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YUJIN
I live in an apartment room number 714. Its funny how I said I live in an apartment room number 714 but I can’t feel like I am a living thing.
Maybe its because I think I don’t see any purpose in life. I did not decide to go into college because I don’t have dreams. I just finished high school and my life stopped there.
I am already 24 and some people in my age are probably one step closer to achieving their dreams. I wish I could relate.
So here I am working in an ice cream shop. Every day I see people wearing smiles every time they step into the shop.
Its something I don’t have. I don’t just smile for anyone. My manager scolded me about this for a lot of times because he thought I hated my job when the truth is I love it because its the only thing keeping me alive, supporting my needs to live.
Family? they left me behind when I said I don’t want to go to college and now here I am living in my own, in a new city.
“one scoop of vanilla please and oh add some sprinkles on it!” the girl maybe around 15 said cheerfully and I just gave her a bored look and followed her order.
I feel like my manager is already glaring at me. “that will be 10000 won and please just proceed at the counter for your payment” I said with a forced smile. The girl must be scared, with my smile I mean.
I’ve been working at this ice cream shop for a while now. My last job was at the restaurant, well long story short I screwed up and now I’m here. So far I’ve been working here much longer than the other previous jobs I had.
Well I love it here. I love scooping ice cream cause I feel like every time I do it, I bring other people's happiness with it. I do love it but my face says otherwise.
“okay folks we are closing early today!” my boss announced and I heard my workmate, the one who’s in-charge in the cashier rejoiced.
“why? it’s still early? its not the hour yet where people usually go here” I asked cause my boss isn’t usually like this.
“it’s because I have a date”
And? I don’t care if you have a date. I want to say that out loud.
“woah woah woah! finally! boss is having a date!” Yena— the cashier girl jumped in joy like it is something to celebrate about. “i hope this one stays boss”
“oh i hope too!”
oh i don’t care.
Call me a kill joy but I just don’t know how to react whenever things like these happens in front of me. But I am indeed happy for my boss!
For the times I’ve work here, I can count for how many times- maybe four times or five if I include today, she closed the shop early because she has a date. I mean of course I’m happy because we also get benefits from this, more rest time.
But the part where our boss gets a date or maybe getting a date in general? well I don’t know.
Is that thing associated with the word love?. Love. Date. Well I don’t care about love.
I think falling in love is stupid
Its bullshit. Maybe its because never in my life I felt that thing, that love or to be loved.
I think I will never fall in love.
~
It took me almost half an hour to get home to my apartment because while walking home the cashier girl Yena who also happens to be my friend, my only friend in this city, talked me about this girl she likes.
She was all bubbly, well mind you her personality is already bubbly but this time it was different, she was bubbly and happy and in love. I think she’s in love.
I listened to all of her stories like a friend and when we finally had to take a different path, in my mind..
I still think falling in love is stupid my friend
“hi! are you my neighbor?”
The apartment in front of me, door 707 has always been empty but tonight its wide open, looks like someone moved in today.
“hello I’m talking to you? can you hear me?”
And she is talking to me
“yes I am your neighbor isn’t obvious?”
I answered irritatedly and went inside my apartment. I don’t want to do some chitchats I just want to sleep.
~~
The next morning I got waken by a continuous knocking at my door. Not in a creepy way like in the horror movies. Its still 7 am in the morning, I usually wake up at 8 and prepare for my work but maybe not today.
Who could this be?
I don’t have any friends except Yena and she doesn’t even know where I live
The landlord? but I always pay my rent two months early
Or it could be the new neighbor which is I hope not
“hello! good morning! i baked some muffins and i want you to have some! its also a gift for you my new neighbor”
waking me up just for a damn muffin???!! fuck your muffins miss!
I slammed the door at her. I am annoyed. So I just went back to sleep.
I don’t care if I would appear as the rude neighbor but I’ve always been seen that way.
I’m on my way to my work. I stepped outside of my apartment and I feel like I stepped on something soft.
Fuck did someone’s dog pooped in my doorstep? I was going to go mad and curse when I saw it was a now crashed muffin. Damn at least put it in a box next time?
I’m still mad cause now I’m going to be late at work cause I still need to clean my shoes.
After cleaning my shoes and throwing the muffin at the trash. I look at my doorstep one more time to see if there are any crumbs of the muffins, instead there was a piece of paper.
Of course I picked it up, I’m a tidy person.
‘sorry! you must be angry cause i woke you up from your sleep so I’m just going to put your muffin here! have a nice day neighbor!’
love, mj.
Thanks to you I’m not having a nice day.
So I crumpled the paper and throw it somewhere while I’m walking to my job.
~
The rest of my work day went well. Boss was in a good mood I think her date yesterday went well oh I could tell.
