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yeonjun fell in love with soobin faster than he had ever fallen for anyone. well, he can’t say that he fell for lots of people before, but still. soobin was something different whatsoever.
since he himself was pretty tall, yeonjun always pictured himself with someone smaller, be them girl or boy. he liked to imagine caging them in his arms, corning them for fun, teasing and all that stuff. and all of a sudden he’s facing a tower of a boy, pretty in every way. from head to toe, the most precious thing he’s ever seen.
the fact that he had to look up to look soobin in the eye made him blush. it woke something new in him, something he didn’t knew he had. see, yeonjun was always referred to as the protector one, the one who must be strong, and he liked that. but deep down, he always wanted to be cared for. to feel little, weak even. and seeing soobin in all that glory made him experiment a tiny bit of how it could feel like.
when it was decided that soobin was going to be their leader, and not him, he couldn’t have felt better. he was the older of the boys, and it was already some sort of a burden. but now he had soobin to share the weight of taking care of the kids with him. not only that, he could have soobin’s shoulder in a time of need. and watching his group mate become a better leader everyday made yeonjun’s heart swell with love and affection.
it came to a point where he couldn’t hide it anymore. everyone had noticed. the kids, the staff, even moa noticed. it was just a matter of time for soobin to find out about his crush - it was more than a crush, but anyways.
but to nobody’s surprise, soobin remained oblivious to everything that was happening. “won’t he realize? i mean, yeonjun hyung is always touchy and flirty with him. he can’t be that blind” said beomgyu one day while playing video game with taehyun on the living room.
“soobin hyung is the definition of introvert. he probably thinks he’s invisible. he’ll never think that choi yeonjun will look at _him_, even though he’s the most amazing person we all know”.
“you’re the most amazing person i know, taehyun”. beomgyu said with a grin. taehyun punched his arm playfully. “quit the flirting if you don’t mean it”.
they were interrupted by a sleepy soobin emerging from the room he shared with yeonjun.
“hey guys. what you doing?”
“oh we were just talking about how taehyun doesnt realize my flirting is for real. he’s really dumb you know? i thought i was being obvious!” beomgyu earned a borderline oppressive look from taehyun for saying that.
“ha. yeah, tae. everyone can see beomgyu has a crush on you. it is pretty obvious.”
“hmmm i see. i guess i’ll have to talk to him later. but anyways hyung, what about you? do you think you’d notice if someone had a crush on you?” taehyun decided that he would help yeonjun. this story had be going on for years. something had to be done.
“uh? me? why so sudden?” soobin seemd genuinely confused. poor boy.
“yeah, hyung, we’re just curious!” beomgyu took the chance to participate.
“um i guess i would, yeah, totally.”
“yeah yeah, totally”. taehyun looked at beomgyu trying to say something like “ok he’s a lost cause”.
“soobinnieeeeeeeeee where are yooooou”
the three boys could hear yeonjun practically mewling from their room. “gosh, what a simp” beomgyu said loud enough for soobin to hear.
“what did you just say?” asked the leader.
“nothing, nothing. but you should go see yeonjun hyung. sounds like he needs you”.
soobin looked at his bandmates with a suspicious look and went to his room without saying another word.
“hey you left me here all alone” said a pouty yeonjun.
“you big baby i was just checking out on the kids”
yeonjun was laying on the bottom bunk bed, waiting for soobin to comeback to sleep with him. they liked to cuddle from time to time (for stress relieving purposes only. or that’s what soobin thought).
the elder made grabby hands and soobin couldn’t help but oblige to his hyung. he loved his best friend so much it was hard not to do as he pleased.
“so, what were they doing?” asked yeonjun once his head was on soobin’s chest. his right arm around the taller’s waist, their legs tangled.
“they were discussing the obvious fact that beomgyu has a crush on taehyun. you know that tae doesn’t believe that?”
yeonjun couldn’t help but laugh at the irony of the question. but he made a mental note to thank the guys later for giving him the bait to finally confess his feelings.
“why are you laughing?”
“sorry, sorry. it’s just that i’ve seen this film before. and i was the main character”.
“really? you never told me about that.”
“it’s and old story. fell in love a few years ago. i kept waiting for the person to notice but they didn’t. so i just kept my feelings to myself. i guess beomgyu is bolder than i was.”
“that’s sad to hear, hyung… but it’s even sadder for her, she’s been losing out on an amazing guy”.
“him. sadder for him.”
“oh, sorry to assume.”
“that’s no problem. but i don’t think he lost out on me, you know? i have been showering him with my love ever since. and i’m not even subtle with that so i think he’s glad with the love he’s receiving. even if he doesn’t feel the same.”
there was a few seconds of silence between them. yeonjun could hear soobin’s heart beat racing. was he finally realizing?
“you’re talking in the present tense now.”
yeonjun raised his head and looked at soobin straight in the eye. soobin’s expression was a mix of astonishment and self consciousness. but in yeonjun’s eyes, he couldn’t have been more beautiful.
“yes, i am”. he said, solemnly. “because i still love him. even more every minute, every hour, every day. he’s my best friend. i really wished he felt the same for me. but, if he doesn’t, i’ll keep on loving him from afar. as long as he’s still my best friend”.
it took a second for soobin to process everything he just heard. but once it clicked, he slowly, carefully leaned forward, until his forehead and the tip of his nose were connected to yeonjun’s. and he was the one to break the silence.
“hyung… c-can I kiss you?”
“please…”
and they finally connected their lips. yeonjun’s heart bursted in a million pieces, like fireworks. he felt soobin’s hand gently caressing his face, and he pushed the leader’s body closer to him.
soobin interrupted the kiss and looked at yeonjun, whose eyes were full of tears that refused to roll down. and at that moment, soobin realized that what he had been feeling for the last year was not just a strong admiration for his hyung. that his craving for the nights of cuddling were not merely because he was stressed, not. he loved yeonjun. not only as his best friend. but way, way more than that.
and he leaned in again, kissing the older more fervently, holding him tight as his life depended on that. he could’ve done it so long ago… why was him so blind?
yeonjun’s tears finally gave out and he couldn’t contain the crying. there were so many feelings going through his body and his mind that he couldn’t hold back anymore, and he started weeping, breaking the kiss.
“hey, hey, why are you crying?” soobin asked in a soothing voice, wiping yeonjun’s tears with his thumb.
in between sobs, yeonjun managed to answer. “ive been waiting for this for so long… so long. my heart literally ached for you and i spent countless nights keeping myself from crying because of this. i guess that now everything is coming out in one go”
soobin hugged yeonjun and kissed the top of the other boy’s head. he kept giving small pecks to his head, and then proceeded to whisper in his ear, with the most sweet voice he could.
“im sorry, hyung. im so sorry. i was so stupid, i’ve been wanting this for so long too, but i couldn’t realize what I was feeling. and now it all makes sense. i love you, yeonjun hyung. i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you…”
yeonjun looked at soobin once more, with swollen eyes and pouty lips. tomorrow he would probably be embarrassed about all the crying, but now he couldn’t care less. he just wanted to be with his love, no matter what.
“are you not going to let me go?”
“no, no, no. never. i won’t ever let you go. i promise. okay?” soobin placed a peck on the tip of his nose.
“thank you… thank you, soobin” and yeonjun was crying again.
“you don’t have to thank me. you are the one giving me the gift of being allowed to kiss you every single day.” soobin smiled fondly.
that made yeonjun smile through his tears. he wiped his face with the back of his hand and tried to give soobin the best of his smiles before he was once again kissing the boy.
oh.
kissing his boyfriend.
and they kissed, and kissed, and kissed, and kissed…