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Message from Fezco to Lexi. Night of the Cal Jacobs incident.

📱...

F: yo Lexi, u home?

L: Yeah, I just arrived
L: Are you guys okay? Are you safe?

F: all good, we can protect ourselves
F: it was nice seein u today, even for a lil bit

L: Yes, it was nice.
L: Thank you for offering me a ride home!

F: no problem

L: Well, talk to you later Fez

F: alright, night Lexi

L: Goodnight~✨

Lexi calls Fezco. Night of Maddy's birthday.

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F: Hello, Lexi?

L: Hi Fez!

F: Lexi Howard! I was waiting for you to call me... haven't seen you in a bit... Yo, umm, I'm sorry for what happened in the store the other day, it wasn't right...

L: No, no, it's okay. I'm sorry I haven't called earlier. I have been busy with a personal project in school and I also didn't wanted to like bother you and stuff...

F: You never bother me, so how you doing? why you calling me?

L: I'm okay... I just wanted to talk to you...

F: For real? I thought I scared you off...

L: What? No, not at all. I mean yeah, that thing at the store was kinda scary but it was all Cal Jacobs fault, you had nothing to do with that. That whole family is so fucked up!

F: You telling me... so...umm.. what are you doing?

L: Right now there is like a small gathering at my house and I needed to take a break from it.

F: so... how is the party thing? not good, huh?

L: Well, I am just sitting in my couch talking to you. So, things are getting better! It's a bit weird because it's Maddy's birthday but the party is in our house. But it's not too bad, it's chill, we are only like five people, so is way better than most house parties.

F: So, you like normally keep to yourself at this type of stuff, right?

L: I guess, it's a bit obvious that I am more of the indoors kind (laughs) So yes, staying to myself is normally my natural go to. What about you, do you like parties?

F: Nah, is just work to me. Normally I take a couch an stick to myself, you know?

L: Do you normally talk to people at parties?

F: Well, I mean, just to clients and some ex-clients like Rue sometimes, you know... Why you ask?

L: I don't know, well, I have been curious about something...

F: what?

L: How come you talked to me on New Years?

F: I don't know. I have seen you with Rue before and you looked cool. You also seemed worried about something. You were next to me and I wanted to talk to you...

L: Can I confess something to you?

F: what's up?

L: When I first met you, I thought that you were too cool for me

F: For real? No, you are fucking with me...

L: No, but it's true! That time we were at your place with Rue, I don't know if you remember... but it was my first time smoking weed. I totally embarassed myself that day. I felt so uncool next to you guys...

F: Damn, that's right. I remember that day. You had braces and everything. But I don't know what you are talking about, because I thought you were pretty cool back then. Really funny and you looked so scared about smoking weed it was really cute...

L: I thought you were way older back then, a fifteen year old with a beard is not that common... Anyways, when I saw you in New Years with that big flame lighter, I thought to myself "wow, he is way too cool for me, I am going to bore him."

F: You are fuckin with me, no way

L: I'm not! I'm dead serious. I don't know, you have this cool mysterious aura about you, like the quiet confident type. I couldn't believe you were actually talking to me. The way you asked me so many questions about myself, I couldn't remember the last time someone my age had done that...

(a beat)

F: Shit Lexi, I don't know what to say... But for real though, I get it. It was the same for me

L: How so?

F: Talking to you was scary, got me all nervous and shit... (giggles) I don't know, I wasn't sure what to say at first. Like, felt bad for forgetting your name and shit. But it surprised me how open you were. Normally people come to me just for buying and like, small talk, you know? But you just came to me and asked me about God like it was nothing... that was special...

(a beat)

L: So, how are you doing? How are Ashtray and your Grandmother?

F: I'm alright, Ashtray is still mad at me because of the whole Faye situation, he stays most of the time in the computer doing God knows what. Grandma is still with us, so that's good.

L: Oh, well, I am glad to hear that you guys are doing okay... um.. so is Faye still staying with you?