Yena told me that she is nervous to ask this girl she likes, thus becoming our topic the whole day.
I told her that I’m sure everything will turn out well as if I know how does it feel to be nervous asking someone. As if I was in that situation before.
Now I wonder what does it feels like asking someone out.
“wow your apartment looks neat!”
What. The. Hell. I didn’t know my new neighbor was behind me when I was opening my apartment and now she went inside with me, I didn’t even invited her to go in.
“i didn’t know you would be a neat freak I’m really surprised”
Well what I’m going to do next is surely going to surprise you too
“get out of my apartment”
If only I can push her out but no. I’m not in that level of rudeness yet.
She looks confused but she just obliged. And for the second time I slammed my door to her face.
So this is how it feels like asking someone out or asking someone to get out of your apartment rather.
~~
‘hello again neighbor its me! i think i might’ve upset you again last night by calling you a neat freak. i should’ve said that i think it’s quite offensive isn’t it? anyway neighbor, i’ve bake muffins again and of course you always got a share of it! have a nice day neighbor!
love, mj.
And again, all of it I've thrown it in the trash while I’m on the way to work.
Why would that new neighbor of mine— or is her name mj? who the fuck has a name like that. anyway, why would she waste her time with me and its only the second time she gave me muffins I hope its going to be the last.
I wonder what’s her intention while doing these acts? to make friends? so she gives free muffins to the whole neighborhood too?
Make friends? with me? no thanks. One friend is enough for me in this city and that’s Yena, I don’t know if I even consider my boss a friend, lets say half friend.
Does she give muffins to the neighborhood around us? well I don’t know. I will try finding out about it later when I get home.
Well whatever her intention is I hope she keeps me out of it.
“Yena what do you do if someone gives you a muffin?” there are no customers anyway so Yena and I have a reason so have a little chitchat.
“eat it??” of course she’s going to answer that.
“but what if its from a stranger? would you still eat it?”
“lets take a look at the stranger’s face first, if they look trustworthy then why not?”
I don’t know why do I ask questions like this to Yena. I look like a kid asking stupid questions to an adult.
Now Yena won’t stop bugging me about it and calling me names like muffin girl.
I just brush it off and the rest of the day went well.
Now I’m back at my apartment.
And I remembered to keep in mind to ask the tenants in our floor if this new neighbor, mj gives out free muffins to everyone.
I start with the one beside me, neighbor 713. My room is in the corner of the 7th floor and the whole building has 7 floors.
Before I’ll press the door bell, I realized this is my first time ever interacting with someone in this whole building and its just because to ask about a stupid muffin.
I pressed the door bell. I heard it rang from the inside and I feel like I can hear the incoming footsteps from the inside like I have super biotic hearing powers.
The door opened and it showed a man, maybe around my age, and a bit taller than me. His haircut annoys me.
“hi! does the new neighbor from there” I pointed her apartment “gave you a muffin??” I asked in my most polite self.
“yes. it was delicious.” and he slammed the door at me. So this is how it feels to get slammed by a door to their face.
I moved to the next tenant, the one who lives beside the new neighbor. Neighbor 706. I like it how I call them by their apartment number, as if I know their names.
I was about to press the door bell when the door opened. “oh? hi! never in my life I imagine you’d end up in front of my door”
same.
It was a girl, I’m towering her and maybe I guess we’re around the same age too or older than me? I don’t know she looks young, like me, and the height—
“what brings you here?” she gave me a warm smile, I gave her none.
“I was just going to ask if the new neighbor beside you gave you some muffins?” her face suddenly lits up.
“oh yes she did! and her name is Minjoo by the way!” she talks to me like we are friends or maybe this is just what she is, friendly. “she gave out muffins to everyone the day she moved in here which is like 2 days ago and it was delicious we actually had…”
She talks a lot. I stopped listening when she said the word delicious. All I need to know if she gives muffin to everyone. I didn’t need to know that they shared a conversation yesterday and know her name is Minjoo.
Her name is Minjoo. The new neighbor’s name is Minjoo so I guess that’s what mj’s short for.
“hello neighbors!”
Neighbor 706 finally stopped talking when someone greeted us? am I even included in that hello? well she said hello neighbors though.
And it was the new neighbor who just arrived. I had to excuse myself before she even get closer to us.
“hey wait—“
I heard someone called me? I guess? I assume? but I just slammed the door after I get back to my apartment. Oops.
Well atleast I know she gives out muffins to everyone and not just to me. I guess I can finally conclude that she just wants to make friends with everyone and she already got neighbor 706.
There are 14 apartments in this floor. 9 of them being occupied at the moment. She already got one of them as her friend then I guess she doesn’t need me anymore, she can be friends with the remaining ones or might as well befriend all the people in this building. I don’t care.
