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tatsumi enjoyed staying with his boyfriend everywhere , they would hang out whenever they had the chance to , but this night tatsumi didn't had time to .
mayoi felt lonely oh so lonely , maybe a creature like him didn't even deserve a boyfriend and he shouldn't be greedy . it is but normal for his very kind bf to be kind enough to help others and do stuff that is surely more important than staying around him.
maybe tatsumi finally realized how disgusting and filthy and dirty of a creature he was and left him. mayoi didn't want this to happen but if it happens it would be better for the beautiful pure tatsumi kazehaya.
Mayoi was laying alone in his bed hugging his black and white stuffed bear . he didn't deserve to have this fluffy cute stuffed animal. nor any other of those stuffed animals tatsumi had won for him at the fun fare or those who tatsumi gifted him .
he didn't deserve all the love. he deserved to be crushed and buried somewhere. or even die in a ditch or something cruel that a creature such as mayoi deserved.
mayoi was laying down to his side . holding his stuffed animal so tightly he might rip it apart. squeezing it for life. his intrusive thoughts overwhelmed him to the maximum point he might explode.
he was too lost in those thoughts he started crying . cold tears falling down his cheecks and right into the pillow ,, after all this was nothing compared to what he actually deserved. he's disgusting. annoying. ugly. filthy. dirty. useless. stupid. weird. creepy. those words were getting louder in his mind .
until he felt delicate fingers running thru his messy untied purple hair that he knew he wasn't alone. he got up quickly that he accidentally bumped his head into someone 's forehead.
he looked at the person in shock. it was tatsumi. tatsumi didn't leave him. how could he leave him when he was oh so dear to him. he was his boyfriend after all. he loved him oh oh so much .
mayoi unconsciously hugged tatsumi and cried . tatsumi welcomed him with open arms . he felt bad and selfish for this . he quickly apologized after he realized what he had done. once he saw tatsumi's face. instead of a disgusted or a disappointed face.. there was a worried tatsumi .
tatsumi was worried about him so he embraced him with his arms allowing him to cry as he wish. muffled apologize came out of mayoi's shaky lips . his face stained with tears he surely looked horrible . but tatsumi thought he looked gorgeous and beautiful .
he cried for only god knows how long . minutes? hours? days? it didn't matter cuz time had stopped in their little shared world. tatsumi was more of a safe space than staying up in the vents . the vents were cold but tatsumi was warm . so warm that mayoi wonders every day if tatsumi had a fever.
after mayoi was done crying , he stayed in tatsumi's embrace for a little longer enjoying the hand carrasing his hair slowly and after completely calming down . he raised his head and looked tatsumi in the eyes for 5 seconds then dipped his head again.
tatsumi chuckled , his sweet soft voice blooming in mayoi's heart . mayoi should cherish those moments were tatsumi gets to laugh instead of dealing with this crying mess he dragged him into .
on the other hand. tatsumi was relieved smiling at his beautiful very cute nervous boyfriend in his arms and kindly asked" are you okay? mayoi san" mayoi whimpered but didn't answer instead he got up and stared into tatsumi's worried yet relieved eyes
he then answered "y-yes ,,, im fine! you helped me to become better ... tatsumi san!!" tatsumi gave him a soft smile that made mayoi's heart explode . " im glad! i was so worried" " im so sorry!!!!!" and here it is the normal mayoi was back apologizing non stop to tatsumi cuz he was selfish and greedy and stuff he didn't do
" mayoi san, can i ask you a question?"
"mhm?" " why ... were you crying?" " uhh... ummm.. its just.." tatsumi was waiting for an answer . knowing tatsumi well mayoi knew he would never stop asking until he gets an amswer " its b-because. ... i thought that y-you would leave me...." mayoi whispered ..
tatsumi hugged him assuring that he won't " i would never leave you mayoi San, you're my all ." he said as he patted mayoi's back comforting him. mayoi felt his eyes stung again. tears falling down as he helplessly tried to hold them in.
tatsumi felt the tears on his chest and held mayoi's shoulders "mayoi san, can i see your face?" mayoi looked up at him tears falling down " please don't cry mayoi san, you deserve the world , don't let those thoughts get to you , and if you can't stop them, then tell me about them and I'll listen" tatsumi stated with a serious yet soft tone .
mayoi nodded as he felt delicate fingers carass his cheeks wiping away tears . and after few moments passed with nothing but crys and sniffles he managed to stop his tears , and then he kissed both of mayoi's cheecks
" i will not leave you mayoi san " " but why..? a creature like me deserves to-" " shhh , a creature like you- no! a beautiful creature like you deserves to be happy, loved , you deserve the world. and don't let anything change that! "
"mhm ..." "also.... I'll be staying here with you so you can sleep! i won't go anywhere! please rest well mayoi san! i can see dark circles forming under your beautiful eyes " " uh um .. as long as .. tatsumi san can sleep do .." mayoi said looking at anything but tatsumi's eyes
tatsumi layed down and half hugged mayoi
while they both lay down. time passed with mayoi feeling butterflies in his stomach and his heart beating real fast. he was also able to feel tatsumi's fast heart beats. soon enough both of their hearts calmed down and they fell asleep in each other's arms .
the sun rose assigning a new day to start!! and tatsumi woke and was gently playing with mayois hair ...
gentle hand playing with his hair and the other embracing him ,he felt safe. faint scent of vanilla and a very nice perfume wakes him and he remembers last night .
most of the day goes on with mayoi apologizing and tatsumi assuring him that its fine, but after all . that night . both of them slept well ! but not the stuffed bear.