F: Yeah, her boyfriend is still handling stuff and trying to keep it low. But it is what it is, you know? I hate how she is doing drugs in the house though; we don't keep that shit in the house no more...

L: Oh I didn't know that she had a boyfriend, I kinda assumed that she was like... your friend and stuff...

F: Lexi are you jealous? (laughs)

L: No! (laughs) shut up!

(a beat)

F: Hey so, what's that personal project about?

(Screams, and crying noises)

F: Yo, are you okay? What was that?

L: Oh shit, something is happening at the hot tub, sorry, I gotta go, can I text later?

F: Sure, talk to you later!

End of phone call.

Message from Lexi to Fezco. Later that night.

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L: Hey, everything is fine :)
L: Cassie just threw up in the hot tub all over everyone.
L: My mum already took her to the bathroom.

F: fr ? that's gross, shit
F: was she drinking?

L: Yeah, she has been drinking like crazy all night. I don't know, something is going on with her. She has being acting weird lately, she went trough a lot at the end of last year, but there is something else going on...
L: But we are not in the best place now, so we can't really talk about it lately.
L: Sorry, I don't want to bore you out with dumb sister drama.

F: no, its okay
F: I'm never bored by u
F: ur doubting urself again
F: dont do that

L: You are right, sorry, I am trying to quit that habit...
L: Well, what are you doing now?

F: me and Ash are watchin a movie
F: we watchin that movie "Holes" 👀

L: No way! that movie with young Shia LaBeouf? I love that movie!

F: hell yeah, "Holes" is my shit! 🔥 come on, I have seen it so many times
F: you have like a favorite movie?

L: Well, I had a phase of watching a lot of French movies because I wanted to learn the language. My favorite one was “Amélie”, I remember watching it and relating so much to the main character. She is like a shy girl that lives more in her own world than in the real world.

F: that's cool, damn Lexi, you speak french?

L: Je parle un peu, très mal…

F: the fuck does that mean?

L: It means “I speak a little, very badly” Lol I took french as a second language alternative in school. Most people chose the Spanish class because it is actually the most practical language, but I have always liked the way French sounds.

F: come on. I can barely speak english and u coming here with french and shit, u too smart

L: But you are also super smart Fezco; I have never met someone so young with your level of emotional intelligence. The way you can read people like a book amazes me.

F: damn, don’t know about that… thank you? that's like the nicest thing someone has said about me, for real

L: You are welcome!

F: u are too nice
F: hey Lexi, do you wanna like hangout sometime? u can come to my place if you want, u know

L: I would love that, yeah, how about this sunday?

F: sounds great 👽

L: sunday it is then! 💖

F: how do you say goodnight in french?

L: Bonne nuit

F: bonne nuit Lexi Horward 💤

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Day after Maddy's birthday before Rue arriving the Howard household

Fezco sends a message to Lexi

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F: good mornin
F: (sends picture of a black cat sitting down on a white plastic chair next to the ice cream freezer in the convenient store)
F: look I found these lil guy at my spot today👀
F: u like cats, right?

L: OH MY GOD💖💖 he is so precious🥺
L: I'm dying he is too adorable, I wish I could steal him.

F: if u like cats so much, how come u don't have one?

L: Cassie is really allergic, honestly is the pain of my existence...

F: lol how is Cassie doin today?

L: She is completely hangover. Maddy and Kat stayed with us tonight. I ended up having a nice time after the whole throwing up at the pool-thing hahaha it's kinda funny now

F: that shit is disgusting, how is it funny?

L: Because she threw up on everyone, including Nate! His face of pure disgust, I want that shit framed!

F: lmao now THAT is funny🤣
F: what the fuck was he even doing there though?

L: I think him and Maddy are back together now. I don't know. It's fucked up. He was always an abusive guy and Maddy is actually really sweet when you get to know her.

