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There’s nothing much they can do, mark knows as he lays down on the couch, a deep sigh leaving his lips. It has been a tiring day which on other occasions would’ve been less tiring had it not been for the constant shoving of the cameras onto their faces.
“We have to get used to this,” taeyong had told him once after a tiring schedule when mark nearly passed out. There wasn’t much they could do, he knew. There certainly wasn’t anything they could do as they practically chose this path.
In came to his life, Jaehyun, someone who he had been varying in the start, during his trainee days due to his build but soon would warm up to as they’re practically joined by hips now. Add some feelings to it and a relationship bloomed. They kept it well hidden in the start, not like the rest were prying onto whatever they had going on. The occasional cuddling and the teasings, the intense stares, all were gone unnoticed by the team members, it’s normal for team members they had argued. And it came off as a surprise the two were a couple.
As he lays down, his mind drifts back to Jaehyun. What must the other be doing? He knows he should make a call but he’s too stubborn. Way too stubborn and egotistical to say sorry for what he had done.
“Why should I be the one saying sorry?” he had argued with donghyuck who sat down to have a heart-to-heart talk with him. The younger saw how depressed mark looked so he decided to share two cents of his thoughts, the elder clearly unimpressed by it.
“I say you listen to me patiently Hyung,” he said firmly as mark slumped back to the couch, a pout gracing his lips.
“Why did you fight with him?” he asked patiently as mark sighed, fumbling with his fingers.
“He said I’m way too consumed on my own world that I forgot him! Can you believe it??? I spent my time with him even though we’re quite busy and yet he dares to say it. I can’t believe it hyuck. Am I that disappointing to him or what???” he was frustrated, frustrated with everything and the words hit him hard.
“Why don’t you try talking to him?” donghyuck had suggested as mark hums, a little before speaking out.
“he completely blocked me off, he stormed out right after the fight. I don’t even think he’ll be here tonight. Or even near me…” he sounded hurt, disappointed as donghyuck pulls him in closer for a hug patting his back. He may not know how it might feel to be in the other’s position but he sure sympathizes with him.
“mark. Listen to me, try talking to him, explain your part if needed, don’t blow things out of proportion.”
“am I the one blowing things out of proportion? He did! And now he’s gone I don’t even know where he had gone to!! It sucks because my own boyfriend wouldn’t even understand me or won’t even listen to what I got to say and storm off!” his voice cracked, as donghyuck holds the other tight in his arms, knowing what he needed then was comfort. Soft whimpers could be heard as he sighed knowing mark had lost his self-composure the very thing he had been holding to until he lost it.
“I…fuck I can’t even speak right now,” he croaked out, a tear slipping his eyes,” I don’t think we’ll last hyuck, what if he doesn’t find me attractive anymore? What if he thinks I’m so selfish that he will be better off alone?” he raises his concerns as the other pats his head to calm him down. Donghyuck was bad at comforting people, usually, the one getting consoled especially by mark. It came off as a surprise to him to see the roles get changed.
“he wouldn’t, I’m pretty sure he still loves you, he must be frustrated that’s all,”
“I have frustrations too hyuck, I have feelings too! Do I ever complain?”
It was hard to calm the other down, donghyuck realizes as he gets up abruptly making the other widen his eyes. He’s concerned sure, but what mark needs right now is jaehyun. He wouldn’t be able to calm him down nor does he know how to. He’s way too frustrated to hold it back.
“What you need right now is a good night’s sleep, c’mon let’s get you to your bed,”
“Hyuck…it’s okay you can go to your room, I know you’re tired of me as well,” mark voices out, quiet to be heard as donghyuck sighed rubbing his temple.
“c’mon that’s not what I meant, no matter what I say you wouldn’t be happy… what you need right now is a goodnight’s sleep. And jaehyun, he’ll be back I’m sure,”
“I don’t think he will be there…he’s pretty serious hyuck…what if I lose him forever?”
He sounds distressed, his voice breaking in between and his eyes a mess. He’s crying, donghyuck realizes as he sits down not wanting to leave the male.
“He’ll be back, you guys will be okay…I’m sure,” was he, he would’ve said yes had it not been for the male’s breakdown. He’s not so sure now but he hopes everything goes fine between the two.
Mark is squirming on his bed. He finds it hard to sleep. He needs jaehyun, he needs him right beside him. It’s a shame the male hasn’t returned yet perhaps it was his own actions that made the male stay away, he now thinks.
The sound of the door unlocking made him patiently wait for the figure to show up. He was looking tall as ever, his face expressionless as he throws his jacket to a corner of the room making mark flinch slightly.
He’s still frustrated, mark thinks as jaehyun makes his way to the bathroom to freshen up not sparing a glance at the younger who was still in the bed, his round eyes poking out of the sheets.
Maybe he doesn’t want to talk about it, he thinks further before chewing on his lip. A bad habit of his but he can’t stop himself from feeling nervous. What if things are going to end for them? What if jaehyun switches rooms with someone else?
He felt the bed dip beside him as he inhaled sharply, holding in his breath.
“Mark…” jaehyun whispered, slightly touching the male making him shudder a bit.
“Mark…” he voiced out, a bit more gentle this time as mark sighed turning to face the other.
“hey baby”
“don’t hey baby me, I’m so anxious right now I don’t even think I can listen to what you have to say,” mark speaks out blunt, his lip caught between his teeth afterward, and his eyes settling on anywhere but jaehyun.
“and what do you think I will say?” jaehyun teases, as he moves closer to the male, provoking mark to move backward. a hand on his hips got him to stop as he stayed still, his eyes piercing through the clock, an awkward attempt to not have his soul pierced by the having to meet the intense gaze of the other.
“maybe something along the lines of you not wanting to have this relationship” that you don’t want me anymore, he left those words unsaid.
“oh, baby” he pulls the younger closer to him as mark lets out a yelp at the sudden force. His face squished against the other’s built, he looks at the other who is smiling down at him.
“you scared me,” after what felt like hours mark spoke out, as he snuggles closer to the male for comfort earning a hum from the other.
“ did I?”
“a lot…I even contemplated whether I should pack my bags and move to another room before you get back, I don’t know Jae…I really thought we were done for good,”
“I’m sorry…” and he means it as he stares down at his world, the one who has his whole heart in possession, the one to who he wishes to go back home.
“did you…did you mean those words…that I’m not there for you…that…that I’m selfish,”
“I never said you were selfish,”
“But you implied…now say…whether you meant it or not…” jaehyun was a bit hesitant, mark notes as he takes in a deep breath preparing for the worst that’s to come his way.
“look I’m disappointed with how things have been with us lately…and a part of it has to do with our schedules, I’m sorry, and I mean it, I should’ve understood you better and not complained as if you don’t go through enough already,”
Maturation is when you realize communication is the key to a healthy relationship as mark stares back at the male before pressing a small kiss on the other’s lips. It was short, far too short for the older male’s liking.
“I love you,” mark speaks out as jaehyun hums, a smirk grazing his lips. “I love-hey what was that for?” rubbing his cheek jaehyun faces the younger who seemed to be having a small pout on his lips, his puppy eyes on display.
“that’s for scaring me,”
“I’ll let it slide for now since I’m very much tired and want to be in my lover’s hands,” he wraps his arms around the other tightly as mark smiles smiling into his shoulder.
“goodnight,”