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I witnessed it, alone, I thought it was a normal dream. It felt real, I feel like I can control everything. Is it my escape? From this cruel reality I found something that I've been wanted to.
A home. No hatred or loud noises, just me and him. I do not know him but I kept dreaming about him. It was strange at first but slowly we both were getting closer and somehow we both fell in love. He was my sunshine to my darkest life, he was lovely, I love his laugh, his smile. God I wish this was my reality, I'm praying to God that I will never ever wake up again so I can meet him. Eli Clark is his name, sipping my tea, I watched him cooking for our dinner. Feeling bad for not helping him, I tried to help him but he kept insisted so I can only watch him.
"Are you sure you don't want me to help you?". Eli hummed then nodded, "I don't want my dear to ruin our dinner" he jokingly about it. "Wha- hey! I can COOK better than you!" Pouted and irated, Eli only laughed about it. "I'm sorry dear I know you can cook a lot better than me~ but I don't want to tire you up" he placed the meal on the table, leaning close then he kissed my forehead. "Forgive me please?" He smiled cutely, gahh he knew my weakness very well, giving up I sighed, "Finee but let me help you next time". Eli nodded, we both enjoyed our meal together to was good, it melted inside my mouth.
We keep talking about our daily life together until. Poof I woke up from my dream. The smile on my face disappeared. Here I am again awoken from this full world. I lazily got up just to get ready for work, yes my boring work, I did ate my breakfast yet I still crave my lover's cooking. The skies looks cloudy, it's seem like it about to rain yet I don't care my work are not that far from my home. People were running around because it started to rain, but thankfully I made it on time to get inside my workplace. "You're late again" Martha sighed, she's my boss yet so kind even though she's strict she won't fire anyone without any reason she know I have some problem, she pitied me and took care of me sometimes. "Aesop if you're having trouble you know you can talk to me right?". I glanced at her, "I'm sorry... it's too personal...". Martha knew the look on my face she look at me for moment before continuing her work.
I don't have anyone else. My parents? Died when I was young. My relatives doesn't want to take responsibility for taking me in. They abandoned me, except my uncle he took care of me yet without love and care he only teached me how to take care of the death. It was terrifying at first and disgusting, but I eventually overcome it. I couldn't hold anymore staying there so I ran away from home. And started my life in this city, it was hard at first I need to find a shelter and foods of course I need to work for money. I struggled a lot until now, even though I live in comfy house and with a lot of money. There's something I lack I always wanted someone who loved me, a person who cherished me.
I thought I will get it from opposite gender but instead I got the perfect one even though he's the same gender as me I loved it every moment I spent with him felt so real.
I want to be with him, to be in another reality ah...I missed him already. I always been thinking of searching for him everywhere but I couldn't find him. It was depressing very depressing. I couldn't find the love of my life, but I've been thinking of my life yes that's a good decision! I can finally be with him forever! That's what I always thought. I talked to Eli about it but he doesn't approve he said that I should stay in my reality, I should be alive breathing. I shouldn't waste my golden life he said. Why? There's no reason for me to live anyway I just wanted to be with him. We argued about it but we make up at the end.
I don't want us to be apart, but I'm sorry my love...I really can't live in this reality I've made my mind to join you, in another world please forgive me. I finished my work early and talked to Martha for the last time, I even thanked her. She was confused but accepted it anyway she told me to visit her sometime I only nodded on that. On my way home, my heart couldn't stop beating fast, the excitement of meeting him and fear of killing myself were mixing. I locked the door I put the rope on my ceiling and grabbed the chair. No I shouldn't be scared of it. Not like this, I should be happy that I will get reunited with him yes to my beloved.
I stood on the chair, the rope were around my neck, I took a deep breath and smile. I kicked the chair. I gasped for air, the burn on my neck I can feel it. Slowly I became lifeless, my body were cold.
I opened my eyes, everything were black, I couldn't hear anything either. But I heard a sobbing, near me. I went searching for it, maybe it's Eli? What happened... where's our home? Where's my love. I kept running just to find him until I saw it. Black cloak he hide his face with his bare hands. The voice were familiar, I crouched down trying to approach him. He suddenly speak "Why did you do it Aesop? You promised me". My heart were broke, it was painful to see him like this. "You said you will live...I don't want you to die". Static, I didn't move at all and listened to him. "I love you, I fell in love with at the very first moment". I gathered my courage, "I did it for us...". Eli looked up to me, his eyes were no longer blue, they're crimson red pearl. "For us...? No...you should live Aesop! Because...we couldn't be together anymore". He held me close, it's weird my body were warm while his were cold. "I don't want you to leave me...". I hugged him back. "I won't leave you, ever".
He was trembling, "No dear...you don't understand... I'm the grim reaper... I've took your life back then but the feelings it stopped me, I fell for you so I wanted you to stay alive....that's why I kept visiting your dream I watched you everyday...". I was I'm shock, he lied to me all this time? But why I felt glad that I met him? I supposed to be angry right? But why I can't do it?. He cried nonstop inside my arms, I kept quiet until he can face me again. He slowly turned his face towards me, caressing my cheeks. I stared into his eyes, sorrowful... "My dear...I must take you into the realm of heaven...I begged to God to keep you there...". My heart were pained, it is too late to regret now? Is this all my fault? I started to cry. He wiped my tears away. "I'm sorry...the God knew you didn't nothing wrong... I'm sure you'll be happy there without me...". I grabbed his hand, "No no, I won't leave you-". He grabbed my face, and kissed me, I react back. We shared the long kiss before pulling each other away. "I'm sorry..." He said. "I'm sure you'll be reborn back and will live in wonderful life...I will watch you my dear..."
Ah..this is our goodbye aren't it? I'm sorry I'm selfish I've never do it at the first place...he watched me turning into ashes. Now the reaper is all alone, empty he shouldn't have that feeling. But it was his punishment anyway.