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Everybody sensed it coming. They know, knew , that one day Jisung is going to be an Alpha, going to be someone to lead the pack grounds along with higher individuals like his older brothers and friends. Youngho, as the current Pack Alpha made sure to celebrate the presentation of his packmate in the most silly way; by throwing a college party right at their pack ground and inviting almost half of the population of the university.

Jisung received tons of gifts varying from sweaters, shoes, food and the worst, condoms and other sexual.. stuffs (Which Taeyong and Ten dutifully hid.)

To be an Alpha, is Jisung's dream. And a lot of people would ask why? Maybe they'll say because of the name, because of the title and status. Because of the fame? 

If you'd ask Jisung personally. He'd answer none of those.

Aside from the division and special treatment that comes with being the highest status in the society, Jisung's real reason for wanting to be an Alpha was to officially — and finally — protect his one and only boyfriend (which he's excited to mark soon!), his beloved hyung, Chenle.

Now, if being an Alpha is expected, then, being in love and obviously head over heels for the Chinese boy is like staring at the blue sky, obvious and a fact.

The rest of his friends (in which Donghyuck starts) made it a hobby to always tease the maknae about his unending love and adoration for his hyung. And though Jisung would get shy and flustered, one small smile of an equally shy Chenle is enough to make Jisung forget those embarrassing things.

'Congratulations our Jisungie!' Donghyuck hollers once he steps inside the living room filled with swaying bodies and sloshing drinks. He dodge the falling beverage with an agile turn before making his way towards the maknae, gifts on his hands. 'Look at that big baby!' He teases, pinching his cheeks. Jisung rolled his eyes goodnaturedly at the words, hugging his small hyung back. The height doesn't go unnoticed and Jisung feels slightly giggly to know that his Chenle hyung is almost the same height and size as his Donghyuck hyung.

A possessive hand slides over Donghyuck's chest, separating him from Jisung from their lasting hug. He sees Mark with a quirk on his eyebrows, but with mischief written on his face. Ever the possessive hyung. 'Hyung.' He greets, hugging him as well when he passes over his gift. Mark pushes Donghyuck to his chest, caging him properly. Jisung would've snorted at the teritorial gesture if he hadn't been caught doing the same to his Chenle hyung, and they're not even mates yet. Just boyfriends.

Soon, the rest of his friends came. Jeno and Jaemin came earlier than their omega who's with Chenle. 

'My bubu!' Jaemin shouts as he runs to Jisung and tackles him into a hug, smooching his cheeks with kisses. Jeno laughs from the side, eyesmile present and glowing. 'Nana, your bubu is now a grown Alpha.'

'That still makes him my bubu' Jaemin interjects, pouting before crushing the equally tall as tower Alpha into a hug. Renjun who just entered the scene looked ready to kill, as he made his way towards the others, pout intensifying. Jeno ushers him to calm down but Renjun forcefully drags Jaemin to him, burying his face on his chest. Jisung can only sigh at the dramatic display but lightens up when he finally sees the highlight of his night. Chenle.

His hyung is walking towards them and Jisung feels slightly nervous, shivers running on his skin. His hands suddenly feel clammy, and his heartbeat is faster than normal.

Finally.

Chenle stopped right infront of him, a present in his hands. He smiles at the taller, tilting his head to look at the other's orbs. Jisung's cheeks darken red, but strangely, his heart calms down. 'Congratulations on being an Alpha Sungie!' Chenle sings-songs, giggling after he says those words. The light adorable sound made Jisung smile, scratching his nape shyly as he accepted the gift. Jisung bit his lip to stop himself from grinning too much. The both of them just stared at each other's eyes, Chenle inching closer and Jisung swore he heard the older said ' finally ' in a hushed whisper.

Their little moment is disrupted when Youngho, his Pack Alpha decided to grab the celebrant and make him dance in the ground center. Jisung shyly turned back, promising Chenle that he'll be back. He receives pats and encouragement from his hyungs as the bass of the music drops, eliciting excited shouts and screams. Jisung promptly glances back, checking Chenle for the last time. The older one was looking. And his eyes are flooded with love and adoration.

