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Izuku is just…
Tired. Very tired. He told himself, "I'm not going down that hill again" but,
He forgot.
Forgot his antidepressants.
When he realized he did, He decided it would be cool to see how long he could go without them, he promised to himself he would take them once he felt even the slightest thing.
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐎𝐧𝐞.|
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐎|
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The day,Overall, was good.
He woke up and did his normal routine (e̸x̸c̸e̸p̸t̸ t̸h̸e̸ a̸n̸t̸i̸d̸e̸p̸r̸e̸s̸s̸a̸n̸i̸t̸s̸.), Talked with all might, Had a real conversation with Kacchan, Hung out with the Dekusquad, and cleaned his room.
It was a good day that day, but he felt more tired than usual. He brushed it off, He had a long day after all.
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞|
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓|
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By this time, He was getting sleepier more, Less… Happy? More moody is all he knows. Everyones worried for him at this point, Even Katsuki Bakugou himself.
"The fuck's up with you nerd?"
"Nothing, Kacchan."
"Stop lying, You think I'm stupid or something?"
"It's not that Kacchan. It's just that I'm fine-"
"STOP FUCKING SAYING THAT. I Know for a fact that's not true. You havent been yourself, Your tired, more moody and you always have a frown on your stupid face, now. You space out, then when someone calls you, You act like everythings fine. So fuck that and fuck you!" His voice cracked a little. "How dare you lie to me, you sh-shitty…Deku." Kacchans head was down at this point ,as he leaned his forehead against Izuku's chest.
His hands gripped the others uniform as he spoke, "Do you fucking know how much of a scare you gave me last time?" His voice cracked.
"Kacchan, That was nothing, I'm still alive,I'm right here-" "YOU HUNG YOURSELF. You hung yourself. You tried to throw yourself off the roof that one time. And I know that was my fault but that was-"
"Kacchan that wasn't your fault! I know it wasn't. Even if I did think that, You've apologized. In your own way, But still apologize."
"This," Katsuki pointed to his head, "Wasn't why I pulled you to the bathroom. You will tell me whats wrong right now." Bakuougs hands sparked. So he explained what he's been doing these last three days
. "So you're telling me," His hands popped again, "You've risked yourself living, For data?"
"I'm still going to."
"I'm going to kill you."
He ran.
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❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐒|
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Kacchan started coming over to his dorm every day, Just a little check up. He's fallen asleep in his dorm two days straight
. Bakugou Talking about how creepy his dorm room is with all the all might figures was always a good conversation starter for them. Izuku is starting to self loathe(not liking the way his body looks, Absolutely hating his scars) But brushed it off. He really wanted to continue his experiment.
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐄𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭|
❤︎𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐄𝐢|
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Now, he didn't mean to. It was just… today was a hard day.
He bumped his big toe, swallowed toothpaste and no one would leave him alone. He snapped at Todoroki, And walked away. He regretted so much, he felt like he should.. pay for his actions.
There was a pencil sharpener right there, right there, and he acted on impulse. Before he knew it, He broke his one year streak.
Once he started, he couldn't really stop. He was glad the ua uniform had sleeves, Because it looked like an animal attacked him. He ended up regretting everything about his day, and cried himself to sleep.
𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞|
𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐰𝐞|
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thank god it was the weekend, because he really felt tired. He didn't want to take the medicine. He slept. And slept. And cut. And slept. Cut cut cut cutcutcutcutcutcutcut-
Knock Knock.
fuckfuckfuck.
He scrambled to hide the blade, but he didn't have time to cover the deep cuts. He pulled down the sleeves and opened the door, Putting on a smile.
"Hey Uraraka! Whats up?"
"Hey! Glad to see your a bit better!"
Hes not better.
"Uh would you like ti come with us to the pool?"
"No!" He said with hysteria.
The cuts will show.
Uraraka looked very confused with his reaction.
." S-sorry, m' just tired. I went out to train some more."
lie. He went out to get a better blade.
