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September 1

AM

[11:00] Hi number neighbour!

[11:05] What?

[11:06] You’re my number neighbour

[11:06] We have the same phone number, just a different last number

[11:08] I noticed. 

[11:08] Ah, observant

[11:09] You’re creepy

[11:09] Who just decides to randomly text a number because they have a similar one?

[11:10] Saw it on Twitter

[11:11] I see

[11:11] Yup, so now you’re stuck with me ;)

PM

[1:10] You have a name?

[1:20] Yeah, I’m not giving you my name. 

[1:20] You could be a murderer

[1:21] Or I could be your soulmate?

[1:21] That just sounds like something a murderer would say

[1:22] Okay, it kind of does

[1:23] Glad we agree

September 2

AM

[11:31] Hi

[11:31] Some creepy guy is talking to me. 

[11:32] So I’m pretending to text a friend. 

[11:32] Aww and I was the first one you thought to text?

[11:33] How sweet, my number neighbour. 

[11:33] All of my friends are working. 

[11:33] Plus, creepy guys remind me of you ;)

[11:34] At least you think of me <3

[11:34] Why haven’t I blocked you?

[11:35] Because I’m amazing

[11:35] You wish 

[11:36] Ouch

[11:35] I don’t even know you and you wound me

[11:36] <3

[11:37] Flirt

[11:37] Creep

PM

[1:20] PRONGS

[1:20] MCGONAGALL JUST CALLED ME TO HER OFFICE

[1:20] DID SHE GET YOU TOO???

[1:21] No, because I’m not “Prongs”

[1:21] Shit, sorry Number Neighbour

[1:22] Now I’m curious about a few things…

[1:22] 1. How did you mistake me for this “Prongs?”

[1:22] Do you not have their number saved or something?

[1:23] 2. What did you do to be called to an office?

[1:23] 3. Prongs?

[1:24] 1. I have you in my contacts as “Princess Number Neighbour”

[1:24] You’re next to Prongs in my contacts

[1:24] 2. Glue on chairs

[1:25] 3. Yes. Prongs. 

[1:25] 1. What the actual fuck?

[1:26] 2. What the actual fuck?

[1:26] 3. Why the actual fuck?

[1:27] So many words

[1:30] Okay, so you’re my number neighbour therefore Princess Number Neighbour

[1:30] There’s a group of kids my friends and I hate so we pull some pranks on them. 

[1:31] Today was putting glue on their chairs

[1:31] My friends and I took a “What’s your Spirit Animal” quiz when we were eleven and gave ourselves nicknames based on them

[1:32] “Prongs” is because he got a stag. 

[1:32] Lame right? Who wants to be a stag?

[1:40] Wow

[1:40] Poor kids who’s chairs have been glued

[1:40] That's your take away?

[1:41] Processing

[1:43] Okay, another round of questions

[1:43] So glad we’re getting along

[1:44] Why do you hate said group of kids? 

[1:45] They’re mainly all bigots

[1:45] Okay, glue on chairs is fair then

[1:46] What’s your spirit animal?

[1:46] Dog. Ironically. 

[1:47] Ironically?

[1:47] Personal

[1:48] Okay, so…

[1:48] Your nickname?

[1:49] Wait let me guess

[1:49] Fluffy? Furball? Snuffles?

[1:50] It’s Padfoot

[1:51] HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 

[1:51] HOW IS THAT WORSE THAN MY NAMES

[1:52] I quite like it. 

[1:52] HAHAHAHHA

[1:53] Your spirit animal?

[1:53] Don’t know and even if I did I wouldn’t tell you in fear of a bad nickname

[1:54] [link]

[2:00] …

[2:00] Results are in?

[2:01] I’m a wolf

[2:02] OH MY GOSH

[2:02] YOU'RE COOLER THAN ALL OF US

[2:03] EVEN ME AND THAT'S SAYING SOMETHING

[2:03] Thank you, thank you

[2:04] Please don't give me a bad nickname

[2:04] Oh, I've already started brainstorming

[2:05] Oh, joy

[2:05] Do you think I'm a girl?

[2:05] Honestly, I don't know

[2:06] Are you?

[2:06] No

[2:06] Sorry to disappoint

[2:07] Are you really apologising for your gender?

[2:07] Just, you know, I’m not “Princess”

[2:08] OH GOD I WAS KIDDING

[2:08] I figured but, I don’t know

[2:09] So are you a guy?

[2:09] Or are you neither girl nor guy?

[2:09] Or all of the above?

[2:10] I’m a boy

[2:11] Sorry

[2:11] You apologise too much

[2:12] SHIT I GOTTA GO 

[2:12] MCGONAGALL IS GOING TO KILL ME

***

[8:32] I’m a boy too, by the way

September 3

AM

[2:56] Moony

[2:56] What?

[2:56] Your nickname

[2:57] Why Moony?

[2:58] Wolf -> Werewolf -> Full moon -> Moony

[2:58] You make no sense

[2:59] Thanks, Moony

[2:59] So it’s 2AM and you’re thinking about me?

[3:00] 3AM now

[3:00] Smartass 

[3:01] Couldn’t sleep. Big prank tomorrow. 

[3:01] Didn’t you just put glue on chairs?

[3:02] How did your office visit go, by the way?

[3:02] Weeks detention. Mcgonagall’s gone soft. 

[3:03] So, you’re just going to risk more detention?

[3:03] I live life on the edge, Moony

[3:05] Why are you up?

[3:05] Trouble sleeping. 

[3:06] I see

[3:06] No reason?

[3:07] No, I just always seem to have trouble falling asleep

[3:07] Oh, I’m sorry

[3:08] It’s fine

[3:08] Now I feel even worse for telling you that I am very tired and plan on going to sleep

[3:08] Ha, it’s fine

[3:09] Goodnight, Furball

[3:09] Night, Moony

***

[9:05] We said goodnight in the morning

[9:06] That feels wrong. 

[10:31] Are you still sleeping?

[10:31] Do you not have school?

[10:31] Wait, shit you could totally be elderly

[10:32] This is slightly embarrassing

[10:32] I mean, you don’t text like an elderly person

[10:32] Oh my gosh, are you having your grandkids text for you?

[10:33] Do you have an off switch?

[10:33] Oh wait, you’re on my phone, therefore yes, you do

[10:33] Goodbye

[10:34] Okay, so not a morning person

[10:34] Got it

[10:40] I’m bored

[10:40] Talk to your badly nicknamed friends

[10:40] Oh but Moony, you are one now

[10:41] Won’t be if I just block your number

[10:41] You’d miss me

[10:42] I don’t know you

[10:42] You wish you did

[10:50] Stop ignoring me

[Failed to send]

[10:50] Okay, ouch

[Failed to send]

September 6

PM

[10:12] Padfoot?

[10:13] PRINCESS NUMBER NEIGHBOUR MOONY!!!

[10:13] I THOUGHT YOU BLOCKED ME

[10:14]…I did

[10:14] Missed me too much?

[10:15] No, actually, I just have a question that’s burning into my skull

[10:15] So you’ve been thinking about me ;)

[10:16] What was the big prank you were up late planning?

[10:17] Red hair dye.

[10:17] So descriptive, thank you

[10:18] My friends and I put red hair dye in the Slytherin’s shampoo bottles. They all came to breakfast the next day with red hair.

[10:19] That’s mean

[10:19] Was it permanent dye?

[10:20] Of course

[10:20] Detention sentence?

[10:20] A month

[10:21] Totally worth it. 

[10:22] So…

[10:22] Slytherin’s

[10:22] You go to Hogwarts then?

[10:23] SHIT

[10:23] Don’t worry, I’m not a stalker

[10:24] But you should really be more careful 

[10:24] I mean this in the least offensive way possible

[10:24] How would I know if I should trust that you’re not a stalker

[10:25] I don’t know

[10:25] Take my word for it?

[10:26] Now I’m sceptical of you, Moony

[10:26] You said you like living on the edge

[10:27] So true

[10:27] Your a risk I’m willing to take

[10:28] That sounded unreasonably cheesy

[10:28] Good

September 7

AM

[10:43] So you know something about me

[10:43] Can I know something about you?

[10:50] Well, you just accidentally gave that away so

[10:50] So you should slip up!

[10:51] I am actually a werewolf 

[10:51] Oops

[10:51] Now you know my deepest of secrets

[10:52] I figured that out a long time ago

[10:52] Hence, “Moony”

[10:53] I have to kill you now

[10:53] Werewolf rule

[10:53] Moony, no

[10:54] Please

[10:54] You can’t do this

[10:54] I’m pregnant with your child

[10:55] I’m sorry

[10:55] I have no choice

[10:56] Moony nooooooooooooooo

[10:56] You’re a dork

[10:57] Still waiting to learn something about you

[10:57] I just told you

[10:57] I’m a werewolf

[10:58] …

[11:03] I’m homeschooled

[11:03] Oh my gosh

[11:04] So do you get to like do school in bed all day?

[11:04] DO YOU EVEN HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY!?

[11:05] No and yes, I do.

[11:05] My mom is rather harsh on how I do my school

[11:05] Though my dad doesn’t care all that much

[11:06] So strict mom, lenient dad?

[11:06] Kind of

[11:07] ??

[11:07] Too personal

[11:07] Okay, Moony

[11:08] How old are you?

[11:08] You first

[11:08] If I say how old I am and then you say you’re the same age how would I know you’re not lying to prey on children?

[11:09] Same goes for you

[11:09] I still don’t know if you’re some creepy elderly man

[11:09] Okay, together then

[11:10] On three?

[11:10] Sure, Moony

[11:10] 1

[11:10] 2

[11:11] 3

[11:11] 17

[11:11] 17

[11:11] Okay, yeah I still don’t believe you

[11:11] Maybe you need to be more trusting

[11:11] I have class, see ya later Moony

PM

[12:34] I can’t help but feel like you’re mad that I don’t trust you

[12:34] Or you’re mad that I’m not a dilf

[1:12] Second one

[1:12] In that case, I’m sorry I’m not a dilf

[1:13] I’ll settle for a non-dilf I guess 

[1:13] But, seriously, are you mad that I don’t trust a random stranger?

[1:14] No. 

[1:14] I don’t fully trust you either 

[1:14] That’s what makes this fun

[1:15] I’m living on the edge

[1:15] You could come to my school tomorrow and murder me

[1:16] And that idea is fun to you?

[1:16] I like the risk 

[1:17] Of course you do

[1:17] You and I are complete opposites

[1:18] Opposites attract ;)

[1:18] Mhmm

September 8

AM

[12:41] Can I talk to you?

[12:41] I mean like a personal talk?

[12:42] Go ahead

[12:43] My brother is an asshole

[12:43] Do you want to elaborate?

[12:43] I mean, you don't have to, but if you want, you can

[12:47] So I left my family about a year ago (they’re all super super religious and got mad at me because I have some queer friends) and the only family member that I didn’t hate with all of my heart was my brother. Him and I used to always talk about how much we hated our family’s views and how one day we would run away from them together. Anyways, a little over a year ago, right before I left, he started agreeing more and more with their beliefs. When I left, I did it by myself. I wanted him to come but I thought it’d be hopeless, although I still had some stupid little hope that he wouldn’t turn out like them.

[12:47] And then today he called my friends some names and I snapped at him. 

[12:48] I don’t regret it at all, he was being a dick and deserved it, but it just kind of hurts I guess?? 

[1:00] I’m really bad at saying the right things, so please don’t think I’m going to give you some great advice. I get how that could be upsetting, you still had hope he wouldn’t turn out like the rest of your family and he did. On top of that, he called your friends names, which has to hurt because they’re your friends. I would have snapped too. And he did deserve it. It’s hard to change your perspective of a person, even if they are being a dick. It’s right to feel hurt about it. 

[1:02] Thank you, Moony

[1:02] I’m going to get some sleep now, but I really appreciate you listening to me. And you’re not bad at saying the right things. That was perfect. 

[1:03] Goodnight, Moony

[1:03] Anytime, Padfoot, goodnight

***

[10:11] Do you have any siblings?

[10:11] Nope

[10:12] Only child

[10:12] Lucky

[10:12] I mean, it saves me from having a dick sibling, but it isn’t all that great

[10:13] What do you mean?

[10:13] My mom rarely lets me go out and my father couldn’t care less what I did

[10:14] I feel like because I’m the only child, my mom treats me like I’m her baby when I’m 17 

[10:14] And I don’t know how to explain my dad. 

[10:15] Is it better to be babied or neglected?

[10:15] I get both, in a way

[10:16] So you know the answer

[10:16] Neither. 

PM

[8:25] Cats or dogs?

[8:26] Easily cats

[8:26] I’m highly offended 

[8:27] Blocking you

[8:27] Finally

[8:27] HEY!

[8:28] No need to yell

[8:28] Geez

[8:29] Silver or gold?

[8:29] Are you buying me a wedding ring?

[8:30] Yup 

[8:30] Gold

[8:31] Moony. 

[8:31] Yes?

[8:32] You have horrid taste

[8:32] Then leave me alone

September 9

AM

[9:06] Moony

[9:07] Mooony

[9:07] Moooony

[9:08] Mooooony

[9:08] What?

[9:09] Good morning :))

[9:09] I hate you

[9:10] Love you too

[9:20] Okay, so I have to go watch this chess match for my friend, Wormtail and I really don’t want to so please entertain me so I don’t die of boredom

[9:22] WORMTAIL???

[9:22] Oh, I feel so bad for them

[9:23] He got a rat

[9:24] And the best you thought of was Wormtail?

[9:24] He didn’t want Cheese-eater

[9:25] He should’ve just retook the test

[9:25] That’s cheating. 

[9:26] …it’s an online spirit animal quiz

[9:26] Your point?

[9:27] I hope “Wormtail” finds new friends 

[9:27] How dare you

[9:28] Maybe he’ll join that group you hate so much and help them come up with better pranks to pull on you

[9:29] Wormtail would never betray us like that

[9:29] He really should. 

[9:30] Okay, maybe I will watch the chess match

[9:30] At least chess players can’t bully me

[9:32] Unless Wormtail takes my advice

[9:32] In which case, he would bully you

[9:33] Oh, gosh this chess game is so riveting!

[9:33] Said no one

[9:34] Literally ever

[9:35] Actually I’m almost positive those exact words came out of Wormtail’s mouth once

[9:36] Oh…

***

[10:32] I’m sorry for making fun of Wormtail, I hope he does well at his chess match

[10:35] Aww thanks Moony

[10:35] He lost

[10:36] Oh, well that’s disappointing

[10:36] Eh, we got milkshakes so he’s fine

[10:37] Milkshakes solve everything

[10:37] Especially strawberry

[10:38] STRAWBERRY??

[10:38] PADFOOT NO

[10:39] OF ALL FLAVOURS

[10:40] Of course you hate the best flavour

[10:40] Of course you think strawberry is the best flavour

[10:41] Okay, what do you think the best flavour is?

[10:41] Chocolate

[10:42] Obviously

[10:42] Oh, Moony

[10:43] My love

[10:43] You are so wrong

[10:44] Says the one who thinks strawberry is the best

[10:44] IT IS

[10:45] I’m done arguing when you’re clearly wrong

[10:46] Okay, Moony

[10:46] Whatever you say

[10:47] Glad we agree

[10:47] You’re so annoying

[10:48] I think I’m in love

[10:49] You don’t even know me

[10:49] I could be less annoying in person

[10:50] And then what?

[10:50] I’ll still love you

[10:51] And I’ll still hate you

[10:51] <333

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September 18

AM

[10:24] Oh my gosh, I just met the rudest person

[10:24] Literally just wanted an iced coffee and he started talking to me about how I needed a haircut

[10:25] Like “Thank you, now can I have my Caramel Macchiato?”

[10:30] Two things I learned today:

[10:31] 1. You have long hair

[10:31] 2. You have bad taste in coffees

[10:31] Also, there's no way someone just randomly insulted you

[10:32] 1. First my milkshake order and now this??

[10:32] 2. I SWEAR IT JUST HAPPENED

[10:32] 1. Not my fault. 

[10:32] 2. Sure, it did

[10:33] IT DID

[10:33] And, okay, tell me your coffee order

[10:34] I hate the taste of coffee, I get tea

[10:34] So you make fun of my coffee order

[10:35] While you hate coffee?

[10:35] Yup

[10:36] Moony, I'm starting to think you just hate me

[10:36] Starting???

[10:37] Was it not already obvious??

[10:37] You know you love me

[10:38] So…

[10:38] You do love me???

[10:39] No, your hair length? How long?

[10:39] To my shoulders

[10:40] Oh

[10:40] Not what you expected?

[10:41] I mean, I don’t really think about your hair

[10:41] I’m highly offended

[10:42] It’s one of my best features

[10:42] Other best features?

[10:43] Okay, wait that sounded sexual

[10:44] HAHAHA MOONY

[10:44] It didn't until you said that

[10:44] But, I’m just full of great features that you have to see one day

[10:45] Hmm

[10:45] You sound more and more unappealing by the day

[10:45] What’s your best feature?

[10:52] I didn’t mean it sexually

[10:52] Sorry

[10:53] I don’t know, if I’m honest

[10:53] What colour is your hair?

[10:54] Like a light brown

[10:54] And it’s slightly curly

[10:55] Hmmm

[10:55] Eye colour?

[10:56] Are you painting me or something?

[10:56] Like one of my French girls

[10:56] Brown

[10:57] Like a lightish brown

[11:00] Okay, here’s how I picture you: your hair and your eyes are a similar colour so it kind of just all blends in together. I'm assuming you have shortish hair (at least shorter than mine). You probably have a nice smile and a small nose (you give cute nose vibes) and you’re short. Sorry.

[11:01] Eyes and hair are not that similar, but kind of.

[11:01] My hair is definitely shorter than yours

[11:02] I don't know about my smile or nose, but Lily tells me I have a “charming smile”

[11:02] I’m 6’2

[11:03] OH

[11:03] YOU'RE TALL

[11:04] NOT TO SKIP AHEAD BUT I THOUGHT YOUD BE SHORTER THAN ME

[11:04] 6’2!!!???

[11:05] Yup

[11:05] Okay, moving on

[11:05] But not really because I'm still thinking about it

[11:06] Who’s Lily? A girlfriend?

[11:06] No no no, we are just friends

[11:06] I mean, she’s lovely don't get me wrong

[11:07] We just aren't really each other type

[11:07] Ah, so what is your type?

[11:08] No more questions about me

[11:08] What do you look like?

[11:09] You guess

[11:11] Okay, I'm going to say your hair is dark because we've already established that it's long and I feel like long blonde hair just isn't your vibe? Like you're not really a surfer dude type. I feel like you have some cool-coloured eyes. I don't really know why. And based on your reaction to my height, I'm guessing you're short. Not sorry.

