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if someone had told you that lee heeseung would help get shim jake to fall in love with you, you would not have believed it.
sometimes you like to think that lee heeseung and you have been sworn enemies in every life the both of you had the unfortunate chance of living together- and sometimes you wonder if lee heeseung thinks the same.
you aren’t sure what exactly caused you and heeseung to not be able to converse calmly with each other- but you know it started the second you met each other in freshman year. you want to put one hundred percent of the blame on heeseung for your strained relationship but you’re too self aware to not be able to acknowledge your own wrong doings (something that lee heeseung definitely can’t do!). maybe on certain occasions you shouldn’t have said the insult to heeseung that had been resting on your tongue all day- or maybe you shouldn’t have flipped him off when passing him in the hallway- and maybe you could have thought of another way to express your dislike of his music instead of unplugging the aux from his phone and yelling at him in front of everyone at the party to “shut your shitty music off because no one wants to hear it!”.
but you swear, lee heeseung has done worse to you than you have done to him.
one time in sophomore year, heeseung recorded you throwing up in the bathroom of a party you were at and posted it on snapchat for basically the whole school to see. you never threw up from alcohol again afterwards, but that didn’t stop all your peers from calling you the ‘ultimate lightweight’. another time, a year later, heeseung spilt his juice box all over you in the cafeteria, leaving your whole chest and shirt drenched and sticky. his excuse for that one was because you weren’t looking where you were going. there have been multiple other incidents where lee heeseung has left you angry or humiliated that just furthered the both of you from ever being friends.
though, one good thing did come out of being enemies with lee heeseung: and that was jake sim.
jake sim moved from australia to your hometown in the beginning of your junior year (thankfully a year after heeseung posted the vomit vid). everything about him had caught your eye and unfortunately everyone else’s. jake had quickly become the heartthrob of your school and found himself in the midst of a new love almost every other month. heeseung and his friend group took jake sim under their wing almost instantly, parading the school’s new heartthrob around with them as if it made their friend group even hotter (it did).
somehow, heeseung’s friend group and your own had intertwined sometime during freshman year and became one big group (besides you and heeseung) and unfortunately for all of them, they had to put up with yours and heeseung’s constant bickering. when jake had first started hanging out with you all, you tried to keep your fighting with heeseung on the downlow, which worked for maybe the first day before you were almost busting your vocal cords with the volume you were yelling at him with.
if jake thought you an dheeseung’s arguing was bothersome or weird he never said anything about it. you remember during one of your first fights with heeseung infront of jake, you saw jake laugh and wink at you, making you stutter out of shock and heeseung mock it for the rest of the day.
it soon seemed like everytime you were with jake, you ended up liking him more and more- even sometimes you could block out heeseung with how lost in thought you were while watching jake interact with your other friends. you never got the chance to be alone with jake- you almost did once when you invited him and the rest of your friends over to swim in the pool last summer- purposefully telling jake the wrong time you told everyone else so that it could be you and him alone for an hour.
though your plans were literally thrown in the garbage when jake showed up with jay and heeseung behind him. you remember the burn on your cheeks when jay asked why you had told him a different time than you had told jake. thankfully they got distracted when heeseung whined that at least they got an invite and how you were apparently stealing his friends.
it wasn’t a secret that jake sim and his friends liked to sleep around with girls in your school. you’d need more fingers on your hands to count the amount of girls your friends had slept with. it never bothered you when you had to eat your lunch with them and listen to their stories about the girl they had just got into bed with- or their stories about the past weekend and how many girls they had hooked up with at a party.
what did bother you, was the fact that jake was only into girls with experience.
the first time you had heard jake explain that he liked when a girl knew exactly what to do turned him on unease settled through your body. but you thought that maybe he was only talking about the girls that he randomly hooked up with- and that he didn’t care if his girlfriend was experienced or not.
but, the closer of friends you became with jake- the more you questioned your own rationalization because jake would go on for hours about his perfect girl and that included her being knowledgeable in every relationship concept.
the girls at your school that jake sim fucked were always the pretty, popular and known to be experienced ones. you didn’t have anything against the girls that jake fucked- but your hewart would always clench when the time of night at a party came around when he would disappear and find a girl to leave with- and everytime so far that girl has never been you.
in a certain way, you didn’t mind that jake didn’t wanna leave the party with you and fuck you for the night just to forget your name the next day. you were thankful for your friendship with jake sim- even if that meant you had to deal with the lineup of girls waiting at his locker everyday- dying for his attention.
you knew that you would never be one of those girls to jake- you were different- so you would end up with him with a different approach than the other girls: he’d realize his feelings for you through your friendship.
so, you waited all of sophomore and junior year for jake to realize his feelings for you.
you figured that it would happen during the summer of junior to senior year- when your friend group spent everyday together at the beach where jake even taught you to surf for a week straight. he’d wait outside your house around noon to pick you up so you could have a ‘lesson’ with him an hour before all your other friends showed up at the beach.
you figured that one of those summer nights jake would pull you aside when you were at a party and tell you that he wants you- in more than one way.
you liked to fantasize that jake sim would ask to walk you home after a party where it was just the two of you and you would laugh together and talk about the little inside jokes the both of you had created through the years of your friendship and at last you would have the perfect summer, friends-to-lovers romance story that everyone would be jealous of.