Jisung wishes his eyes said the same too.

He's always been bad at expressing feelings.

~♥~

'Jisung, a-are you free this afternoon?'

Jisung lifts his head from fixing his shoes. Dance practice just finished and here he was, tying his shoes after fixing his bag. He smiled shyly at the older girl, scratching his neck which was sweaty and wet. 'Uhm, no. I'm sorry.'

The girl obviously deflates but does not back down. Jisung even heard persistent encouragement from her friends. 'Is tomorrow afternoon okay then?'

Jisung bit his lips, feeling sad for the hopeless look of the other. 'No— I'm sorry I'm—'

'Please!'

'No I'm actually—'

'Jisungie?' A soft voice calls from the entrance. Jisung and the rest of the dance crew along with the girl and her friends turned to the opened door, Chenle standing outside. He looked misplaced, lost and out of place inside Jisung's territory. 

'Hyung' Jisung quips back, excited like a puppy as he picks his bag. He cast the girls an apologetic look, patting the older girl on her shoulder before sprinting to where his hyung is. He heard a small ' oh ' from the girl and quickly closed the door to isolate them from the eager eyes. Chenle smiled at him, and he looked tired, exhausted even. 'You were late. I got worried.'

Jisung felt guilt dropped in his stomach, wringing his hands in nervousness. 'We got sidetracked from time. Our performance's almost finished.'

Chenle shakes his head, still smiling lightly. 'It's okay' before he laces their sweaty hands together, the shaking automatically melting. Jisung gulps as he looks down at the other. He wonders how Chenle can be so calm while Jisung's freaking his head inside now. 

'Let's go now?' 

Jisung nod automatically. squeezing his hands in his own larger ones, pulling the smaller close to him. Chenle giggles cutely, and Jisung suddenly had the thought of kissing his cheeks, red and plump. He doesn't know where he got the confidence but he leans down to peck the other's cheeks, causing Chenle to giggle more. The smaller grinned at him brightly, nudging his head at the Alpha's shoulder. 

~♥~

Jisung's already fast asleep when his phone rang so loud it woke his roommate. He hastily grabbed the device and stared at the caller, heart beating wild when he saw it was Chenle. With a shaky breath he answered, not ready for the sniffles and sobs coming out of the older's mouth. 'Jisungie?' 

'H-hyung?' Jisung retorts, 'What's wrong? Are you crying?'

'It's.. my heat started already.' He sniffs, Jisung's muddled mind becoming clear. He laid back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. 'Does.. does it hurt hyung?'

'It hurts very much,' Chenle sobs, more louder and harsher. There's soothing voices on the other line and Jisung suspects it's Chenle's hyungs Kun and Renjun that's tending to him right now. 'I want you here Jisungie.' The wrecked cry that Chenle released made Jisung's heart break, more worse than any sad things he had felt. 'Help me please Jisungie...'

He releases a shuddery breath, willing to calm himself down. He cannot let his wolf get into his head or else he'll lose control. 'I am here hyung. I will be here.'

'Help me..' He cries, muffled by the pillow. 'It hurts.. and you should be here..' 

Jisung's breath hitches as his chest constricts.

'You're my Alpha, help me.' Chenle cried more, and then he was babbling incoherent speech. Jisung made sure to calm him, telling him how he loves him so much and that he'll be there once the heat has passed. Chenle cried himself to sleep, before the call was taken by his hyung, Kun. 'Sorry about that Sungie, he won't stop crying so we thought making him talk to you will calm him down.'

'It's the opposite though,' A distinct voice out of the line said, probably Renjun.

'It's alright hyung' Jisung replies, burying his face on his pillow. He imagined Chenle crying on his own big bed, surrounded by familiar scents but none of them were Jisung's. 'I hope he feels good tomorrow. Is there something I can do to help?'

Kun releases a light chuckle, 'Please deliver us all of your unwashed clothes. It will be a very big help.'

