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HARDER THAN I THOUGHT
AUTHOR’S NOTE/DISCLAIMER
Takes place at the end of the episode “When The Breakdown Hit At Midnight” and belongs to my Badges and Tattoos reality. I know Nadia was killed off but I saw the actress in Mayans and got ideas, and I hated that they killed her, so I’m ignoring it. I’m also taking out the angle of the current war between Mayans and Sons cause it's ridiculous. Also, I’m keeping all Sons alive. All familiar characters belong to Kurt Sutter, FX, Dick Wolf, and NBC.
“I killed those people without the knowledge or the participation of the other members of my club.”
“Neron. Stop.”
“These are my crimes.” Oh shit. Damn. I can’t do this, Nadia thought to herself. Yes, Jay had warned her that it would come, but she hadn’t expected it to hurt. At least…not like this. As the man continued, she felt tears roll down her face and her mind went back.
Nadia smiled and moaned in pleased longing as Neron trailed kisses down her spine. Shit, he feels so good, she thought to herself.
“You like that, Baby?” he queried in a husky voice.
“Yes,” she moaned out.
“Good,” he stated as he continued the ministrations. Then he stopped, noticing black ink. “You’re a SAMCRO Old Lady?” he queried, pulling back. Shit! This could break our peace with them, he thought.
“No,” Nadia replied, her body going still.
“Don’t fucking lie to me! You have half a Crow on the back of your right rib!” Neron snarled. Can’t believe she’s trying to play me right now! he seethed. With a huff, he started to leave the bed.
“I was an Old Lady. But he just…he threw me away,” Nadia said and Neron froze, his eyes flickering at the catch in her voice as it went soft.
“What?”
“His name was Lenny. He had just gotten patched in and me getting his Crow was supposed to be our celebration. Instead…” She sobbed.
“What?”
“He had some other Crow Eater waiting in the wings. Only I didn’t find out until the Crow was complete.”
“So you’re in the process of getting it removed.”
“No. It uh---it turns out that there’s actually rules and hierarchy within the Club regarding Old Ladies. Did you know that?”
“I didn’t. So what happened?”
“Turns out disrespecting the Crow gets you cast off. Our charter president talked with Jax and after that, Lenny was de-patched and they let me keep half the Crow to let the others know that I was still held in high esteem because I had acted in good faith.”
“Fuck.” Neron gently pulled her close. “I’m so sorry that happened to you.” He then resumed his previous actions. “You’re so beautiful. Compassionate. Sexy…”
Nadia gave herself a mental shake and listened as Neron repeated himself. Yes, he was going in so that he could meet Jax, Opie, or someone else from the Redwood Charter of SAMCRO to take care of a mutual problem and he would most likely be perfectly safe, but it didn’t mean that she still didn’t worry. They hadn’t been away from each other like this before and she wasn’t sure if she’d be able to stand it. She had never been in love like this before. But she trusted him. And she trusted Jay and the other Sons. He’d be safe. She just had to hold onto that. And she would. Yes, she was a cop, but she was also a good Old Lady and she’d do exactly what she had been asked so that they could figure out who was trying to start a damn turf war. She just hoped that they found out soon because Neron hadn’t even left yet it already felt like her heart was splitting in two.
THE END