but every night that summer until september was approaching quickly and the beach was closing for the cooler seasons- you left the party with your friends and even sometimes with stupid lee heeseung when he had not been able to find a girl to hook up with that night. all your other friends would pray that heeseung would find someone to leave with so they wouldn’t have to hear your drunk arguing on the way home.
when your senior year started you felt a bit taken aback since your dream summer romance fantasy didn’t play out the way you wanted it to. you replayed all of your memories with jake and you couldn’t think of anything that would prevent jake from confessing his feelings to you. except for one thing…
that you’re a virgin.
an inexperienced-haven’t-even-kissed-a-boy-yet virgin.
but how would he have known?
you had only told some of your friends about your virgin status and had made them swear on their lives to not tell anyone. and you trusted those friends because you had been friends with them since middle school and were with them almost everyday of every year since then.
so sat down with your friends in the cafeteria during the first week of senior year and complained to them about jake sim like you had done almost every day of every year since you had known him.
“oh my god, y/n,” choerry groaned, “why don’t you just tell him how you feel?”
“because,” you rolled your eyes at your best friend, “it would be so embarrassing if he didn’t like me back!- or if he rejected me because I'm a,” you shushed your voice for the last word, “virgin.”
“okay,” ryujin nodded, taking a sip of her drink, “how about you lose your virginity.”
“wow, it’s like you guys don’t ever listen to me.” you sat back in your chair.
the idea of you losing your virginity just for the sake of having experience for sim jake ran through your head constantly but you knew that you’d never be able to do it. you liked the idea of losing your virginity to someone that you actually liked- and not just to someone who wanted to fuck you and and then say goodbye forever.
“we listen to you, y/n,” chaeryeong rubbed your shoulder, “we’ve just run out of ideas for how to get jake to confess to you.”
you scoff, “tell me about it, i try to think of different ways everyday- i thought for sure jake would’ve confessed this summer.”
“i’m sorry, girl.” choerry gave you a sympathetic smile from across the table, “but this school year is just starting so don’t give up!”
“yeah, i’m sure he’ll come to his stupid boy senses by the end of the year.” ryujin encouraged you, crumpling up her garbage in her hands.
“maybe he’ll come to them by this weekend at the party!” chaeryeong suggested excitedly, clasping her hands together right before the school’s bell went off, signaling that lunch was over.
“yeah! you never know! maybe jake needs a week back to school to realize how much he loves you!” choerry twirled her finger in your face as you all stood up from your table.
“yeah, maybe.” you felt hope resurface back into your chest with your friends’ words.
“y/n and jake! y/n and jake!” chaeryeong chanted moving her hands side-to-side with every syllable she pronounced.
“shh!” you shushed your friend with a laugh, “do you want the whole school to know, chae?”
“i’m sorry! i’m just excited! especially for the party this weekend!” she apologized sheepishly to you.
“me too! the first party of the school year is always the best!” choerry announced with a tone of knowing in her voice.
“for sure!” chaeryeong wrapped her arm over choerry’s shoulder as the the two of them started to follow everyone else out of the cafeteria.
“you coming?” ryujin asked you, throwing her bag over her shoulder.
“yeah, yeah. i gotta drop off some papers to the office before class for the teacher so i’ll see you later!” you reassured your friend before she smiled at you and followed the other two.
you were late leaving the cafeteria and walked with your head down looking over the papers you had to hand in, not glancing at the left over students in the hallways as the cafeteria doors closed behind you.
“so you like jake?”
you wish you couldn’t recognize lee heeseung’s voice so quickly.
you whipped your head around to look at the taller boy, his black bangs falling into his eyes as he looked down at your shorter figure. an annoying smirk sat on his lips like usual when he was about to annoy and tease you.
and if it wasn’t for those exact four words that in his question you would’ve been quicker to respond with a snarky comment tht would just make him breathlessly chuckle under his breath- but because of the four words your heart beat had significantly picked up pace and your eyes widened to the size of saucers.
“w-what did you just say?” you voiced weakly- not believing that lee heeseung of all people knows about your crush on jake sim. you considered this fact to be your literal hell and now it has become reality.
heeseung scoffed with a roll of his eyes, “you know what i said- or have you really gone deaf now?”
“i’m not deaf, heeseung, you’re just stupid.” you hoped that your usual banter would distract him from the topic he had brought up.
“how am i the stupid one when you were talking about jake so loud in the cafeteria i’m surprised the whole school didn’t hear you.”
your mind flashed back to the minutes before while you sat with your friends in the cafeteria- contemplating if you guys were really talking just as loud as heeseung said you were. there was no way you could be that stupid- no.
“hello?” a flick to your forehead made you look back up to heeseung, “earth to y/n are you there or is your mind just filled to the brim of jake.” heeseung teased you, singing his friends’ name off of the tip of his tongue.
“heeseung, seriously, i don’t know what you heard but you’ve obviously heard wrong like usual.” you tried to persuade him to think of anything other than the fact that what he heard was one hundred percent true. and this was just your luck because of course lee heeseung had to be the one to find out about your crush. heeseung only laughed at your statement, making you huff out your breath and ask him what he found so funny.
“just the fact that not only are you stupid but you’re a liar, too. i heard what you said y/n and i know jake’s into isa.” heeseung declared, crossing his arms over his broad chest that was covered in the school’s sport sweater that he and all his friends liked to wear.
your eyebrow quirked up at the new information, “really? and how do you know.”
heeseung scoffed again at you, “because i’m his best friend- i know who he’s into.”