Jisung's face was flushed but proud when he  delivered the unwashed stack of dirty clothes. Renjun almost fainted from the smell but Kun received it with a grateful smile. 'He'll love this! In no time, he'll be bouncing back happy and giggly.'

That day, Jisung received a call from Chenle, and was met by a happy sigh instead of cries of pain. 'Jisungie,' The smaller mewls over the phone, sounding loved and special, 'You smell so good.'

Jisung's face burns at an alarming level of heat but he is thankful that he atleast had his back turned away or else his roommate will see him and forever tease him about it. 'I hope you like it hyung' He buries his face on his arms, cheeks hot and chest warm. Chenle hums from the other line. arranging himself. 'I love it so much Jisungie,' A pause and a deep breathe, 'I love you'

Jisung squeals and stands, hitting his head right at the bookshelves, causing his roommate to panic. 'Sup, you okay man?'

Jisung raises a thumbs up, rubbing his sore head. But the smile doesn't falter from his lips. With a heart full of love and excitement to see his beloved hyung, he says back, 'I love you too hyung.'

When Chenle came back after his week-long heat absence, all he did was bury himself on Jisung's chest, earning teasing remarks from their friends. He looks at Jisung with relief, sagging into him. Jisung held him tight, and if the smile remained until the next day, one obviously knew the reason why.

~♥~

Of course, not because he's an Alpha now it means he and his boyfriend can finally mate. Jisung and Chenle are still not of age, but Jisung's been persistent in claiming Chenle. He talked about it with his Pack Alpha, Youngho after seeking advice from his pack members. Taeyong, the pack's Head Omega, gave him a long talk about his actions and the consequences of what he will do. Ten also gave him the talk, scaring him to test him. But Jisung didn't relent, and instead made his decision final.

Jisung got the approval of his pack, though there's not much to change because Chenle's a packmate already. Youngho and the rest decided to let Jisung 'mark' his desired person to label him as taken and chosen. Those who try to steal said boy will give the pack members the right to attack and protect. 

'Just a bite mark?' Jisung repeats, fidgeting on his spot. Embarrassment creeps into his face when the rest of the pack members walk in and take their seats, sitting in their designated place. Youngho decides that it is a good idea to have Jisung mark Chenle right infront of the pack as a form of welcoming. Jisung thinks it's absurd and ridiculous, but he doesn't protest because the Leader might cancel his right to bite his hyung.

Donghyuck walks in with Mark breathing on his neck, all the while whispering into his ear. Jisung starts fidgeting again. Of all the hyungs he adored, Mark hyung is his favorite. His hyung seems to have the perfect sense of responsibility in everything. May it be his life, school or mate. Everything he does is in accordance with himself. 

'Jisungie' Donghyuck yawns, sitting beside the said boy and curling against his shoulder. 'So finally had the guts to mate Chenle huh? Though me and Mark did it during my 19th birthday. Aren't you too young?'

'N-not mating yet hyung,' Jisung answered bashfully, careful of the smaller male 'Just biting mark.'

'Oh' Donghyuck blinks, leaning back on his mate's chest. 'So just.. biting mark?'

Jisung nod his head shyly, 'Yes. Just mark.'

Donghyuck giggles, turning his head to giggle at Mark's collarbones. 'Just like my markie poo here.' The taller one just  rolled his eyes at him, making Jisung confused. 'Hyung, how.. how do the biting mark happen?'

'You bite?' Mark blinks as his lips quirk, teasing.

'No I mean—' Jisung said exasperated, 'Do I just bite? No other rituals?'

Mark seems to think deeply, nuzzling his nose right at Donghyuck's cheeks. He unconsciously tugs his mate's clothes, just enough to show the biting mark Mark did years ago. Jisung's eyes grew wide, taking in the sight of the beautiful bite mark on his Donghyuck hyung's tan neck. He has always thought the biting mark looks like a vampire bite (though vampires are a story of ages) and not like a teeth bite along the ridge of neck and shoulder.

'When I bit Donghyuck, fortunately it wasn't infront of the rest.' Mark recalls, grimacing then it turns into a fond look as he smiles at their maknae,  'And we shared promises before I bit him. Of course, you know the drill. The scenting gland is the most important part. Biting on that place gives your partner half of your scent. But only mating will officially bond you together.'

