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Sun and moon were in the middle of giving the kids a puppet show.
The shows were mostly just the kids shouting out questions and scenarios and them taking some of their ideas, realizing them into poor impressions of their friends.
They cant tell how many times they made the other puppets perform embarrassing stuff as per the kids' requests, always ignoring the ones requiring them to embarrass themselves.
This time the kids wanted to see freddy and monty fight, them savage children.
Moon thought it would be a good way for sun to let out his lately evident frustrations, so he let him at it, being an observer himself.
If only he knew what his choice would result to.
"You never told me about what bonnie and you had together!"
"It was supposed to stay in the past! We had agreed to never bring it up again!"
Sun made the puppets swing their hands around wildly, it was surprising they weren't torn yet.
The story in principle wasn't really interesting to the kids but sun managed to make them invested with his screaming, hell, this was the first time they saw him scream like this.
"That's not a valid reason for not telling me!"
"Me not telling you was not a valid reason for you to do what you did!"
Moon scrambled to search for the old bonnie puppet even though they were told to not use it anymore, he thought he could use it just this once.
"Be honest Frederick Kevin George Fazbear Glamrock."
Sun made the monty puppet grab at the other puppets shoulders.
"Do you still love him?"
"No I don't! I only love you, me and him are in the past!"
"Then-"
"Liar!"
Moon brought up the old torn up Bonnie puppet, making it crawl out from behind one of the curtains in a 'hurt' manner. Sun didnt need to think once.
"B-Bonnie?! What are you doing here?!"
The freddy puppet full body gasped.
The Monty puppet switching its stare from one to another in disbelief.
"You liar!"
The old puppet pointed at the bear.
"That's not what you told me at the time!"
"Tha-that was all in the past!"
"Really?! Month ago is 'in the past' for you??"
"A MONTH??! ... that's all i had to hear."
The monty puppet smacked the bear one with all its puppet might, moon pretty sure that suns hand had undergone some damage at that.
The kids started booing at freddy and shouting out other stuff as sun continued his act.
In the end both puppets left freddy and went to become friends, super cliche but normal sappy kids went nuts for that.
Moon knew sun wanted to make the puppets fight so hard, moon would end up sewing till late night but he managed to hold back since there still were kids around, not wanting to get complaints from angry parents.
The kids ultimately liked the show, so they decided to make the upcoming drawing time related to it.
"Mr.sun look!"
One of the kids shouted handing him a drawing of bonnie and monty sitting on a... bench? together.
"...ha- what a nice drawing-"
"Sunny look at mine! Look at mine!"
Another kid shouted as they shoved a crumpled up paper to his leg, unable to reach further up.
Sun took a look, it was a drawing of monty beating up freddy...quite violently... with blood.
'stupid kid'
"Uh...I dont know what to say."
Moon cackled behind him.
"What a pretty drawing, mind if I keep it?"
"Aww I wanted to show it to my parents-"
Sun deadpanned.
"But I guess you can keep it if you really want to!"
"Of course I want to, it's beautiful~"
Moons eyes glided over to look at sun, unable to stop the grin already creeping onto his face.
"You can keep mine too! It's pretty too right??"
Another kid shoved its drawing into moon followed by all the others.
He ended up with a pile of papers that day.
He worked his magic to persuade the kids to not bring up the story in front of their parents, and shortly after that no kids were left in the daycare as moon finished speaking with some of the parents or guardians or whoever was still there.
They were left alone to do the daily cleaning, they both hated doing it but they had to.
Moon was swiping the tables as sun picked up the various drawings, sighing under his ... whirrs.
There was an unusual uncomfortable silence between them. Moon knew that sun was upset or insecure or something about the acted out outburst because believe it or not he was usually calm and collected.
"The show was actually pretty cool..."
Moon stopped moving the wet rug, looking down, waiting for the other to respond.
"...It felt good back then, but now I just feel... ashamed about it, I dont know."
Sun didnt take his eyes off the drawings as moon walked up behind him.
"You've been so tense the past few weeks you know, i didnt feel the same tension from you after the show."
Moon said as he placed his hand on suns shoulder.
Sun stood up, turning to face moon.