F: I know Maddy, she buys weed and molly sometimes
F: seems cool
F: too bad that she is stuck with that dude
F: Imma have to beat Nate's ass again🤬

L: hahahaha I am not opposed to that idea
L: But maybe don't, it's not worthy wasting energy on that asshole.

F: true that

L: Well, he left early after that hot tub accident. So that drunk vomit was a blessing in disguise.

F: hahahaha🤣 u too funny

L: look, Maddy did my makeup today, she really is an artist. We are not even gonna go out today
L: (sends a picture of her eye makeup, three dark blue liner in a Twiggy-esque style adorning her expressive brown eyes. The photo doesn't show her full face but you can see a bit of her smile poking through)

F: damn Lexi🔥
F: u lookin good
F: I like it, looks cool as fuck, some rockstar shit

L: hahaha thanks. I don't like taking pictures of myself but Maddy did such a great job, I needed to save it

F: why dont you like takin photos?
F: u always look good

L: I don't know about that, but thank you
L: I don't know I always felt kind of uncomfortable in my appearance. It's dumb probably...

F: yeah, dumb as fuck
F: u a pretty girl Lex

💬(Lexi is writing)

L: Thank you Fezco. I am not the best at taking compliments, but really, thank you Fez💖

F: its okay, you'll get better at it

L: What are you doing now?

F: not much, hangin out in the store
F: normally saturdays are busy but today is quiet
F: there is this old guy that buys a lottery ticket and a box of raisins every day

L: That's sweet, he sounds like the most sterotypical old man ever😭

F: hahaha true🤣
F: he has a cane and everythin for real
F: he the coolest customer in the game
F: except for u, obviously
F: but u havent come here in weeks

L: I'm sorry, I have been busy with this project and I am always getting off school late.

F: whats the project about?
F: u never got to tell me

L: Well, I wrote this play and I am putting it on now. It's a lot of work, but we already have the cast and the behind the scenes team. So it's looking promising! :)

F: u wrote an entire play?🤯
F: damn Lexi, u are too cool
F: are u acting in it?

L: Yes, I'm acting as the lead. I was thinking of casting someone else, but this play is way too personal, it felt like I needed to do it myself.

F: shit
F: writer, director and actress
F: you really are something else Lex

L: Well, I just hope it all works out

F: it's gonna be great, am I invited?

L: Of course! I would save you a ticket~

F: hell yeah, thats whats up

Nightime, After Rue escaping from the Howards household

Lexi calls Fezco

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-Missed call-

Lexi sends a message to Fezco

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L: Fezco, sorry to bother you, but it's an emergency. Please answer when you can.

F: hey, me and Ash just got home what happened?

L: I'm sorry, it's Rue with you?

F: no, why?
F: wait, someone at the door

L: Is it Rue? Her mom is looking for her now. She was about to take her to rehab but Rue ran away after crashing my place.
L: Was it her? Is she okay?

F: yeah, that was Rue, she is in withdrawal
F: had to take her out of the house
F: Im sending u my address, tell her mom that she is around here
F: Rue isnt doing well, she cant go far
F: (sends his location with the address)

L: What happened?! Are you okay?

F: Im good, its just that Rue tried to take my grandmas pills and I had to take her out
F: I feel bad but its like the principle

L: Oh god Fez
L: That was too far, even for Rue, I'm so sorry

F: why r u apologizing for?
F: shit got a bit ugly, yes
F: I just hope she is okay

L: Do you want to talk about it? Can I call you?

F: yeah I would like that

Lexi calls Fezco

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L: Hi..

F: Hi Lexi

L: So, how are you doing? are you okay?

F: Yeah, I'm alright. It's sad though, the whole Rue shit. I feel bad now, could have driven her home, but it got violent, I couldn't handle that

L: Violent?! Violent how?

F: She pushed me when I tried to take her out of the my grandmas room. So I had to drag her ass out of the house... it was too fucking much.