"Oh so you were who i heard last night! You really gave me a scare last night, Deku!"
He laughed fakly(stfu that is a word).
" Well I'll leave you to rest, Bye Deku!" He closed the door once she left. That was close.
𝐃𝐚𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐧.
Yeah, he's far too gone.
Hes fucked up.
Again.
He wanted to try and fix this, so he did his best to clean up, but found his antis under some clothes. Well, now that they were in his hand, He could take them. But uh oh he took them all. Oopsies. Now he's slowly dying.
Knock Knock.
Oh, someone was there? He didn't know, his ears were ringing.
Knock Knock Knock.
ah, he could get up and answer right? Ri-
He fell out.
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Katsuki heard a big bang and knew he had to open it. It wasn't even locked so all he had to do was twist the handle to open the door and find a Lifeless looking Izuku on the floor, A pill bottle in his hand. He really didn't know what to do. His body moved on autopilot when he picked up Izuku and carried him to Aizawa's office.
Up
(Yay Aizawa time)
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Shouta's door burst open, Interrupting his talk with Yagi. Looking over he saw Katsuki holding Izuku in his arms. Katsuki was panicked, that's how he knew something was wrong /.
"What happened?" The two teachers both asked at the same time.
"I-i he- I need help. Please."
They both knew something was wrong, While Yagi panicked silently he spoke, "We will help you Young Bakugou, but we need to know what's wrong."
"Deku, he- he took to many pills."
"What type?" Aizawa asked while getting up and taking Izuku from him.
"Antidepressants." This confused both teachers. "
"Why would he have them, and why did he take so many?"
"H-he's depressed, okay? Diagnosed. I can't tell you everything right now he needs help quickly." Aizawa checked for a pulse. "He's still alive. Yagi, Recovery girl."
And he listened.
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Izuku woke up to almost blinding lights, and he thought he was finally dead. But no, that familiar beeping sound wasn't death. It was his heart rate. "Ah, you're awake. How are you feeling?"
"Horrible." Recovery girl frowned.
He looked to his right and his blood ran cold.first he saw a seething Katsuki, but then All Might(His actual idol was seeing him like this), Aizawa, and Present Mic.
They all knew.
Theyknewtheyknewtheyknewtheyknewtheyknew-
"Stop thinking whatever you're thinking. You're not in trouble." Aizawa sat there, looking tired.
"How'd you-"
"your heart rate."
"What happened?"
"Bakugou said you took too many pills. He was very sacred, ya know."
"O-oh.."
"Now tell us what happened."
He deiced to fuck it, they knew already. So he told them. About his experiment. His previous attempts. Everything they asked. By the end of it, present Mic was full on sobbing in a ball on the floor, All Might comforting him, Kastuki just fell asleep(he already knew all this) and Aizawa was just listening, taking in the information.
When he was finished, He closed his eyes tightly and tensed, waiting for something, anything. What he got was a bone crushing hug.
And for the first time in a while, He cried. About how much it all hurt. "I am so sorry you went through that." Aizawa's calm voice made him sob harder. "I-i'm sorry if I made you wo-rry. I'm sorry it's my fau-"
"Don't finish that. It is not your fault. It never will be." He felt more weight on him, guessing someone else joined the hug.
"You are so strong, Young midoriya. I knew that ever since I met you."
"Your *sniff* awesome." Present Mic complimented him from the floor.
"Your a stupid nerd, Deku. You could've died." Aizawa and All Might backed up for Bakugou.
He was his childhood friend, it hurt him the most, seeing him almost die again.
"You could've-" He actually started crying, only wanting the comfort of Deku.
"Heyheyhey, I'm fine." Izuku almost jumped out the bed to comfort him, hugging him tightly.
The next time Izuku woke up, the pro heros were gone, but he still had a sleeping Katsuki in his arms.
Yeah, he was tired.
But finally,
He can rest.