[11:13] Yes, my hair is black, I'm not a “surfer dude.” My eyes are actually grey. I don't know if you consider that cool.

[11:14] Height, Snuffles

[11:15] 5’7

[11:15] YOU THOUGHT I WAS UNDER 5’7!!!???

[11:16] IM SO OFFENDED

[11:16] Are you calling me short?

[11:17] Yes. I am.

[11:17] At least you have cool-coloured eyes

[11:18] Maybe it's time I block YOU

[11:18] Please do

PM

[5:43] I just thought of something

[5:44] Thinking of me?

[5:44] Would you be one of those ankle-biter dogs?

[5:45] You know, since you’re short and a dog?

[6:00] I’m taking the silence as a yes

[Failed to send]

[6:00] Oh

[Failed to send]

September 19

AM

[10:32] Okay, I miss you

[10:40] Oh, hello

[10:42] You never told me about your type

[10:43] You’re right.

[10:43] I didn't.

[10:44] Soooooo

[10:44] Why do you wanna know?

[10:45] Curious  

[10:45] I don't know

[10:46] I guess someone who doesn't annoy me

[10:46] Do I annoy you?

[10:47] Very much, yes

[10:47] You wound me, Moony

[10:48] Honestly, I just want someone who’s nice, I guess? 

[10:48] I don’t really have a set type

[10:49] What about you?

[10:50] Someone who doesn’t just use me

[10:51] And who’s kind and pretty

[10:51] What do you mean?

[10:52] Has someone used you before???

[10:53] Two girls in fifth year

[10:53] Oh, I’m sorry

[10:54] It’s fine, I was just going through a pretty bad time and I guess they thought then would be the perfect opportunity

[10:54] I genuinely am really sorry, Padfoot

[10:55] Thank you, Moony

[10:55] Now let’s talk about something happier

[10:56] Okay…

[10:56] Have you ever been in a relationship?

[10:57] How is this a happier topic?

[10:57] I don't know, maybe you have some amazing love story?

[10:58] I don't

[10:58] I’ve never officially dated anyone

[10:59] “Officially?”

[11:00] I mean I've like done stuff

[11:00] Oh

[11:05] I didn't assume you were a virgin

[11:06] Incase it came across like that

[11:06] Not until you said that

[11:07] Shit, sorry

[11:07] You're fine, Padfoot

[11:08] So much for a happier topic

[11:10] I have to go

[11:10] I'll talk to you later

[11:11] Ok, bye Moonyyyyy

PM

[8:46] Hello

[8:46] Sorry it took me until now to text you, I was hanging out with Lily

[8:48] Ah, Lily again? I'm getting a little jealous

[8:48] I can't tell if you two would love or hate each other

[8:49] I mean, I might have to fight her for your love so

[8:49] Probably hate

[8:50] You’re an idiot

[8:50] I bet you don't say that to Lily

[8:51] No, because she’s not an idiot

[8:51] I knew it

[8:52] You're in love with her aren't you?

[8:52] I can’t believe you'd leave me for another, My Moony!

[8:53] Yup, Lily and I are deeply in love even though I literally just told you otherwise

[8:53] *Sobs*

[8:54] I guess I should probably let her girlfriend know

[8:54] Oh

[8:55] Mhmm

[8:55] I mean, I was just joking around

[8:56] I didn't mean to assume or anything

[8:56] I feel like an idiot, I'm sorry

[8:56] Padfoot… 

[8:57] We were just messing around, it's not a big deal 

[8:58] Okay, I just worry that you might think I'm like my family

[8:59] They are all super homophobic and I don’t know

[8:59] I just don't want you to think I’m like that

[9:00] Padfoot, I didn't think that

[9:00] Your family sounds horrid 

[9:01] No offence

[9:02] No, I hate them so please be offensive

[9:02] Okay, they suck and deserve some glue in their chairs

[9:03] Oh my gosh, I wish I would've thought of that when I was living with them

[9:03] Maybe I can bribe Reg to do it

[9:04] Reg?

[9:04] My brother, Regulus

[9:05] Oh, the one you told me a little about?

[9:05] Yeah, him

[9:06] So are things better between you two?

[9:06] Not really

[9:07] It’s pretty much the same

[9:07] Oh, I’m sorry

[9:08] It’s fine

[9:08] Anyways, Prongs is going to yell at me if I don't get some sleep

[9:09] He wakes us all up at the buttcrack of dawn for practice so I better sleep

[9:10] Goodnight, My Moony

[9:10] Goodnight, Padfoot

From: Lily

To: Remus

[9:52] So… how is it going with Mystery Lover Boy?

[9:54] What?

[9:55] Remus, today at my house you were staring at your phone with the biggest grin on your face

[9:56] So what was that about?

[9:56] We were just talking and it was funny. Nothing else

[9:57] Mhmm sure

[9:59] He asked if I had ever been in a relationship

[9:59] To which I said no, but I've done stuff

[10:00] And then he started talking about virginity

[10:00] WHAT

[10:01] REMUS

[10:01] He just asked about past relationships? That sounds suspiciously flirty

[10:02] I'm trying not to read into it

[10:02] Maybe he was just genuinely curious

[10:03] Oh, this is fun to watch

[10:03] HEY!

[10:04] You got to watch me struggle with Mary, now I get to watch you struggle with… what's his name

[10:04] Padfoot

[10:05] Dog boy, right

[10:05] So, you guys talked about sex?

[10:06] No, he just said he didn’t assume I was a virgin after I told him I had done stuff

[10:06] I’m confused

[10:07] You’ve “done stuff?”

[10:07] You remember that girl in third year

[10:08] Yes, I just didn’t think a peck when you were 13 really counts as “stuff”

[10:08] Hey, it was more than a peck

[10:09] Oh, right I forgot you brushed her boob and then proceeded to have a full-blown crisis about it

[10:10] …

[10:10] It counts as “stuff” because it is something

[10:11] REMUS

[10:11] “Stuff” refers to there at least being more than a peck and a brush of boob

[10:12] Okay, well its better than telling padfoot “I’ve never been in a relationship, but when I was 13 I realized I was gay right after I touched a boob”

[10:12] *Brushed a boob

[10:13] Touching implies more

[10:13] I hate you.

September 20

AM

[10:01] Mondays.

[10:01] Fuck this

[10:05] Good morning to you, too

[10:05] You will never understand the pain of Prongs prying you out of bed until you've lived it

[10:06] I hope I never have to live through that

[10:06] Sounds rough

[10:07] Ruff

[10:07] Get it, because I'm a dog

[10:21] Okay, I’m sorry

[10:22] You took that quiz at eleven and still make dog jokes?

[10:22] How do your friends do it?

[10:23] Because I'm amazing

[10:23] Sure

[10:24] So, last night you said Prongs wakes you up for practice so I'm curious

[10:24] Practice for what?

[10:25] Football

[10:26] Prongs is the captain so he wakes me up early

[10:26] Ah, I see

Chapter Text

September 21

AM

[11:34] Prongs just stuffed me in a closet and asked me about how strong his and my friendship is…

[11:35] I’m kind of concerned

[11:36] Did he do anything to upset you

[11:36] No, that’s what’s so concerning

[11:37] In fourth year I did the same thing to him

[11:37] But I had a good reason

[11:38] I feel like you did something stupid…

[11:38] …I dated one of his friends

[11:39] Oh

[11:39] Well do you have any friends he could be dating?

[11:40] None that I'd be particularly bugged by

[11:41] Maybe it’s nothing and he just wanted to test your friendship

[11:41] Moony

[11:42] That would be stupid

[11:42] He’s my best friend 

[11:43] We live together

[11:43] He’s practically my brother

[11:44] Okay then I don’t think there’s anything to worry about

[11:44] I’m stressed, Moony

[11:45] Tell me something nice

[11:45] I’m going to lunch with Lily and her girlfriend today?

[11:46] Does that count as nice?

[11:46] So you’re going to be a third wheel?

[11:47] No, it's not like that

[11:47] We were all friends before they started dating

[11:48] I see

[11:48] Well, if you need a date ;)

[11:49] Yup, I'll ask Prongs

[11:49] OH SO THATS WHY HE SHOVED ME IN A CLOSET

[11:50] I SHOULDVE KNOWN

[11:50] Yup, Prongs and I are in a serious relationship

[11:51] So, sorry

[11:51] I just thought he had a better nickname

[11:52] Why do you hate me so much?

[11:52] I’m a cat person.

PM

[11:45] Ironically, my mom just said I can get a cat??

[11:46] WHAT

[11:46] MOONY THAT'S WONDERFUL

[11:47] NAME IT PADFOOT

[11:48] I’m not even sure I’m going to get one soon

[11:48] I’m trying to not get my hopes up

[11:49] What do you mean?

[11:49] My mom says a lot of things she doesn’t mean

[11:50] This could easily be one of them

[11:50] Unless…

[11:51] What

[11:51] Go get the cat yourself

[11:52] Then you’ll have a cat and if she’s mad just say that she said you could have it

[11:53] Padfoot, that is a horrible idea

[11:53] Thank you

September 22

PM

[4:23] Update: my mom said no cat

[4:24] Wait, what??

[4:24] Why??

[4:25] She changed her mind

[4:25] That’s not fair

[4:26] She can’t just get your hopes up just to change her fucking mind in a matter of hours

[4:27] I said I wasn’t getting my hopes up

[4:27] So it’s fine

[4:28] Moony

[4:28] I hope one day you get a cat

[4:29] Even if you don’t name it Padfoot

***

[8:39] Okay, so Lily and I have plotted how I’m going to get a cat

[8:42] Taking my advice, Moony?

[8:43] I hate that I am

[8:43] HAHA 

[8:43] Welcome to the dark side, Moony

[8:44] Just you saying that is making me regret it

[8:44] Don’t want to be evil?

[8:45] No, you’re just cringy

[8:45] Rude

[8:46] So, what’s your cat plan?

[8:47] Lily is going to drive me to a pet shop on Friday and we’re going to pick one out and then I’m going to take it home and if my mom threatens to take the cat, Lily will take it instead

[8:48] I mean, it's okay

[8:48] Sorry, it doesn’t involve glue in chairs

[8:49] When will you let that go?

[8:49] I’ve done so much better pranks

[8:50] But the glue on chairs is the first I heard about

[8:50] So

[8:51] So it reminds you of when we first met? 

[8:51] So sweet, Moony <3

[8:52] I’m going to try to sleep now. 

[8:52] Goodnight, Moony

[8:53] Sleep well, my love

[8:53] I hate you

September 23

AM

[10:56] 20 Questions?

[10:57] Oh no

[10:58] What do you mean “oh no?” it'll be fun

[10:58] Okay, ask away

[10:59] Favourite song?

[11:00] Honestly, I don’t know 

[11:00] I listen to all kinds of music. You?

[11:01] Anything by Arctic Monkey

[11:01] Predictable

[11:02] What’s that supposed to mean?

[11:02] Long black hair just gives that vibe

[11:03] Wow and you don’t even know about my leather jacket and motorcycle…

[11:03] YOUR WHAT

[11:04] I know, I know

[11:04] I’m cool

[11:04] YOURE GONNA GET YOURSELF KILLED

[11:05] Oh

[11:05] Not the reaction I was expecting. 

[11:06] Did you want me to praise you for your death machine

[11:06] And people say I’m dramatic

[11:07] Sorry I don’t want you to die?

[11:07] Aww, you do care

[11:08] So sweet

[11:08] Okay, you ask a question

[11:09] Why’d you buy a death machine?

[11:09] …

[11:10] Moony

[11:10] It’s a serious question

[11:11] I like the way it feels

[11:11] It makes me feel like I’m free. I have nothing to do and I can just ride in the wind.

[11:11] Plus it pissed my parents off

[11:12] I wonder why

[11:12] Okay, moving on

[11:13] Dream job?

[11:13] I don’t know

[11:14] A teacher would be fun

[11:14] But aren't you homeschooled?

[11:15] How would you know?

[11:15] I went to school until fourth year

[11:16] Then I got homeschooled

[11:16] Why?

[11:18] I have to go, my mom is being annoying

[11:18] Ha, I get that

[11:18] Bye, Moony

PM

[8:54] I'm sorry I kind of disappeared

[8:55] It’s fine

[8:56] Is everything okay?

[8:56] Yea

[8:57] Would you tell me if it wasn’t?

[8:57] Probably not

[8:58] I treasure your honesty 

[8:58] I won’t pry, I’m just here if you need me, okay?

[8:59] Thank you, Padfoot

[9:00] I’m going to try to sleep now

[9:00] Goodnight 

[9:01] Goodnight <3

September 24

AM

[8:04] I have an exam today

[8:04] Didn’t study

[10:03] Of course you didn’t

[10:05] I passed

[10:05] This isn’t fair

[10:06] Moony, I’m just better

[10:13] I’m kidding

[10:13] You’re better than I am

[10:14] You’ve never met me

[10:14] I stand by what I said

[10:15] You’re an idiot

[10:15] I appreciate that

[10:16] How are you doing today, Moony?

[10:16] I’m fine

[10:17] I had some toast so I’m pretty content

[10:17] I’m glad

[10:18] I had oatmeal for breakfast 

[10:19] I hate oatmeal

[10:19] Then why’d you eat it?

[10:20] They served it in the great hall

[10:20] And Prongs told me it’d “give me football energy” whatever the fuck that means

[10:21] I <3 Prongs

[10:21] Me too

[10:22] He’s been getting me coffee every morning recently

[10:23] Ah, your bad coffee

[10:23] Okay, tea drinker

[10:24] Ankle-biter

[10:24] Furry

[10:25] …you literally say you’re a dog all the time

[10:25] Truce?

[10:26] Hmmm I’ll have to think about it

***

[11:11] Truce. 

PM

[4:07] {attachment: 1 image}

[4:11] OH MY GOSH

[4:11] YOUR CAT

[4:11] PADFOOT??

[4:13] I can’t think of the right name for her

[4:13] And no, I will not be naming her Padfoot

[4:14] Moonfoot

[4:14] It’s our ship name

[4:15] Oh, god

[4:15] That is the worst thing I've ever heard

[4:16] #Moonfootforever

[4:16] My ears hurt

[4:17] We’re texting

[4:17] I hear it in my head

[4:18] Do you imagine I sound a certain way?

[4:18] Like an idiot

[4:18] You wound me

[4:20] I feel like you have a soft voice

[4:20] Maybe a little raspy

[4:21] I wish

[4:21] You probably have a deeper voice

[4:22] And you say things like “mate, let’s go party! Hop on my motorcycle and I'll give you a ride!”

[4:22] What’s wrong with that?

[4:23] Oh, nothing

[4:23] You’re such a bully

[4:24] I think I'm in love

[4:25] Dog boy

Chapter Text

October 1

AM 

[11:06] Emily keeps laying on my computer

[11:06] I’m trying to do my school work

[11:07] Maybe it’s her way of telling you to not do it?

[11:07] Oh no

[11:08] Maybe she is more like you

[11:08] That’s what I’ve been telling you ever since she tipped over your tea

[11:09] See, if you did that I’d be mad

[11:09] But Emily doing it was cute

[11:10] Until the tea soaked my book

[11:10] Then it was no longer cute

[11:11] Our little Moonfoot

[11:11] Why are you still petty that I named her Emily

[11:12] WHY WOULD YOU NAME A CAT EMILY

[11:12] After Dickinson

[11:13] I’ve explained this a hundred times

[11:13] Then this will be my 101st time telling you that I don’t know who that is

[11:14] Nevermind

[11:14] I’m going to gently move her and do my work 

[11:15] Lameeeee

PM

[12:31] I’m bored

[12:31] At least I got a good hour of school work done

[12:32] An hour and 15 minutes actually

[12:32] I hate you

[12:33] You know you love me

[12:34] Hm

[12:34] Would you rather be a plant or a rock?

[12:35] I’m going back to my work

[12:35] Moonyyyy nooooo

[12:36] Are we ever going to reveal our real names?

[12:36] You’re still an internet stranger

[12:37] It’s been a month…

[12:37] I know your sleep schedule

[12:38] I think we’re beyond that

[12:38] I don’t know. 

[12:39] I’m not pushing 

[12:39] Just you know

[12:40] Putting it out there

[12:50] Maybe one day

[12:51] I’m just not sure yet

[12:51] I’m sorry

[12:52] It’s fine, I like calling you Moony :)

[12:52] Dork

***

[4:22] Ham sandwiches are the worst sandwiches

[4:24] I agree but that's only because I’m a vegetarian

[4:24] YOU'RE A VEGETARIAN?

[4:25] Uh, yeah?

[4:25] YOU NEVER TOLD ME

[4:26] I didn’t really think it mattered that much

[4:26] MOONY THIS MATTERS

[4:27] TURKEY

[4:27] CHICKEN

[4:28] STEAK

[4:28] I’m going to be sick

[4:29] Sorry, Moony

[4:30] Why are you a vegetarian?

[4:31] Just don’t like meat

[4:31] …

[4:32] Not everything is sexual, Padfoot

[4:32] I mean, the fact that you knew it was sexual proves otherwise

[4:33] That makes no sense

[4:33] So you don’t like meat?

[4:34] Now I’m reading it sexually

[4:34] Which is a different story

[4:35] What

[4:40] I’m gay

[4:40] Oh

[4:41] You know what, pretend I said nothing

[4:41] Wait what

[4:46] Moony?

[4:47] I’m sorry

[4:47] What do you mean?

[Failed to send]

To: James

From: Sirius

James: normal text

[4:47] I somehow Siriusly fucked up

[4:47] What happened???

[4:48] [screenshot]

[4:49] Oh

[4:49] Why didn't you tell him?

[4:50] I didn't want to make it about me

[4:50] Sirius…

[4:51] You make everything about you

[4:51] What’s that supposed to mean?

[4:52] Nothing

[4:52] If you want, once I'm done in the library, I'll come back to the dorm and you can text him on my phone

[4:53] Would that be okay?

[4:53] You’re my hero

[4:54] Thank you, thank you

***

[5:18] Moony, this is Padfoot. I’m sorry if I'm crossing a line, but I’m texting you from Prongs’ phone. I am sorry if I said the wrong thing. I always say the stupidest shit at the worst times. Your sexuality doesn't change the way I think of you, I hope you know that. I know we’re still kind of strangers but you’re honestly becoming one of my best friends. 

[5:18] Also, I’m bisexual.

[5:20] I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

[5:20] I just kind of assumed the worst

[5:21] It’s not your fault

***

[5:30] During my third year, I was bullied really badly. Everyone had found out and it got pretty bad. The school I went to wasn’t that accepting, so they didn’t really do anything unless it got physical, which only happened once. Some guy punched me in the hall on the way to class without much of a reason. It made me feel like shit. I got really really down about it. One day, at the end of third year I was hospitalised. That’s when my mom realised what was going on. She was so angry at the bullies, at the school, and at me for not telling her. She pulled me out of school then and I’ve been homeschooled ever since. I guess I was just worried something similar would happen with you? I know, that sounds shitty, but at the moment I was scared. I know you aren't a bad person and I’m so sorry. 