L: Oh god, you shouldn't had gone through that, you do su much for Rue.

F: I mean.. I do what I can...

L: I just hope that she is okay and her mom finds her soon. I don't think she has another place to go now. I called Jules and she said Rue wasn't with her or Elliot.

F: She must be walking around then. She is going to be okay. But, so, how you doing?

L: I am freaking out a bit right now. I am hiding in my Mom's room.

F: Why you hiding?

L: Well it's a long story... basically Rue came over to my house after running away from her mom. I couldn't tell she was having withdrawal. I thought she had a cold or something, god, I'm so fucking naive...

F: Don't say that, how are you supposed to know how fucking withdrawal looks like?

L: I mean I have seen it before but I was really young and I'm not sure, anyways... I don't know. I'm just mad at myself for actually believing Rue. I genuinely believed her when she told me she was only smoking weed. I mean, that's not true, I had my suspicions... she has been looking terrible lately, but I wanted to believe that she was fine...

F: Sometimes we only see what we want to see...

L: yes that's true...

(A beat)

L: Well, the point is that Rue came to my house and after I saw her talking with my mom I realized she had relapsed so I called Leslie, Rue's mom. I have wanted to tell her mom for a long time but I always chickened out at the end.

F: Well but you called her today, and I get it. Rue was looking terrible, and she smelled bad too. I think she was on the streets all day...

L: That's so scary

F: I mean she is getting herself in very scary situation but, like, what happened at your place?

L: Well, I called Leslie, she was already on her way here, she has been looking for her all day, apparently Rue got off her car and started running in traffic...

F: oh shit

L: Yes, I know! Well, her mom was at my house and it was a weird last minute intervention. So Rue dropped a bombed to escape.

F: Shit, what do you mean?

L: Ummm... Let's just say that Rue said something that made everyone focus their attention in someone else. It's too long of a story to tell on the phone...

F: Shit, you are gonna leave me guessing?

L: I would tell you tomorrow in person, is that still happening? I don't want to intrude, if you need space after tonight, I totally get it...

F: Lexi, I'm alright, please come over tomorrow, I have been looking forward to it all weekend.

L: Same here, this day has felt so long. Like it felt like Sunday wouldn't come up soon enough.

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Day after Rue's intervention before Fez and Lexi's hangout
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L: Good morning~
L: Hey, so I have been thinking about what you said yesterday, and you are right, I shouldn't care so much about taking photos. It's not a big deal and I don't have to look perfect or anything. It's just a stupid photo.
L: So here it is...
L: (sends a bathroom selfie, she is wearing a set of two pink rollers on top of her head. Natural makeup and deep red nail polish. You can see her flower phone case)

F: shit, good mornin!
F: damn girl, you are gonna wake me up like that!
F: u look cute even with them rollers on ur head 😍

L: hahahaha thanks

F: wait are u gettin all dolled up for me?👀

L: Hahahaha no, I am getting ready for myself!

F: okay, I see u
F: thats even cooler
F: u know

L: I just want it to be afternoon already. Things at my house are rough now. Cassie is a mess today...

F: isnt she a mess all the time?

L: I mean yeah, but today it's too intense... I had to hide all of our kitchen knives in the backyard because my mom thinks she is gonna go stab herself or something.

F: shit
F: thats too much Lex
F: have u tried like talking to her?

L: I mean yeah, but it always ends up in screaming. I can't help it, after last night I am really dissapointed with her. I don't know, I am just tired of her trying to act like a victim.

F: damn, u wanna come over here a little earlier?

L: I would love too, but I don't wanna invade or anything.

F: no invading shit here
F: its sunday, we r not doin much
F: Faye is still asleep on the couch,
F: Ash is doing somethin on his computer

L: And what are you doing?

F: smokin in my room, talkin to u
F: couldn't ask for more, u know?

L: Okay then I might bike to your place now then. The guy in the weather channel said it might rain later in the afternoon so is better to go now.