Jisung listened intently to his favorite hyung, taking everything in his mind. He watches as Mark lovingly looks at Donghyuck, glancing at the mark ever so often. He wishes to look at Chenle the same way. Filled with love and unending affection.

When all of the members were finally placed in each of their seats, mates and leaders, only did Kun and Renjun came with Chenle. The young omega looked confused, baffled but he smiled when he saw his boyfriend in the space beside the Alpha. He bows to each of the Head, before sitting beside the taller.

'Hyung..' Jisung squeaks when the attention is focused on them, suddenly aware of their every action. 'It's time.'

Chenle releases a happy sigh, nodding. 'Finally'

When Youngho called for them, Jisung felt like dying with embarrassment. Everyone is there, watching him, watching them. He even heard Renjun snicker from where he's sandwiched between his mates as he led Chenle in the center. Jisung wonders how can Chenle be so calm when he is shaking himself with fear. 

'This isn't a wedding ceremony,' Youngho starts, making the others crack up. 'But we will witness the biting ceremony of both our maknaes. I and the rest of the pack gave Jisung the permission to give his desired partner a bite mark. However, they are to never  engage in any mating and bonding rituals until the both of them reach their legal ages. If the both of you fail to abide by the rules, both of you will be banished from this pack.'

Jisung gulps, suddenly scared, but with a squeeze of Chenle's hands on his own, the nervousness vanishes. He grins at the older shyly, burning the fact in his mind that what he is doing is correct. He is doing something that will make him happy. And that is to love and protect his Chenle hyung. Officially.

'By biting the scenting gland, the pack members of Jisung have the right to protect Chenle as well, especially outside our territory.' Youngho finishes, turning to the two youngsters, he smiles at them though his smile still has dominance and warning lingering over it. 'Abide by the rules, kid.' and he gives Jisung the signal, 'Bite.'

Jisung releases a shuddery breath, air caught on his throat. He ask for Chenle's permission to hold him by his waist as the smaller tilt his head, baring his neck. Chenle hold Jisung's hands on his own, and if the taller notice that he is shaking he doesn't mention. He gives the neck a small peck, hoping that he will do it right. Gulping for the last time, he bit the area and grips the older tighter when Chenle sags into him, groaning in pain. Chenle cries in pain, and Jisung swore he heard his Doyoung hyung groaning in pain just by watching and Jungwoo hyung squeaking in mortification. 

He doesn't let go of the older, biting harder and it must be painful because Chenle's gripping his head hard, his clenched fist turning white from how tight he is gripping. 

He only pulled away when he tasted the ironic taste of blood, and as he drew back, lips glistening with blood, Chenle leans to him with a sigh, shaking. 

Jisung looks over their Pack Alpha, Youngho giving him the thumbs up. As he looked around, each of his members smiling at him, he knew he made the right decision.

~♥~

'I'll pick you up after class. And I packed some biscuits for you, they're in your bag. Also, I noticed you don't have any sanitizer anymore so I refilled your bottle.' Jisung says in a rush, pausing in front of the door of Chenle's class. The older is looking at him fondly, cheeks tinted as he listens to the taller's speech. 'Be careful of the other Alphas when I'm not around and always ask Renjun hyung or Donghyuck hyung for help, okay?'

Chenle nods obediently, tugging the taller one down for a sweet kiss. Jisung instantly melts with that, hugging him softly with a hand on his back. He leans back to kiss each of Chenle's eyelids. 'I'll see you later hyung.'

Chenle smiles with a nod, 'See you too later Jisungie.'

They departed, and started their classes. It is always like this. The common and usual, but now everyday feels different and more special. Especially now that it's with his Chenle hyung.

After his dance practice, Jisung rushes to clean his things to pick his mate. He changes into a fresh clean of clothes, tucking in his extra towel into his back as he walks out as quickly as he can. He stops midway when the same older girl from before, way long ago, stops him from walking out of the locker room.

