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"Okay. Action! Everybody get on your seats. They're starting."
I got comfy on my seat, preparing to see someone I was expecting, someone who was once the best part of my life.
But I guess he's just a part, a chapter in a book, and a memory in the mind.
"Wonwoo, come on in." The director said, behind the cameras that was shooting two men that could be emotional later asking what went wrong to each other, a very stupid show I agreed on.
Welcome to Why Us Ended A show viewed on YouTube, casting numerous people that were couples in the past.
And I happened to take in to this particular show, I think it's just because of my last sense of will that I was holding on for long, for years actually.
He got out, walking towards the wooden stool, his eyes not yet meeting mine. Which I hope it would.
Last time I saw you was through a text message, breaking off a 5 year relationship with no explanation at all, I never thought he would so something like that to me though, to the love of his life, he said.
"Hey. Please don't be an ass here, I'd rather just see you mean in private than all these people looking at you and your fucked up ass." I wandered my eyes around the staff, making him look up to me.
"We're really starting in two, get into your positions guys!"
"Mingyu, Wonwoo. We're rolling!"
I stared at his figure for the first seconds, he bulked up for the last few months. I guess it was about 8 months since he broke it off? But he did took care of himself, considering the mess he always makes in my apartment, I'm very surprised he even took time to look decent. I was told he went to some foreign country, probably bringing his girls to all the corners in a world. I once thought he won the lottery or something and that's why we broke up, because he couldn't even spend a dime on me. He was like a big ass rock on my shoulder, and I was struggling to carry him all the goddamn time.
I looked deep into his unsettled eyes, not lasting seconds on my stare.
"How did you guys meet?"
"We were mutual friends, we just happened to meet when my friend hosted a party, then Wonwoo kind of flirted his life out with me.
He chuckled, finally making himself comfortable on his seat. Looking through my eyes.
I'd rather not see you comfortable with me, babe.
"Yeah, we clicked right from the start. Can't deny you were cute." he played with the ring on his index finger.
Oh. Okay.
"Right. We were almost immediately friends after that party. We kept on hanging with each other, texting and doing FaceTime until it was like 3 in the morning. He had pretty bad insomnia, so I wanted to take care of that especially since we began dating." I blabbered.
"We became inseparable. And I couldn't find myself in my vision of the future without Mingyu, so I asked him out and I moved in when he turned 20. I was about 23." He was like doing a commentary on a movie inside his head, he looked like he was daydreaming which was my favorite thing to see. Back then.
"I loved Mingyu so much back then. Like a lot." he looked down.
"Me too, Wonwoo. Me too." I felt myself smiling. My heart was about to combust. I was getting teary-eyed.
He held his hand out, something he woulddo when he saw me stressed out back then. I intertwined my hand with his as we wait for the next question.
"What happened between the two of you?"
I felt myself losing my grip on his hand so I let go quickly.
I sadly smiled, not knowing what to expect behind a "I don't want to do this anymore, Mingyu. Let's break up." text.
"What did you do, Wonwoo?" I urged him to answer the question.
"I did every fucked up thing." he started.
I pursed my lips, waiting for he answer to all the questions that pondered my mind for so long.
How did we fuck up? Where did we go wrong?
"I had sex with other girls. I texted people when you were asleep or when you were away. I'm much more of a mess than you think." he casually said, leaning back with fidgeting fingers.
He fooled, swayed, and and cheated on me.
He's outrageous.
I felt my tears rolling down my cheek as I tried to keep my calm to staring deep into his face.
So I looked down, wiping it with my fingers. It was endless waterfall.
I felt his palm caressing my knee so I backed up my chair, getting rid of his warmth.
"You're such an asshole. A douchebag. Oh fuck, why do I keep crying?! God knows how much I want to fucking punch you right now. You're unexplainable, Wonwoo!" I shouted, it was like I forgot everyone that was surrounding me, this man in front of me just lied straight to my face then told me he loved me by dusk.
I heard the director whispering "Cut" so I calmed myself down for a few minutes before speaking again. The guy in front of me was just gulping over and over again like a frog with his plastic water bottle.
"Were you fucking with me for 5 years?" I had my hand on a fist.
"Oh God no. We were 4 years in already, I think when I started the mess."
"You just made yourself sound more like a fucking asshole. I'm impressed on how you could fool me that easily, Wonwoo. Feels great, wow! Spectacular, darling!" I sarcastically clapped, feeling tears brimming my eyes again.
He just eyed me and gave me a small smile. I felt my heart crack a little, I'm not gonna lie.
"Why did you cheat?" I felt my tongue getting numb, wanting to run away from this studio and cry myself to sleep.
"Why did you let me?" He blurted too mindlessly.
I never felt my own heart sink so deep inside me. Splinters could get produced with the thought of my heart wrecked. My world just closed at that moment. I couldn't feel or hear anything. It was just me eyeing my ex-lover while feeling my own heart break, numb.
"I'm sorry, director. I can't do this. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I felt my own legs rush through the door, wearing my hoodie above my head.
I can't find any reason to hear this out any more.
I would never want to witness my downfall. Especially in front of him.
I'll face you when I can.
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Fuck my life.