F: u watch the weather channel? how old are u? 🤣

L: Shut up! The weather has been crazy. I don't know why is it raining so much lately.

F: probably climate change and shit

L: True, do you know that song, "It Never Rains in Southern California"?

F: hahaha yeah, but now it does rain like fuckin once a week🤣
F: damn, I didn't know u liked that kind of music
F: u into oldies?

L: Yes, i love 60s and 70s music. But honestly my music taste is all over the place. It goes from Billie Holiday to hyperpop lol

F: wtf is hyperpop?
F: I don't know Billie Holiday either, she good?

L: I don't even know how to describe hyperpop, I guess it's like a subgenre of pop experimental music. It's electronic music with mostly autotune vocals screaming at you. I listen to it because it hypes me up. It's like caffeine but in music form.

F: shit okay, so like a rave kinda vibe?

L: Yeah I guess. Well, and Billie Holiday is like the opposite. She was this amazing jazz singer from the 50s. She had this sleepy beautiful voice and such powerful songs.

F: I still dont get how u know all of this.
F: u r like, an old soul, u know?

L: How so?

F: like ur brain is older
F: its like you have lived different lives and shit
F: thats why u know so much at ur age, like u r wise

L: I don't know about that, but thank you💖 I'm sending you a link to one of her songs.
L: (sends a link to a youtube video of Solitude by Billie Holiday)
L: Hey, I'm on my way to your place

F: okay cool
F: text me when u r outside, so I can help u park ur bike

L: I'm outside! :)

F: I see u

After hanging out at Fezco's place
📱...

Lexi sends a voice note to Fezco
L: "Hi, I just got home and I wanted to thank you for tonight.. I just.. I had a lot of fun and I love spending time with you. I guess, thank you for always being such a good listener and like,... it was best time I had in a while... I don't know where I am going with this voice note, sorry.... I guess I just wanted to say thank you for being there."

💬Fezco is writting

F: u got nothin to thank me for. I love spending time with u
F: I had fun watchin Stand by Me with u, havent seen that movie in a bit
F: got me all emotional and shit 😢

L: Yes! god, I was crying so much! I have been thinking about this, you kinda remind me of Chris

F: thats funny, how?

L: You know, he is the tough kid with the heart of gold. People only label him as a bad kid without really knowing him

F: I always liked Chris, so I guess ur right
F: ur Gordie then
F: the shy kid that writtes cool stories, sounds like u

L: Yes! definitely! Gordie writes stories to cope with reality and lives in his siblings shadows, sounds way too familiar.

F: u need to stop saying that shit

L: What?

F: like, the whole Cassie shit
F: u dont live in her shadow
F: u live in a whole different world than her, and thats good

L:Yeah... wow, you always say what I need to hear.
L: When can I see you again?

F: shit, I was about to ask the same

L: Let's talk about it tomorrow! I have school so I need to get some sleep. I can call you during lunch, it's that okay?

F: fine by me
F: u have a good night Gordie ;)

L: Hahahaha sweet dreams Chris!

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A day after Fez and Lexi's hangout

Lexi sends a text message to Fezco
📱...

L: Hey~ can I call you? are you busy?

F: not at all
F: I was waitin for u to write👀

L: great! :)

Lexi calls Fezco
📞...

L: Hello Fezco?

F: Come on now, is writer, director and actress Lexi Howard! How you doing?

L: Oh god (laughs) I'm doing alright. Just sitting at my quiet spot in school... How about you?

F: All good... I'm at the quiet spot of the store

L: And where's that for you?

F: Outside on my chair. Sitting at the counter it's cool but I can't really smoke in there, can't have the store smelling and shit. I also like looking at the store from the outside more.

L: Why?

F: I don't known... it's calmer, I don't have to be there starin at all the labels and shit.

L: I was wondering something, do you ever sit on the roof of the store?

F: Sometimes, why?