-R

[5:35] I’m so so sorry, Moony. You don’t deserve that. I wish I could have been there for you. You have nothing to be sorry about. I understand. If I were in your shoes, I probably would have thought the same. I’m on your side. 

-S

[5:37] You really aren't much of a stranger anymore are you?

[5:38] Maybe not

[5:38] R&S

[5:59] I like that

[5:59] S&R

[6:00] Now is not the time

[6:00] Sorry

[6:01] R&S

Chapter Text

October 6

AM

[11:09] MOONY

[11:09] OH MY GOSH

[11:10] MOONY

[11:10] Yes?

[11:11] WE JUST WON OUR FOOTBALL GAME

[11:11] OH CONGRATULATIONS 

[11:12] THANK YOU MOONY

[11:12] ITS PARTY TIMEEEEE

[11:13] Oh no

[11:13] YOU SHOULD COME

[11:14] I’m sorry, I can’t

[11:14] That was a dumb thing to say, sorry 

[11:15] Anyways, I have to go get some drinkssss

[11:15] Bye, Moonyyyyy

[11:16] Bye, Padfoot, congrats again on your game!

PM

[5:32] Prongs is being a bum

[5:32] He said he wants to wait until everyone gets here to start drinking

[5:33] Why would you drink before the party starts?

[5:33] Party before the party

[5:34] It makes it more fun

[5:34] I guess? I mean I’ve never drunk before

[5:35] NEVER?

[5:35] Padfoot

[5:36] I’m homeschooled and have an overprotective mother

[5:36] When would I even be able to get drinks?

[5:37] Okay, good point

[5:37] Lily?

[5:38] Not her thing

[5:38] I think her and Mary have maybe gotten drunk once together

[5:39] But it was just them

[5:39] Mary’s her girlfriend?

[5:40] Yeah

[5:40] Aww

[5:41] That’s romantic

[5:41] They ended up throwing up together all night

[5:42] Couples who throw up together, stay together

[5:42] Okay, that wins

[5:43] Wins what?

[5:43] Top worst things you've said

[5:44] What are the other ones?

[5:44] “Moonfoot”

[5:45] “Would it be weird if I started barking at people?”

[5:45] “Prongs doesn't like it when I lick his cheek”

[5:46] Okay without context those sound weird

[5:46] Padfoot, those were things you just randomly sent me.

[5:47] Hm

[5:47] I think this over while I sneak some drinks past prongs

[5:55] He caught me

[5:55] Just listen to him

[5:56] But the party doesn't start for another 3 hours

[5:56] Why would you want to get drunk three hours before?

[5:57] You don't get it

[5:57] Thankfully

***

[9:03] The party has officially begun

[9:03] Why are you texting me?

[9:04] Go celebrate your win

[9:04] I’m celebrating by texting you

[9:05] Well, too bad I have to clean Emily’s litter box

[9:05] Such a flirt

[9:06] Talk to you later, Moony

***

[10:32] You’re onsh of my favouritsnpeooka

[10:33] Ans I barelyv even kniw yoi!

[10:34] Thank you?

[10:34] Are you okay?

[10:35] James was witg Reg

[10:35] Yeah, I’m lost

[10:36] I’ll find yiu Moony

[10:36] Thank you

[10:37] Okay, who's James and why was he with your brother?

[10:37] Shit Prongs

[10:38] James is Probgs

[10:38] Oh

[10:39] OH

[10:39] Yeah

[10:40] Mu broyher 

[10:40] Padfoot, you’re drunk

[10:41] No yoi

[10:41] Shit

[10:42] Are you still at the party?

[10:42] Eveyong sucks

[10:43] Ecept yoi

[10:43] Are you at the party, Padfoot?

[10:44] No James is theye 

[10:44] Where are you?

[10:45] I dint kniw 

Incoming call

“Hello?” Padfoot slurs into the speaker. His voice doesn’t sound much like Remus had imagined it, but nonetheless it is extremely attractive. He has a very proper accent that Remus had never expected. His voice isn’t deep, but it’s not high. Like a perfect mixture of the two. 

“Hi” Remus whispers so his parents can't hear that he is still awake, “Can you look around and tell me where you are?”

“You have a nice voice,” Padfoot whispers back to him, ignoring his question. 

Remus’ face is immediately lit on fire. He clears his throat before asking again, “Where are you?”

“By Honeydukes”

Remus sighs in relief. He knows exactly where Padfoot is.

“Lily lives around there,” He whispers, “Can I send her to get you?”

“Why can’t you?” Padfoot has a whiny tone to his voice that makes Remus’ heart clench. It’s a strange feeling that Remus hasn’t experienced.

“I can’t, I’m sorry” And he is. He wants to go get him himself but not only would it be impossible for him to leave the house at this hour, but he also doesn’t want the first time they meet to be while Padfoot is drunk. 

“I want to see you,” Padfoot says so quietly, Remus almost can’t hear it, but when he does, chills run all over his body. 

“I’m sorry,” He croaks out. His mouth has somehow gone completely dry from the ten seconds they’ve been talking. 

“Lily’s fine then” Padfoot says, still in a whiny tone.

“Okay, I’ll send her to get you home,” 

“I don’t want to go home,” Padfoot says loudly which makes Remus jump and fumble with his phone. 

“Padfoot,” Remus says once his phone is once again stable against his ear, “You need to go home.”

“James is there,” Is all he says and Remus’ heart breaks a little. Padfoot sounds like he’s on the verge of tears. 

“I’m sorry, you have to go home, okay?” Remus says but he feels like that won’t be enough for him, “For me,” He adds.

“Fine” He huffs out

“Okay, I just texted Lily. She’ll be there in five.”

“Can you stay until then?” Padfoot says, soft again. 

“Yes,”

“Your voice isn’t what I imagined,” Padfoot slurs, bringing a laugh out of Remus. 

“Yours either,” 

“How could he–,” His voice cracks and there’s loud breathing on his end, as though he’s began to sob, “James… how could he?”

Remus shushes him, quietly, “Let’s talk about something else”

“Like what?” 

“Favourite candy?” Remus says, laughing a little at how dumb the question is.

“I like sour candies,” Padfoot tells him, “Like the ones that burn your tongue, they’re so sour.”

“We have completely different tastes,” Remus lets out a loud laugh, almost too loud for something so not funny, but it’s Padfoot. Everything he says has some effect on Remus. 

“Let me guess? You like chocolate?”

“Only the best candy,”

“You’re so wrong,” Padfoot breathes out. 

“But Mars Bars,”

“I’ve never had one,” 

“No way!” Remus nearly drops his phone in shock, “Remind me to get you one someday.”

“Someday,” Padfoot sighs, “I like the idea of a someday for us.”

Remus’ heart feels like it might be trying to escape his chest. He coughs and coughs, but it only makes things awkward as Padfoot stays quiet on the other end. 

“Oh, Lily’s here!” Padfoot says, “She’s a ginger?”

“You focus on the weirdest things,” Remus laughs, “Okay, I’ll text you later. Get home safe.”

“Cheers, Moony,” Padfoot says before hanging up the phone. 

Remus doesn’t get much sleep after that. 

October 7

AM

From: Lily

To: Remus

[12:13] Okay, he’s safe

[12:13] Thank you so much

[12:14] Remus…

[12:14] What?

[12:15] He’s gorgeous

[12:15] Oh

[12:16] I didn’t think about the fact that you have now seen him before me

[12:16] And I know his name

[12:17] I’m sorry, when I brought him to his dorm one of his friends said it 

[12:17] Shit

[12:18] It’s a nice name

[12:18] He really is beautiful 

[12:19] Oh my gosh

[12:19] Lily, must I remind you about your girlfriend?

[12:20] That’s not what I mean

[12:20] He seems perfect for you

[12:21] Thanks?

[12:21] Please don’t tell me anything else

[12:22] I’m sorry, I just can’t 

[12:22] Thank you for getting him home safely

[12:23] Of course

PM

[1:23] Moony, I’m so sorry about last night

[1:23] Thank you for sending Lily, she is super sweet

[1:24] It’s fine, I'm just glad you’re safe

[1:24] So kind

[1:25] So is everything okay?

[1:25] My best friend is shagging my brother

[1:26] I mean James is like my brother himself

[1:26] So it’s like my brother is shagging my brother

[1:27] Did you read that before pressing send?

[1:27] You get my point

[1:28] I’m really sorry. 

[1:28] I can’t imagine how that feels 

[1:29] Shitty

[1:29] Really shitty

[1:30] So is that why Prongs was acting so weird?

[1:30] It makes sense

[1:31] I don’t know how I didn’t think of it

[1:31] Actually I do

[1:32] Because I never would have imagined he’d do this to me

[1:32] He knows how things with Reg and I are right now and he still did it

[1:33] Like he doesn’t even care at all about my feelings

[1:34] That’s not true. I don’t even know him, but I know he has to care about your feelings. I mean, didn’t he take you in when your family wasn’t being kind? He loves you and he probably knew this would upset you, but maybe he just couldn’t stop?

[1:35] Maybe he and your brother have something more than just shagging?

[1:36] That’s almost worse

[1:36] Maybe

[1:37] Or maybe Prongs can help you and your brother have a better relationship

[1:37] This can make things better

[1:38] No it won’t

[1:38] I don’t even get how this happened

[1:39] He called James a slur a month ago

[1:39] Woah, what?

[1:40] Yeah, we were just walking by and he yelled it at him

[1:40] For no reason

[1:41] Shit

[1:41] And now they’re…

[1:42] Maybe things are different than they seem?

[1:42] Did you talk to James?

[1:43] I would rather die

[1:43] Okay, then

[1:44] I think it could be beneficial to sit down and ask him about it

[1:44] Or you could talk to your brother

[1:45] If I do that, I’d end up killing him

[1:45] Then you have to suffer, I guess

[1:46] You aren’t helping.

[1:46] There’s nothing that can be solved if you don’t talk to one of them

[1:47] You’ll just end up sulking.

[1:47] You don’t know anything about me

[1:48] You’ve told me I annoy you, that you hate me

[1:50] Why are you being such an ass??

[1:50] You’re the one not listening to me

[1:51] It’s not the end of the world. It could be solved within seconds if you just fucking do something about it.

[1:52] Like you know anything?

[1:52] I’m just giving you advice. Which you clearly need.

[1:53] Oh because you have so much experience sticking up for yourself?

[1:53] What the fuck

[1:54] I hope this shit doesn’t get solved and you have to live your life suffering, knowing that you were never enough for your best friend

[1:54] I hope you have a shit life

[1:55] Same to you, stranger

To: Lily

From: Remus

[1:55] Padfoot and I are no longer talking

[1:56] WHAT

[1:58] REMUS?

[2:05] Remus

[2:10] What happened?

[2:11] I’ll tell you later

[2:12] I’m taking a nap

Chapter Text

October 14

AM

From: James

To: Sirius

[11:23] Just text him

[11:23] It’s been a week and we can’t have you moping around at our game today

[11:25] I don’t mope. 

[11:25] Mate, this morning you spilt coffee on yourself and didn’t even bother to clean it up

[11:26] You just shrugged and ate your cereal

[11:30] I didn’t feel like it. 

[11:32] Sirius. 

[11:33] You used to freak out if a drop of water spilt on you

[11:33] Just text him, yeah?

[11:34] Don’t tell me what to do. 

[11:34] Just listen to me

[11:36] Like you did when I told you I didn’t want you with my brother?

[11:36] That’s different 

[11:38] Sure

[11:40] Sirius.

[11:41] I love him and you know that

[11:45] Yes, I know you love him more than me

[11:46] Just leave me alone

[11:46] That’s not true

[11:47] I just love you both differently

[11:50] That’s what our mother used to say

[11:51] Shit, sorry

[11:52] I’m sorry, Sirius

[11:52] Just please talk to him

PM

From: Lily

To: Remus

[12:32] Remus, are you okay?

[12:32] You’ve barely talked to me since you and Padfoot stopped talking

[12:33] I just want to make sure you’re okay

[12:35] I’m fine, Thank you Lily

[12:35] Want to come to lunch with Mary and I?

[12:36] I have school work to do, I’m sorry

[12:37] It’s okay, do you want me to bring you something

[12:40] No, thank you

[12:41] Okay, I’m here if you need anything

***

[4:24] Hi, is this Moony?

[4:24] It’s Prongs

[4:25] I found your number from when Padfoot borrowed my phone to text you

[4:30] Hi?

[4:30] Hi!

[4:31] Did you need something?

[4:32] Yes, sorry

[4:32] Look, I don’t know what happened, but Padfoot has been really down lately and I know you two haven't been texting so

[4:35] It’s probably not about me. Him and I only texted for about a month, it’s not like we were that close

[4:36] Right, that’s what I thought, but Padfoot gets attached rather easily

[4:36] So, I think he misses you

[4:37] I’m not saying you need to text him, because I don’t know why you guys stopped so I can't really tell you what to do

[4:38] I just want you to know that he’s been different lately and we have a game tonight that's going to suck if he isn't in the right mindset

[4:40] So, you want me to text him just so you can get a win?

[4:41] No no no no

[4:41] Padfoot loves football and is really good at it

[4:42] Tonight both him and I are being watched by the coach of a professional team so we have to be good, but Padfoot won’t be

[4:43] He gets very in his head and it's impossible to get him out

[4:43] I just don't want this ruining his future

[4:45] How could an internet stranger ruin his future?

[4:46] Don’t ask me, ask him

***

[5:00] How could an internet stranger ruin your future?

[5:01] What?

[5:01] Prongs texted me

[5:02] Of course he did

[5:02] I’m sorry, I’ll talk to him

[5:03] No, it’s fine

[5:03] He just told me that you’ve been down

[5:04] Oh, I’m killing him

[5:04] He also told me you have an important game and wouldn’t be able to focus because of me

[5:05] Kind of sweet

[5:05] Prongs doesn't know anything

[5:06] If he did, he wouldn't be with my brother

[5:32] I shouldn't have brought that back up

[5:32] I took your advice, by the way

[5:33] We talked and things are a little bit better but not perfect

[5:34] I’m glad

[5:34] That I took your advice or that things are better?

[5:35] Both

[5:36] Me too

[5:36] I’m really bad at apologising, but I want you to know that I'm sorry.

[5:37] I am too

[5:37] Bad at apologising or sorry?

[5:38] Both

[5:38] When is your game?

[5:39] Twenty minutes

[5:39] TWENTY??

[5:40] I really hope you’re getting ready

[5:42] James would kill me if I wasn't

[5:42] Good point

[5:43] You two are very serious about football aren’t you?

[5:43] I’m always serious

[5:44] Considering the amount of jokes you make, I don't think so

[5:44] Ironic, isn't it?

[5:45] What?

[5:45] Nothing

[5:46] I have to go, but I’ll text you later

[5:46] Okay, good luck!!

[5:47] Thank you

[5:47] I really missed you

[5:48] Me too

***

[8:40] Moony, you’re the best

[8:42] Assuming the game went well?

[8:43] We beat Slytherin’s butts

[8:43] And Padfoot is currently talking to the coach I was telling you about

[8:44] Congrats on your win and I’m glad things are working out for Padfoot

[8:44] All thanks to you

[8:45] Thank you, but I highly doubt that

[8:45] You think too lowly of yourself

[8:46] I’m just practical

[8:46] Sure, Moony

***

[9:01] WE WON

[9:02] CONGRATS

[9:02] PLEASE DONT PARTY

[9:03] Rude

[9:03] I really don't want a repeat of last time

[9:04] Me neither

[9:04] Maybe this time you could pick me up instead of Lily ;)

[9:05] Or you could just not drink

[9:05] Have a celebratory piece of chocolate instead

[9:06] I missed how lame you are

[9:06] I’m being serious

[9:07] HA

[9:10] I’ll just text Prongs and tell him you can’t drink

[9:10] YOU WOULDNT

[9:11] You know I would

[9:11] Fine, no drinks

[9:12] But I will not be eating chocolate either

[9:12] Darn

[9:13] I’m so sad

[9:13] I hate you

[9:14] Love you too

[9:17] Celebratory Phone call?

[9:19] Sure, just give me five minutes?

[9:19] I have to make sure my parents aren’t awake

[9:20] Yeah, just call me when you can

Incoming call

“Padfoot?” Remus whispers into his phone speakers.

“Moony, hi” Padfoot replies and it suddenly hits Remus that this is the first time they've talked on the phone while both being sober.

“Hi,” Is all Remus says, not knowing what else he should say. Remus hasn’t always been that great at conversations, he prefers to just join in when appropriate, instead of starting his own, but Padfoot isn’t saying anything and the silence that stretches between them begins to feel awkward, “Is this really better than chocolate?”

“A lot better,” Padfoot says. While Remus has heard him talk before, this time his voice sounds different. Beside being less slurred, it sounds slightly higher than before. Not too much more, but Remus notices.

“How’s Emily?” Padfoot asks.

“She’s good, hasn’t tipped over my tea in three day,”

“Dang, I missed her spilling tea?” Padfoot sighs in pretend disappointment.

“Yeah, I’m afraid so.” Remus laughs a little, “It spilled all over my bed this time. It was a mess.”

“I am so sad that I missed that,”

“Eh, It’ll most likely happen again,” Remus smiles. There’s something so different about joking with Padfoot over the phone, instead of text. Maybe, it’s just that they can hear each other's tones better, or that their laughs can be heard.

“Moonfoot is such a good little kitten,” Padfoot says and his voice just sounds like a smile. It’s indescribable.

“Stop calling her that,” Remus responds, trying to not sound as shaky as he feels, “Also why did that sound so creepy? ‘Little kitten’ is definitely something a creepy bloke would say.”

“Okay, you have a point,” Padfoot says and they both burst out laughing. Remus has to cover his face with his pillow to stifle the laugh so his parents won’t hear and wake up.

“I missed you,” Padfoot says suddenly, once the laughs have died down, “And I’m sorry.”

“It’s fine, Padfo-,”

“No,” He interrupts, “I was being a complete dick and you didn’t deserve that. I was angry with James for being with my brother and I took that out on you and that was so wrong. I should have just listened to what you had to say and just talked to one of them right then.” 

“It’s fine, really. I was being a dick too. We can’t go back and change that,”

“I wish we could,”

“Well, unless you’re a wizard, it’s not possible,” Remus laughs, quietly.

“Oh, did I forget to mention that I’m a wizard?”

“Wow, a wizard and a dog,” Remus jokes, “I should have seen that coming.”

“You didn’t because I put a spell on you,” 

“How dare you!” Remus says in fake shock, “I cannot believe this!”