“i think sunghoon is his best friend.”
heeseung’s prideful expression dropped at your annoying statement, “fine, then i’m his second best friend.”
“mm, i think jay is his second best friend.”
“fine, then i’m his third.”
“well what about-.”
“god y/n, i’m one of jake’s best friends i know what girls he likes.” heeseung exasperated out with a huff. ‘
you knew of park isa- well everyone did. she was pretty and sweet and popular and experienced. she was on the dance team at your school and always lead all the teams’ dances- she was actually really good and already had a dance scholarship into university.
you weren’t surprised that jake was into her.
but you still felt hurt; park isa was like everything you weren’t and had everything you didn’t: including jake sim.
while you mentally compared yourself to park isa and went over the reasons why it was no shock that jake liked her- heeseung’s patience were continuously growing thin with you as he watched you zone out for the second time during your conversation. “y/n.”
“why’d you tell me that heeseung?” you asked him as you stepped back away from him, “besides the fact that you want to see me upset.”
“because i like isa.”
you blinked at the information lee heeseung was throwing at you today. you had known heeseung for almost four years and he had never mentioned having a crush on anyone. he always said he was going to wait until after university to settle down (which always made you roll your eyes at his immaturity and player ways) .“okay and?”
“and i have a proposition for you.”
“like what?” you could feel your ears perk up at heeseung’s words- realizing that you had never listened to heeseung so in depth before which made you mentally curse yourself and him.
“like,” heeseung took a step towards you to close the space you had made inbetween you previously, “i’ll help you get jake to like you,” you felt yourself straighten up at his words, “if you help me get isa to like me.”
you tsked at his words- not believing that he wanted you to help him get with isa- the sweetest and prettiest girl in your school. as if a girl like her would like him. the challenge seemed to be to trick isa into thinking heeseung was just as sweet as her and as if he was caring- but you were still intrigued. “how would you help get jake to like me?”
heeseung smirked down at you with a playful tint in his eye, “i can help you out with your little virgin problem.”
you felt like the wind was blown out of you- and not in a good way.
there was no way that lee heeseung had found out about your crush on jake and your biggest secret on the same day and was now confronting you with them in the middle of the hallway. heeseung titled his head to the side at your silence, silently beckoning you to answer him.
“h-how do you know- why do you think i’m a virgin?” you caught yourself and hoped he didn’t notice.
heeseung shrugged, “it's obvious.”
“obvious?” you repeated his word, “how is it obvious?”
“because you get flustered so easily.”
“flustered? heeseung what the hell are you talki-.” you cut yourself off when heeseung took a step towards you, leaning down so his face was an inch away from yours. it was then you realized how close you had backed away into the lockers behind you. “hee-.” his hand came up and rested on the locker beside your head.
your breath got caught in your throat again and you felt a flustered feeling rush up your body when you realized he was pining you into the lockers- his warm body so close to yours you could feel the heat and breath on your own face. when you looked down at the floor after seeing his face so upclose heeseung laughed- your shoes definitely were not more interesting in the moment but you couldn’t get yourself to look up from pure embarrassment.
“see y/n? you even get flustered from me.” heeseung’s words angered you but you couldn’t voice any words with the proximity of your faces. “i know you’re a virgin and i know just how easily flustered they get,” heeseung moved closer to your ear and lowered his voice, “know how easily wet they get.”
you feel a whimper in the back of your throat but force it down when you hear heeseung start to cackle in front of you. as quick as he was leaning down into your ear is as quick as he is to be a reasonable distance away from you- as if he was never that close to you before. you feel heat rush into your cheeks and hope that your face isn’t as red as you feel it is.
“god you should’ve seen you just then! i have never seen y/l/n y/n so out of control before!” heeseung’s eyes were almost shut from how hard he was laughing at you. you were quick to glance around the hallway and let out a quiet sigh of breath when you realized no other students or teachers were roaming around.
the longer heeseung laughed the more anger filled your body, “god heeseung you are so- so-,”
“so what?” heeseung interrupted your stuttering thoughts, “hot? sexy? attractive?”
“no!” you stood up to him, able to look at his face again, “annoying! and frustration! and- idiotic.”
heeseung stopped his smile and laughter at your insults, turning serious again too quickly for your mind to take in, “am i really that idiotic to be able to come up with the plan that will get jake to like you back?”
the topic of jake made you realize that heeseung was one hundred percent being serious about this whole jake and isa switch plan.
“how would it even work, heeseung? you know you have a bad habit of over dreaming things.”
heeseung ignored your jab, “well aren’t you friends with isa?” you nodded in response, “so you will talk to her about who she likes- figure out if she’s also into jake- and if she is then you tell her he’s into someone else- then you can talk to her about me- since i am jake’s best friend we’re like similar so she’ll see the appeal,” you rolled your eyes at him, “it’ll work if we time it all right.”
“and how are we going to get jake to like me?”
“we’ll find someone that you think is relatively cute with a big mouth so when you hook up with him he’ll spread the word- which means people will know you’re not a virgin which means jake will know you’re not a virgin- meanwhile isa will back off of him because she’ll think he likes someone else- when jake realizes isa is backing off he’ll turn to someone who he’s close with- which will be you- and he’ll realize that he likes you.”
heeseung’s plan was stupid.
stupid that it might work if you timed it right.
but,
“i’m not hooking up with a random guy that i think is relatively cute so he just tells the whole school i’m a whore, heeseung.”
heeseung sighed, “well how do you want to be known for not being a virgin- because that’s what jake thinks you are- and you know he likes experienced girls. and if we lie and tell people you’re not a virgin, when you and jake hook up i think it’ll be extremely obvious that you have no idea what you’re doing.”