"Yeah, I dont feel tense but I just- I dont like the way I let it out..."
Moon took sun into his arms, feeling suns head nuzzle into his shoulder as the others hands wrapped around him too.
"I dont want to leave myself just to blow off some stress."
Sun spoke into his shoulder, moon felt every words buzz, it made him heat up, sun wasnt this close often, hell, this might be the first time he was this close, but moon couldnt, not now.
He pushed the heat back down, rubbing circles into suns back as they stood there in silence.
"I dont really know what to say because I dont get how that feels ... but you didnt hurt anyone-"
"I know!"
Suns grip on him tightened, his fans are going to go off at this rate.
"I know it sounds like I'm making a big deal out of nothing and I am,"
Sun shook.
"It just feels so disgusting to look back and see myself yelling and being loud and ... annoying."
Sun digged his head deeper into his shoulder, closer to his neck.
Moon shuddered.
"You aren't annoying, you were just entertaining the chil-"
"No! you dont- you dont-"
Suns voice shook, his legs trembling.
Moon unwrapped his arms from the other, bringing them to his shoulders and making him look into his eyes.
Sun didnt want to meet them but moon didnt speak until he did.
"Sunshine, is there something else thats going on with you?"
The nickname, it felt somehow 'fuzzy' to hear but he couldnt now-
actually...
it was a great distraction.
Sunshine.
"...Sunshine?"
Moons eyes widened, he sometimes reffered to sun like that in his head, he didnt realize he actually said it out loud.
"O-oh...sorry..."
With that his fans went off, this was turning out to be a disaster.
Sun took notice of the whirring sound, feeling warm breeze come from the bot in front of him.
The other was avoiding his gaze now.
'huh?... weird'
And then, it started hitting him, the sudden hug, his shudder he chose to previously ignore, the nickname, his fans going off-
Did moon feel something towards him?
Haha, no way right? ... right?
...Only one way to find out.
"You don't have to apologize starlight."
He cringed as nothing better came over him.
Anyways, that wasnt important at the moment, he had to carefully observe.
Moon turned his head away from him, looking to the ground, sun could feel the others body shake even if only slightly.
As moons hands started to clumsily slip away from his shoulders, sun has decided.
He placed one of his hands firmly on the others waist and the second cupped his cheek, turning his head to look at him again.
He then put their foreheads together.
"May I?"
The question came out as a barely audible whisper, loud enough for only moon to hear.
He couldnt believe what was happening, he was overfrying, he thought about this happening so many times but something was wrong, sun isnt okay. They shouldnt.
"...we shouldnt."
Sun looked deeper into his eyes stroking the others cheek, moon unconsciously leaning into his touch.
"please?"
Suns voice was latched with affection, fake affection, the corners of his mouth tugging upwards slightly, his eyes only pointing out the deceipt in his voice.
And yet, moon couldnt bring himself to say no, he didnt want to, he wished for sun to not be lying, he wished for this to be real.
"Moonlight?"
"...alright."
He succumbed.
Suns grin grew wider, he tightened his grip on the others waist as he brought their lips together.
As there was no turning back now, moons arms slid up from the others shoulders to wrap around his neck, his eyes closed, his systems overheating even if it was just a lie.
Sun observed the other, his eyes were closed so why shouldnt he?
He felt arms wrapping around his neck, he felt kind of ... chilly. It was strange.
He had to admit, moon was very handsome, beautiful, whatever the other would prefer to be called, sun would choose to call him the latter ... or maybe both at the same time.
He took notice of some groups of teens picking up a single child at the end of the day, sparking up conversations, the braver souls even making attempts at flirting with him.
Some of the younger ones, the 15-17 year olds, wasted their day away in the daycare just to have more chances at talking to him.
Teens werent the only ones who took interest in him though, adults of various ages did too, sadly married ones or ones in relationships did also.
Bringing kids, not even their own at times just to have a reason to shortly speak with him.
Well, that was probably one of the reasons the daycare was still going strong.
At the times he noticed, he just chose to ignore it, even if it made him sick to his core, he never spoke about it with moon once, the other seemed to not take notice, or chose to not take notice.