'Hey Jisung!' She greets, tucking her hair behind her ear. 'Uhm, Christmas is around the corner. I was wondering if you'd like to..'

'I'm sorry I can't.' Jisung intervenes, already checking the time. 'My boyfriend is waiting. I have to go.'

'Boyfriend? But we can have a mini date?! Like—' Jisung stops her with a look. He would never want to use his Alpha pheromones to frighten anyone, but this girl is irritating and Jisung can't be late again. 'I'm really sorry but I am taken. And my mate is waiting so please leave me alone.'

The girl gulps, before she frowns, crossing her arms over her chest. 'You act like your mate is some kind of deity, let me see her then—'

'Jisungie?'

'Chenle hyung.' Jisung strides past the girl, wrapping himself around the smaller. Chenle looked over his mate's shoulder, noticing the pair of eyes from a certain girl. The girl raises an eyebrow at them, 'You are Jisung's mate?'

'I am' Chenle answers, keeping a straight face. He turns to face his mate, cupping his cheeks. 'Is she bothering you?'

'Not anymore.' Jisung shakes his head, kissing the older square on his lips. He turns to face the girl, eyebrows furrowing upon smelling the scent of disdain and jealousy from Chenle. 'You, stay away from me and my mate.' He said in his Alpha voice, commanding and dominant. This causes the girl to straighten, shame and embarrassment almost running out of her ears through steam.

'He's not even cute—' She tries to argue.

'I beg to differ' Donghyuck cuts off, walking to them. He raises an eyebrow at the girl, 'Do you think you're cute?'

The girl splutters, choking on her own answer. She glares at the other but is stopped when a hand lands on her shoulder, and an alarming commanding voice says. 'Park Harin, detention.' Mark said, smiling guiltily. 'For causing trouble and pursuing someone's mate which is considered inappropriate and unethical.'

This time, she didn't make a move to protest and dutifully followed the other for detention. Jisung sighs in relief, burying himself on Chenle's hair to calm himself down. Even if he's finally 'marked' by his chosen mate, girls and those who like him never gave on him and continued to pester him. 

'Must be pretty hard huh?' Donghyuck teases, giggling with his whole body. Jisung rolled his eyes at him, nodding. 'I don't know why they won't stop.'

'Oh, tell me about it.' Mark chuckles, already wrapping his arms around his mate's waist to tug him to his chest. Donghyuck splutters embarrassed, as he tries to move away, complaining about 'being discreet in school '. Chenle giggled, nuzzling his nose against Jisung, 'So, boba?'

'Coffee' 

Chenle pouts, but let the taller cradle him gently, his long arms wrapping comfortably around him, warm and peaceful. Jisung traces his lips from Chenle's eyelids to his chin, popping a peck on his pouting lips. He inhales the smaller's scent, taking notice of the hint of sweetness. He reels back, obviously baffled. 'Hyung?'

'Hmm?'

'Did you..' Gulping, Jisung stares down at him. 'Did you take your suppressants?'

Chenle blinks at him for a whole minute before pouting, defeated. 'Well..'

Jisung clears his throat, warning him. Chenle whines, stomping his foot childishly making Jisung's inner Alpha swoon. 

'Just.. it gives me headaches.' Chenle reasons, biting his lower lip. 'I stopped taking them because you're here now.'

Jisung seems conflicted, feeling his hold loosened. 'Hyung, you know we can't—'

'I know!' Chenle interjects, smelling upset now. 'I just thought.' He adds in a whisper.

'We'll get kicked out.' Jisung mumbles, staring at his eyes. 'And I don't want that.'

Fortunately, Donghyuck and Mark are in their own little bubble. Jisung doesn’t want to know what they will say if ever they heard about Chenle’s reason for stopping his intake of suppressants. He holds the smaller’s hand on his own, dropping a gentle loving kiss on each pale palms, ‘Hyung, you know the rules exist for our safety, right?’ 