“i-i don’t know,” you looked down again, trying to think of what to do. “i just don’t want to do something so personal with someone i don’t know.”
heeseung hummed as he took in your words and thought, “how about you hook up with one of jake’s friends?”
“what? no!” you exclaimed, appalled with his idea.
“why not? you know all of his friends and plus they will tell jake that they hooked up with you!”
“because heeseung that’s weird! and jake wouldn’t want to date me if i hooked up with one of his friends!”
heeseung shrugged, “we’ve all hooked up with the same girls before i’m sure he wouldn’t care about that.”
“ew.” you said flatly and disgusted.
it went silent between you two as you thought of a plan, “how about,” heeseung started, pushing his hair out of his eyes so he could look at you seriously, “i teach you some things- if you’re a good enough actress then when you and jake hook up he might fall for it and think you’ve done it before.”
“but,” you tilted your head, “i’d wanna know if im good or not- god! what if i’m really bad and then when i hook up with jake he thinks i’m inexperienced and bad?”
“y/n, i-.”
“and god! what if someone finds out i learnt it from you! and then jake doesn’t want to date me because I hooked up with his best friend!”
“y/n,” heeseung started again.
“and wouldn’t it be weird if we touched each other everyone knows we hate each other!”
“y/n!” heeseung grabs your shoulders to stop your rambling, “shut up for five seconds, my god you’re annoying.”
you opened your mouth to return an insult but shut it when heeseung gave you a stern look. his hands dropped from your shoulders and backed away from you again, “i’d just teach you the basics of anything you want to know- we don’t have to touch each other. we’d do anything you’d want to go over. and i wouldn’t tell anyone- ever- trust me, god forbid if any one knew that i hooked up with you.”
you tried to ignore the sense of hurt that washed over you and focused on the plan at hand as you went over the option. you did know heeseung (whether you liked to or not) and you wouldn’t have to have sex with him- just briefly go over the ‘basics’ like he said. and you strangely trusted him not to tell anyone- because it wasn’t just you in this mess- it was him as well.
“we’d do anything i want to go over?” you inquired, raising an eyebrow up.
“anything you want.” heeseung affirmed with a nod.
“we can’t tell anyone we’re doing this lee heeseung- ever.”
“no one will know but us, y/l/n yn.”
you stuck your hand out towards him, “then we have a deal- i help you with isa and you help me with jake.”
heeseung smirked and met his hand with yours, “we have a deal.”
you tried to not focus on how large his hand was compared to yours as it wrapped around yours so eagerly.
“we can meet after school tomorrow and go over the plan in more detail, alright?” heeseung pulled his hand away from yours.
“alright.”
heeseung started to walk backwards down the hall, “right after school tomorrow, at the side where that outside classroom is.”
“see you then.” you nodded at him and avoided smiling back at him as he turned and walked down a separate hall out of your eyesight.
the papers in your other hand crinkled and reminded you of the duty your teacher had assigned you to do- instantly making your way to the office with the thought of lee heeseung willingly being in your mind.
you met up with lee heeseung almost a full twenty-four hours after you had set up the meeting at the side of the school where an outside classroom was.
the outside classroom was something your school had created in the middle of your freshman year. they said that it would create a more open and closer learning environment. so it was at the side of school on a small hill that if you looked over the balcony from you could see the sidewalk below that led around the school and to the street. there was a podium at the front of the classroom that looked over the three rows of benches where the students were able to sit- which is where you sat waiting for lee heeseung who was now fifteen minutes late to the meeting he set up.
your feet swung gently across the pavement under your feet as you leaned back on the bench. the weather was still on the hotter side since it was early september and the summer season technically doesn’t end for another two weeks. it was hard to sit there in your own thoughts while you waited for heeseung because your mind kept reminding you that maybe this isn’t such a good idea. you continuously almost talked yourself out of it one million times during the past twenty-four hours because you thought the cons outweigh the pros by miles.
but the ultimate goal that by the end of it you would have jake sim as your boyfriend made the cons seem less important.
the door that connected the school and the outdoor classroom opened behind you and an almost cool looking heeseung walked in with his bag swung over his shoulder.
“took you long enough.” you grunted out to your enemy..
“sorry sorry, practice ended later and i wanted to shower before i left.” heeseung sat down beside you. at the mention of his shower you smelt his shampoo from the subtle breeze outside and you couldn’t help but respect that he had some sort of hygiene care. “do you have any second thoughts about this?” he asks next as if he’s read your mind somehow.
“to be honest, kinda,” you looked at him seriously, “i just don’t want to mess this up and it ends badly for everyone.”
“it’s not going to end badly if we plan it carefully- and we can have as many rules as your little, annoying heart desires, okay?” heeseung tried to reassure you.
“how’d you know i was going to come up with rules?” you ask him, the list you had written down started to feel one thousand times heavier in your skirts pocket.
heeseung shrugged nonchalantly, “because i know you.”
you never really took into consideration how much you and heeseung happen to know about each other. you would never call each other your friend but you spend almost everyday together because of your mutual friends. if it weren’t for your shared hatred of each other you’re sure that you would basically be forced to call each other friends from how much you know. christ, you’ve even been to each other's houses on multiple occasions.