L: Well, because I used to hangout with Rue there. We would buy ice cream and just sit there. We talked for hours. I don't know, I miss that, I have been thinking about it lately.

F: I remember that, I mean, it's a good spot. My grandma was a big fan, she would sun bathed in the roof. She had those mirrors to like reflect the sun and everything

L: You always talk about your grandma with such admiration, she sounds like a really strong character.

F: Hell yeah, for sure. She was a real fuckin g, you know (laughs)

L: (laughs)

F: Well, what about you? where's is your quiet spot at?

L: Okay, outside the library, there are some small stairs that lead up to a hallway. I don't know, is quiet enough to write but there is still some sound that works as background noise.

F: Sounds good, Do you eat lunch there, at the stairs? have you eaten yet?

L: Yeah, I make the my own lunch. I haven't stepped in the cafeteria in long time. Like since the holiday break.

F: why not? the food whack? (laughs)

L: (laughs) Well that's definitely a factor. But it's also a bit too much. Too many people and I don't really have a table to sit on anymore. I used to sit with Rue or Cassie but now Cassie hates me and well, Rue is hardly at school.

F: How is Rue doing?

L: I'm not sure. Her mom texted me. She told me that Rue was doing better and was staying at home, getting clean. I don't think she is going to rehab soon.

F: Rehabs are a trip, sometimes it's hard to get a spot.

L: That's so depressing. I just hope she is okay. Her mom sounded hopeful at least.

F: That's good. I love Rue, she is like my sister. But that drug shit, she the only one who can fix that.

L: Yeah, that's true...

F: So do you have like other school friends besides Rue? I know that your play is all about girlfriends and shit...

L: Well yeah, I get along well with Maddy, Kat and BB, we are not super close anymore, but we talk sometimes ... I'm getting really close with this girl Bobbi, she is helping me a lot with the play. She's really talented and organized. Has like the sweetest voice.

F: That's cool as fuck, Lex. It's funny, her name being Bobbi and all...

L: Why?

F: Cause I remember calling you Bobby that one time you and Rue got high at my place... she painted a beard on you and I thought you looked like that white guy with the afro, you remember all that?

L: Of course! Bob Ross I dressed up as Bob Ross for last years halloween party! (laughs)

F: (laughs) No way! That was you!? I was at that party! I remember seein you with Rue there. I thought it was like a random kid. That's mad cool, best costume in the house

L: Really? My mom and the girls gave me so much shit about it...

F: Why?

L: Because it was like a funny costume, not really a pretty one... I don't know, my mom had this weird speech about looking attractive on halloween or something...

F: That's dumb, halloween should be about eating candy and like kick it, you know?

L: Yes, exactly. It should be just about having fun...so, What did you dressed up as?

F: I was wearing like a pin stripe line suit, I was going for a Scarface look...

L: Isn't that a bit on the nose for drug dealer? (laughs)

F: (laughs) Yeah, kinda. I don't know, me and Ash watch that movie all the time. We are always quoting it and shit.

L: That's fun. I actually haven't seen that movie. Like, I know about it because it's such a cult classic, and everybody knows Brian de Palma...

F: Shit, really? Do you like, wanna watch it?

L: I'm open too it! I actually really like Carrie, so it's about time I check out Scarface, do you wanna watch it together?

F: Hell yeah, we have two dvd copies of it!

L: Cool, so, when can I drop by?

F: I don't know, whenever. This week is chill.

L: Tomorrow after school?

F: Sure, I can pick you up if you want... I know you end rehearsals a bit late, I dont want you biking at night...

L: No, I don't wanna bother...

F: I'm telling you, doesn't bother me.

L: okay, great then, it's settle..

(school bell sounds)

F: Shit, you saved by the bell, huh? (laughs)

L: (laughs) Yeah, I'm sorry, I gotta go... talk to you later?

F: You know it Bobby!

-end of call-

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Middle of a conversation between Lexi and Fezco, tuesday night
📱...

