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The thing about love is that it comes naturally. It comes in like the first breeze of summer into your open window in the middle of the night, right when the day just changed and you are kept awake by your mind, which would not settle down quietly and rather keep you awake with running wild-yet-incoherent thoughts than sleeping. Even when you know fully that you have an early meeting to attend tomorrow — or rather, today. The thing is, between your wild thoughts is a realisation of your love towards him; the only entity that is able to keep you sane in this insane and mad world.
It comes so naturally you do not notice it at first. It just goes from, “Ah, I love him,” and everything settles down in the depth of your mind; as if that is where it is supposed to be, as if down there — along with all your daily necessities to stay sane — is where it belongs. Akaashi Keiji has an easy access towards your deepest consciousness when others are struggling to read you and that comes natural to you.
Because you always believe that love is not found in grandiose gestures but simple and everyday gestures. You believe — and strongly at that — that love is simple and when you find it, it is going to settle deep down in you, rooted deep enough to your consciousness. You do not know when it started, perhaps around when you started to memorise his order of coffee every morning and you always brought that along with your order to his desk and a small talk about his night. Perhaps it started when you began noticing his small gestures such as taking the busy side of the street, leaving you a cup of coffee from your favourite coffee shop whenever you have to stay late, or as simple as words of encouragement to every one of your project.
And you mirrored his gestures without much thought; as if that is the most natural thing to do.
Akaashi Keiji was — and still is — present in most of your sleepless nights. Whenever you text him an “are you awake?” text, he will always respond not any longer than five minutes. It is as if he is always awake when you text him. (Unbeknown to you, he sets his notification loud when it comes to your number.) Each nights have the very same pattern, you text, he replies, you ask him silly-to-existential questions, he responds and everytime it spirals down, he will assure you how you are not a waste of space and you deserve all of the love and kindness just as how it is supposed to be from the very start. He does you wonder, honestly, how he is never tired of telling you the same thing in various ways and words yet always manages to rest your heart at peace.
(Unknown to you, he has made his way down to your heart even before you realised it.)
You have believed how love is a collection of simple gestures and when it is time, you will find it within you. Akaashi Keiji came in with the cold winter breeze, but his warmth stays like the first breeze of summer into your room that night.