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Shadowy glasses on, music pumping
good vibes on the surface
as the stability i knew
the ground where i walk
crumbles
like a broken heart.
like my broken heart.
No matter how upbeat the sound is
the inside of my soul…
what soul?
is it even there?
i-
i can’t feel it?
The pain feels numb
like the muted music
of a party
miles away.
i wasn’t invited.
who am i kidding?
no one ever invites the ‘freak.’
no one thinks about the ‘misfit.’
after all
why should they?
i won’t be here much longer.
the pill bottle’s on the table, filled with a heaping helping of my demise.
the note’s been written, filled with ‘thank you’s,’ ‘sorry’s,’ and ‘why didn’t you see the signs?’
the misery?
gone.
the pain?
gone.
the sadness and pent-up anger that had eaten away at my soul?
GONE!
HAHAHAHAHA!
I hated the emptiness- wait, no- despised it with every fibre in my being.
and now?
gone. just like my soul. just like i’m gonna be!
poof.