“i never knew you liked isa.” you practically blurt out, mentally going over the things you did know about lee heeseung.
heeseung shrugged again, “i didn’t know you had to know.”
you roll your eyes, “that’s not what i meant.” heeseung’s annoying laugh cuts you off for a second, “- it’s just that you didn’t know i liked jake, right.”
“i kinda had my thoughts about it.”
“what?” your palm slapped against your forehead in pure embarrassment.
“relax- i’m positive jake nor anyone else has noticed.” heeseung shoves your shoulder with his.
“then how have you noticed?”
you notice heeseung slowly blink as if he questions himself before he speaks, “because i notice every annoying thing you do- especially when your annoying ass likes my best friend.” you scoff at his answer and look at him but he only laughs as he clutches his stomach at your reaction.
“you’re by far the worst possible person to do this with- how am i going to be able to learn things from you?” you throw your head back so it rests on the benches backrest behind you.
“well you can pretend i’m jake if that works for you.” heeseung suggests.
you raise your eyebrow quizzically at him, “will you pretend i’m isa?”
heeseung looks at your leaned back body up and down before looking back into your eyes, “yeah.”
“fuck you!” you laugh out appalled at his deadpanned answer.
“what? fuck you too, you’re literally going to imagine that i’m my best friend!” you only shrug at him, a teasing smile on your face as if you’ve won somehow, “since you’re a virgin what do you imagine you do with jake anyways?”
“heeseung!” you whisper shout at him, sitting up again and trying to look out over the balcony to see if anyone could’ve heard him.
“what? can i not say the v word?” heeseung put his hands up in defense.
“we-well you can but not so loud!” heeseung only shook his head out before he restatted his questestion without saying that you’re the v word.
“i don’t know.”
“well what does that mean? don’t you ever think about him when you’re horny?” you tried to not gasp at heeseung’s openness about sex and only shrugged again, “what? you don’t masturbate?”
“oh my god, maybe this isn’t a good idea.” you tried to stand up but heeseung’s hand reached out for your upper arm and pulled you back down to sit beside him- this time a lot closer than before on the bench.
“c’mon y/n, you agreed to this and now when i’m just trying to see how much you know you’re backing out? this is like the pre basics of the basics!”
you sighed and looked at lee heeseung who looked at you so seriously and shrugged his hand off of your arm, “of course i masturbate, heeseung! i am a woman in case you didn’t know!”
heeseung rolled his eyes but ignored you, “so when you think of you and jake together- how does it start?”
you looked down at your hands in your lap, trying to not get embarrassed or ‘flustered’ as heeseung would say, “it- i guess it starts with kissing.”
heeseung tried to not snort at your innocent answer, “kissing?” when you nodded your answer he smiled, “close your eyes.”
what?” you turned and asked him.
“close your eyes.” he said in a mocking tone as if you were stupid. when your stubbornness didn’t subside he huffed, “you’re gonna have to trust me if we want this to work, y/n.”
“and what?” you cross your arms over your chest, “you’re saying that you trust me?”
“yeah.” heeseung stated as if it was nothing- as if you really were just as stupid as he thought you to be.
“fine.” you let your arms drop and you close your eyes- your back straightening as you did so.
you waited for what felt like years until you felt heeseung’s presence closer to you- you almost opened your eyes out of shock but heeseung’s voice reminded you to ‘keep them closed!” and you almost cussed him out for knowing you so well.
heeseung placing his hands on your face was the first act of intimacy that you had ever felt like anyone and you weren’t expecting him to so gracefully yet firmly press his lips onto yours next. it was almost like a peck- a short peck that made you want more of him- more of your enemy.
when you felt his hands come off of your face you opened your eyes. heeseung took in the way your cheeks were already flushed red and the way your eyes were looking dazed. if he didn’t hate you so much he’s sure that he would’ve called you cute.
but instead a harsh ‘what?’ comes out of his mouth.
“i’ve just never been kissed before.” you admitted to him- which seemed like nothing to admit at this point.
“oh,” heeseung thought about it for a moment, “how was it?”
both of you could tell how much more red your cheeks got at your next admission, “it felt good.”
“do you wanna do it again?” you curt nod made heeseung smirk- the same smirk that you swore you hated every day of your life and wanted to punch it off of his face twenty four hours ago- but the smirk had an effect on you as you closed your eyes again, “just pretend i’m jake and follow my lead.”
his hands rested on your face again and pulled it closer to his own to meet him in the middle this time. the kiss this time started out softer- just pure lips against each other as you tried to do what he said and follow his lead. you found it easy to let yourself pretend that it was jake you were kissing and that lee heeseung was nowhere even around you. you even swore that you started to smell jake’s familiar cologne in the wraps of heeseung’s shampoo that he had just used.
one of heeseung’s- jake’s- hands dropped from your face and down to your bare thigh where your skirt had ridden up. the kiss got almost ‘rougher’ as jake started to press his face into yours- brushing your noses together. you could start to focus on the feeling of kissing jake and the noises your lips made as you kissed each other.
you almost pulled away from the kiss when you felt jake’s tongue dart across your bottom lip. because you’re inexperienced you didn’t know what it meant- but jake’s hand on your face slid up so it grabbed a handful of your hair- making you open your mouth enough in surprise that he slipped his tongue into your mouth. it was a weird feeling at first but you imagined that since jake liked this- you figured you must, too.
you seemed hyper fixated on the feeling of jake’s tongue exploring your mouth and pecking your lips at the same time that you almost didn’t feel the way his hand on your thigh pushed your skirt up more- more that if anyone walked in you’re sure that they would’ve seen the hem of your underwear.
