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Caitlyn knew. She knew Jinx would always be Vi's number one. She stopped trying to compete a long time ago. The way Vi reminisced on her time with her, the way she still looked at her as if she was still an innocent ten year old girl. Caitlyn didn’t blame her. Vi wasn’t there to see ‘Powder’ become Jinx. Jinx was family and Caitlyn learned that family meant everything to Vi.
It was raining. Both of them, drenched and trying to hold back tears. This reminded Caitlyn of something, a painful moment that she never wanted to relive, and yet, here they were, just reversed.
“I believe that’s my cue to leave.” I turn to leave.
“Cait please, come with me, we can do this together,” Vi pleads. All Caitlyn wants to do is stay, but for Vi, not for Jinx and everything Vi does is FOR Jinx.
“Violet I CAN’T! She MURDERED MY MOTHER," I scream, tears angrily stream down my cheeks, "I understand, she wasn’t always like this, but she is now. I want to find her just as bad as you do, just not for the same reason.” I’m staring into her eyes. Maybe if she doesn’t hear what I’m trying to tell her, she’ll see it.
“I get it, but if we find her, we can help her and everything can get back to how it was.”
“Violet…” I come closer and hold her cheek in my hand. She leans into it, then takes it and kisses my knuckles, my hand now in hers. The deja vu is absolutely terrible today. “We can’t turn back time. She’ll… none of us will go back to how we “were”. The past is in the past, all we can do is move forward.”
“I can’t leave her behind, she should be allowed to move forward too, shouldn’t she?” She moves closer, looking up at me with all of her fear and her vulnerability. I truly do feel sympathy for Vi, I thought I could confidently say I’d do anything for her, but then Jinx is thrown into the mix. “Violet, my door will always be open for you, but I do think I need some time on my own.” Something deep down told me that that was a lie. I don’t even know how I’d go about without Vi. It takes everything in me to not tell Vi how much I love her. That I love her with all of me, but that wouldn’t be fair. To tell her that my life is basically empty with her, but it would scare Vi just as much as it scares Caitlyn.
I pull Vi in and we melt into each other. I can hear Vi quietly sniffling while she rests her chin on my shoulder. She tightens the hug and I can’t help but let the tears finally fall. The longer they stay like that, the harder it will be to pull away, so Caitlyn pries herself out of Vi, wishing that the world would disappear and only her and Violet could be left, but wishing on the impossible only hurts you more.
“I’ll see you soon?” I say, hoping she doesn’t completely hate me for leaving her.
“I’ll see you soon,” she says, pushing stray strands of hair out of my face and behind my ear. I slowly turn and begin to walk away from her, taking in as much as I can before I leave. I can still feel her eyes on me, and I try to not look back.