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When Jungkook was 5, he knew he was different from other boys.
While they played ‘house’ with girls and pretended to kiss a girl who was ‘their wife’ goodbye to go to work, he wanted to have a boy as his wife and wanted to kiss him goodbye.
They used to tell him that it was wrong and weird and yucky. They said he should either play the game with a girl as his wife or not play. He would begrudgingly agree and play, even though it yucked him to pretend to kiss his ‘wife’.
He would shudder violently when he thought of actually kissing a girl.
When he was 8 his friends would pretend to get married to girls and kiss their cheeks. He would always be the priest so that he would never have to do that.
His friends would ask him many times to get married to Zandra, a very pretty girl Jungkook would think but he would still never want to kiss her.
He was especially good at singing, his mother and father had told him many times that he could be an idol with a voice like that. They said that they always want him to be happy and nothing else.
When he was 14 his friends would encourage him to ask Zandra out. She was the most pretty girl in school. He had no interest in asking her out though, he only wanted to sing and dance.
His friends would ask him if he had ever kissed a girl. He would scrunch his nose and shake his head.
If he ever had a girlfriend, he would shake his head and shrug.
They would joke that the most handsome guy in their year is not interested in dating and is gonna break the hearts of millions of girls. He would laugh with them but not understand what the fuss is about.
Maybe they only liked girls because they had a bigger chest and prettier, smoother lips than guys. Maybe because they would pretend to be shy and small and weak while they could do much more than boys.
Jungkook knew, he had seen them in P.E class and in gyms. They could lift weights and do more sets than Jungkook had ever thought of!
He knew they pretended sometimes because had seen his best friend’s girlfriend break a piece of wood in taekwondo but ask for his help to open a jar of jam the next day.
The only thing that Jungkook and his friends both enjoyed was playing video games. He would sit in front of the TV all day and play games. Sometimes defeating zombies, sometimes killing his friends in war, or simply beating them in football.
When he was 15 he discovered the secret browser of the Internet. He listened to his friends talk about what they saw and how they would get themselves off thinking about the videos.
He didn't know why he didn’t find the high-pitched sounds of girls moaning and whining arousing. Why he liked the deep grunts and low moans of boys more.
When he was 16 he joined a group called Bangtan Sonyeondan or Bulletproof boy scouts. He had to leave behind everything in Busan and come to Seoul. He would train rigorously, eat something, and train more, and finally on 13 June 2013, he made his debut along with 6 other boys.
He was the maknae of the group so he got babied a lot. Especially by Jimin-hyung. He would come near him and hug him and pamper him and buy him food. He liked spending time with all of his hyungs.
He would annoy Jin-hyung till no end until he would get so tired of him that he would do anything Jungkook asked in exchange for him to go. He was a true brat to him.
He would ask Namjoon-hyung for advice on how to sing or act. Joon-hyung would make him sit down, talk about his feelings and clear them out. He would buy him food and drinks whenever Jungkook asked.
He would go to Yoongi-hyung when he wanted to know how to deal with so much work and when he wanted to sit down and be in peace while working. Many times he would go to the ‘genius lab’ and work in silence while Yoongi-hyung gave him tips and did his own work.
He would go to Hobi-hyung when he wanted tips to improve his dance and when he wanted a sparkle of laughter. Hobi-hyung would joke with him, not when he was teaching dance though, when he was giving Jungkook tips he would be in super-strict-no-excuses-teacher mood as Jungkook had named it.
Taetae-hyung was his partner in crime. Whenever he felt like being mischievous Tae-hyung was his go-to person. They would play pranks on members and pretend that they were not the culprit when everyone knew.
Jimin-hyung though…
He would go to Jimin-hyung when he felt drained of energy. Jimin-hyung would cuddle him while he slowly succumbed to sleep. When he felt like crying Jimin-hyung would simply smile softly at him, hug him and say ‘It’s okay’ and Jungkook would break down in his arms. When he was bored so he would wander into Jimin-hyung’s room and his hyung would take Jungkook out to eat tteokbokki or ramyeon with the little money he had.
He liked spending time with all of his hyungs……but he liked spending time with Jimin-hyung a little more.
When he was 17 he realized that he liked boys, He liked Jimin-hyung. He felt scared, was he the only one who liked boys? Was there something wrong with him? He kept quiet and didn't tell anyone.
He had briefly mentioned this to his best friend back in Busan. He told him that it was unnatural. Jungkook kept quiet after that.
When he was 18 he realized that there is nothing wrong with him. He embraced this new realization and told Namjoon-hyung.
He was shocked but supportive as well. He told him there was nothing wrong with him. At all and he should never listen to someone who says otherwise. Never to say sorry for this.
When he turned 19 he realized his feelings for Jimin-hyung had grown, from something as small as a puppy crush his feelings had grown and he had begun to fall in love with him.
It hurt when he saw someone hugging Jimin close. It hurt when Jimin-hyung was busy working to spend time with him, it hurt and he just wanted to hold and kiss Jimin.
He told him. One day after seeing Jimin hugging his friend bye, he dragged him into an empty room and confessed everything. Jimin had hugged him and held his face gently in his hands and kissed him.
Now that Jungkook is 24, he realizes in the middle of cuddling his Jimin-hyung and watching a movie, that in this crazy sex-ruled world he found someone to hold him when he cried and to catch him when he fell. Someone who shares his laughs with and someone who wipes his tears even when his own is falling. He realizes that his friends were wrong when they said he will never find someone because he found someone worth so much.
He realizes that he is so lucky, he has his love beside him, his hyungs, parents supporting them, and of course Army. Millions of butterflies swam in his stomach and he couldn’t help it when a goofy grin graced his face.
“What are you thinking of bun?” Jimin asked him nudging his thigh with how own. He had a small smile as well, seeing Jungkook involuntarily brought a smile to his own face.
Jungkook just shook his head and asked for a kiss. Jimin had never denied Jungkook anything, and the world be dammed if he did today.
Kissing Jimin, in their apartment and their promise rings in their hands, Jungkook thinks “Yes, I am the luckiest.”
'See us? See how happy we are? See how we are smiling? Oh, we're so in Love.'
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