“oh my god, jake!” a voice shrilled from below the balcony- making you shoot your eyes open in shock as heeseung- not jake- almost pushed your lips away from yours and stood up to walk over to the edge of the balcony and looked down. “jake, stop!” the voice laughed out and you could hear jake’s familiar laugh after that.
you think you would’ve smiled at the sound of jake’s laugh but you couldn’t help but notice the weird feeling that had settled in your stomach. the sudden push away and pull back into reality was too large to ignore as the late summer breeze now brushed against your exposed thigh and your wet lips made you shudder.
“isa!” jake’s voice called out and you groaned quietly from the bench, behind heeseung that had apparently forgotten about your entire existence and you couldn’t help but compare this scenario to the one you’ve made in your head a bunch of times about why you wouldn’t hook up with anyone who wasn’t your boyfriend. you know heeseung didn’t mean it- hell you didn’t even really like heeseung but you still felt hurt crawling up on your chest.
you heard quick paced footsteps on the pavement below the balcony and the familiar giggles faded away- which you figured was isa and jake running away from the school. heeseung turns back to you when he can’t see the two anymore- noticing the way you’re zipping up your sweater and throwing your bag over your shoulder.
“do you still want to do this?’ he asks almost unaware of everything that you had just felt at first- the quick thought of you being ‘easily flustered’ goes through your mind and you almost blame the weird feeling you have on that and your virginity card.
though you think you’re being totally chill about it all, you speak a quick, “we’ll talk later.” and leave the outdoor classroom, leaving heeseung by himself and the image of a suddenly frazzled y/n with wide eyes and a shy demeanor playing through his mind.
heeseung texted you when you got into bed that night to make sure the deal between you two was still on- but you only briefly sent a ‘thumbs up’ emoji and went to bed. you were extremely exhausted from the events that occurred after school and you had no idea as to why you felt so mentally exhausted. maybe it was because lee heeseung himself was too exhausting for you.
you didn’t see heeseung for the rest of the week until thursday night when you agreed to go to his house. you didn’t feel the need to see heeseung as you were sure you’ve seen him enough in your mind as he was now consuming it- which annoyed you because you’d rather think about ajke- or literally anyone else than lee heeseung.
but now you’re sitting with lee heeseung on his bed with his black duvet covering both of your laps as went over your plan in more detail and set out more rules to ‘please you’ even though you’re sure heeseung was grateful for them anyways.
“number one: sex is completely off the table.” you announced which made his eyebrow quirk up.
“so you’re going to tell jake you’re not a virgin even though you will be a virgin?”
“exactly!” you smiled proudly with yourself. “you said so yourself that you’ll just be teaching me the basics, right?”
“right,” heeseung said slowly before smirking, “i’m apparently even having to go over the pre-basics with you since i took your kissing v card.”
you both saw and felt your cheeks turn red before you turned to look at the rest of the rules you had written the days before. the reminder of the way heeseung’s lips felt against yours was strange as you didn’t think heeseung could make you feel so right. especially because you pretended it was jake as it happened.
“number two:” heeseung started, “y/n cannot fall in love with heeseung.”
“i don't think we have to add that because even if we were the last people on earth i would not fall in love with you.” you placed your hand on your stomach as if you were going to throw up just from the thought of you and heeseung being romantically together.
“that’s what they all say, y/n, and now i have like thirty girls following me around.”
“yet- isa isn’t in love with you.” you squint your eyes at him.
“shut up.”
“number three: no one must know about this arrangement.” you continued which heeseung agreed with. “number four: when one of us confesses or gets confessed to- the arrangement ends.”
“number five:” heeseung starts writing another one on your list, “y/n will learn how to give heeseung a blowjob.”
“oh my god!” you shrieked, “that is absolutely never happening.”
“and why not? you said you want to be experienced for jake- what’s gonna happen when you put his dick in your mouth and you don’t know what to do with it?”
the scenario heeseung spoke about sent a feeling of shame and embarrassment over your body but you couldn't even think about putting lee heeseung’s dick down your throat. “i’d rather die.”
“then how are you going to be experienced for jake, huh? you barely even knew how to kiss the other day.”
you groaned, “i knew how to kiss heeseung! i had just never done it before!”
“sure, whatever you say- all i know is that i was taking the lead and it felt extremely one-sided.”
“one-sided?” you question him, turning your head to look at him, your shoulders staying side by side with one another’s body.
“yeah, like you didn’t really kiss me back or like, i don’t know, show any effort- any passion.” heeseung didn’t know he felt uneasy saying this to you as he was sure had said things much worse- but this time he felt as if he was being cautious of your emotions- like he didn’t want to upset you. when you stayed quiet and he noticed you were dazing off into your thoughts again he continued, “like when you makeout with someone it’s like both of you are working together.”
“well i’ve never made out with someone so how would i know?” you shook your head at him sarcastically, trying to not be offended or embarrassed by his words.
“come here.” heeseung pulled the blankets off of your laps and gestured to his lap. when you gave him a funny look in return like as if he was crazy he grabbed your hips from beside him and practically yanked you on top of him, your skirt sprawling over his lap. before you could say anything with your stubborn attitude or insult him in anyway he spoke again, “close your eyes.”