He bit the others lip, making something inside of the other whirr as a low sound escaped from within him, allowing him to slip his tongue inside, startling the other, a low hum being muffled this time.
The sounds went straight to suns head.
'what would the people think if they knew what was happening right now?'
He sucked at the others tongue, his hand slipping to the others lower back.
'what would they think of what he was doing to their beauty?"
A higher pitched sound was muffled again, sun could feel something inside himself whirr.
'what would they think of what was becoming of moon because of him?'
He tried to get deeper, stroking the others lower back, feeling moons shivers pass through him.
It was hot, moon was so hot.
This was the first time he was being truly seduced by the other.
Moon leaned into him, their chests touching, he felt a shiver go through his endo spine as his own fans went off.
He was shocked, he thought of this as a distraction and now that his fans went off he was starting to wonder.
One of moons hands moved from his neck to cup under his jaw.
Moon was really affectionate, really fired up, really fucking good-looking.
Sun wanted more from him.
He spun them for himself to face the hard netting, then pushed the other against it.
His hands trapping moon between, he stared moon down, he seemed slimmer than him even though they were built the same, his legs were shaking, bended and positioned so that sun stood taller.
The others hands creeped their way up his sides to his chest, shivers, through his collar bone to his shoulders, more shivers, sliding their way up his arms to rest at their very end.
He then moved his head to rest against one of them, nuzzling into it.
He evaded his gaze, turning his head to look sideways as he silently talked.
"...are we...going to continue...?"
Even more shivers, this man is going to end up having to bury him.
He thought he felt nothing for him in the beginning, maybe he did and this just made him realize it, he didnt know.
But how could he do anything more than that and tarnish the being under him.
So many people, maybe even other bots wanted him for themselves.
He had no right to take moon away from them.
After all he didnt deserve moon, for what he did, for what finally came through, for who he was.
He pushed his head into moons shoulder, not speaking a word.
"...its okay, sunshi- sun."
Moons hands wrapped around him again.
Even if sun tried, he couldnt distract himself, he couldnt be distracred, in the end even moon couldnt do it.
"...im sorry."
Sun mumbled quietly into his shoulder.
Moon started rubbing circles into the others back and they were back at the beggining.
"you dont have to be sorry, its okay... i shouldve stopped you..."
moon smiled sadly to himself,
"I shouldve stopped myself from ..."
Moon felt something liquid run down one of his cheeks.
He wasnt supposed to be able to cry.
He had to stop, he had to stop right away, he couldnt show how weak he was when sun was like this.
But the liquid wouldnt stop.
Sun brought his hands to wrap around moon, cursing himself for being like this, he shouldnt have given moon any ideas, he shouldnt have started anything.
Now he has to deal with moon leaving him too.
He felt miserable, why did they even program him to be able to feel like this, this was hell.
He felt the other tremble as he pulled away from moons shoulder.
"Moon, your face-"
Moon had some sort of liquid running down his cheek... he knew they couldnt cry, was that a feature only he had?
He certainly didnt know of a way he could do that... was there a conveniently placed leak in the roof? Sun checked, there wasn't. It had to be one of moons features, it just made him more fascinating, sun knew that after all, he didnt deserve moon.
It didn't cross his mind once that this was happening because of him.
"What is this function?"
Sun said as he swiped his fingers across moons face, collecting some of the liquid, examining it.
"It's ju-st condensation," Moons voice cracked with a sob.
"because of, you know, what we did-"
He looked away again.
"Oh, sorry for ... starting that whole thing,"
Sun took a step back, moons hands slipping off and falling to his sides.
"please don't be sorry..."
He whispered, his voice not able to come out.
He desperately didn't want sun to regret this, even if he didnt feel anything for him, even if it was all a lie, he didnt want sun to feel ... grossed out by what they did, he didnt want him to keep his distance, he didnt want to loose him.
"Moon but, you, I used you as a... distraction-"
Moon cackled as more of the liquid showed up.
they were really done, weren't they? moon was laughing at him, wasn't he?
Moons cackle turned into a laughing fit as he held his stomach, looking at the forming puddle underneath him.
