the world.
"So..." You awkwardly rubbed your neck. "When did you realize you fell for me?"
"When I first saw you before you passed out."
"If I remember it correctly, you blame me for your mistake."
Your eyes widened at seeing Oikawa being flustered. "I was panicking, okay?! Can you blame me though?! When I hit the most beautiful girl I have seen with a volleyball!"
Embarrassed, you averted from his gaze to the side. "Whatever you say, Idiot."
"Correction," He pressed his lips against the back of your hand. "It's your idiot."
It was all sunshine and rainbows with the amount of affection you've given to him. In return, you'll be receiving twice of it with his hugs and kisses. Like a naive person, you believe that everything will be alright as long he's right next to you.
However, all good things must come to an end.
Two months after your 15th birthday where things get messy and the rose-colored tint over your eyes starts to fade.
It all started when Oikawa starts to not showing up on your dates. You give him a pass for it because he always look tired whenever you see him during homeroom.
But, You have to put your foot down when he didn't show up at the amusement park. Not only he made a promise to you, but also, you find out from Matsukawa that your boyfriend forgot he had a date with you.
Aftewards, you two have a very serious talk that ended up for the both of you to try this relationship to work.
You try to be more understanding by simply put his needs first and yours second. Yet, it's a failed attempt when you feel a sliver of resent.
He try to have more time with you by focusing less time on his studies. He can't forsake his practices. However, he gets an earful not only from his mom but also from the coach for failing a test three times in a row.
You two kept trying and trying until your both mentally and physically exhausted. If it weren't for Iwaizumi's intervention, you two might end up cursing and screaming at each other.
One full year finally give you the courage to break the news to him.
As the sun goes down, leaving with an orange sky, You patiently wait for him outside of the gymnasium. He finally arrive, heaving the bag on his shoulder as he walks towards you with his usual confident smile.
"I hope I didn't make you wait too long for me." Then, he press a quick kiss on your cheek.
"No worries," You reassure him. "Let's go home then."
Oikawa extends his hand to you and you grab it. Now that you think about it, this will be the last time you'll be walking next to him while feeling a sense of comfort from his warm hand.
A sense of wanderlust guides you two for a small detour in a park on your way home.
You find it ironic since this is the same park you two first met. You never thought that the place you start your relationship with him will be the same where you end things with him.
None of you dare to break the comfortable silence but you chose to pierce it with your voice.
"Toru," You hear a small 'hm' from Oikawa. "I...think we should break up."
Like a magic spell, he immediately looks at you with utter confusion. He can't believe what he's hearing, right now. Surely, you can't be serious?
"You mean a breather right?" Oikawa chuckles. "You gave me quite a scare with your joke."
Except, there's not a glint of mischief present in your eyes.
Only exhaustion.
"Listen, I-"
"We tried, Toru." You cut him off before a tired smile curls to your lips. "And even if we do have more time, I don't want to use it to teach myself to resent you."
Hearing the word resent from you finally brings your boyfriend from the suspended reality he used to be in. A reality where you and him are still madly in love with one another.
He clears his throat before he say anything else. "Then...May I hold you one more time?"
You only give him a nod and with a sense of urgency, Oikawa pulls you into a hug. The trembles in his hands, the tightness in his hug, and the deep breaths he takes – It's as if he's trying his best to remember everything about you.
It's feels like a forever had pass by when he lets go of you. Seeing the forced smile on his face almost falter your resolve, but you steel it through. You both need this.
With a small wave and smile, "I'll see you whenever at school then, Oikawa."
You start to walk away from him and not looking back. Meanwhile, Oikawa stared at your figure getting smaller until he can no longer see you.
He wants to call out your name and hope you'll run back to him. But he's too much of a coward to do so.
If his love is hurting you, then there's no other choice but to let you go. He can't bear the thought of you hating him.
Somehow, the box in Oikawa's pocket becomes heavy with guilt.