“heeseung, i-.” you started to protest.
“that’s not my name.” both of you looked at eachother with the same word running through both of your minds ‘pretend’.
you bit your lip but did as heeseung said and closed your eyes. you think it was hard to pretend that heeseung was jake at first from the stubborn and annoyed feeling you had in your chest- the same feeling besides anger that you usually felt when heeseung was around. you couldn’t help but compare the size of heeseung’s hands to jake’s as they rested on your waist over your school uniform. heeseung’s hands took up your entire side- meanwhile you remembered when jake had touched the same spot when he taught you how to surf in the summer- jake’s seemed awfully small compared to heeseung’s.
heeseung’s- no jake’s- hands came up to hold onto your face like the last time you had kissed and he pulled you down so that your faces were closer together. very gently- like you wouldn’t have noticed if you weren’t hyper fixating on it- jake pressed a soft kiss to the corner of your mouth and you smiled to yourself when he did because it was a gesture that was so jake and it helped get the thought that you were straddling lee heeseung instead.
when you felt jake’s lips against yours you were eager to kiss him back- not wanting it to be so one-sided like your apparent last kiss with him. the bedroom quickly filled with wet noises from your kissing getting sloppier by the second. when jake’s tongue rubbed against your bottom lip you didn’t hesitate to open your mouth this time. when you weren’t shy to mesh your tongue against his- hoping that in some way jake would feel your own passion in the heated kiss.
you felt jake’s hands drop from your face and start to play with the buttons of your shirt. you wanted to pull away to watch but his lips kept you locked together and you didn’t want to stop. you could feel your chest get revealed as your shirt became loose around your neck.
when his hand grabbed onto your breast you let out a whimper into his mouth, your nipple brushing against the fabric of your bra and his hand. when he started to massage it you didn’t even realize that you had started to grind your hips against his own until heeseung’s stupid laugh filled your ears.
“feeling a little needy, huh y/n?” heeseung smirked up at your blissed out- annoyed face.
“shut up, heeseung.” you grunted out at him, surprised at how your voice sounded so breathless already. heeseung’s head moved closer to your now exposed chest- pressing a soft kiss to your collarbone, similar to the kiss he had placed beside your lips.
“that’s not my name.” heeseung mumbled against your skin and continued to kiss your skin, “if you ask nicely i can make you feel really good.” you looked down and met his eyes, almost rolling your own when his turned hard at the fact yours were even opened at all.
you bit down onto your pride and closed your eyes and imagined it was jake who wanted to make you feel good, “please.” you begged out softly.
“please who? say my name, y/n.”
“please, jake- please make me feel good jake.”
jake reaches down in between your legs to let his index finger rub across your panties and over your clit. you feel your face heat up from his actions, your mouth parting automatically as you try to quiet your pant.
he slips the finger inside your panties next, dragging it up and down through your wet folds- a soft moan escapes your lips and you feel your head almost become loose on your neck.
“so fucking wet,” he mutters, slipping in his finger. you feel your body stiffen at the new intrusion, your hand wrapping around his bicep tighter than before, “so tight too, you okay?”
“yes, jake.” you respond almost carelessly- too focused on the idea that ‘jake’ is fingering you right now.
heeseung didn’t feel weird about being called a name that wasn’t his. he’s tried roleplay before- but the fact that he was hearing his best friends name moaned out into his bedroom created a deep feeling in his gut that he tried to ignore with the way you were clenching so tight around him- the way that isa was clenching so tight around him.
jake’s fingers begin to thrust in and out of your hole, trying to open you up. when he felt you loosen more and slipped in his middle finger as well you could feel the difference immediately- felt so full. when you’ve slipped in your own fingers before you didn’t feel as half full as you did now- jake’s fingers were longer and thicker and better than you’ve imagined as he started hitting your g spot almost instantly.
you didn’t realize how wet you truly were until you noticed the squelching noises and your moans filling his quiet bedroom. you could feel his body underneath you flex as you starts to fuck his fingers into you at a faster pace.
heeseung starts to imagine that your moans sound similar to how isa probably sounds and it turns him on more that he’s making the girl he likes moan to loudly just because of his fingers. he can feel isa’s wetness drip down onto his palm from how soaked ‘she’ is.
the feeling of pleasure fills your mind to its brim and you start to grind your hips down onto his fingers- wanting to feel even more.
heeseung opened his own eyes at your movements- taking in your sudden confidence as you fuck yourself downn his fingers. he was met with your fucked out expression as your head was lulled to the side, sweat glistened on the edge of your hairline and he could see your neck was flushed from the pleasure. without thinking he speaks quietly, “so pretty.” and if you heard it you didn’t say anything- but maybe that’s because he pressed his palm against your clit- the hard touch has you gasping out and clenching tighter onto his arm.
when he sees you arch your back so your chest is pressed against his, he wonders if isa would do the same thing- if she could be as reactive to his touch as you seem to be.
“i- i’m gonna cum!” you gasp out breathless, body starting to tremble as you lose control over it. heeseung wraps his other arm around your body to help you sturdy yourself on his lap as you come. “jake.” you moan out as the coil in your stomach breaks and you feel light headed for a moment as the pleasure takes over you.
with jake’s quiet praises and soft kisses against your chest you feel like your climax lasts longer than it ever has. his thumb keeps pressing circles into your clit until you're whining and he pulls away.
you open your eyes and are subtly surprised when you meet eyes with heeseung who has his fingers in his mouth, sucking off your juices and mixing it with his spit. you feel as if you continued to be turned on from the sight and wanted to do more- until he wiped his fingers on your skirt.