L: Okay, so favorite food?

F: easy
F: cereal

L: WHAT? Seriously?!?!

F: whats wrong with cereal?🤣

L: Nothing, it's just, out of all the foods in the world, cereal is your favorite?

F: I mean.. its not just about the taste u know
F: its also how easy it is
F: like is always there and u dont have to cook it
F: idk, like u can eat it everyday

L: Yeah but if they made you choose between like a really good burger or a bowl of cereal, which one would you choose?

F: the burger
F: but like I aint gonna eat a burger everyday
F: gets u fat

L: Well yeah but, eating sugary cereal every day it's gonna make you gain weight too.
L: I mean what kind of cereal do you eat?

F: honey nut cheerios

L: I can't believe you, Honey Nut Cheerios is your favorite food in the entire world?

F: I mean, yeah kinda
F: its what I eat the most

L: But that doesn't has to make it your favorite food
L: It has to be the food that you enjoy the most, it's cereal really the food you enjoy the most?

F: I mean, I dont know
F: I might have to get back at u on that one too
F: okay but, what about u? what's ur favorite food?

L: Easy, a side of fries dipped in vainilla milkshake

F: u eatin fries with ice cream and wanna judge me for pickin cereal 🤣

L: Okay, I get it, but I have my reasons.
L: First, is the nostalgia factor of it, Cassie and I would always go get fries after her ice skating lessons.
L: Then also, there is the simplicity of it. There is always something comforting about simple flavours. Vainilla is always good and that makes people think is boring, but when you tried every flavour of ice cream ever, you go back to vainilla again and you realized that it's the most solid flavour out of all of them. Also it's the one that goes best with fries, like the Strawberry milkshake might be my favorite one, but it doesn't go so well with the fries.
L: I just like the combination of salty an sweet... it makes it complex enough for me to find it always interesting everytime I go back to it.
L: So at the end, it makes for the best eating experience, making it my favorite food.

F: damn Lexi, u really think everything through, huh?

L: I'm sorry for writting too much. I am totally rambling about milkshakes lol

F: don't be sorry, its a good thing, ur thoughtful and shit
F: damn, I really want a milkshake now🤣

L: I mean, I guess... I sometimes think I spend way too much time inside my head.
L: Also same, I just made myself hungry on my tangent 😭

F: inside ur head, huh?
F: but like, isnt that good? like an active imagination?

L: Well yeah, but it makes me feel like I'm not present.
L: Like; life happens to me but I am not part of it?

F: yo, that's some heavy shit right there.
F: I guess I kinda feel the same in some ways

L: You do?

F: yeah, I just feel like I have never really made too many decisions
F: it was kinda given what I needed to do and I did it
F: it was survivin, not much thought behind it

L: I really admire your strength Fezco.
L: To be honest, I think out of everyone, you have spend too much time on the real world.
L: Like, you had to be present to stay alive.

F: shit, thank you Lex
F: I mean, it is what it is, u know?
F: you have gone through a lot too
F: and look at u
F: writing a whole fuckin tesis about some milkshake in one minute 🤣
F: we should get one

L: Get what? A Milkshake?

F: yeah, when r u free?

L: I am free tomorrow after school! It's a friday so I don't have any homework or extra work for the play...

F: cool
F: I pick u up

L: Oh, you don't have to. I can ride my bike to your place, or whatever.

F: hell the fuck no🤬
F: no biking at night
F: shit's dangerous

L: Okay dad... You can be a little overprotective sometimes!

F: only with the people I care about

(Lexi takes time to type back💬)
L: Okay, you win
L: You can pick me up at four from school, that works for you?

F: perfect shawty
F: see u then

L: Cool
L: Hey
L: Can I call you? I know it's a little late, but I want to hear your voice...

F: really?

L: I mean, not in like a creepy way. I just like talking to you and I think it's easier when we talk on the phone instead of texting...

F: gotchu
F: I wanna hear ur voice too