Jisung knows how much his pack treasured their rules. It’s not just simple guidelines to be submissive and obedient to the Head Alpha, but most importantly, it’s established for their safety and well-being. It’s a test of their discipline and control. He cannot fail by giving in to his own desire and letting instinct take over him. He’s more than a beast being controlled by his animalistic behavior. 

‘I don’t want us to get hurt,’ Jisung whispers softly, hating how sour his omega’s scent is. Chenle is sniffing, feeling ashamed that he is being scolded by his lover. ‘I’m sorry’ he sobs, head downcast. 

Jisung engulfs him in a hug, rubbing his back. His scent is still sweet but with a little bit of sourness. He wishes he can scent him permanently, but it’s only possible when they’re mated. For now, they’ll have to rely on their shared clothes and everyday scenting. Chenle continues to cry, guilty of how naive he was. He almost made them go packless. If Jisung was a regular Alpha, he would’ve taken Chenle anytime with no regards to their rules. But inside, he’s thankful that the younger one is loyal to his principles.

They pass by an ice cream shop, and though still sniffing guiltily, Chenle lets himself be scented publicly. He knows it’s the most they can do. Aside from the scandalous stares they received, Chenle cares nothing more than the strong scent surrounding him and making him feel protected. 

That night, as Jisung stands outside his house, giving him his jacket drenched in sweat, Chenle apologizes for how insensitive he was about their pack. But Jisung argues, knowing that his lover is probably blaming himself even though he is supposed to be older and mature. ‘Hyung, I love you so much. And if we could, I’d have you everyday, but I want the best for you.’ He says in full confidence, making Chenle blush, ‘I know that’s how you feel too. It’s because of our inner hunger that we lose some of our conscience. But that’s why we have each other, to ground each other.’

Chenle hugs him tight, burying his face on his chest. ‘I love you Jisungie’

Jisung holds him tight, careful. ‘I love you too hyung’

~♥~

Chenle resumes taking his suppressants and Jisung tries to be with the other as much as he can to lessen his headache. They both know how hard it is to not tip into temptation. They’re both hungry for each other but their love for each other overcomes their primal lust. 

But of course, it doesn't mean they can do it means it’s easy. Chenle feels like he’s always losing his sanity when he is drowning in Jisung’s scent, and he cannot count how many times he tries to jump on Jisung when he’s low in suppressants. So one day, while busy doing homework, he asks his hyung Renjun how they manage to not mate each other until their legal ages. Since his hyung has two mates, both Alphas, it almost felt impossible to not think about feeding their desire for each other. 

‘We were all scared of Alpha Youngho’ Renjun answers bluntly.

Chenle can only stare at him dumbly.

‘And also, because we constantly remind each other of how important a mating and bonding ritual is.’ Renjun adds, seriously continuing with his statement, ‘You see, it’s only a one-time thing. It’s a memorable event that should be remembered as a special part of your life. You cannot do it out of the blue just because of your hunger for each other. Imagine remembering your bonding ritual and remembering you did it without much thought. Less special is it?’

Chenle felt his hyungs words. Like it stabs him in his heart. He also felt guilty when he remembers how he almost let himself be taken over by his instinct. His hyung is right. If he’s to do it, remembering his special bonding with his lover Jisung, he knows it has to be special and perfect. Jisung deserves the best.

They continue on with their normal lives, holding in with their desire and longingly looking at each other and hopefully waiting for the day they can officially become together.

Unfortunately, destiny likes to test them.

Because after all the times they endured, on a one fine day, the both of them were tested seriously. 

It was supposed to be a good day, they were on their way to Mark’s apartment to hang out and play. The first ever time they have together since school ended and summer break started. Loaded with food and stories to share, Chenle and Jisung waited inside the elevator to reach their hyung’s floor. It was supposed to be a good day indeed. Because as soon the elevator door closes, the system crashes, leaving them trapped inside. As if destiny is testing their sanity, Chenle collapses on his knees, fear overtaking his body as he feels something wet drip down his thighs. He curls over himself, trying to think with his muddled mind. If the elevator crashing and Chenle’s unsuspecting heat isn’t enough bad news, another test is given to them as Jisung hit his head against the wall, squeezing his eyes shut. His rut just came. 