'a distraction, I knew it, I knew it was a lie and yet I hoped that it would mean something in the end, what an idiot, of course sun wouldnt feel a thing towards me... what a stupid... disgusting ... piece of junk!"
'moon is laughing, he had to act out of impulse back then, the flirts he continuously recieved piling up, causing him to want some affection and sun just so happened to be there... only now the whole situation had to settle in moons head ... he must be laughing at him, at how it even happened, he must be disgusted right now..."
Moon didnt want to know what was going on in suns head right now, he had to pull himself together, he had to return to what was plaguing his friends systems before all that happened.
His laughs quieting down, he pulled himself together wiping his face with his sleeves.
"Right, dont worry, you dont have to apologize, i didnt know what came over me either."
He feigned the lightheartness, it stung so bad inside.
Sun just stared at him, corners of his lips twitching.
"yeah..."
Moon imitated the sound of a human clearing its throat.
"More importantly... do you feel like talking to me about what we ... got distracted from..."
"... yeah, lets just ... finish cleaning first."
"... sounds alright to me."
Both of them presented the fakest smile of their lives to the other and went back to cleaning, their thoughts eating them up as soon as their backs were turned.
The cleaning took a long time, neither of them didnt want to really talk to the other, they knew the longer they wait, the worse its going to get... but neither of them could bring themself to finish up.
To say that the daycare was cleaner than new would be an understatement, it was sparkling, one could lick up soup from the floor.
There was nothing else to clean.
"I think we better go talk upstairs."
Sun nodded as moon took his hand and slowly lead him to their tower.
No words were exchanged, silence all the way to the sleep area.
Moons choice of place could be described as suggestive, the sleeping area minus the kids was alluring.
The whole room was soft, dimly lit if lit at all, its lunar thematic soothing.
A perfect place for something to happen and yet both of them were heading there with no such thoughts.
They settled on the soft cushioned floor, sitting awkwardly next to one another, leaning against the padded wall.
Sun brought his knees to his chest, curling in on himself, getting ready to open up.
He didnt know where to start.
"... I really hate loud, jumpy, annoying people."
Moon hummed.
"I fear becoming one of them, I'm scared of people finding me annoying and leaving me or something because of that."
'scared of you leaving me'
"You aren't annoying nor loud though, even the quietest of people yell sometimes, that doesnt make them annoying."
"You don't get it."
Moon perked up.
"I'm not because I'm trying my hardest to not show it, to not let it through."
Sun buried his face into his knees.
"I tried to convince myself, to change it, but deep down... I'm still pure chaos."
He listened to the other, pure chaos seemed like a shit ton of fun to moon.
"... well, i dont think a little chaos is bad-"
"It is."
"I dont think so-"
"You dont think so, but I do, I hate it-"
Sun squeezed his knees harder, shaking.
This didnt seem like that big of a deal to moon, he wouldnt mind if sun was louder, he was supposed to be around kids who were always loud, moon didn't understand his internal struggle.
"I mean... if you need a way to get something out without loosing your cool... you can go punch a bag?"
Moon had no idea how to help him.
"Not funny."
He wasnt trying to be funny but okay.
"I just wish I could be as calm as you, you always seem like you know what to do, what to say, how to act."
If only sun knew how shaken up moon was right now.
"... if it makes you happy to hear, you're calmer than I am right now... and you were also calmer back then."
Sun perked up, for real, he was calmer back then, he was in control, it felt as if he had everything together, is that why it was all so nice?
Sun looked over at moon wide-eyed, the other turning his head away.
With moon he felt like he could control what his says.
With moon his struggle was different.
With moon he felt like himself.
He calmed down, maybe it was as easy as going away to punch a bag, maybe he should try it.
He was preparing to say his thanks to moon when he began to talk again.
"I dont think that letting yourself through is bad, if you dont like it, you should let it out and see, if it really makes you uncomfortable it should naturally stop..."
Moon was surprised at his words, he often was, they always ended up making some sort of sense though.
"...thanks."
Sun stared, it made sense, if he hated it so much, wouldnt it slowly go away by itself if he didnt forcibly bottle it up, enough for it to burst?
As much as he liked the idea of punching a bag at times this was more logical.
He didnt think that moon would be of any help, but moon is amazing after all.