“ew heeseung!” you gasped out, your chest still panting from your orgasm.
“what? it’s your cum.” heeseung shrugged, leaning back into his headboard with you on his lap, your bra still in view with your shirts’ top unbuttoned.
“yeah, with your spit!” you looked down at the hem of your skirt where he had wiped his fingers all over, the idea of your cum and his spit mixing together on your clothing now turned your stomach until it growled.
“what was that? you hungry?” heeseung asks with a quirked eyebrow.
you pondered for a second, “yeah.”
-
you sat across the table from lee heeseung in a small diner he had taken you to a few blocks away from his house saying that they ‘had the perfect after sex food’. and when you corected him by saying you didn’t have sex he only laughed and through a pair of his sweatpants at you to wear.
you were thankful that he had given you some of his clothes to wear because you think now as you take a bite into your burger if you looked down and saw a mixture of your cum and lee heeseung’s spit on your lap you would’ve regurgitated your entire meal. and you didn’t really want to do that because although you didn’t just have sex- it was really fucking good food.
“are you going to the party on saturday?” heeseung asks you with his hands full of fries.
“yeah, are you?”
he nods and swallows before talking, “i know jake is going so you should ask isa if she is.”
“alright- should i say heeseung wants to know if you’re going?”
“no!” heeseung shakes his head frantically at you, “god no!”
“okay okay!” you put your hands up in defense, “don’t you want her to know that you’re into her?”
“well yeah, but,” heeseung looks away almost timidly, “she doesn’t know who i am so that would be weird if you said that to her.”
“what do you mean she doesn’t know who you are? you’re lee heeseung, everyone in the city knows who you are.”
“okay, but i’ve never been like introduced to her so it would be awkward.”
“have you ever spoken to her before?’ you ask curiously.
“no.” heeseung mumbles, biting into more of his fries.
“what? then how do you know you even like her? you could think she’s annoying! or weird! or-.”
“okay y/n i get it.” heeseung cuts you off and rolls his eyes. it stays silent between you two and you almost feel bad for making it feel this way between you two.
“so,” you start and drag out the word, “how about we get her to know you tomorrow, so if she goes to the party on saturday you guys can talk.”
heeseung shrugs, “how do we wanna do that?”
you stop and think for a second, “i know she stands by her locker before first period so i can ask her about the party then, and you should walk by at the same time i can introduce you guys or say you’re also going to the party.”
“okay,” heeseung agrees to your plan, “that’s not too bad of a way for us to ‘meet’ each other.”
“it’s not bad at all.” you correct him, making him smirk at you.
the small diner you were sitting at had a bell on the front door to alert the workers if a new customer was coming in or if a customer was leaving. it was approaching late at night as you and heeseung finished your meals when the bell rang. both of you didn’t pay attention to it until you felt heeseung kick your leg underneath the table.
“ow, what the fuck was that f-?” you started to bark at him.
“hey, heeseung!”
your eyes widened at the familiar voice beside you.
“hey, man!” heeseung reached out and dapped up the boy who stood beside your table.
“oh, y/n you’re here, too?”
you glanced up at jake for the first time, for once wishing that jake sim didn’t know who you were. “yeah! hi jake!” you smiled almost too cheesily at him.
you caught the way jake’s eyes moved down your body that was covered in heeseung’s clothes that you were literally drowning in from the size difference of you both. a confused expression crossed his eyes but he kept the same, soft smile on his face before he turned back to heeseung.
“you’re still picking me up in the morning, right?”
“yeah, for sure.” heeseung nodded at him. “i’ll see you tomorrow.”
“cool, see you guys.” jake nodded at you both before walking further int the diner, you almost didnt recognize the girl he was with until you smelt her perfume walk past you, making you whip your head back up from your lap to look at her.
you didn’t get a chance to see her face but her long, black hair and vanilla scent confirmed to you that she was in fact beautiful.
“who the hell is that girl?” your voice whispered to heeseung who had a pleasant smile on his face, “and what the hell is that look on your face.”
“he’s on a date with a girl who isn’t isa!” he quietly cheered, moving around in his seat.
his words ticked something off inside of you. when you heard that jake had a rush on isa it annoyed you, but it made you think that he has actually stopped his playboy days and was ready to settle down with someone. you figured that hif he was ready to settle down for isa- he would also be ready to settle down with you- ready to fall in love with you.
“oh god.” you groaned, your hands covering your face out of frustration nd embaraswsment.
“what’s wrong with you?” heeseung asked, stopping his happy moving for a moment to look at you stresses figure across from him.
“jake totally eyed what i was wearing and thought it was weird.”
“okay and?’ heeseung questioned not following along with you.
“and heeseung,” you snapped at him, “he probably thinks we hooked up!”
“well we technical-”
“no!’’ you cut him off, “we are not calling what we are doing hooking up! we can add that to our list of rules.”
heeseung rolls his eyes at you, “fine, but he probably thinks you’re experienced now so what’s the problem? didn’t this just help you?”
you guess lee heeseung had a point for once in his life.
“see i told you to trust me! i have this whole thing figured out!” heeseung teased you, flexing his biceps.
you laughed and brushed your hair out of your face, “shut up, heeseung.”