“I’m so sorry, Moony,” Padfoot says, “Don’t hate me,”

“Dont!” Remus begins to laugh loudly again and he can hear Padfoot follow. 

They both laugh for what feels like hours. 

Remus could never tire of hearing the way Padfoot gasps and laughs and mumbles about how stupid the joke that he’s currently laughing at is.

Chapter Text

October 16

AM

[11:23] MOONY

[11:24] OH MY GOSH MOONY

[11:26] Yes?

[11:26] Okay, so I’m walking down the street, right?

[11:27] Mhmm

[11:27] And I see this bloke with a dog and it’s like this huge dog, so naturally I ask to pet it

[11:28] Okay

[11:28] And the dog SNEEZES

[11:29] LITERALLY SNEEZES ON ME

[11:29] Ew?

[11:30] SO I'M CURRENTLY WALKING DOWN THE STREET WITH DOG SNOT ALL OVER ME

[11:31] Wish I was there to see that

[11:31] I swear, it wasn't like normal dog snot, it's like deluxe dog snot

[11:32] “Deluxe dog snot” is going on the “worst things Padfoot says” list

[11:32] Fair, but I’m too COVERED IN SNOT TO CARE

[11:33] BAHAHAHAHA

[11:33] It’s not funny, Moony

[11:34] It really is

[11:34] Wait, so if you’re a dog do you think you have “deluxe dog snot” or just average dog snot

[11:35] Are you flirting with me?

[11:35] Oh, yes

[11:36] ;)

[11:36] Why are you walking down the street?

[11:37] I was going to go to lunch with James and Reg but now I have turned around

[11:37] Oh

[11:38] So things are going well?

[11:38] I mean, I don't think I could change anything

[11:39] They just both wanted to go to lunch to clear some things up, I guess

[11:39] I see

[11:40] Maybe you should just go home and change and then go to lunch with them?

[11:40] Too late

[11:41] I already texted Prongs

[11:41] So now it’s just them two

[11:42] Oh shit

[11:42] Nope, I’m going home and changing

[11:43] BAHAHAHA

[11:43] You just sent them on a date

[11:44] Yes, Moony, I have realised that

[11:47] Okay, I’m home and have no clothes to wear

[11:48] Nothing goes well together

[11:48] That’s why I stick to neutral colours

[11:49] You can't really mess it up

[12:00] {attachment: 1 image}

[12:00] Does this outfit have too much black? I don’t own that much colour.

[12:00] That looks really good

[12:01] You have tattoos?

[12:03] Yeah, you?

[12:03] My parents would kill me

[12:04] Mine too, that’s why I got them

[12:04] Just to anger them?

[12:05] I mean, I also like how they look

[12:05] Yeah, they look nice

[12:06] I have some on my chest as well

[12:06] Maybe I’ll see them one day

[12:13] Hopefully

[12:13] Sorry, I was on my bike

[12:14] It’s fine

[12:14] Are you with Prongs and Reg now?

[12:15] Yup

[12:15] I’ll text you later, my moonlight

***

[2:03] Lunch went well

[2:03] Reg apologised, James apologised, I apologised

[2:04] All is well

[2:05] I'm really glad, Padfoot

[2:05] You know how I told you about Reg calling James a slur?

[2:06] Yes

[2:06] Well, apparently that was James’ brilliant idea to make it seem like nothing was happening between them

[2:07] Of all ways they could have done that

[2:07] I know

[2:08] Complete idiots

[2:08] Watching them together kind of made me think…

[2:09] About?

[2:10] Can we meet up some time?

[2:10] Soon?

[2:11] Padfoot

[2:11] I would like that, but I just don’t think I can yet

[2:12] Oh

[2:12] That's fine, I understand

[2:13] I’m sorry

[2:13] Don’t be sorry, Moony

[2:14] I get it

[2:14] Still feel bad

[2:15] Don’t

[2:15] Sorry

[2:15] …

[2:16] Oops

[2:16] One day?

[2:17] One day

[2:17] I promise

***

[6:46] Cleaning Emily’s litter box will be the death of me

[6:48] HAHAHAHA

[6:48] So proud of Moonfoot

[6:50] I hate you

[6:51] Sorry, thought you were dead

[6:51] One more litter box cleaning and I might be

[6:52] Maybe I should just teach Emily to use the toilet

[6:52] YES DO IT

[6:53] I REALLY WANT TO SEE A CAT ON A TOILET

[6:53] You are so strange 

[6:54] I just have dreams

[6:54] I’ll try to make your cat-on-toilet dream come true

[6:55] You’re amazing

[6:55] Next time Emily shits, you're cleaning it.

[6:56] Anything for my Moonfoot <3

***

[11:23] I’m sorry, I just can't stop thinking about this

[11:24] How did James and Regulus make you think about us?

[11:24] Oh

[11:25] I don’t know, if I'm honest

[11:25] Okay

[11:26] Why is it something you’re thinking about?

[11:26] I don't know, if I'm honest

[11:27] HAHAHA

[11:27] Goodnight, Moony

Chapter Text

January 28

PM

[12:31] What happened with you and Sirius?

[1:12] ??

[1:14] He said you two aren’t talking

[1:15] Why do you care?

[1:17] You know why, Reg

[1:20] I thought we agreed not to talk about it

[1:21] You asked

[1:25] Sirius fucked up, not me

[1:26] Okay, how?

[1:30] He left. 

[1:31] He wanted you to go with him and you know that

[1:36] That wouldn’t have been possible

[1:36] Why?

[1:40] I couldn’t just leave my family like him. I'm not Sirius. 

[1:42] I know you’re not

[1:43] He was being abused and so were you 

[1:43] you both should have left

[1:50] Don’t

[1:50] Sirius and I aren’t talking right now because he left and I stayed. Because I didn’t stop anything from happening.

[1:51] That’s not your fault. 

[1:51] It is. 

[1:52] And tell Sirius that then.

[1:55] He misses you

[1:56] I do too

[2:00] James. Don’t. 

May 2

AM

[2:02] I need you. 

PM

[8:19] Sirius has been interrogated me about where I went last night all day

[8:25] Don’t tell him

[8:26] I wasn’t going to

[8:30] Thank you

[8:30] It won’t happen again

June 29

PM

[9:13] James?

[9:13] Regulus?

[9:14] Can I see you one last time before we leave for summer holiday?

[9:14] Sure, Reg

[9:15] I’ll be there in 5

July 3

PM

[1:20] Is it wrong that I miss you?

July 4

AM

[4:09] Yes

[4:09] But I miss you too

[6:24] You know, you could come by

[6:25] No, I can’t. 

[6:25] Why not?

[6:28] 1. I can’t just leave my house

[6:28] 2. You live with my brother

[6:30] What if we just met in Diagon Alley?

[6:38] And do what? Shop?

[6:39] You miss me, I miss you 

[6:40] Let’s see each other 

[6:46] 2 more months 

[6:47] Okay

July 21

PM

[10:28] Call me

James doesn’t hesitate, he immediately hits the call button and feels a wave of relief when Regulus answers on the first ring. 

“Hi,” James sighs as he lays back against his pillow. 

“Hi,” 

“Any reason you wanted me to call you?” 

“I just miss you,” Regulus says and something about his voice sounds different. James can’t tell if it’s just that he’s matured over the few weeks they haven’t talked or if something is wrong. 

“Are you okay?” James asks. 

“I am now,” Is all Regulus says and James is suddenly spinning, his heart hammering. 

“I thought we were keeping this casual,” 

“We are.” Regulus’ voice sounds strained. 

“So what? You want to have phone sex?” James is half joking, but he knows that he’d do anything Regulus wanted and if that was what he wanted, James would do it. 

“No.” 

“I feel like we’ve stepped past casual,” James whispers into his phone. 

“James,” Regulus sounds like he’s going to crack open and James is quiet. He doesn’t say another word and neither does Regulus. They just stay on the phone, breathing heavily as they fall asleep together. 

July 22

AM

[10:03] My phone is finally charged

[11:08] Mine just turned on

[11:11] HAHA

August 1

AM

[4:38] 1 more month 

[10:11] Incoming call

“James?” Regulus answers the phone, sounding as if he has just woken up.

“What is going on?” James asks, not wasting any time.

“What do you mean?” 

“You ignore me all the time and then out of the blue you’ll be all sweet to me,” James feels something prick at his eyes. He shouldn’t care. It shouldn't bother him. They arent dating, never were, all they ever had was shagging, “I just… I don't know, Regulus, I'm just tired of this.”

“You’re tired of me?” Regulus asks and now it sounds like he's the one about to cry.

“No, Regulus. The opposite, really.”

“What?” His voice is a whisper of pure shock.

“Don't act like you don’t know I'm in love with you,” The words slip out of James' mouth quietly  and the gravity of the words don't hit him until seconds after they’re said.

“No, James. You’re not,”

James feels like he's been hit in the chest.

“You can’t tell me how I feel.” James says.

“Do you even know what ‘love’ means?”

“No,” James admits, “I don't. I just know that since the moment I met you, you have found your way into every part of my brain. I wake up and think of you, I can't sleep some nights because of the thought of you. Your smile, your laugh, the way you look at me sometimes. Did you know that during fourth year Sirius had to tell me to shut up because I wouldn't shut up about you? Everything reminded me of you, Regulus. Every song, every painting. And that's why I can't just let you use me like this. Because I’ll always want more and you’ll always want less.”

“We didn't even talk your fourth year,” Is, apparently, Regulus’ answer.

“No, we didn’t,” James sighs, “So maybe it makes me crazy that I felt that about you when we hadn't talked.”

“You are crazy,” Regulus sounds like he can't catch his breath, “I’m sorry.”

James feels his heart snap right in half.

No, his heart crumbles. If it snapped it would be quick pain, this pain is slow as it creeps over his body.

He had been scared to tell Regulus all of this for months now, mainly because he thought it was better to have a little bit of Regulus, instead of admitting his feelings and having none.

“I’ll see you at school, Reg,” 

And James hangs up the phone.

September 1

PM

James hasn't spoken to Regulus in a month. They haven't texted, haven't talked on the phone. So when Regulus is suddenly standing right in front of James in his Slytherin uniform, James goes silent.

Regulus looks the same, maybe a little skinnier. His hair is still his short brown curls, his lips still a perfect pink. 

Regulus looks up and down the empty hall quickly before grabbing James wrist and shoving him into the janitor's closet.

James’ brain freezes. He blinks in the dim closet and sees Regulus standing right in front of him, yet he can’t convince himself it's actually happening.

“I’m sorry,” Regulus says for a second time before he leans in to reach for James’ lips.

James registers what's happening and turns his face, pulling away from Regulus.

And Regulus breaks. Tears spill from his eyes and he's suddenly on the floor with his back against the wall and his knees tucked into his chest, sobbing.

James doesn't know what to do, he can’t think. He just sits next to Regulus and wraps his arms around him. Watching the person he loves crumble.

After a few minutes, Regulus’ breathing slows and he looks up.

“I don't want it to be real.” 

James has no clue what he's saying, but he nods.

“James,” His voice cracks, “I thought maybe if we were only shagging, nothing more, I would be fine. It wouldn’t cross this line in my brain. It wouldn’t be too gay,” 

Regulus is sobbing again.

“But then I kept wishing you were with me,” Regulus says after a few minutes, “I wanted to just hear you breathe, know you were there.”

James completely understands him now.

“I…,” Regulus chokes on a sob, looking into James eyes, “I love you,”

It's a bittersweet moment. Here's the boy James is helplessly in love with, confessing his feelings in the most heart wrenching way.

James just holds Regulus until he’s done crying.

Chapter Text

October 23

AM

[11:12] Halloween is in a week and a day

[11:13] It is

[11:13] Do you have plans?

[11:14] I think I’m just hanging out with Lily and Mary

[11:14] You?

[11:15] Party in the Gryffindor common room

[11:15] Of course

[11:16] Any excuse for a party

[11:16] Mhmm

[11:17] I still can’t decide on a costume

[11:17] Any options?

[11:18] Well, originally Prongs, Wormtail, and I were going to do a group thing

[11:18] However Prongs has since fallen for my idiot brother and they are now doing some couple thingy which is shocking because Reg normally would never, but you know “loves makes people do crazy things” or whatever

[11:19] And Wormtail said he doesn’t want to dress up this year because it’s embarrassing

[11:19] So I was thinking I could be like a sexy Willy Wonka

[11:20] You did not just say “sexy Willy Wonka.”

[11:20] WHAT?

[11:21] I LOVE CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY AND IM SEXY

[11:21] IT'S A CHILDRENS MOVIE

[11:22] DON'T SEXUALIZE THAT

[11:22] I'M SORRY I'M SEXY??

[11:23] YES, BUT WILLY WONKA IS NOT

[11:23] Did you just admit I’m sexy ;)

[11:24] Absolutely not

[11:24] YOU DID

[11:25] Willy Wonka was my gay awakening

[11:25] You should unpack that.

[11:25] I think it’s pretty normal

[11:26] Who were yours?

[11:26]…

[11:26] Troy Bolton

[11:26] NOT TROY BOLTON

[11:27] WHAT?? IT’S FAIR

[11:27] Eh

[11:28] Okay, who else were yours?

[11:28] Harry Styles

[11:29] This one guy that was in one of my classes second year

[11:29] The movie Pocahontas as a whole

[11:30] I’m sorry

[11:30] Why Pocahontas?

[11:31] ULTIMATE BI PANIC DUH

[11:31] Sure, I guess

[11:32] Tell me about the guy

[11:32] He was just really nice, I guess? I don’t know. At 12 I didn’t think too much about my feelings, I just knew I wanted to be his friend you know? But like his best friend. 

[11:33] I get it

[11:33] Do you still talk to him?

[11:34] No

[11:34] I never really did talk to him much and then I just didn’t see him again

[11:35] Oh

[11:35] I’m sorry

[11:36] Eh, it happened when I was young so it doesn’t matter much

[11:36] Yeah, still sucks though 

[11:37] I guess

[11:37] Anyways

[11:38] No sexy Willy Wonka

[11:38] What are you going to do to stop me?

[11:39] I know where you go to school

[11:39] By all means, come stop me

[11:40] Okay

PM

[12:33] Disappointed in the lack of Moony in my room

[12:34] Are you currently dressed as sexy Willy Wonka?

[12:34] There’s no point in me going now

[12:35] So, I’ll see you on Halloween?

[12:35] If you still dress up in the repulsive costume

[12:36] Yay! I’ll see you on Halloween!

[12:36] I feel like you aren’t getting the point 

[12:37] Of course I do

[12:37] You’re coming here to take my costume off

[12:38] Oh that sounds bad

[12:38] Padfoot

[12:39] Shut up

[12:39] Of course, Moony :)

October 24

AM

[8:02] I just woke up 

[8:03] and all I wanted was a peaceful Sunday morning

[8:03] But then, crawling out of James bed is my brother 

[8:04] And guess what?

[8:04] He’s shirtless

[8:05] You know what that means?

[8:05] Sex

[8:06] WITH ME IN THE ROOM

[8:08] I mean, you know they are together

[8:08] THAT DOESN'T MEAN I WANT THEM SHAGGING WITH ME IN THE ROOM

[8:09] Okay, yeah that’s fair

[8:09] I’m just glad I couldn’t hear them

[8:10] Now I'M traumatised

[8:10] NOW IMAGINE BEING IN MY POSITION

[8:11] IMAGINE YOUR BEST FRIEND AND YOUR BROTHER SHAGGING

[8:11] My best friend has a girlfriend and I don’t have a brother

[8:12] However if Lily and Mary started shagging with me in the room I would be slightly disturbed

[8:12] So you get what I’m saying

[8:13] Sure

[8:13] REGULUS AND JAMES ARE NOW KISSING

[8:14] Padfoot, they’re literally dating

[8:14] Why’d I say I was okay with this?

[8:15] You literally took so much convincing. 

[8:15] Might need some more

[8:16] Shut up 

To: Lily

PM

[1:08] We need good Halloween costumes

[1:08] What’s wrong with witches and wizards?

[1:09] We do that every year

[1:09] What do you want to be?

[1:10] Something also Willy Wonka themed for Padfoot?

[1:10] I’ll be a sexy piece of chocolate

[1:11] HAHAHA REMUS

[1:11] I JUST CHOKED ON MY TEA AND MARY IS SO CONCERNED

[1:12] TELL MARY IM MAKING A JOKE

[1:12] She said she can help make the costume

[1:13] Perfect

[1:13] I seriously need good costume ideas

[1:14] Okay, one second

[1:14] Mary and I are looking on Pinterest

[1:18] Alvin and the Chipmunks

[1:19] No

[1:19] Monsters Inc.

[1:20] No

[1:20] Why not?

[1:21] You can be Boo

[1:21] Not happening

[1:22] Mary and I could be angels and you could be a devil?

[1:22] I don’t hate that

[1:23] Perfect Mary will make the costumes

[1:23] Tell her to make me look good

[1:24] She said “making you look bad is impossible”

[1:24] AWWWW THANKS MARY 

[1:25] She says she loves you

[1:25] I LOVE YOU TOO

[1:26] Okay, how am I third wheeling while with my girlfriend?

[1:26] I love you too, Lily

[1:27] I love you

[1:27] Oh, and can the costume have a mask?

October 30

AM

[10:09] ONE DAY UNTIL HALLOWEEN

[10:11] And you’re still going to be a sexy Willy Wonka?

[10:11] OF COURSE

[10:12] Great

[10:12] So supportive

[10:13] Still waiting for you to tell me what you're dressing up as

[10:13] Nothing you’ll like, don't worry

[10:14] I’d like anything you do

[10:15] Oh?

[10:15] ;)

[10:15] Ew don’t do that

[10:16] Sorry moonlight

[10:16] Don't do that either

[10:17] :(

[10:19] Moony?

[10:20] Padfoot?

[10:20] Would you tell me if you'd come here on Halloween?

[10:21] I mean, I know you were kidding, but I’m kind of worried

[10:21] Why are you worried?

[10:22] I don’t want you to just show up, you know?

[10:22] I want to meet you, like really really badly, but I don’t want it to be so out of the blue

[10:23] Okay, I get that

[10:23] Sooooooooo

[10:24] I’m not just going to show up, I promise

[10:24] Okay

[10:25] I was going to

[10:25] Actually???

[10:26] Yeah, I got a costume with a mask, but it kind of felt wrong?

[10:26] I was still debating

[10:27] I mean now that I know, I'm not opposed to it just let me know before

[10:27] See, that makes me nervous

[10:28] It would be wrong of me to show up in a mask and not tell you that I was there because 1. That's very stalkerish and 2. That’s just not fair to you

[10:29] But in a horrible way, that sounds easier

[10:29] I get it

[10:30] It’s like how we can hide while texting?