He turn away from the other, trying too hard not to sniff the other. He knows they’re both trapped inside the elevator in heat and rut. And he curses destiny for putting them in a situation that felt like there’s no escape.

‘Jisungie?’ Chenle sniffs, alarmed. He tries not to move too much because he knows his sweet scent is already permeating the air, judging by how tight his lover’s shoulders are. 

‘Hyung, don’t freak out okay?’ Jisung coughs out, gripping the handle tight he fears he might break it. ‘I..I’m in a pre-rut right now, and everything’s too strong for me. I can smell you and I want you so bad.’

He hears Chenle whimper, making him groan, but he continues, trying so hard to think clearly even though his omega’s smell is literally behind him, asking to be eaten. ‘I think you’re in your heat too.’

Chenle buries his face against his knees, trembling. He can feel his heart on his throat, and maybe if he’s lost in his own hunger, he would’ve jumped on the taller one seconds ago. But he remembers his Renjun hyung’s words to him. He doesn’t want their bonding to be done inside a freaking elevator where anyone can walk in, and he certainly doesn't want anyone seeing his Alpha Jisung in such a vulnerable state. Jisung’s vulnerability is meant for his eyes alone. 

He powers through the alluring scent of the other, covering his nose as he asks, ‘W-what should we do JIsungie?’

Jisung groans again, hitting his head against the metal wall once more, making Chenle worried. ‘First, please call Mark hyung and tell him our situation’. Chenle does as he is told, hands shaking as his vision blurries. He shakes his head, determined to survive and not fall into temptation. ‘Done’ He reports, pushing himself against the corner. He can feel tears in his eyes and the wetness in his pants is impossible to hide. He knows how hard Jisung is trying to hold back, the whole cube is probably filled with his scent and any normal Alpha would’ve done the deed regardless of the location. 

Jisung releases a shaky breath, his knees giving up. ‘A-alright, now w-we.. We try not to jump on each other, okay hyung?’

Chanel swallows the whine he wants to spill as his tears fall. It’s so unfair! , he cries mentally, I hate you destiny for making us go through this. 

However, one look at Jisung’s pants made him mewl, making the Alpha growl. ‘H-hyung, don’t look’ Jisung commands, voice breathy as he covers himself, ‘We can do this, okay?’

Chenle can only cry as he squeezes his eyes shut. He knows they’re both at the end of their sanity. He can already taste the hunger in his tongue and Jisung’s pre-rut scent in the air isn’t helping. Mark has replied that they’ll rescue them so they should just calm down and stay still, but it’s easier said than done when you’re not in heat and pre-rut. 

Jisung’s slumped defeatedly against the metal wall, back turned from the other. He knows if he ever sees his hyung looking ready, he’ll lose all morals and control. He doesn’t want their waiting to be in vain. 

‘Hyung, everything will be alright. It’s okay, we’ll make it through this’ he whispers, body burning up. It feels like his mind is telling him to just take the other but he’s trying hard to hold onto the last sanity he has. His love for his omega is enough to remind him of how important their bonding ritual is. 

But Chenle doesn’t reply. 

And fear bubbles up on Jisung’s throat. So he turns and feels his sanity fly away. 

Chenle’s pupils are blown wide, staring at his Alpha with need. Heats are painful especially since he’s inside with his Alpha who’s supposed to be taking care of him. ‘Jisungie..’ Chenle sobs brokenly, obviously in pain, ‘It hurts’

Jisung feels his mental restrain loosening, before he crawls to him, eyes turning red, his mind ringing in alarm because of his actions.

No, no, no! Hold back! , his inner self screams, don't take him!

Jisung gently drags Chenle into his arms, gritting his teeth when he feels the wetness of the other. Chenle is down, limp in his arms and Jisung can do anything to him. He can mate him right there and then, bite his neck officially. 

‘Jisungie’ Chenle blubbers in his weakened state, and even with his blown eyes, Jisung still sees the tinge of trust in the other’s orbs. ‘I-it’s okay Jisungie, we c-can do this’

Jisung feels tears in his eyes, blood on his lips. How can he let go now when they’re so near?

