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It is Kim Dokja’s third time crouching in front of his office’s toilet in the span of thirty minutes. This time, nothing is coming out of his mouth. His almond toast and tea from breakfast are all gone on his second throw-up. After he thought he finished, he went out of the cubicle and washes his hands. He didn’t feel like he had anything wrong this morning or the day before, so there’s no way he had food poisoning.
“Hey, you good?” Han Sooyoung, his coworker slash best friend got into the restroom and hopped onto the counter.
“You know this is a men’s bathroom, right?”
Han Sooyoung scoffed and gave a lemon candy to Kim Dokja. He took it. “I know, but who cares? My friend is dying so I have to be beside him.”
“But I’m not dying.”
They got out of the restroom and go back to their room. The faculty room is quiet right now because some of them are in class while the others waiting for class by grading assignments or just doing their own things. There are only 4 teachers in total, including Kim Dokja and Han Sooyoung right now. Their desks are right in front of each other with the window next to theirs.
“Seriously, are you sure you’re fine? It’s been, what, 3 days? You’ve been puking all of your guts.”
“Other than wanting to throw up every damn time, I’m ok. Probably something I ate upset my stomach.” Kim Dokja sips the warm peppermint tea. One sip and his stomach are finally at ease. “Besides, this peppermint really does help.”
“There’s no way it’s from something you eat. Your boyfriend is a goddamn chef! I bet you’re pregnant.”
Once Han Sooyoung said that Kim Dokja choked on his tea. “Sooyoung!”
Han Sooyoung looked up from her computer. “What? You guys have sex, and boom- pregnant. It's biology, Kim Dokja.”
“There’s no way I'm pregnant. We always use condoms.” Kim Dokja scoffed and continue enjoying his tea. Yes, they both are sexually active, and yes, they both always use condoms. They may have many plans for their relationship, but a child? They never talk about that. Both Kim Dokja and Yoo Joonghyuk are busy with their work and they enjoy it. Kim Dokja is busy dealing with his students and Yoo Joonghyuk is busy with his restaurant. He’s a chef de cuisine in a Michelin restaurant after all, he’s an absolutely busy man.
“Condoms can break. Why don’t you go to the doctor to have it checked? Maybe you really are dying.”
Kim Dokja shrugged and look at the watch. It’s 8.40 am. He had a class at nine. He should get ready. Once the clock shows 8.50 am, he bid goodbye to his best friend and starts to walk into the class. It’s going to be a long day. There’s no way he could think about being pregnant while his students are going to face the final exam in two months. But because of that damn Han Sooyoung, he keeps thinking about it. Is he, pregnant? But there’s no way he’s pregnant. They always use condoms. Are they? He keeps thinking about this the whole time until he didn’t realize that he finished all the classes today and it was time to go home. He went to the office first to put some stuff and look at Han Sooyoung’s desk. She must be gone back home already.
Thankfully Kim Dokja parked not that far from the office building so he can rest his body soon. Once he was inside the car, he checked the phone, there were no important messages, only some from banks and service providers offering some discounts. At the stop sign, he looks at the billboards upfront. There’s a brand-new phone launching advertisement, getaway private island trip ad, new movie coming out this week ad, also there’s - wait a minute. Kim Dokja looked back at the getaway private island trip ad. They had a ski trip on a mountain about three months ago and on the last day, they had sex. With no condom. “FUCK!”
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Kim Dokja had been sitting on the counter of his bathroom for at least - or as far as he’s aware of 20 minutes. He keeps looking at the white stick on his hands with ‘pregnant’ written on the screen. All of the four different brands of stick he bought from the pharmacy are saying pregnant and two red lines. He still couldn’t believe it. Well, he should prepare for this if he agrees with no condom sex with that bastard boyfriend of his, Yoo Joonghyuk. Being pregnant was not on Kim Dokja’s this year bingo card. Raising a child was not on Kim Dokja’s ten years bingo card. He keeps asking himself should I keep it? Should I keep them? If I keep it, will Joonghyuk accept my decision and stay by my side? Will he leave me as my father did to Mom? Kim Dokja sighed and put the pregnancy test on the counter. He got off the counter, wash his hands and get out of the bathroom. He felt hazy and confused. Should he be happy? Sad? Angry? He didn’t know what he is supposed to feel. It felt surreal.
He didn’t realize his phone has been ringing for a while, and once he realize he found there were four missed calls and one message from froot loops monster flashing on his lock screen. He opened the message Joonghyuk asked what did he want for dinner. He doesn’t want anything. He just wants him to come home. After feels like a long time, he heard the elevator open. Ah, Yoo Joonghyuk is home.
“Dokja, you’re home?” he heard Yoo Joonghyuk put his bag on the kitchen island and he heard Yoo Joonghyuk walks towards him. Kim Dokja looked up and saw his boyfriend there, looking tired but still handsome as hell. His hair is messy but his black shirt is still tucked up tidy on his black pants. He had already taken off his coat.
“Hey.” Kim Dokja walked to him and give a peck on the lips. The smell of Bleu de Chanel with Yoo Joonghyuk’s natural musk mixed so well.
“I send you a text but you didn’t answer, so I brought you wellington. Is that, ok?” Yoo Joonghyuk hugs Kim Dokja tightly and showers the top of his head with kisses. This gesture is one of Kim Dokja’s favorites. “It’s fine.”