[10:30] Yeah

[10:31] I mean, you already know my name

[10:31] Don't you?

[10:32] What?

[10:32] How would I know your name?

[10:33] Wormtail said it when Lily dropped me off

[10:33] Oh, yeah she told me she knows it, but she didnt tell me it

[10:34] Really?

[10:34] Yeah?

[10:35] Soon.

[10:35] Okay.

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October 31

AM

[10:21] HALLOWEENNNNNNNNNNNNN

[10:51] Good morning

[10:55] I have my Sexy Willy Wonka costume set out ;)

[10:55] Anddddd back to sleep I go

[10:56] NOOOOO

[11:00] MOONY

[11:00] BLUEBERRY MUFFINS

[11:01] I don't follow

[11:01] James made muffins

[11:02] Oh, yum

[11:02] Yum, indeed

[11:03] I just love Halloween

[11:04] Really?

[11:04] I couldn't tell

[11:05] I LOVE HALLOWEEN

[11:05] Okayyy

[11:06] Still don’t know your costume

[11:06] Lily and Mary are being angels and I am a devil

[11:07] Oh shit

[11:07] That’s kinda really hot, Moony

[11:08] You can’t say that while I’m eating a muffin

[11:08] I choked and could have died

[11:09] Don’t die on Halloween

[11:09] That’d be tragic

[11:10] I atleast have to die in my sexy Willy Wonka costume

[11:10] I'm done with you

[11:11] Okay ouch

[11:11] Your hotness almost kills me and this is how you repay me

[11:12] I’m not hot, trust me

[11:12] Nope, not trusting you on that

[11:13] You’re hot

[11:13] Actually, according to Lily, you’re hot

[11:14] She said that?

[11:14] Something like that, yeah

[11:15] But she also said, “He would ruin it with a sexy Willy Wonka costume”

[11:15] No she didn't

[11:16] No, but she should have

[11:16] STOP BEING MEAN ON HALLOWEEN

[11:17] Want me to be scary instead?

[11:17] Ooooo yes

[11:18] BOO

[11:18] AH MOONY DONT SCARE ME LIKE THAT

[11:19] YOU ASKED FOR IT

[11:19] I DIDNT EXPECT YOU TO BE SO SCARY

[11:20] BOO

[11:20] NOT AGAIN

[11:21] It’s the werewolf in me, I guess

[11:21] Oh right, Moony the Werewolf

[11:22] Should I growl?

[11:22] Ew, I hear myself becoming you

[11:23] I’m leaving

[11:23] HAHAHHAHAHA

[11:24] I actually do have to go, though

[11:24] Mary and Lily are here with costumes!

[11:25] Oooo okay, have fun Moony!

PM

[5:29] Remember when I said I had never had alcohol?

[5:30] There is only one way this can go

[5:30] Mary brought some

[5:31] YAY PARTY MOONY

[5:31] It’s kind of gross

[5:32] You get used to it

[5:32] I don't know if I want to

[5:33] But then I can come pick you up when you find out your best friend is dating your brother 

[5:33] Oh, yes, me not drinking is the only thing keeping that situation from happening

[5:34] Definitely not my Lesbian best friend and lack of brother

[5:34] Exactly

[5:35] You never make sense

[5:35] Aww, thanks

[5:36] Guess what I’m wearing right now?

[5:37] Okay wait, that is 100% something a creep would say

[5:37] Yes, and then it'd only be more creepy when you say “a sexy Willy Wonka costume”

[5:38] I think it's a turn on

[5:38] Oh yes, I’m so turned on right now

[5:39] My plan worked!

[5:39] Ew, go away

[5:40] No, thanks

[6:01] Okay, you weren't kidding

[6:05] I’m sorry, did I say something?

[6:11] Okay, you’re probably just partying

[6:12] Or your phone died

[6:32] I'm bored

[6:32] Party starts in two hours

[7:00] Moonyyy

[7:01] I'm really sorry

[7:30] Party soon

[7:42] Oh my gosh, Wormtail showed up in costume

[7:42] He’s a cat, which I find offensive

[8:03] The party hasn't even started and James keeps letting people in

[8:04] This is why he shouldn't be allowed to answer the door

[8:30] Okay, the party has basically started now

[8:45] Reading back over my texts and realising how annoying I'm being, I'll leave you be

[10:09] I’m so srry i gpt carriedf away and ohone died

[10:09] Moony, hi

[10:10] It’s fine, are you alright?

[10:10] I think so

[10:11] Yay, I missed you

[10:11] I mussed yoi too

[10:12] Moony, are you drunk?

[10:12] I think so?

Incoming call

“Hello?” Moony slurs through the phone. 

Definitely drunk then.

Sirius slides past a few people, up the staircase, into his dorm.

“Hi, I just wanted to check on you,” 

“‘M fine,” Moony says and Sirius nearly melts.

“Who's that?” A feminine voice muffled on the other end of the phone.

“Padfoot,” Moony says, making Sirius grin too wide.

“Oh! Hi!” The voice became louder, clearly she was getting closer to the phone and Sirius is pretty sure it’s Lily, but not positive since the only time he has heard her is when he was drunk and in her car.

“Lily?” Sirius asks.

“You remember me!” She yells.

Sirius laughs and the line goes oddly quiet.

“I like your laugh, have I mentioned?” Moony says and Sirius has to sit down to process that because wow.

“Uh, thank you,” Sirius feels like a complete idiot responding that way, but his brain just can't function normally.

Moony giggles and Sirius is five seconds from losing it.

“Okay, uhh, I have to go,” Sirius forces out with a cough, “Text me, Moony.”

“I will,” He says before Sirius hangs up the phone and proceeds to freak out, internally.

November 1

PM

[1:10] Oh, god

[1:10] I am never doing that again

[1:11] Good morning

[1:11] No, definitely not

[1:12] Well, it is 1PM, so I guess you're right

[1:12] It's not morning

[1:13] Nor is it good

[1:13] Headache

[1:14] I bet

[1:14] Drink some water and just relax, okay?

[1:15] Okay

[1:19] Umm so, I don’t really remember a lot about last night, but Lily said you called?

[1:20] Yeah, just to make sure you were alright

[1:20] Sorry, I was just kind of worried

[1:21] No, it’s fine, thank you

[1:21] Anytime, Moony

[1:22] I’ll text you later, okay? The light is hurting my eyes

[1:22] Yes, that’s fine

[1:23] Feel better <3

[1:46] Hello, Mystery Lover Boy

[1:47] Uh hi?

[1:47] It’s Lily

[1:48] Oh, hi Lily!

[1:48] Hello

[1:49] He’s currently asleep on my shoulder so I stole his phone

[1:49] Will he be mad?

[1:50] No, if he cared, he wouldn’t have told me his password

[1:50] Okay, fair

[1:51] Are you about to give me a “don’t hurt my friend speech?”

[1:51] Why would I do that?

[1:52] Just joking

[1:52] Ah

[1:53] He’s drooling on my shoulder right now

[1:53] Cute

[1:54] Actually kind of is

[1:54] Anyways, just wanted to say hi

[1:55] Okay, well hi

***

[5:43] SHE TOLD YOU I DROOL

[5:44] Moonyyyyyyy

[5:44] Hi

[5:45] -_-

[5:45] How'd you sleep?

[5:46] Oh, good

[5:46] I've been up for a while, sorry I didn't text you

[5:47] I was talking to Lily and she just left

[5:47] It’s fine, I’m just glad you're rested

[5:48] What did you do today?

[5:48] I cleaned up because the party last night was a mess, then I got some coffee and Wormtail and I just watched movies all day while James was out with Reg

[5:49] Sounds relaxing

[5:49] It really was

[5:50] What movies did you watch?

[5:50] …Twilight

[5:51] No

[5:51] Why

[5:52] Okay, it’s pretty entertaining

[5:52] No, Padfoot, just no

[5:53] Which ones did you watch?

[5:53] The first to the third

[5:54] Oh wow so you had like a full marathon

[5:54] I think “a full marathon” implies watching all the movies

[5:55] Marathon: a long-lasting or difficult task or operation of a specified kind.

[5:55] Watching Twilight is both a long-lasting and difficult task

[5:56] It was fun

[5:56] Sureeeeee

[5:57] Pete makes funny comments

[5:57] Pete=Wormtail, got it

[5:58] Yes, Peter

[5:58] He has such a normal name, yet you give him a horrid nickname

[5:59] He’s team Edward, so it's deserved

[5:59] Okay, i'm not huge on Twilight, but

[6:00] YOU'RE TEAM JACOB????

[6:00] Duh?

[6:01] You're wrong

[6:01] HOW

[6:02] EDWARD IS CREEPY

[6:02] JACOB IS JUST SWEET

[6:03] NO JACOB IS WEIRD, EDWARD IS SWEET

[6:03] NOPE

[6:04] YOU CANT ARGUE WITH ME, IM RIGHT

[6:04] EDWARDS ALL COLD AND DEAD

[6:05] ATLEAST JACOBS ALIVE

[6:05] BUT EDWARD IS HOT

[6:06] SO IS JACOB

[6:06] Okay, this is officially the dumbest conversation we’ve had

[6:07] How dare you!

[6:07] We've had way dumber conversations

Chapter Text

November 3

AM

[10:11] Okay, so I’m 18

[10:21] What??

[10:22] I thought you were 17

[10:22] Oh, wait

[10:23] Moony, let's talk about birthdays!

[10:23] Mines November 3, when’s yours?

[10:24] WHY DID YOU NOT TELL ME THIS

[10:24] YOU CAN’T JUST WAIT UNTIL NOW TO TELL ME

[10:25] I’m sorry, I thought I had mentioned it

[10:25] YOU VERY MUCH DID NOT

[10:26] Oopsies

[10:26] HAPPY BIRTHDAY PADFOOT

[10:27] Awwww thanks, Moony

[10:27] IM GONNA KILL YOU FOR NOT TELLING ME

[10:28] IM SORRY

[10:28] So, when’s yours?

[10:29] No, I’m waiting until the day of to tell you

[10:29] MOONYYYYYYYY

[10:30] March 10

[10:31] Pisces

[10:31] We’re compatible

[10:32] Don't tell me you believe in that

[10:32] You don't??

[10:33] No...

[10:33] It makes no sense

[10:34] MOONY IT MAKES SENSE

[10:34] IT MAKES ALL THE SENSE

[10:35] It really doesn't

[10:35] It’s my birthday, you have to agree with me

[10:36] That’s not a birthday rule

[10:36] Is for me

[10:36] Well, not for me

[10:37] I’m wounded

[10:37] Oh no, not the birthday boy

[10:37] Shut up

[10:38] What are you doing for your birthday?

[10:38] Partyyyyyy

[10:38] I should have guessed

[10:39] I'm quite disappointed you didn't

[10:39] I'll try better next time

[10:39] James made me pancakes <3

[10:40] Aw birthday pancakes

[10:40] Yessssss

[10:40] I’m so happy right now, Moony

[10:41] I'm glad

[10:41] You deserve that

[10:42] <3

***

[11:22] Moony, I just had the best cup of tea, I might officially be a tea drinker

[11:23] James made it and oh my gosh

PM

[12:32] Ignoring the birthday boy is considered rude, Moony

[12:33] Okay, that was actually rude, nevermind

[12:48] I’m super sorry, I fell asleep

[12:48] Super super super sorry

[12:49] Hey, it’s alright

[12:49] I was just kind of worried there for a second and making a dumb joke

[12:50] I’m sorry

[12:50] Moony, it’s fine

[12:51] I feel better now

[12:51] How is your birthday going?

[12:52] DID YOU SEE WHAT I SAID ABOUT THE TEA????

[12:52] MOONY IT WAS LIFE CHANGING

[12:53] I need to try this life-changing tea

[12:53] I’ll have James make you a cup one day

[12:54] I can't wait

[12:54] I wish you were here

[12:55] Me too

[12:55] It's my one birthday wish…

[12:56] I wish I could, but my dad has some work thing tonight and there is no way my mom would let me leave the house,  especially if it's to meet someone she's never met

[12:56] I tried :(

[12:57] One day

[12:57] Soon

[12:58] No pressure, but I'm ready when you are

[1:00] Saturday?

[1:00] Are you being serious?

[1:01] Yes, I’m free Saturday afternoon

[1:01] Perfect, me too

[1:02] Where should we meet?

[1:02] There's this nice coffee shop in Hogsmeade?

[1:03] Three Broomsticks?

[1:03] Yeah

[1:04] Okay, perfect

[1:04] How’s 2:30 work?

[1:05] Perfect

[1:05] Okay

[1:06] Wow

[1:06] I’m excited

[1:07] Me too :)

[1:07] Is this crazy?

[1:08] Yes.

[1:08] 100%

[1:09] Insane

[1:09] Okay, lovely, just checking

***

[8:57] Tell me something nice that happened today

[8:58] James kissed me and Regulus got really upset

[8:58] How is that a nice thing?

[8:59] I haven't seen Reg upset in a while and it was funny that it was over James kissing me

[8:59] I mean, I would be upset if the person I was dating was kissing other people...

[9:00] Oh no, it's not like that

[9:00] James and I kiss all the time, 100% platonic, he’s a great guy but ew

[9:01] Okayyyy

[9:01] Still not seeing how this is a nice thing

[9:02] It kind of made me happy to see Regulus care that much for someone? He normally isn't that open about how he's feeling, but I think James is bringing his emotions out more and it's a nice thing to see

[9:03] Oh, that's kind of sweet

[9:03] James and Regulus have really grown on me

[9:04] I can tell

[9:04] And I'm very glad

[9:05] Tell me something nice about your day

[9:05] I finished my book!

[9:06] Nerd

[9:06] What book?

[9:07] Call Me by Your Name

[9:07] Tell me about it

[9:08] Have you not seen the movie?

[9:08] No…

[9:09] OH MY GOSH 

[9:09] Okay, so I won't say anything because its a must-watch

[9:10] What’s so good about it?

[9:10] Well the movie is just beautiful, cinematically

[9:11] And the book is beautifully written

[9:11] I mean it has some issues, but I feel like people often miss the real meaning of the story and just romanticise the hell out of it

[9:12] Hmm

[9:12] Also Elio, the main character fucks a peach

[9:13] Please say that was a typo

[9:13] It was not

[9:14] WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO WATCH/READ FRUIT PORN??????

[9:14] AND WHY DID YOU WATCH/READ FRUIT PORN??????

[9:15] IT'S NOT THE MAIN PLOT

[9:15] IT SHOULDN'T EVEN BE A PLOT IN GENERAL

[9:16] HAVE YOU EVER TASTED A PEACH?

[9:16] I DONT BLAME HIM

[9:17] Moony…

[9:17] I'm concerned

[9:18] I’m not wrong

[9:18] Plums are better

[9:19] Okay, that's my final straw

[9:19] -_-

[9:20] Besides your gross book, anything else eventful about your day?

[9:20] Your birthday

[9:21] I made plans to meet up with this weird person on Saturday

[9:21] No way! Me too!

[9:22] How strange

[9:22] Truly

[9:23] Wait, how’s your party?

[9:23] I actually kept it quite small

[9:23] It’s just like 20 people

[9:24] That’s small?

[9:24] Well, it's just some of my friends and they brought their friends, so yeah

[9:25] Sounds nice

[9:25] It is

[9:26] We’re about to play truth or dare

[9:26] Text you when we’re done?

[9:27] I’ll be here

***

[10:34] I got dared to send you something gross and I decided that was too far, so I'm kicked from the game

[10:34] Well, now I have to know

[10:35] No because then I would have lost for nothing, sorry Moony

[10:35] Darn, now I’ll have to just imagine it

[10:36] Mhmm

[10:40] Regulus got dared to kiss Peter, so I’m back in

[10:41] I have no clue how your truth or dare works, but congrats!

[11:02] I once bit a dogs butt

[11:03] Just assuming that was a dare?

[11:03] IM GOING TO KILL REG THAT WAS TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT

[11:04] What?

[11:04] The dare was that Reg could text you something embarrassing about me

[11:05] I was like 2 when that happened

[11:05] I don't know, that just seems like something you'd do

[11:06] ITS NOT

[11:06] HAHAHAHAHA

[11:07] Totally is

[11:20] I'm out again because I was asked to name my favourite person in the room and that’s just rude

[11:21] I admire your kindness, but you suck at this game

[11:21] RUDE

[11:22] Just the truth

[11:22] It's my birthday, being mean is illegal

[11:23] Nope. Not how that works at all

[11:38] I think I’m going to go to sleep now. Happy birthday, again, I hope it was great. I'll text you in the morning, goodnight

[12:01] Awww, thank you. goodnight, Moony :))

Chapter Text

November 4

AM

[10:18] Good morning

[10:18] How was the last 20 minutes of your birthday that I missed?

[10:19] Good morning

[10:19] Great, Peter ended up kissing a random girl and I haven't seen him since

[10:20] Go, Peter!

[10:20] I feel like a proud parent

[10:21] That’s a weird way to think of your friends, but I've heard you say weirder

[10:21] Tell me you didn't feel like a proud parent when Mary and Lily started dating

[10:24] So, Lily and I actually aren't talking at the moment, so do you think you could just not mention her?

[10:24] Sorry

[10:25] No, of course

[10:25] Do you want to talk about it?

[10:26] Not at the moment

[10:26] Okay, well I’m here if you do want to

[10:27] Thank you

[10:27] Oh, Pete just showed up!

[10:28] Ooooo, and?

[10:29] I take back my previous statement

[10:30] They apparently stayed up late swapping chess strategies

[10:30] How romantic

[10:31] Why am I actually kind of jealous?

[10:31] I don't know, it sounds kind of sweet

[10:32] Yeah, Pete’s like that

[10:32] I'm on my third cup of tea and my mum walks into my room to tell me I have a dentist appointment in an hour…

[10:33] Oh shit

[10:33] Start scrubbing those teeth, Moony

[10:34] Oh, I am

[10:34] I hate the dentist

[10:35] Mine always puts his hands all over my face

[10:35] Smudges my makeup

[10:37] You wear makeup?

[10:37] Yeah, mainly eyeliner

[10:38] Oh

[10:38] Is that a problem?

[10:39] No no no, that's just

[10:39] Really attractive

[10:40] Oh

[10:40] I hate the dentist, too

[10:41] People who like the dentist are weirdos or liars

[10:41] Mine just makes unnecessary conversation the whole time while im literally unable to speak

[10:42] OH I HATE THAT

[10:42] WHY DO THEY DO THAT

[10:43] I don't know, but it irritates me

[10:43] Well, I wish you luck and hope for no cavities!

