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You shouldn't be here.
You should be dead.
You don't deserve his forgivness.
These thoughts, these voices. Every night he hears them. When his mind isn't busy, they come out, clawing at him, like some kind of fierce beasts.
But deep down, he knows they are right.
Memories of that day are still fresh in his mind.
Daigo's desperate voice calling his name, his gaze fixated on him. Eyes full of confusion and pain.
Kiryu, sitting beside him, yelling that this is not the answer.
Despite that, he should have ended it. He should have died. He deserved as much.
You should have paid...
You betrayed him...
You s-...
"Yoshitaka?"
He heard quiet confused voice.
"Is something wrong?"
Daigo's voice.
"Hey...Yoshitaka..."
It's like magic.
"I can hear you thinking"
Magic thats always calms those beasts.
"What is it? Talk to me."
He hears the sheets rustle as Daigo lifts himself up. He slowly turns to face him. Mine's eyes meet Daigo's.
Those eyes, it looked like they were shining, like two stars in pitch black skies. And his look was full of worry.
"Why..?" Mine starts, but no other words came out.
Daigo stays quiet and patienly waits for him to continue.
After a moment, that felt like hours to Mine, he tries again.
"Why do you still want me by your side. I don't-...I-..
"Is it about that again?" Daigo cuts him off.
Sad smile appears on his face.
"I already told you, many times. I trust you, Yoshitaka."
Daigo slowly extens his hand and caresses Mine's cheek, rubing circles with his thump.
Mine averts his eyes.
"I still don't get why, after what I did."
Daigo sighs.
"We've already been through this.
I know it had been difficult for you too back then. You weren't in the best state of mind. And despite your...metods, you were doing it for the sake of the clan and my sake as well."
Mine wanted to argue but as he opened his mouth he only got out a quiet "I" before Daigo got closer and hugged him tightly.
"Yoshitaka, please, stop thinking about the past. I hate seeing you hurting like this. What happened doesnt matter to me. Think about present instead. About us."
This time, Mine stayed silent. He felt like crying. He was desperately trying to hold back tears. His hands slowly found their way to Daigo's back. As he hugged back he felt Daigo smile.
Mine buried his face in Daigo's chest.
He felt a hand touch the back of his head and stroke his hair. Soft kiss was placed on his forehead.
"It's alright. I'm here."
He could no longer hold back tears. Sound of his quiet sobs filled the room and Daigo held him through it. He was there for him, like always.
Mine sudenly felt tired. He closed his eyes. And with those beasts silent he drifted peacefuly to sleep.
Daigo is there for him every time those memories come back. He forgave him like it was nothing.
Maybe one day, he will be able forgive himself as well.