He stared and moon stared back.
"... i feel like i owe you something now."
"why would you owe me something? i actually feel like what you said could help."
Moon shifted towards sun.
"for opening up, its not easy."
"... it wasnt."
Moon took a deep thinking.
"well i want to open up with something to you in return, its only fair."
Suns face held a genuine smile, he never saw this side of moon before.
"Im listening."
It was now or never, moons head spun around in preparation before it locked in place, he was ready.
"Sunshine, I know what happened before didnt mean anything to you,"
Sun tried to say something but he was shushed before he had the chance.
"But since it did happen no mater how much you dont like to think about it, its not okay for you to not know."
Sun wanted to say something again, but moons hand found its way to his lips, successfully shushing him.
"here comes nothing... I actually liked you for a while now, its a miracle you didnt notice sooner really,"
Moon let out an awkward laugh, suns eyes wider than dinner plates.
Moons hand having to cover his mouth fully for him to not speak.
"Im sorry for falling for you ... i just hope you won't look at me with disgust and we can at least stay friends,"
Moons eyes meeting sun's for the first time since he started talking.
"I really dont want to loose you..."
Moon had the saddest of smiles on his face and sun couldnt bare to look at it any longer.
He bit moons hand, the other hissing in pain as he pulled it away.
Moons brows furrowed as he tried to speak,
"You dont have to bi-"
before he was interrupted by suns hands pinning his to the cushioned floor.
"What are you doing?"
"How dare you say that to me?"
"I'm sorry-"
"You should be!"
Sun squeezed harder.
"How dare you say I was disgusted, how dare you say it didnt mean anything to me."
Sun let go of moons hands as he collapsed onto his chest.
Moon was unbelievably confused, his hands staying in place for a good moment before he brought them to the others back, holding him for the countless time today.
"I dont understand you."
He admitted.
"I dont understand you."
Came back at him, suns face still buried in his chest.
"How can you like me?"
He paused before continuing.
"Especially if there are others who desperately want you."
"...There are?"
"Dont tell me you didnt notice."
"I didn't."
"There, so stop this nonsense and find someone suitable for you ... i dont mind helping out."
As much as he knew sun tried to mean well, those words stung.
"Even if they do, it doesn't matter."
Moon lifted suns head to look him in the eyes.
"Even if you dont feel the same, you cant deny that I dont like them, I like you."
Sun cupped moons hand with his own.
"I never said I dont feel the same, I just dont think you should be with me."
Moon stared at him, eyes filled with dread.
"What do you mean?"
His voice shook.
"How can you tell me Im not delusional for ever thinking you could like me back but still deny me?"
"Its because I like you-"
"No! is this an excuse? You can just tell me you don't like me because whatever you are doing is way more cruel."
"As I'm saying, its because I like you, I like you too much in fact."
"..."
"I want you to be happy."
"...then be with me."
Moon stroke suns cheek.
"That will make me happier than anything else you're thinking about right now."
Sun didnt know what to say, he didnt believe himself to make moon happy.
"... but you could be so much happier with someone else..."
He whispered silently.
"Only you think that."
Sun looked away from him, full of uncertainty.
Moon noticed, how could he not, he sat up from under sun, bringing their faces close.
He didnt initiate a kiss though.
If sun truly didn't want to be with him for whatever reason, he was prepared to respect that and face the upcoming consequences.
Moon was incredibly close, slightest movement forward would join them together.
Sun wanted to resist himself, he really did but he was pushed forward by some unknown force, thanking it for pushing against his stupid unreasonable will.
And so they were joined together, Moons hands toying with suns rays as sun gently stroked moons face, not believing what was happening.
When they parted, moon was relieved and sun had no way out now.
He accepted his fate rather quickly though, saying that he wasnt content with this ending would be a lie.
He still didnt believe he was the one that would make moon the happiest but his selfishness was starting to shine through.
Moon would make him the happiest he ever could be, if that meant that moon wouldnt be, maybe, just maybe he would be willing to burn in hell for doing that to him.
"Does this mean the feeling is mutual?"
Sun took a good look at moon.
"Yes."
He was definitely going to burn in hell.