[10:44] Thank you, thank you

PM

[12:49] No cavities

[12:49] But she said “I can bet on my life if you don't start flossing more, you'll have cavities by your next visit”

[12:50] Shit, start flossing, Moony

[12:50] I DO

[12:51] Just not enough, apparently

[12:51] Moony moony moony

[12:52] Oh, and my hygienist is a family friend of Lily’s so while I was getting my teeth cleaned, she asked me multiple questions about how Lily and her family are

[12:52] Oh, I’m sorry

[12:53] It’s fine, it just put me in a bad mood

[12:53] :((

[12:54] I'm going to take a quick nap, I’ll text you when I'm up

[12:54] Sleep well <3

***

[2:03] Okay, I know you said you’re here if I want to talk, so I'm just going to talk and I really hope that's okay? Lily and I got in a huge fight and she said some things that annoyed me so I basically told her to fuck off. We haven't really fought before, so I didn't know what would happen, but now she's just not talking to me and I think she seems happier without me.

[2:04] Oh, I'm sorry. If she said things that annoyed you maybe you should try and talk to her about it? Like just text her and tell her why you got so mad? She is probably not happier without you. You guys are best friends, she loves you.

[2:05] It’s just weird things that annoyed me, though

[2:05] Like there wasn't one set thing she said, it was multiple things that kept building up

[2:06] Maybe write down everything and just let her know

[2:06] Wouldn't that make me more of a burden? I think if she's happier without me, I should just let it go

[2:07] She is definitely not happier without you and telling someone things that make you upset does not make you a burden

[2:07] If I did something that upset you, I’d want to know

[2:08] But you don't know her

[2:08] No, I don't, but I know she loves you

[2:09] Thank you

[2:09] Anytime, Moony

[2:10] Let's talk about something else

[2:10] {attachment: 1 image}

[2:12] Did you paint that?

[2:12] Yeah

[2:13] I didn't know you painted

[2:13] Yeah, I started a while ago when I accidentally got put in an art class

[2:14] It’s beautiful

[2:14] Of course you would accidentally be put in an art class and end up being amazing at it

[2:14] Awww, thank you

[2:15] I am, however, mad at you for not telling me you could paint

[2:15] Moony, guess what?

[2:16] What?

[2:16] I can paint

[2:17] -_-

[2:17] I’m painting you something for Saturday

[2:18] Please, don't

[2:18] Oh, okay

[2:19] No, I mean you’re a great painter, I just don't have anything I can give you

[2:19] Ohhh, no I don't want anything in return

[2:20] I just want to paint you something

[2:20] I'd feel bad

[2:21] Please, don't

[2:21] Still would

[2:22] Okay, in return you can tell me about your favourite book

[2:22] That is not an even trade

[2:23] I don't care, I like your voice and want to hear about it

[2:23] Fine. Deal

[2:24] YAY

[2:24] Weirdo

[2:25] What are you going to paint?

[2:25] It's a secret

[2:26] You'll see in two days

[2:26] Oh wow

[2:27] Two days

[2:27] Yeah, I better get started on this painting

[2:28] And I better start flossing

[2:28] You plan on kissing me?

[2:29] What??

[2:29] I'm kidding, don't worry

[2:29] Oh

[2:30] Sorry

[2:31] OH MY GOSH

[2:31] WHAT

[2:32] I have a job

[2:32] I am officially a barista

[2:33] NO WAY

[2:33] I'm so proud

[2:34] Thank youuuu

[2:34] Okay, so I don’t know if you still want to meet at Three Broomsticks becauseeeeeee I kind of work there?

[2:35] Or we still could and have that coffee shop romance

[2:35] Was fine with whatever until that last part

[2:36] Now we need to go somewhere else

[2:36] Well, now I'm sad

[2:36] That was the whole reason I applied

[2:37] So sorry

[2:37] But really, congratulations

[2:38] Celebratory phone call?

Incoming call

“Three Broomsticks, how may I help you?” Sirius answers the phone call.

“Ha. Ha,” Moony replies, dryly making Sirius snort which, in turn, makes Moony laugh.

“I like your laugh, too,” Sirius says, making Moony cough.

“What?” He says, clearly caught off guard.

“You said you like my laugh when you were drunk on Halloween,” Sirius explains.

“Oh,” he pauses, “Did I?”

“You did,” Sirius smiles to himself and fiddles with his fingers.

“I don't remember,”

“I didn't expect you to,”

“That’s… embarrassing,” Moony says as something shifts on his end of the phone, like he's sitting down.

“Not really,” Sirius shrugs even though Moony can't see him, “At least I didn't have to send a friend to pick you up.”

Moony laughs a heavenly laugh and Sirius tries to imagine what he looks like right now.

“What are you doing?” 

“Just laid down,” Moony replies, “I have a bit of a headache.”

“Oh, I'm sorry. Do you want me to go?”

“No no, you make it better,” Moony says softly.

Sirius’ breath hitches.

Oh god, Moony, He thinks, what are you doing to me?

“So, where do you want to go on Saturday?” Sirius asks, trying to steady his breathing.

“I really am okay with anything,” Moony replies.

“Well, if that’s true then let's go to my school’s toilets,” Sirius jokes and Moony just stays quiet on the other end.

“Ha,” Moony says, “What about a picnic in the park?”

“Perfect. James can make some tea and I'll bring some for you,”

“No offence, but tea on a picnic sounds gross,” Moony tells him, “And I love tea so thats saying a lot.”

“Fine, I'll just bring sandwiches.”

“How do I know you aren't going to poison them?”

Even in Moony’s joking tone, this stings Sirius.

“I won't,” Sirius says, “If you aren't ready to meet we really don’t have to.”

Moony is silent for a few moments before letting out a breathy, “I dont know.”

Everything is quiet for a second.

“No, I want to meet you.” Is Moony’s final answer.

Sirius grins entirely to himself, feeling his heart accelerate.

Chapter Text

November 5

AM

[10:08] Tomorrow

[10:08] Tomorrow

[10:09] Do you know what you're going to wear? I can't pick an outfit

[10:09] I'm not much of a “plan my outfit ahead of time” person

[10:10] Oh

[10:10] Okay, yeah

[10:11] I'll just find something

[10:11] Emily spilt this morning’s tea

[10:12] Awww little Moonfoot <3

[10:20] I can't tell if I'm being ignored or if you're picking up the tea

[10:22] Both

[10:22] Oh, okay, carry on

[10:23] Are you worried about tomorrow?

[10:23] What do you mean?

[10:24] I don’t know

[10:24] I just feel nervous

[10:25] Moony, you're free to back out any time

[10:25] No, I want to meet you

[10:26] Okay, but if you change your mind

[10:26] I just

[10:26] I don’t know

[10:27] Moony

[10:27] We can do it another time

[10:28] I just feel like I'm not that fun to be around right now??

[10:28] You know, with everything going on with Lily

[10:29] Have you talked to her?

[10:29] Not yet, no

[10:30] But I plan to, I just don’t know when

[10:30] If you want to wait until things are better, that’s fine

[10:31] I’ll wait for you

[10:31] That sounded really cheesy

[10:32] I’m being serious 

[10:32] I want to meet you, but I’m really sorry

[10:33] Don’t be, I get what it’s like to not to feel like yourself

[10:33] Thank you for being so understanding 

[10:34] Always

[10:34] We have plenty of time to meet, okay?

[10:35] Okay

[10:35] What are you up to, Moony?

[10:36] Currently drawing on my shoes

[10:36] WHY

[10:37] I don’t know

[10:37] I like it?

[10:38] WITH PERMANENT MARKER?

[10:38] Yup

[10:39] MOONY NO

[10:39] Why not?

[10:40] The poor shoes

[10:40] You like art, that’s what I’m doing

[10:41] Don’t try to convince me to like it

[10:41] Okay..

[10:42] What shoes?

[10:42] White converse

[10:43] Oh, that’s not that bad, then

[10:43] Is my shoe taste not good enough for you?

[10:44] No, I'm just glad you aren’t ruining good shoes

[10:44] CONVERSE ARE GOOD SHOES

[10:45] You sound like James

[10:45] HE'S RIGHT

[10:46] Nope

[10:46] Okay, what shoes do you wear, then?

[10:47] Depends on the day

[10:47] Dr. Martens at the moment

[10:48] Of course

[10:48] WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?

[10:49] Long dark hair, leather jacket, motorcycle

[10:49] It’s fitting

[10:50] Good, I’m glad my shoes fit my vibes

[10:50] I can’t tell if you’re being sarcastic 

[10:51] Why would I be? Is that not a good thing?

[10:51] I don’t know

[10:52] I don’t care about maintaining a “vibe”

[10:52] You maintain your nerdy vibe

[10:53] I bet you wear glasses that you haven’t told me about

[10:53] Only when reading

[10:54] Of course

[10:54] Are you against people who need glasses?

[10:55] That’s just wrong

[10:55] No, Prongs wears glasses too

[10:56] But not just to read

[10:56] I love James

[10:57] HEY

[10:57] Sorry

[10:58] Mhmm

[10:58] I told him and he said he loves you too

[10:59] Awww, so sweet

[10:59] That’s James

[11:00] So sweet, he’d date your brother

[11:00] Seriously?

[11:01] It’s true

[11:01] Maybe your just jealous 

[11:01] No, I’ve never wanted to date James

[11:02] Or my brother

[11:02] Ew

[11:02] Gross

[11:03] You didn’t specify 

[11:03] Oh, my bad

[11:04] I’m not like the rest of my family, don’t worry

[11:04] I don’t even want to know

[11:05] Surprisingly, not the reason I left

[11:05] Incest??

[11:06] Yeah

[11:06] … 

[11:07] Gross

[11:07] I’m aware

[11:08] Is that why you’re so short?

[11:08] No

[11:09] HAHAHAHAHHA

[11:09] Ha ha

[11:10] You can’t say I’m wrong

[11:10] You’re wrong. 

[11:11] You’re short. 

[11:14] I think I am jealous of them

[11:14] Just that they have each other, you know?

[11:15] Sometimes it makes me feel so alone

[11:15] I get it

[11:16] When Mary and Lily first got together I had moments where I just stared at them because I was so jealous of what they had

[11:17] Will it go away?

[11:17] Eventually, yeah

[11:18] I really have grown to not completely hate their relationship 

[11:18] And I’m proud of you for that

[11:19] <3

[11:19] Call me

“Moony?” Padfoot answers the phone. 

“Hi,” Remus breathes through the phone, “Sorry, I just wanted to hear your voice.”

Padfoot is quiet for a moment before he clears his throat and says, “Oh.”

“When do you start at Three Broomsticks?”

“Oh, Monday,” Padfoot says, “I'm pretty nervous.”

“You’ll do great. Maybe I'll stop by,” Remus jokes.

“What?”

“One day,” Remus says and he hates it. He hates that he isn't in the right headspace to meet him. He hates that “one day” is a constant thing he says when he doesn't know if he can even keep that promise.

“Oh, yeah.” Padfoot sighs and Remus can hear his disappointment mixed with people talking in the background.

“What are you doing?” He asks.

“Oh, we have a game in a few hours,” Padfoot says, sending Remus into a panic. He didn't know and suddenly he feels like he's intruding.

“Oh, I'm sorry did I interrupt practice or anything?” 

“No, no,” Padfoot reassures him, “James just seems to think we all need to be together hours before our games,”

“Why?”

“Bonding, I guess.” Padfoot says.

“I don't know how sports work, so.” Remus chuckles, Padfoot following. 

Remus has never been much of a sports person. Sometimes he wishes he were just so he could understand when people talked about sports or certain teams, but he just can't make any of it make sense in his head. He doesn't understand the point.

There's a long silence where neither of them seem to know what to say. It's not awkward or uncomfortable in any way, Remus likes how he can hear Padfoot's breathing and the muffled conversations of his friends.

“Oh, I texted Lily and we are meeting up to talk later today,” Remus tells him as he gets up from his desk chair and moves to sit on his bed.

“Oh, great,” Padfoot’s voice sounds like a smile, “I hope it goes well.”

“Thank you,” Remus says and he means it. He is genuinely so thankful for this stranger.

“Let me-,” A loud voice says, which sounds close to Padfoot’s phone.

“Hey!” Padfoot says and Remus can hear that his phone is being moved around.

“Sir-,”

And then Padfoot just hangs up, leaving Remus wondering what the fuck that was.

***

[11:32] Sorry, James was trying to take my phone from me

[11:32] “It's not bonding if you're on your phone”

[11:33] Oh, I was wondering what was happening

[11:33] Yeah, James is just crazy

[11:34] No, he seems to just really care about football

[11:34] A crazy amount

[11:35] I think any interest in football is crazy, so I shouldn't say anything

[11:35] Do you think I'm crazy?

[11:35] The craziest

[11:36] Awww, thanks Moony

[11:36] Of course <3

[11:37] Okay, James is getting mad again, I'll text you later

[11:37] Okay, good luck at your game!

PM

[7:21] We lost

[7:23] Oh, I’m sorry

[7:23] I’m fine

[7:24] James on the other hand

[7:24] Oh no

[7:25] He's a bit torn up

[7:25] I offered to get him ice cream and he just glared at me

[7:26] Wow, and ice cream is supposed to make everything better

[7:26] I know, right?

[7:27] I think he's mainly upset that he embarrassed himself in front of Reg

[7:27] How is losing that embarrassing?
[7:28] Oh no, not that part

[7:28] During the game, he was about to kick the ball and yelled, “This is for you, Reg!” and then he tripped over his own feet

[7:29] Oh no

[7:29] Okay, that is kind of bad

[7:30] MOONY, NOT HELPING

[7:30] SORRY

[7:31] Oh, Reg is here now

[7:31] He just started laughing at James

[7:32] James is going to be so mad

[7:32] Hey, Regulus shouldn’t be laughing, that trip was dedicated to him

[7:33] THEY ARE KISSING NOW

[7:33] HOW THE FUCK

[7:34] ONE SECOND REG IS CALLING HIM AN IDIOT AND THE NEXT THEY'RE KISSING

[7:34] Awwww

[7:35] NO

[7:35] NOT “AWWWW”

[7:36] EWWWW

[7:36] Oh, shut up

[7:37] Sounds kind of cute

[7:37] I can't watch this

[7:38] I'm going to get my own ice cream

[7:38] You do that

[7:39] Mint chocolate chip sounds so good

[7:39] That is the best flavour

[7:40] Do we finally agree on something??

[7:40] You finally have some taste

[7:41] I've always had taste

[7:41] Mhmm

[7:42] Sure

[7:42] Hey! I just lost a game, you're supposed to comfort me

[7:43] Is that a rule?

[7:43] It is, yes

[7:44] Oh, Padfoot, you are so amazing. You really should have won that game just because of your amazingness

[7:44] Much better

[7:45] You’re welcome

Chapter Text

November 6

AM

[10:22] Padfoot is deathly scared of clowns

[10:23] That’s believable

[10:23] RUDE

[10:24] You give that “scared of clowns” vibe

[10:24] Thanks, now James is laughing his ass off

[10:25] Why did he just text me that?

[10:25] He stole my phone and thought it’d be funny

[10:26] You never told me how it went with Lily

[10:26] You never asked

[10:27] You're right, I’m sorry 

[10:27] I really should have

[10:28] Its fine, I was joking

[10:28] It went well

[10:29] We’re better now

[10:29] Yay, I'm glad

[10:30] Thank you for the advice the other day, by the way

[10:30] I’m glad I talked to her

[10:31] Anytime

[10:31] I'm glad too

[10:33] Now James is making me a grilled cheese because I threatened to tell Reg something embarrassing about him

[10:34] Okay, two questions

[10:34] Yes?

[10:35] Why a grilled cheese?

[10:35] And what is the embarrassing thing?

[10:36] I'm just craving grilled cheese, I don’t know

[10:36] And I can't tell you

[10:37] Not fair

[10:37] James would kill me

[10:38] Or not make my grilled cheese

[10:38] Wait, how do you even make grilled cheese at school?

[10:39] Oh, I’m visiting family for the weekend

[10:39] I see

[10:40] James always cooks when we’re home

[10:40] Its very nice

[10:41] I'm kind of jealous

[10:41] My mom cooks sometimes, but its always horrible

[10:42] James can be your new chief mom

[10:42] Yay

[10:43] He made me a grilled cheese with tortillas because we are out of bread

[10:43] …

[10:44] So a quesadilla?

[10:44] Oh

[10:45] Yeah

[10:45] Did you just forget about the existence of quesadillas?

[10:46] Sorry, my mind was on grilled cheese mode

[10:46] I thought it was familiar

[10:47] I hope I never see you when your mind is on “grilled cheese mode”

[10:47] Not my fault grilled cheese is amazing

[10:48] Not amazing enough to forget about what a quesadilla is

[10:48] Grilled cheese is better

[10:49] No

[10:49] You're so wrong

[10:50] Fight me, Moony

[10:50] Okay and I’ll win

[10:51] Never

[10:51] I’ll just pull out a clown costume

[10:52] I need another tortilla grilled cheese

[10:52] Mhmm

PM

[5:09] I don't know your favourite Taylor Swift album

[5:10] Thats random

[5:10] I just realised

[5:11] Folklore

[5:11] No

[5:12] Okay, then

[5:12] Evermore is better

[5:13] They're both really good, but folklore is just superior

[5:13] But champagne problems

[5:14] But cardigan

[5:14] Ivy

[5:15] That song’s about Emily Dickinson 

[5:15] Your cat?

[5:16] Nevermind

[5:16] Mirrorball

[5:17] No body, no crime

[5:17] This is me trying

[5:18] Okay, I'm concerned for your mental health

[5:18] It took you this long?

[5:19] Moony

[5:19] Sorry

[5:20] Why are my favourite Taylor songs concerning to you?

[5:20] Cardigan, mirrorball, and this is me trying are all depressing

[5:21] Arent the best songs sad songs?

[5:21] No

[5:22] Then why do you even listen to Taylor Swift??

[5:22] And don't act like the first song you mentioned wasn't champagne problems

[5:23] Okay, you have a point

[5:23] Harry Styles?

[5:24] No

[5:24] What do you mean no?

[5:25] I dont like him

[5:25] WHAT

[5:26] Just not my type of music

[5:26] Listen to From the Dining Table and come back to me

[5:27] Fine

[5:30] I don't like you

[5:30] Did you like the song?

[5:31] I’m crying

[5:31] OH NO

[5:32] DONT DO THAT

[5:32] YOU TOLD ME TO LISTEN TO IT

[5:33] I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D CRY

[5:33] ITS A SAD SONG

[5:34] Okay, no more sad songs

[5:34] No, I like sad songs

[5:35] So, you enjoy crying?