His phone is ringing, it’s probably his Mark hyung. He grips Chenle’s shoulder, leaning into him, he can feel the itch in his mouth. He could bite his neck and map his love into his skin, fill him with his seed and claim him. 

But Chenle trusts him. And even in his weakest state, he’s still thinking about them. 

It’s because of our inner hunger that we lose some of our conscience. But that’s why we have each other, to ground each other.

And so, when the hunger gets stronger, he curls around his omega, caging him in his embrace and biting his own arm hard. He feels the blood flow, the pain prickling and waking him even for a slight moment, clearing his head. He holds Chenle tighter, nuzzling his nose against his hair but never losing his bite on his own arm. 

They can’t let their efforts be in vain.

When Mark and the rest came, they were all horrified and terrified at the scene they witnessed. Covered in blood, Jisung refused to let go of his own arm until Chenle was out of his sight, scared that he might finally lose control and attack him. He collapsed after, not remembering anything that happened afterwards. 

When Jisung wakes up, the first thing he does is cry.

‘Shh, don’t cry, it’s okay, you’re alright’ Taeyong says, soothing him with a hand on his back. But Jisung just continued to cry. He hates himself. He almost almost lost to his own beast. One more step and he would have regretted all the things he did. ‘You’re alright Jisungie. You did so well, hmm. You were so brave for holding back.’ Taeyong tells him comfortingly, kissing his forehead like a parent would to their child. 

‘I-I almost hurt him hyung’ Jisung chokes, terrified of himself.

‘But you didn’t. See, you’re both okay.’ Taeyong retorts back softly, caressing his wounded arm that is now covered in bandages. ‘That’s love right there Jisungie. You sacrificed yourself for him. You were so good.’

Jisung sobs into his chest, overwhelmed by his emotions. Fear, anxiety and guilt. He could’ve hurt his hyung had he fell for his hunger.

A knock separates them, and when they turn to check who it is, it’s their Pack Alpha Youngho smiling proudly at Jisung. ‘Hey kiddo’ he greets, walking to him and ruffling his hair. He cackles at the other’s crying face, wiping his tears, ‘Why’re you crying? You did well there.’

Jisung sniffs sadly, wringing his hands. ‘I.. I almost made us packless hyung’

Youngho leans down to look at his eyes, pleased. ‘But you didn’t.’

Jisung wipes his tears, shoulder sagging in relief. He looks at them expectantly, making them laugh.

‘Chenle is resting. His brothers took him home, and they told me to tell you that they’re very proud of you too’ Youngho tells him, pinching his cheek. ‘Take a rest. You’ll see him soon’

As soon as those words were said to him, Jisung felt exhausted even though he just woke up. Taeyong hums him to sleep, covering him with his blanket, telling him how proud they are of him and of what he did.

~♥~

They saw each other one week after the incident. 

And Jisung’s first reaction is to cry his heart out and apologize to his dearly beloved hyung for almost hurting him. Chenle shakes his head, cupping his lover’s face in his warm hands, ‘You protected me Jisungie. I love you so much’

Jisung never knew how hard it is to hold back from something they’ve been wanting for a long time. But as he stares at his lover, he knows all the waiting is worth it. And the wound on his arm is a reminder of his perseverance to protect his love for his omega, Chenle. 

‘So, you think you can still wait?’ Donghyuck asks him in a teasing manner, playfully wiggling his eyebrows at him.

Jisung rolled his eyes at the joke, knowing all too well the meaning behind it. 

‘I can hyung’ Jisung replies confidently, looking back at Chenle’s eyes which are full of trust and love for him. ‘I can wait forever’

Chanel giggles, nuzzling his nose with the taller one, his smile bright. ‘Me too. I love you Jisungie’

Jisung pecks his lips, ignoring his friend’s cheesy remarks and playful teasing. The test of endurance only made him stronger and better. It was for the better and Jisung’s confident he can be the best just for his beloved hyung. ‘I love you too hyung’