“Joonghyuk, there’s something I have to tell you.” Kim Dokja wiped his mouth with a napkin and put it away. Yoo Joonghyuk who’s putting the plates and utensils to the dishwasher, stop and looks at Kim Dokja. He frowned, “What’s going on?” Kim Dokja went to the bathroom to take the pregnancy tests and put them behind his back. “Do you remember our ski resort trip three months ago?” Yoo Joonghyuk nodded. “Well, remember on the last day, we ran out of condoms and you’re too lazy to buy again?” Yoo Joonghyuk frowned, “It was you who are too impatient and told me to just do it, remember?” Kim Dokja rolled his eyes and sighed, “Anyway, thanks to your super mega fertile sperm, we had this.” Kim Dokja gave the tests to him.
Yoo Joonghyuk took all four tests and looked at them. His eyes widened but he didn’t say anything. Kim Dokja still waiting for his reaction. But Yoo Joonghyuk is still quiet.
“I’m pregnant.”
The train of bad thoughts comes again inside of Kim Dokja’s head. He wanted to be selfish and say Yoo Joonghyuk will take it nicely and happily, but he doesn’t think he’s happy. Yoo Joonghyuk just got promoted as a head de cuisine four months ago and he got busier ever since. Kim Dokja is sure having and raising a child together is not on Yoo Joonghyuk’s lists.
“I’m pregnant, and I think I’m going to keep it.”
Yoo Joonghyuk looked at Kim Dokja. “Kim Dokja, is this real?”
“Yeah, I still can’t believe it but it’s real. I had this test done this evening.” Yoo Joonghyuk put the tests on the kitchen island and walked towards Kim Dokja. He hugged him tightly. “Thank you for thinking to keep it.” Kim Dokja frowned. “Wait, you’re not mad?”
“Why am I supposed to be mad for?”
“Well, because I’m pregnant?”
Yoo Joonghyuk scoffed, “Why would I have to be mad because you’re pregnant. I mean it’s ours. We both do it and I am happy if you’re going to keep it and I will respect your decision if you don’t want to keep it. It's your body.”
Kim Dokja lost in his response. He’s happy. He won’t leave me. He didn’t realize his tears fell out and Yoo Joonghyuk shreds his tears away. “Hey, are you ok?” Kim Dokja buried his head on his chest. “I thought you will leave me.” Yoo Joonghyuk caressed his head, lift Kim Dokja’s chin, and kissed his lips slowly. “Never.”
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Kim Dokja is sitting quietly in the examination room waiting area. He looked at the wall in front of him. there are a lot of informational posters about pregnancy, what to and what not to do during pregnancy, what kind of diet that suitable for the baby, how big is your baby during pregnancy weeks by weeks. He examined the baby size poster. If his counting is correct, he is 12 weeks pregnant. That means the size of the baby is around 6 cm. Kim Dokja put his right palm on his flat stomach. He still couldn’t believe there was a living thing inside him. Yoo Joonghyuk came back after finishing all the administration process and sitting beside him. After they wait for around 10 minutes, the nurse called Kim Dokja’s name and they went inside the examination room.
“Hello, my name is Dr. Gabriella, and you must be Mr. Kim and Mr. Yoo. Mr. Kim, please lay down here.”
Kim Dokja nervously got on the bed. The nurse helped him to open his shirt and Dr. Gabriella smiled towards Kim Dokja. “This may feel cold, please bear it for a while,” she said as she poured an ultrasound gel to his stomach. Wow. That was cold indeed. She started to move the probe around his stomach and she smiled, “there it is.” She pointed at the screen and Kim Dokja looked at it for the first time. There. Their baby. On the monitor, he can see the shape of the head and a little body. He didn’t know when Yoo Joonghyuk went beside him but he is here now and place his hands on Kim Dokja’s. “Our baby.” Kim Dokja smiled as tears started to form in his eyes. It is real. They really have a baby.
“You are 12 weeks pregnant and the baby is in healthy condition as far as I'm looking. The length of the baby is 5.8 cm which is good, and let’s hear the heartbeat.” A few seconds later, the room is filled with the fast thump, thump, thump sounds. Kim Dokja is shocked because the sounds are so fast. Is it okay? Is the baby alright? “Is it always so fast like this?” Yoo Joonghyuk asked the question and looked at Dr. Gabriella.
She chuckled. “The heartbeat is 150 beats per minute and it’s normal for a baby around 12 weeks. Your baby is a healthy little thing. But I will take a blood sample to have further tests, is that alright with you two?” they both nodded and Dr. Gabriella told the nurse to take a blood sample from Kim Dokja. She helped Kim Dokja with cleaning the rest of the gel from his stomach and took some blood once she finished.
“So, we will have a screening test for trisomy 18 and trisomy 21 as for Edward Syndrome and Down Syndrome. The test result will available one week from now. If there’s nothing wrong with it, you can have another check-up in one month. Are you having morning sickness these past days or weeks?”
“Uh, I started vomiting about three days ago in the morning and sometimes during lunch and also dinner.”
“Yeah, that’s understandable. Although it’s called ‘morning sickness', some people didn’t experience it during the morning only. I will not prescribe medication for now, but if your morning sickness gets worse, please come here anytime soon. Also, you need to maintain your diet. It may be hard to eat because of the nausea feeling, but make sure you keep eating. Try to keep eating smaller but more often.”
After Dr. Gabriella finished giving some explanations about doing and don’ts, they went out of the hospital. They went to the car and Yoo Joonghyuk started to drive home.
“Joonghyuk, this is really happening.” Kim Dokja looked at Yoo Joonghyuk. He smiled as Yoo Joonghyuk took Kim Dokja’s palm and bring it to his mouth. “It is happening.”
“So, when are we going to tell this big news to Mama and Tata, also, Mia?”