[5:35] If it's to a sad song

[5:36] You’re impossible

[5:36] Thanks

[5:37] Tell me about your day

[5:37] One second

[5:38] I'm listening to Falling

[5:38] DON'T DO THAT

[5:39] THAT'S SAD

[5:39] Too late

[5:40] Moonyyyyyyyy

[5:41] Okay, my day

[5:41] I had lunch with my mom who kept making comments on how much I was eating, then I went home and did some homework and wait

[5:42] Harry Styles is falling again

[5:42] -_-

[5:43] I’m sorry about your mom making comments about your eating, no one should do that

[5:43] I’m used to it, its not that big of a deal

[5:44] You shouldn’t be used to that

[5:44] Really, it's fine

[5:45] Tell me about your day

[5:45] Well after eating my tortilla grilled cheese, Prongs and i met up with our friend, Marlene and her partner and we went shopping together

[5:46] I bought some clothes and a candle

[5:46] What type of candle?

[5:47] Mahogany 

[5:47] I love mahogany scented candles

[5:48] My mom has one she burns sometimes

[5:48] Mmmm

[5:49] Smells nice

[5:49] What clothes did you buy?

[5:50] I got a new leather jacket because mine was starting to tear, some black pants, and a t-shirt

[5:50] So a whole outfit?

[5:51] No, a whole outfit would include shoes and jewellery

[5:51] Oh, my bad

[5:52] Plus, it doesn't go together at all

[5:52] Why couldn't you just agree with me?

[5:53] That’s no fun

[5:53] I hate you

[5:55] So, tell me about Marlene

[5:55] You’ve never mentioned her before

[5:56] I haven't??

[5:56] She's one of my closest friends besides Prongs and Wormy

[5:57] She plays football with us and she's honestly one of the toughest girls I've ever met

[5:57] She doesn't take anyone's shit

[5:58] She sounds scary

[5:58] She can be

[5:59] But in a good way, you know?

[5:59] I guess?

[5:59] Its hard to explain

[6:00] You’ll just have to meet her one day

[6:00] I'm sure you'll love her

[6:01] She already loves you

[6:01] Wait, she knows about me?

[6:02] Yeah

[6:02] All of my friends do

[6:03] Is that okay?

[6:03] Yeah, I just didn't know that

[6:04] I’m sorry, I probably should have talked to you about it first

[6:04] No, it's fine

[6:05] I mean Mary and Lily know about you so

[6:05] I did meet Lily

[6:06] Why do I keep forgetting that?

[6:06] Because it's weird, isn't it?

[6:07] A little

[6:07] But I mean, I think we're weird in general

[6:08] We are

[6:08] But I like that

[6:09] Me too

[6:10] Who’s baby is Harry having?

[6:10] Oh, you're still listening to his music?

[6:11] Yes and I'm confused

[6:11] Moony, you're lovely

[6:12] Oh

[6:12] Thanks

[6:13] Why?

[6:13] Don’t know how to explain it

Incoming call

“You're lovely, too,” Moony says the moment Sirius answers the phone call, making him feel like he's floating.

“Hi,” Is all he is capable of saying.

“Sorry I just randomly called you, my eyes started hurting from my phone screen,” he explains, “Plus, I like your voice.”

Sirius thinks he's going to die. His breath hitches and he internally panics for a second when he realises he doesn't know what to say. He mumbles something that makes no sense, clears his throat, and tries to think before he says something utterly stupid.

“I like your voice, too,” He can't tell if that was the right thing to say or not so he hold his breath as he waits for Moony’s response.

Nothing.

Sirius can hear the intro to a song starting and Moony sighs.

“This ones good,” He says as Sirius tries to make out the song on the other end.

Two Ghosts.

“I thought you didn't like his music,”

“Okay, I don't like what I hear on the radio,” Moony chuckles lightly, “I like this.”

Sirius lays back on his bed and listens to Moony listen to the music. They are both pretty silent except for the faint noises of Moony’s breathing and the rustling sound of his sheets as he shifts and adjusts himself every few minutes.

Sirius is amazed to find that this relaxes him. Normally, he has trouble sitting still for long periods of time, always needing to do something, but right now he can't think of one thing he'd rather be doing than just laying and listening to Moony's breathing.

The songs fade into the background as Sirius' eyelids begin to feel heavier by the minute.

***

[11:10] Hey, we both fell asleep and I'm pretty sure you're still sleeping, but my phone was going to die so I hung up

[11:11] I'll text you in the morning, I guess

[11:11] Goodnight, Padfoot <3

November 7

AM

[8:02] I FELL ASLEEP AT 6:30???

[8:02] AND IM WAKING UP AT 8?

[8:03] I HAVE NEVER SLEPT THIS MUCH IN MY LIFE

[10:23] Good  morning

[10:23] You slept well?

[10:24] Better than ever

[10:24] Thank you

[10:25] Not sure that's because of me, but no problem

[10:25] It was relaxing just listening to music

[10:26] We should do it again

[10:26] It was nice

[10:27] You snore

[10:27] I DO NOT

[10:28] YOU DO HAHA

[10:28] Ughhhhhhh

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November 7

PM

[8:21] There is the most annoying fly in my room

[8:21] Kill it?

[8:22] Yeah because that's so easy

[8:22] Just giving suggestions

[8:23] It’s been annoying me for a week

[8:23] Oh, I think I heard it on the phone last night

[8:24] Wow, you called the fly in my room </3

[8:24] This is betrayal

[8:25] Sorry he's a good listener

[8:25] She?

[8:26] They?

[8:27] Just use they until told otherwise

[8:27] Right, okay

[8:28] I still say kill them

[8:28] Like I haven't tried

[8:29] Okay then open a window?

[8:29] Too dark out

[8:30] Are you scared of the dark?

[8:30] No

[8:31] It’s just not the most comforting

[8:31] Don't worry, there probably aren't clowns out there

[8:32] I hate you

[8:32] I’m just comforting you

[8:33] I GOT THEM

[8:34] THE FLY HAS BEEN KILLED

[8:34] Wow, how dare you

[8:35] That fly could have had an amazing life, but you just had to kill them

[8:35] YOU TOLD ME TO

[8:36] I don't recall

[8:36] MOONY

[8:37] I swear I can still hear their buzzing

[8:37] They’re haunting you

[8:38] Stop

[8:38] Maybe they have clown friends who will come and find you

[8:39] I

[8:39] HATE

[8:40] YOU

[8:40] That’s not very nice

[8:41] I blocked you once, I can do it again

[8:41] We've come a long way

[8:42] Sure

[8:42] You used to hate me

[8:43] Used to?

[8:43] Okay, ouch

[8:44] I miss when you used to put glue on chairs

[8:44] Good times

[8:45] …

[8:45] I did that the other day actually

[8:46] You didn't

[8:46] Yeah, I meant to tell you

[8:47] This glue was stronger

[8:47] Some of their pants ripped, while others just stayed seated until everyone left

[8:48] It was hilarious

[8:48] Detention sentence?

[8:49] One month

[8:49] Didn’t you only get a week last time?

[8:50] How do you remember that?

[8:50] I was traumatised

[8:51] Apparently doing it once is bad, doing it twice is a crime

[8:51] I don't even know

[8:52] Maybe because you didn't learn your lesson??

[8:52] Ugh, now you sound like her

[8:53] Who?

[8:53] McGonagall

[8:54] She’s the Gryffindor head of house

[8:54] And the love of my life

[8:55] Okay, it got weird

[8:55] You aren't invited to our wedding

[8:56] Oh no

[8:56] I’m so upset

[8:57] Good

[8:57] Does she know you two are getting married?

[8:58] Of course

[8:58] She proposed

[8:59] I need to learn to just stop asking questions

[8:59] Please don't

[9:00] What music should I listen to tonight?

[9:00] Hmm

[9:04] Queen

[9:05] You think I haven't listened to Queen?

[9:05] I DONT KNOW

[9:06] YOU PUT ME ON THE SPOT

[9:06] I'll just fine something myself

[9:07] I’m sorry

[9:07] I’m bad under pressure

[9:08] Ha

[9:08] The song

[9:09] Oh, shut up

[9:09] Tell me what you’re listening to

[9:10] Conan Gray

[9:10] THAT'S SAD

[9:11] Yup!

[9:11] WHY

[9:12] IT'S GOOD

[9:12] Okay, what song?

[9:13] …

[9:13] (Online Love) at the moment

[9:14] Oh

[9:14] Yeah

[9:15] Now Comfort Crowd

[9:15] Oh, I like that song

[9:16] I think I’m going to shower and try to sleep, I'll text you later

[9:16] Okay, goodnight

[9:17] Goodnight

November 8

AM

[10:34] I start my job todayyyyyyy

[10:36] GOOD LUCK

[10:36] THANK YOU

[10:37] What time do you start?

[10:37] 12

[10:38] I'm yours for 1.5 hours

[10:38] Darn

[10:39] RUDE, MOONY

[10:39] So sorry, barista

[10:40] It’s fine, I'll just spit in your tea

[10:40] Wow, first day on the job and you're already spitting in people’s tea

[10:41] That says a lot about you

[10:41] Awww, thanks

[10:42] Not a complement

[10:42] Debatable

[10:43] Do you want to be known as the barista who spits in people’s drinks?

[10:43] Definitely

[10:44] Sarcasm is hard to read over text

[10:44] How do you know I'm being sarcastic?

[10:45] Just hoping

[10:54] James just told me to go for a walk to calm my nerves and then KICKED ME OUT

[10:55] HOW IS THAT SUPPOSED TO CALM MY NERVES??

[10:55] Because now you’re being forced to do it

[10:56] Well, obviously

[10:56] Why are you nervous?

[10:57] First day at a new job

[10:57] I think it's pretty self-explanatory

[10:58] You’re right, sorry

[10:58] You’ll be fine, Padfoot

[10:59] And if you get too nervous, you can just text me

[10:59] Yeah

[11:00] I just need to breathe

[11:00] Maybe James was right about walking

[11:01] Just take in the fresh air

[11:01] Maybe get some tea

[11:02] Actually, don't do that

[11:02] You’re literally about to work at a coffee shop

[11:03] MOONY HAHA

[11:03] I'm just walking and looking in some shops

[11:04] Shopping relaxes you?

[11:04] I find that stressful

[11:05] Of course you do

[11:05] What does that mean

[11:06] Oh, nothing

[11:06] Just get that vibe

[11:07] Mhmm

[11:07] I can take you shopping and make it fun

[11:08] We can play a game where we guess the price of different items

[11:08] …Fun

[11:09] IT IS!

[11:09] Because sometimes you'll pick something up and think its cheap and then you look at the price and go into shock

[11:10] How is that fun?

[11:10] James and I play it all the time

[11:10] Ohhhh that makes sense

[11:11] What is tjodewhd

Sirius reaches his arms out, instinctively, to make sure the person he just ran into doesn't fall over as he trips over his own feet.

“I’m so sorry,” A sweet voice says as they both try to regain their balance.

"It's all me," He reassures the stranger, looking up to see a familiar red-head smiling at him. 

Lily looks almost the same as she did that night, except now Sirius can see her more clearly. She has light freckles and bright green eyes.

Sirius smiles at her, opening his mouth to make a sarcastic comment when he notices her face is in a slightly panicked expression. He thinks maybe it's because they literally just bumped into one another and almost falling on your face tends to make you panic.

Lily whips her head to her side and a brown haired boy comes into view.

He's smiling down at his phone, but even then Sirius can tell how beautiful he is. He has light brown, curly hair with strands that fall loosely around his face. When he looks up, Sirius' heart stops for a second. He has scars that cover the bridge of his nose and across his freckled cheeks. His eyes are a honey brown colour that hit the light with a soft glow.

Sirius recognizes him immediately.

“It's you,” He says, feeling his face suddenly heat up. He can’t breathe. He can't move. It’s like the world has completely stopped.

“Um, hi,” The boy looks down at his hands, smiling ever so slightly which makes Sirius’ heart jump.

“You probably don't recognize me,” Sirius starts, running his hands through his hair and desperately trying to not say anything stupid, “We had English class together second year at Hogwarts. You were a Ravenclaw, right?”

Suddenly, it dawns on him that this could be a completely different person. It's been four years, what are the odds it's the same boy that Sirius used to think about so often? 

“Oh… uh, yeah,” The boy gives him a tight smile before hesitantly looking at Lily who is currently looking between them like she can’t piece together what’s going on. Her eyebrows are pulled together tightly and she pulls her lip in between her teeth as she just watches them with wide eyes.

He smiles before, he too, looks at Lily, “And nice to see you again, Lily.”

“You two know each other?” The boy interrupts and Lily snaps her head toward him, looking up.

“I uhh-,” She starts.

“She’s a friend of a friend,” Sirius chimes in, realising that it's a complicated story for Lily to explain, seeing as they only met once because he was drunk and needed a ride home.

Lily just looks at Sirius for a second.

Then the boy, who is just smiling at Sirius.

She looks between them one more time before looking down at her feet.

“You guys know each other,” She whispers to herself, laughing slightly under her breath.

Suddenly, Sirius has an overwhelming feeling that something is wrong, but he can't quite place what it is.

Lily looks up at the boy standing right next to her, shakes her head, and says, “I gave him a ride home a while back.”

Remus just stares at her for a second, just blinking in confusion.

Then his eyes widen and he looks back at Sirius, studying him.

He looks him up and down, not missing anything, taking every piece of him in like he's trying to solve some sort of puzzle.

Sirius feels suddenly very exposed. He put on an outfit that he loved—black pants, Doctor Martens, and a red cropped top—but now he feels like he should have worn something nicer. He feels bare.

He is the most confused he has ever been in his life, but somehow the moment Remus meets his eyes again, it seems to click in place.

The tall boy with brown eyes, brown hair, and who's friends with Lily.

That can’t be possible. It just makes no sense. Sirius can't even begin to wrap his head around how it's possible

But…

“Moony,” He says under his breath.

Remus looks at him one last time, his eyes slightly widening and his lips parting, before grabbing Lily’s arm and dragging her away from him.

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November 8

AM

[11:23] Moony

[11:24] I’m sorry

[11:24] Are you okay?

[11:25] I had no idea it was you

[11:25] I mean wow

[11:43] I really didn't know

[11:43] I’m sorry

[11:52] I'm about to go into work, please text me

PM

[6:04] Off work

[6:11] I feel like an idiot

[6:13] I’m sorry

[6:14] What?

[6:14] Moony, you did nothing wrong

[6:15] You probably expected someone else, right?

[6:15] Not some kid who you barely went to school with and got bullied so badly he had to leave

[6:16] You’re right, I was expecting someone else

[6:16] Someone I hadn't already known

[6:17] Right

[6:17] But I have never been happier

[6:19] What?

[6:19] Moony, it’s you.

[6:20] Why would I be upset?

[6:20] Because it's me

[6:20] Do you even know how much I wanted to get to know you at school?

[6:21] You did?

[6:21] You were the boy

[6:22] I'm not following

[6:22] One second

[6:27] “ He was just really nice, I guess? I don’t know. At 12 I didn’t think too much about my feelings, I just knew I wanted to be his friend you know? But like his best friend.”

[6:27] That was you

[6:28] Oh

[6:28] Ohhhh

[6:29] Yeah

[6:29] Why me?

[6:30] Because why wouldn’t it be you?

[6:30] I wasn’t that talkative and

[6:30] The bullying

[6:31] I didn’t know about the bullying

[6:31] How?

[6:32] Everyone knew

[6:32] I'm going to be very honest

[6:33] I was pretty self-obsessed and didn't really listen to anyone else those years

[6:33] You still knew who I was

[6:34] But I didn't know much about you

[6:34] I kicked myself for that

[6:35] But now

[6:35] This is a bad idea

[6:36] Why?

[6:37] Sirius

[6:37] I left the school for a reason, talking to you won't help anything

[6:38] That makes no sense

[6:38] I don't want to have this reminder

[6:40] Oh

[6:40] I’m sorry

[6:41] I won't hurt you

[6:41] That's not what I'm worried about

[6:42] I just can't, Sirius 

[6:42] I’m sorry

[6:43] Moony

[Failed to send]

[6:43] Moony, please

[Failed to send]

[6:44] Remus

[Failed to send]

From: Lily

To: Sirius

[8:21] Hi, it’s Lily. I stole your number from Remus’ phone a while ago just in case.

[8:21] He told me he blocked you and I told him that was idiotic, but he won't listen

[8:22] I’d just give it time, he could come around

[8:22] Hi, Lily

[8:23] Is he alright?

[8:23] He’s just worried, but he’ll be fine

[8:24] Why is he worried?

[8:24] He just worries about a lot of things, it’s not really my place to tell you

[8:25] I’m sorry

[8:25] No, I get it

[8:26] Are you alright?

[8:26] I just miss him

[8:27] I’ll keep talking to him, but I can’t guarantee he will listen

[8:27] It’s fine, please don’t push him to do something he doesn't want to

[8:28] I wouldn’t

[8:28] And I don't think talking to you is something he doesn't want to do

[8:29] I don’t know

[8:29] I do

[8:30] Trust me

[8:30] Okay

[8:31] Thank you, Lily

November 11

AM

[3:02] Sirius?

[6:12] Hi

[6:12] I’m sorry

[6:13] You have nothing to be sorry for

[6:13] I blocked you

[6:14] Again

[6:14] It’s alright

[6:15] Are you alright?

[6:15] I’m okay

[6:16] Are you?

[6:16] Better now

[6:17] Stop

[6:17] I’m sorry?

[6:18] I don't want to be the reason you're happy or the reason you're sad

[6:18] I don’t like the fact that I upset you

[6:19] You didn't

[6:19] I did

[6:20] And I can't promise I won't do it again and I hate that

[6:20] I really don't care if you do

[6:21] You should

[6:21] Eh

[6:22] Sirius

[6:23] Moony, I don't care if you upset me or hurt me. I don’t care. I’m just glad that I’m getting to know you. I just want to know that you're alright, okay?

[6:24] I’m alright

[6:24] Me too

[6:25] You need to tell me how work has been

[6:25] It's been pretty great

[6:26] I really like it there

[6:26] I’m glad

[6:28] Wait, why are you up at 6am?

[6:28] 6:28, actually

[6:29] Haven't been able to sleep

[6:29] Would it be okay if I called?

[6:30] Yeah

Incoming call

“Hi,” Remus says in a raspy, tired voice that Sirius really shouldn’t find attractive, but he can't help it, his stomach flutters and his breathing stops.

“Hi,” Sirius whispers back, “I can sing you to sleep if you want.” He jokes.

“Please don't,” He snorts, quietly.

“Want to listen to some music?” 

“Depends,” Remus says, “You are known to have bad taste.”

“Ouch,” Sirius says in mock-hurt, “I made a playlist with all the artist we talked about.”

“You did?” Remus says, clearly surprised. 

Sirius thinks for a second about how maybe that was an embarrassing thing to admit but he shakes his head, not caring.

“Yeah,”

“Oh, okay,” Remus says, “Play it then.”

