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CHARLIE
I stare at Nick lazily; he was determined to finish his maths homework before we played Mario kart or made out. I protested but he just told me I should do my homework too, I just groaned and chucked one of my pens at him playfully.
We’ve been together for two years. Nick’s sitting his A-Levels this year and then he’s going to university. Then he’s leaving me. Well, he’s not leaving me, but he’s leaving me.
I’m sitting my AS levels, exams that I should really be revising for, but I just want to spend as much time with Nick as I can before he leaves.
He’s not going for another couple of months, but a couple of months with Nick feels like a couple of minutes with everyone else.
I could see that Nick was stuck on his question, just from the way that his eyebrows knitted together and how he propped himself up on his elbow.
I’m going to miss Nick. I’m going to miss this, just being able to watch him I’m going to miss. I’m going to miss his golden hair that I like to braid while we cuddle, I’m going to miss his confused face, his bright smile, his “lad” attitude, his kisses, his hugs. I’m going to miss him.
He soon scribbled down a question mark and just moved on to the next question.
I smiled at him. I’m going to miss smiling at him, making him happy.
I don’t want him to leave. The past two years we’ve been inseparable, even when things got really bad last year, Nick didn’t give up on me, Nick stayed, Nick cared.
I guess I’m just scared that he’ll go to university and find some boy that he likes better, that doesn’t come with baggage like I do, that’ll just be light and easy, and Nick will fall for them. I know it’s stupid, I know Nick loves me. But I can’t help but think it.
I’m going to miss him so much more than I’ll ever let on.
“Charlie?” I glanced back down at Nick.
I’m going to miss him saying my name.
“Can you help me with this question?” I smiled and nodded.
I’m going to miss him asking for help.
“You need to make the denominator the same and then you can cross multiply.”
I’m going to miss helping him.
“How are you so smart?” Nick asked in a laugh, and I felt my heart swell.
“I don’t know, guess I’m just naturally talented.” I said in a shrug, my hand making its way across the carpet to grab Nick’s.
I’m going to miss holding his hand.
“Char, are you okay?” Nick asked, noticing the frown on my face. It was the question that I thought would break me, make the tears flood down my face, and dissolve me into an ugly crying mess.
But instead, I just squeezed his hand.
“I’m just going to miss you.” I breathed.
“I’m going to miss you too.” I felt so relived to hear them words, Nick’s going to miss me, probably just as much as I am going to miss him. Probably more.
“Can we finally play some Mario kart now?” I pleaded and Nick smiled, he still had another few maths questions to do but he nodded.
“Fineee.”
Okay, I’m going to miss Nick.
I’m going to miss everything about Nick.