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Right by your side - James Morrison
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Where was I when your tears were falling
Where was I when you needed a friend
Where was I when your heart was calling
Do you not remember well I'll tell you then
You know I remain right by your side
Push through the rain and into the fire
'Cause when I said I loved you
Its just what i meant
So when you asked me where was I when
Every time I was right by your side
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She walked down to the foundry’s basement looking at her phone.
The news were all over the Internet. She’d racked her brain the whole way to the lair what they can do to make this all right again.
But she couldn’t find any solution to this disaster. While she was glad Oliver was out of custody, she felt equally devastated by the thought of Roy in an orange jumpsuit.
There was no way to fix it.
“Hey.”
She jumped slightly by the sound of his voice, looking up from her phone.
“Hey.” She whispered gently crossing the room, putting her purse on her desk.
He was sitting on one of the metal tables.
Sleeves up to his elbows. His jacket lying on the floor a few feet away from him.
“What are you doing here?” he asked, not looking up from his hands which were busy fiddling with an arrow.
“Excuse me?” she blinked. “Where else should I be?”
She took a step forward as he lifted his head meeting her eyes and she stopped abruptly.
He looked like she felt. Defeated.
“Ray is in hospital.” He simply stated not breaking eye contact.
“I’m aware.” She crossed her arms above her chest. “He’s fine.”
“You should be with him. I mean... You lov..” He paused, looking back down at his hands again. “You obviously care for him much.” He said. Voice barely a whisper.
She didn’t miss the words he’d rather wanted to say before he changed his mind.
“I care about a lot of things.” She threw her hands up in the air, like she wanted to emphasize what she was saying.
“ Didn’t mean I love them.” She stressed the word love. “I care about puppies, birds and bees, my hair, my shoes, Ice-cream...” she trailed off.
“No wait. I love Ice-cream. Really I couldn’t live without it. I would even say, that’s the second thing I love the most. Chocolate, mint, strawberry.. I don’t ca...”
“Felicity.” He said gently, his voice cracking, a sad smile on his lips.
It broke her heart.
“Oliver.” She replied. Her tone matching his.
“You shouldn’t be here. You should be with him, where it’s..”
“Safe?” She cut him off. Suddenly more angry than concerned.
“Seriously Oliver?!” She asked incredulously. But it was rather a statement than a question.
She turned around facing her desk and gripped the back of her chair, her knuckles turning white. She breathed heavily.
“You’re so stupid. So incredible stupid, self-absorbed, pretentious and you’re a jerk” She spat out, spinning back around to face him. Cheeks flushed with anger.
“Excuse me?” He was now standing just two feet away from her looking surprised by her outburst. “I just..”
“You heard right!” She cut him off, taking a step forward pointing a finger at him. “I’m done with your egocentric bullshit. There isn’t a safer place than with you. Lance knows I work with the arrow. The Leagueknows. Everyone knows. I wasn’t safe since you walked into the IT-department with this lame excuse about the bullet holes in your computer. And I certainly wasn’t safe when you used me to get to Slade.”
She wasn’t sorry for telling him, but as he flinched by her mentioning Slades name and the memory of what had happened that night she took a step back. “I’m not judging or blaming you for making that choice.” She said now a little bit calmer. “There was no choice. But I’m blaming you for not realizing that I’m a person who could make her own choices.”
“I...” He began.
“I’m not finished yet!” She cut him off again. “I thought you’d finally realized that you’re not alone in this. You said we were partner. Do you really think Diggle, Roy, Laurel and I didn’t know the risks. Don’t you get, that we’re all willing to take that risk. That I’m willing to take that risk? With you! You’re so wrapped up in your thinking you’re the lone wolf with the weight of the world on my shoulder.” She mimicked his Arrow-voice while gesturing wildly.
Lowering her voice she let her arms sink, shoulders slouched in defeat. “You’re pretending to keep everyone around you safe, but the only thing you’re actually doing is trying to keep yourself safe by pushing everyone around you to the side.” She touched his arm tenderly. Waiting for him to respond. To say something. Anything. But all he did was looking at her with a pained expression on his face.
She sighed and turned around. Slowly taking her purse she looked at him again.
“You know what?” She said softly, taking his hand in her own, her finger gently caressing his palm. “Wolves are actually member of a pack.” She smiled sadly, letting his hand go.
“I will go talk to Laurel. See if I can do anything to help Roy out of this mess.”
Walking towards the stairs, knowing Oliver wouldn’t respond, she looked over her shoulder to see him staring at her.
“Being in the hospital with Ray or here with you...” She started, her voice barely audible. “There was no choice to make. That choice I made when I found you bleeding in my car. And it will always come down to one thing: I am where I have to be. Where I belong. Right beside you. If you want me or not.”
And she left.
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Well, don't you know
That I give all the best of me
I've done it all
but you still don't want to see
that I remain right by your side
Push through the rain and into the fire
'Cause when I said I loved you
Its just what i meant
So when you asked me where was I when
Every time I was right by your side
Right by your side
Right by your side
I was right by your side
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