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'We need to talk, I think I love you too'
As I sent that message, I was walking infront of the school, entering the school from getting ingredients from the gardening club, when I hear yelling that sounds familiar, along with others yelling and pointing, curiosity gets the best of me and I look up which I instantly regretted.
Someone is falling- they jumped- I stumble in shock joining one of the groups that have formed- thats when i notice, Pink- pink hair- and a white dress shirt- You know it almost looks like- my stomach drops
Wait Sousuke- oh god no-
before realize it I start yelling with the group- but his name instead of just shrieks- then he hits the ground everyone goes silent- his brain or what- i believe is his brain splatters everywhere along with his blood, the shouting is back but I barely hear it- people who were too close got covered in blood and where vomiting, others are rushing to the teachers and calling the police, but I just stood there, in shock, tears were coming out of my eyes but I felt stunned, eventually I moved closer to his body but before I got too close someone grabbed my hand "Kou- stay back, I wont make you leave but please just stay back- that's a lot to see." Senpai speaks sobbing in-between words, with her other hand on the phone- obviously there's a responder on the line. I stay there quiet before I start to break down, processing it all, my knees give out, I push Nene away and I drag myself towards my best friend- I want to grab him- i want to hug him- but his head is almost completely split, "Why would you do this-" I grab his arm slightly- shaking it in attempts to wake him up but I know there's no way someone could survive that, i gently picked up what was left of his head and placed it in my lap, soaking my pants but that's the least of my concerns his face- or what I can see of it looks horribly disfigured he's gone, forever, these pants- no this school will forever be haunted by the thought of this- I stroke his bloodied hair , my tears missing in with all of the blood- then I get tapped on the shoulder by a very sympathetic looking police officer "Sir- You need to go, this is a potential crime scene." I just hold his head closer "I'm not leaving him- this isn't- no- Sousuke is stuck up-pretentious super girly-selfish moody as fuck punk and he would-" i stop talking for a minute and lean down to his head in my lap "he would never stay quiet this long-and he's a camera nerd- he's dramatic and fake when he's bullied- he's my best friend- my annoying best friend with the biggest heart- this isn't him-" I quickly get interrupted by Senpai grabbing my hand, and a police officer grabbing my under arm and lifting me up to which I psychically can't put up much of a fight about, I just cry- and getting handed over to Teru-nii and I fall into his arms sobbing, he strokes my hair softly- not even caring that I got blood on him whispering that it would be alright- his voice breaking in-between whispers.
After awhile of me clinging to Teru-nii's shirt he makes me go home with him- and makes me change my clothes and wash them, Tiara runs up to me with a concerned look on her face and hugs me tightly which makes me feel worse, i get in the bath and Teru-nii watches over me "Teru-nii- this is- this is all my fault-" my tears start leaking again- they are cold compared to the bath I was in "Kou he loved you- you did nothing to hurt hi-" "You dont know that! I should have- I should have stayed with him- I could have told people the things he told me- I could have accepted his confession but I'm too- I'm too fucking selfish- I never thought about how he felt- I-" Teru-nii shushes me and I realize I've been yelling by accident this whole time "Kou, if anything you're too selfless- he cared about you deeply we both know that- but sometimes things happen, don't blame yourself." I get out of the shower and collapse onto the bed. my tears starting to spill again, Teru-nii hugs me and ruffles my hair before heading to his own room- I can hear him crying too, I look through my messages with Sousuke which makes me feel worse instead of better- but I hear a knock on the door- and I hear Tiara answering the door and awhile after the door closes and Tiara comes into my room, "Kou-Onii-san? a nice lady told me to give this note to you- She said "Sousuke would want Minamoto to have it-" She hands over a note- I glance over it- and quickly realize its his sucide note, but its ripped and it only leaves the part dedicated to me.
Sixth Kou Minamoto, Thank you, so much. I love you so much its unbelievable and I decided that I just can't live with this
this isn't how I planned things to go but its fine, Goodluck with Yashiro-senpai, You were my best friend and the man I wanted to spend my life with
but this isn't your fault this is my choice, and I'm sorry for being so stuck up, girly- and, rude.
Goodbye all and I'm sorry.
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Mitsuba Sousuke
I fold it up neatly and put it in my palm and hold it close "T-Thank you Tiara- go get some sleep now okay..?" I ruffle her hair with low energy, she hugs me then runs off to bed.
I cry myself to sleep that night- the first time since mom died- and I keep the letter on the table safely.