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MZD trotted behind NaN, having to slow down his usual quick movements to stay close to the slow, silent god. He followed her around the universe, NaN having been tasked with taking care of MZD today. She walked in front of him gently, kneading, kneading gently, slowly planning on showing him a new side of the universe he had not seen before, teaching him about the spiritual and calming properties of said place. MZD tended to get easily bored this way, and he was bored right now. He decided to instead ask her a lot of random questions, which he would do a lot to all the gods when he got bored.
"So amma… what's it like to travel to an entirely different universe..?" He started, slowing down his four legged trot and instead walking with his hands behind his back, a slightly mischievous grin he never seems to get out of. "Ah, well…. It would be hard to explain, I may have to show you myself some day…." NaN responded, slowly and quietly as always. MZD's tail began to wag, "HOW do you travel universes?" "Through deep trances, I manage to enter an entirely different universe if I focus enough." This honestly made no sense to MZD, but at least he's not as bored as he was. As weird and boring NaN could be, her mystery was incredibly interesting to MZD. Plus, sometimes he liked her being weird and boring, it was relaxing. He kept on asking more questions, "And you get to see your friend Alya by visiting another universe huh? How did he end up there?" NaN suddenly stopped in her tracks, her kneading slowing yet being a little harsher, "I don't know." She responded a bit louder than usual. This managed to make MZD a bit more curious, "Why did he end up there anyways? Mother Sigma said he was horrible and every time I ask my mom she doesn't wanna talk about it." NaN took a deep breath, "He tried hurting a lot of people, but I wouldn't blame him, they hurt him too."
"Who did he hurt?"
"Gods."
"Did he do something to mommy?"
"I don't think you'd wanna know, chellam."
"I DO I DO!!"
"No, it's too much."
"Tell meeeeee"
"He also hurt her, let's leave it at that."
"Then why are you his friend if he hurts people, I thought you were very against violence?"
"I am, but he acted out of emotions. He regrets what he has done."
NaN stopped kneading entirely and put her head down.
"You said the other gods were hurting him?"
"Yes, I did."
"Then why didn't you stop them?"
NaN quickly turned around and stared at MZD with a piercing gaze, shocking him and seemingly pushing him back. He could've sworn he felt physical pain from it. He had NEVER seen NaN so upset before. She once again began kneading incredibly quickly, nanboy obviously as unhappy as she was, her gaze was no longer her usual kind and loving gaze, but instead a wide eyed one full of anger, her breathing was quicker than usual, and the aura around her felt incredibly warped. MZD himself felt incredibly upset out of nowhere. He felt, scared.
"Don't ask such questions, none of this even concerns you. Be quiet, child."
'Be quiet, child.' MZD had never heard her speak with such directness and force in her voice. He whimpered slightly and backed off. He knew he messed up, but NaN's reaction only got him wondering more about what truly happened with Alya. Sigma would tell him horrible stories about him, and Photon would just refuse to talk about him entirely. Akatsuki claims to not remember a thing, Ninon seems to always be distracted when he asks, and his dad Dialogs seems to just freeze in fear. He was too scared to ask NaN any more questions though. At least he understood that they might have been very close. He felt odd, he had never felt regret over bothering others. Why was this going on?
They continued their walk to the far edges of the universe, silently. The air felt tense, NaN's silence felt much louder than usual, her aura seemingly lost its peace and instead was replaced with discomfort. MZD felt too scared to talk.
After a while NaN sighed, and closed her eyes gently. After a few seconds her normal calming demeanor seemed to come back, but it still felt oddly uncomfortable, as if these thoughts would linger with her for a while. "Excuse me for blowing up on you like that, just don't ask me about Alya anymore, you can speak, chellam.." MZD finally felt like he could speak again, and even if NaN seemed ok now, she still seemed a bit uneasy, and so did MZD. He stayed wondering what happened, maybe he might never know.