Sirius grabs his laptop from the foot of his bed and opens it, launching Spotify. He pulls up the playlist he had made and presses shuffle before leaning back on his bed, his phone by his head and laptop on the same side.

Invisible string by Taylor Swift starts playing and Remus hums softly, sending chills down Sirius’ spine.

They aren't even in the same room, but somehow Sirius has never felt closer to a person in his life. Not even when him and James are together. This is something different entirely.

“Are you sleeping?” Sirius whispers.

“It’s been like five seconds,” 

“Just checking in, Moony.”

Remus laughs lightly before going silent.

“You can call me by my name, you know?” 

“I wasn't sure if you wanted me to,” Sirius says, honestly.

He doesn't want to cross some line that might remind Remus of how they know each other. 

“I do,” Remus says so quietly it's almost impossible to hear.

"A little soon for marriage, don't you think?" Sirius jokes.

"You can't see it, but I'm glaring at you," 

That only makes Sirius laugh harder, pressing his face into his pillow.

He can hear Remus' giggle on the other end of the phone and Sirius stops himself from laughing just so he can listen. Remus has a laugh that is so unique, so beautiful, Sirius thinks he could listen to it on repeat and never tire of it.

When Remus goes quiet, Sirius takes a low breath before releasing, “Remus.”

Remus hums softly and Sirius smiles at himself, perfectly content.

“Are you up, Sirius?!” James yells from behind the curtains that wrap his bed.

Sirius groans before he grabs his phone and whispers into the speaker, “Sorry, one second,” and then mutes the call, setting his phone down on his bed. He opens his curtains to see James rushing around the room, a towel wrapped around his hips. 

“I’m on the phone,” Sirius says in a quiet yell.

“With Moony?” James asks, pausing whatever he’s doing.

“Yeah,” He feels his lips tug slightly.

“Aww, so you two are alright?” 

“We’ve been alright,” Sirius frowns slightly.

“You told me you two were fighting and he blocked you,” James crosses his arms over his chest, “How is that ‘alright?’” He uses air quotes.

“Ugh,” Sirius growns, “Not the point.”

“Kind of is,” Peter says from his bed, where his curtains are still closed around him.

“Oh, shut up. Just please be quiet, so Moony can sleep.”

“It’s almost seven, Sirius, why is he falling asleep?” James asks.

“He just couldn't sleep last night,”

“Okay, well we have practice,” James goes back to rushing around the room, setting some clothes on his bed, “You know we have a game tomorrow.”

“Just give me ten minutes,” Sirius closes his curtains before James can protest and picks his phone up, unmuting the call, “Remus?”

Silence.

“Moony?”

Silence.

Sirius smiles to himself.

“Goodnight, Remus,” He says before hanging up the call.

PM

[1:32] My mom is not happy with my sleeping habits

[1:33] Too bad

[1:33] I’m glad you got some sleep

[1:34] Me too

[1:34] Thank you for calling me

[1:35] Of course

[1:35] How was practice?

[1:36] It was great. Probably one of my best practices

[1:36] Wait, how’d you know I had practice?

[1:37] I heard you talking with James and Peter this morning

[1:37] Shit, sorry I thought I muted you

[1:38] It's fine, I didn't hear much

[1:38] I fell asleep pretty quickly

[1:39] Do they know who I am?

[1:39] No, I wasn't sure if you wanted them to know

[1:40] Oh, thank you

[1:40] I don't think I'm ready for them to know, if that's okay?

[1:41] Anything, Moony

[1:41] Remus

[1:41] Remus

[1:42] Do you not like ‘Moony’ anymore? I worked hard on that nickname, you know?

[1:42] No, I like it

[1:43] As stupid of a nickname as it is

[1:43] Just nice that you know my name, I guess

[1:44] I get it

[1:45] I finally pieced together why you always acted funny when I would say ‘serious’

[1:45] What can I say, I'm a comedian

[1:46] Mhmm

[1:46] You could say I’m Siriusly funny

[1:50] Okay, sorry

[1:50] Ignoring that

[1:51] Also… dog

[1:51] YES SEE IT'S SO FUNNY

[1:52] I mean you being a wolf is funny too Remus Lupin

[1:52] Oh, you remember my full name

[1:53] Yeah, sorry

[1:53] It’s fine, Sirius Black

[1:54] Oh

[1:54] Wait, if you remember me how'd you not realise when I told you all my friend’s and my brother’s names?

[1:55] Not to sound like a dick, but I kind of blocked out a lot of my Hogwarts years

[1:55] You know, because it kind of sucked?

[1:56] Doesn't make you a dick

[1:56] I get it

[1:57] I do the same with holidays with my family

[1:57] They were… bad

[1:58] I'm sorry

[1:58] I have nice ones now so it's fine

[1:59] Good

[1:59] Holidays can suck here too

[2:00] I'm sorry

[2:00] It's fine

[2:01] One day, you can spend the holidays with James and I

[2:01] Like, not in a weird way

[2:02] Okay, that was weird

[2:02] You know what? Never mind

[2:02] I said nothing

[2:03] That’d be nice

[2:03] Oh

[2:04] <3

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November 12

AM

[10:41] I still feel horrible about blocking you and I just don’t know how to apologise. You say it’s okay and that you don't mind, but I shouldn't have done that. It’s no excuse, but I just wanted to give better reasoning, I guess. You know how I told you about the bullying and how bad it had gotten? I really thought I was better. I mean, I go to therapy and everything just seemed okay, you know? I was really happy and I liked that that’s how you knew me. Happy. I guess, knowing that you knew me when I was in a bad state, hurt? I didn't like the fact that that's how you know me. I still don't, really…

[10:42] So I acted irrationally and I'm sorry I did that. I should have just told you, but I guess I still struggle with that. I’m sorry.

[10:42] Remus, you don't need to be sorry. I genuinely mean that. We all can act irrationally when we’re hurting and that's okay. Do you remember when James and Regulus first started dating? All of the shitty things I said? I regret that so much, I hope you know that. So I understand where you were coming from. 

[10:43] We all do things we don't mean when we're hurting.

[10:43] That doesn't make it okay

[10:44] You’re right, it doesn't

[10:44] But sometimes we just can't help it. It's like we need a place to put that anger

[10:45] How do you know everything?

[10:45] Oh, I don't

[10:46] I just know what it feels like to hurt and do things you regret

[10:46] I do forgive you for the things you said, you know that?

[10:47] I really hoped

[10:47] And I forgive you for blocking me

[10:48] Thank you

[10:48] I didn't do anything

[10:49] You just talking to me is enough.

[10:50] I really like talking to you

[10:50] And I like talking to you

[10:51] Do you believe in fate?

[10:51] It sounds like you’re about to get sappy

[10:52] It feels like us having similar phone numbers is fate

[10:52] Like we’re supposed to be friends

[10:53] I was right

[10:53] You got sappy

[10:54] Sorry, it’s just been on my mind

[10:54] I think everything happens for a reason, yes. I just can't figure out what the reason for us is yet

[10:55] I hope it’s good.

[10:55] I do too

[10:56] Now stop being sappy 

[10:56] What are you up to?

[10:56] Game dayyyy

[10:57] Right

[10:57] Good luck

[10:58] Don’t let James embarrass himself

[10:58] I can’t make any promises

[10:59] Oh, great

[10:59] BAHAHA

[11:00] You should come to one of our games some day

[11:00] I’d like that

[11:01] I kind of missed watching the games, even though I don’t understand football at all

[11:01] How do you not understand football?

[11:02] Too complicated and I’m too lazy to learn

[11:02] I’m going to teach you

[11:03] How fun..

[11:03] Okay, nevermind then

[11:04] HAHA

[11:04] Okay, I have to go back to practice 

[11:05] Text you later, Remus

[11:05] I can't wait, good luck at your game

PM

[5:02] We lost

[5:03] Oh, I’m sorry

[5:03] I’d be happier if it wasn't against Slytherin

[5:04] James is actually happy because Regulus won

[5:04] Relationships make people weird

[5:05] Love makes people weird

[5:05] You don't have to answer this but, does the school accept them?

[5:06] Yes, but I think it’s mainly because they’re scared of Reg

[5:06] Also Mcgonagall won't tolerate hate 

[5:07] Oh

[5:07] Things changed

[5:08] I’m sorry it wasn't like this when you were here

[5:08] It’s alright

[5:09] I'm glad things are better now

[5:09] Me too

[5:10] Now I just need a boyfriend

[5:10] Because watching James and Regulus be weird make me want someone to be weird with

[5:12] My parents would find it weird too, but that’s because they are massively homophobic and would just think it’s weird because we’re all gay

[5:13] But they’re also cousins so I don’t think gay people have a right to bug them, you know?

[5:14] Hearing about your family is one of my least favourite things

[5:14] No offence

[5:15] None taken

[5:15] Do you have anyone in mind?

[5:16] What?

[5:16] To “be weird with”

[5:17] Oh

[5:17] I don't know

[5:18] You don't know?

[5:18] Feelings are complicated

[5:19] Ah

[5:19] I don't really know how to tell the difference between liking someone and wanting to date them or liking someone and just wanting to be their friend

[5:20] Lily told me she knew she liked Mary as more than a friend because she kept not being able to breath properly around her and her heart would beat differently

[5:20] Oh

[5:21] Do you have anyone that makes your heart beat differently?

[5:21] Maybe I do

[5:22] Oh

[5:22] That’s nice

[5:23] Yeah

[5:23] It is

***

[9:02] You know what's unfair?

[9:03] James is at the Slytherin’s party right now because his boyfriend is a Slytherin

[9:03] And I have to stay in and do homework

[9:03] IM REGULUS’ BROTHER

[9:04] That does sound unfair

[9:04] THANK YOU

[9:05] But homework is more important

[9:05] You’re hopeless

[9:06] I could help you, if you want

[9:06] It’s fine, I think I've got it

[9:07] Okay

[9:07] I’m here if you change your mind

[9:08] Do you not have faith in me?

[9:08] No, I do

[9:09] I just thought if you needed help we could talk on the phone

[9:09] Kind of wanted to hear your voice

Incoming call

“Tomatoes are fruits,” Sirius says once Remus answers the phone.

“I agree with you, but why is that the way you greet me?”

“You said you wanted to hear my voice, so I wanted to say something ridiculous,” Sirius explains.

“You’re stupid,” Remus tells him and lets out a light laugh that does things to Sirius’ heart.

“Awww, how sweet,” He replies, mockingly.

“I hate you,”

“Do you?” Sirius smirks.

“Oh, definitely,” He jokes and Sirius just smiles like an idiot, putting his pen in his mouth as he turns the pages on his homework

“What are you working on?”

“Maths,” Sirius mumbles, removing the pen from his mouth so he can hover it over the page, “Fucking hate it.”

“Oh, I've never been much of a maths person,”

Sirius groans and drops his pen, already bored of the work.

“What are you doing?” Sirius asks him, abandoning his homework.

“Just laying in bed, talking to you,”

“But before that,” Sirius asks.

“Reading,” 

Of course, nerd, Sirius wants to say, just to mock him.

“Tell me about it,” Is what he says instead.

“Well, the book is called ‘The Song of Achilles…’” Remus explains the plot as far as he's read and Sirius just listens to him, occasionally asking questions. It’s weird to Sirius that he can feel so content just listening to a person talk about a book they are reading, but he does. He feels more than content. 

“I’m buying that,” Sirius decides once Remus is done explaining.

Since Sirius is done with his work, sitting at his desk is pointless, so he gets up and walks to his bed, laying down on his back. 

“What are you doing?” Remus asks.

“I’m done with my homework for the night, I’m going to bed,” 

“Oh, okay,” Remus says, “Goodnight then.”

Sirius feels his heart drop at this. He isn't ready to hang up the phone just yet. He doesn't care if he and Remus are talking or just silently breathing together, he likes knowing that Remus is there. That he’s real, that this is real.

“Can we listen to music and fall asleep together?” Sirius says quickly, before Remus can even think of ending the call.

“Yeah,” He hears the sound of rustling on Remus’s end as he's probably readjusting to a more comfortable position to fall asleep in.

Sirius grabs his computer, opens Spotify, and plays their playlist.

He might never admit it, but It’s nights like these that make him feel like he's floating. He wakes up in the mornings already grinning from the peaceful night of sleep he had gotten. He sleeps best on these nights. He doesn't really know why.

He’s not sure how much time passes, but he can hear Remus’ breathing slowly change, getting deeper. This makes Sirius smile to himself. He knows that Remus never falls asleep this early, usually texting Sirius until late hours. Sirius hopes this means Remus sleeps as well as he does when they do this.

“Remus?” He whispers very quietly.

No response.

“Remus,” he tries one more time and it comes out more as a breath than a question. 

He hears Remus breathe, but not say anything.

His heart picks up its pace as he whispers, “you make my heart beat differently, you always have, Remus. Goodnight.” and hangs up the phone, grinning to himself as he does.

Chapter Text

November 15

AM

[11:02] Sirius?

[11:03] Remus?

[11:03] I wanna meet 

[11:03] I mean again

[11:04] Wait, really?

[11:04] Are you sure?

[11:05] I am

[11:05] Okay, yeah I’m free whenever

[11:06] What about days you have football or work?

[11:06] I’d skip

[11:07] Sirius, no

[11:07] Okay, fine

[11:07] Then I'm free Tuesdays and Thursdays after 3, Sundays, and some Saturdays

[11:08] This Saturday?

[11:08] I can't, but next saturday I’m free

[11:09] Okay, want to do our picnic next Saturday?

[11:09] Yes

[11:09] Do you?

[11:10] I wouldn't ask if I didn't

[11:10] Right

[11:11] Okay, so next Saturday. Picnic.

[11:11] Yes.

[11:12] Wow, okay

[11:12] I won’t cancel, I promise

[11:13] If you need to for any reason, I understand

[11:13] Thank you, but I dont think ill have a reason to cancel

[11:14] Okay, well incase

[11:14] I'm excited

[11:15] Me too

[11:15] I've put it in my calendar

[11:16] Of course you have a calendar you put things in

[11:16] It’s convenient

[11:17] Nerd

[11:17] Thanks

[11:18] I just finished up your painting, by the way 

[11:18] And now I know when I'm giving them to you

[11:19] I can’t wait to see them

[11:19] Really

[11:20] <3

[11:20] What are you doing today?

[11:21] Lily, Mary, and I are going to get lunch in about an hour and then I have school work

[11:21] That's it

[11:22] A busy man

[11:22] Always

[11:23] You?

[11:23] School and work

[11:24] How fun

[11:24] I thought being a Barista meant I could just look hot all day, but I guess I actually have to make people coffee

[11:25] How dare they not just let you be hot all day

[11:25] I mean I bet you don't look too bad making coffee

[11:26] I don't ;)

[11:26] You should come see it sometime

[11:27] Hmm

[11:27] One day I'll walk in to ridicule your coffee making skills

[11:28] Do you know how to make coffee?

[11:28] Can't be that hard

[11:29] IT IS AN ART

[11:29] IT IS NOT EASY

[11:30] Eh

[11:30] Just for that you don't get to see how hot I look

[11:31] Oh no

[11:31] What ever will I do

[11:32] Suffer

[11:32] I really am

[11:33] [photo]

[11:35] Oh

[11:35] Didn’t think you actually meant I'd get to see it

[11:36] Your hair’s up

[11:36] Yeah, I wear it up on work days

[11:37] Makes it easier to go from school to work

[11:37] I like it

[11:38] Thanks ;)

To: Lily

From: Remus

[11:35] Just look at this

[11:35] [screenshot]

[11:36] Did he send you that?

[11:36] Yes

[11:37] He’s so

[11:37] Ugh, I don't know

[11:38] Hot, he's hot

[11:38] Well, I knew that

[11:39] See, if I wasn't a lesbian and he wasn't yours…

[11:39] 1. I'm telling Mary

[11:40] 2. He’s not mine

[11:40] Mhmm

[11:41] He’s not

[11:41] He’s hot

[11:42] UGH

[11:42] Do you think he expects a picture back?

[11:43] I don't know

[11:43] Send him one

[11:44] But I don't look great right now

[11:44] Shut up, you always look great

[11:45] You’d be my second choice if I wasn't a lesbian

[11:45] Wow, thanks

[11:46] Okay, sending him a picture

[11:46] Make sure its a clothed one

[11:47] Ew, shut up

***

[11:47] [photo]

[11:48] Oh wow, hi

[11:48] And I thought I was hot

[11:49] You are

[11:49] I like your freckles a lot

[11:50] And your face in general

[11:50] Thank you?

[11:51] What about my

[11:51] Scars?

[11:52] I like those too

[11:52] There's more than when I was at Hogwarts

[11:53] I know

[11:53] You don't have to tell me about them

[11:54] Okay

[11:54] I have a new lockscreen

[11:55] OH NO

[11:55] PLEASE DON'T

[11:56] Too late

[11:56] I keep locking my phone so I can see your face

[11:57] That wasn't even a good picture

[11:57] If that wasn't a good picture, I'm scared of how a good one might affect me

[11:58] Because wow

[11:58] Shut up

[11:59] You’re my lockscreen now too

[11:59] Good, I like that picture

[12:00] I like knowing we both get to see each other all the time

[12:00] I mean, In picture form but still

[12:01] I like it too

[12:01] I like you

[12:03] I like you too

[12:03] :))

PM

[6:03] I’m an idiot

[6:04] You might want to specify

[6:04] James saw my lockscreen

[6:05] He didn’t recognize you but he does know what you look like

[6:05] Oh

[6:06] I'm sorry

[6:06] No, it's fine

[6:07] You can tell him I went to Hogwarts if you want

[6:07] Are you sure?

[6:07] Yeah

[6:08] Just tell me what he says

[6:08] Unless it's bad, then please don't

[6:23] He’s not surprised

[6:23] He said he doesn't remember you, but it’s cool to know that you went to school with us

[6:24] Oh, not what I was expecting

[6:24] What were you expecting?

[6:25] I honestly don't know

[6:25] I'm glad he doesn't remember me

[6:26] I was worried that was something I shouldn’t have told you

[6:26] I'd rather that than him know about

[6:27] Everything

[6:27] You know?

[6:28] I know

[6:28] He’s happy

[6:29] He wanted to ask, “did you ever get the pleasure of watching me play football?”

[6:29] I only watched Ravenclaw’s games and it was very rare that I did that, so no

[6:30] James is now very upset

[6:30] I'm really sorry

[6:31] I told him you don’t understand football and he agrees that we should teach you

[6:31] Not happening

[6:32] Come onnnnn

[6:32] No

[6:33] It’s be fun

[6:33] No

[6:34] Why not?

[6:34] Because I don't want to

[6:35] Please stop pushing

[6:35] I’m sorry, I didn't mean to

[6:36] Its fine, I know you're joking around

[6:36] Just people doing that bothers me

[6:37] I understand