Now to end this day, I cooked myself some fried chicken. Did the dishes. Brushed my teeth. Washed my face. Prepared myself for bed and that’s it.
~~
‘hello neighbor! i heard from jiwoo that you asked her about my muffins? oh i wonder why? is it because it tasted good and you want more but you were just shy to ask me? awww cute! you can just ring me up and ask for muffins its okay! i can bake for you anytime neighbor. so here ya go! and have a nice day!’
love, mj
its the third day and I thought she’d already stop. I went back inside. Was about to throw it in my trash again when I give it a moment to observe the box. She started putting it in a box since yesterday.
It was just a normal box, like a box where muffins are usually placed it. But its colored blue. Its not that I didn’t notice it but the color blue just catches my attention easily.
Is that what you call favorite color? I guess so, then I like blue.
And then I threw it cause I realized I’m late for work and when I arrived at work I immediately ask Yena.
“how do you stop someone from giving you muffins?” she looked at me like I just admitted that I let the toilet left unflushed. “or lets say in a nice way…”
“Yujin listen you can’t stop a person to do what they like”
What? do what they like? its not like giving me muffins and baking them is something that Minjoo girl would willingly love to do everyday for me— or to others, maybe I wouldn’t have the heart to look on her face after telling her to stop and that it’s just a waste of time.
I just think Yena isn’t making sense right now.
“okay okay i get it stop giving me advice now. let’s just get back to work!” I said as if there are customers lining right now when in fact the whole shop is empty.
Understandable. Who would love to have an ice cream in this time? its still early. not even close to noon.
When I got back home— it feels weird calling my apartment home but I’ll get use to it. When i got back home up, I went up with her in the elevator. her, Minjoo.
“hi” she greeted me trying to minimize the awkward atmosphere.
“hello” I answered not because I wanted to.
“did you like my muffins for today? I put on some extra chocolate chips on top for you”
Shit. I don’t even know how her muffins taste like, and shit as if I would die to know how it taste like.
“yeah i like it. its a perfect pair for my coffee”
I lied of course. Now why is the elevator is taking too long.
I’m not looking at her when I said that but I can see in my peripheral vision that she is smiling like she loved that fake compliment.
“thanks.. and if it isn’t obvious, i like baking”
TING. The elevator door finally opens to 7th floor. I immediately walked out of the elevator, pretending I didn’t heard what she just said so I don’t have to answer it.
Its okay Yujin just avoid her existence Yujin.
“goodnight!”
Just ignore it.
~~
‘hello neighbor! Here’s a muffin for your coffee. i hope today its even better than the previous ones i made. have a nice day!’
love, mj
i guess she really won’t stop and another one for you trash.
This keep on going for like a week and until my trash is already full because of it.
Now I have to take it out while I’m on my way to work. Damn the trash is so full that I can’t even put the one she gave today so I just decided to bring it to work and give it to Yena.
Finally for the first time the muffin served it purpose, to be eaten. Yena liked it and even boss liked it.
Yena still teases me muffin girl and how she wants to meet this muffin maker— a nickname she gave to Minjoo because I wouldn’t give her name.
“why can’t i have a lifetime supply of muffin too?” Yena whined and I wheezed at the “lifetime supply of muffin” its not like she’s going to be my neighbor forever or its not like I’m going to stay as her neighbor forever or maybe she would even stop associating herself with me ones she founds out I kept on murdering her muffins.
Which is I guess a good thing so my life would be at peace now.
“hello there Yujin!”
That voice sounded so familiar. it used to be ‘hello neighbor’ but now it has my name… how???
I looked at the customer— at her.
“how did you know my name is Yujin?” I asked her.
“your name tag silly”
of course. every employee here has their name tags, when I say every employee I meant me, Yena and our boss— Eunbi.
“but you know i already know your name before you even said yours to me”
“same thing minjoo”
She was surprised i know her name. Then for a moment I hope she figured it out that it’s because of the same person— our neighbor Jiwoo, the one who lives beside her and the bubbly neighbor. She once talked about Minjoo to me and I bet Jiwoo talks about me to Minjoo too.
I think she just did. slowly her face turns back to being relaxed.
As much as I want her to say her order faster but I have no reason at all cause no one is lining behind her so no need to hurry.
“what do you want to order?”
She’s not looking at me anymore. She is looking at the menu above me and thinking.
For someone who is trained to be patient with your customers picking order time, she is so damn slow—
“what’s your favorite flavor?”
i
don’t
know
but
suddenly
there’s
a
light
feeling
in
my
chest
And I love it. Its a really nice feeling and I want to smile right now.
A nice feeling that makes me want to smile willingly not because my manager forced me to.
For over a year working here no one has ever asked me that question. Tts always “whats the best seller here?” “what do you think is the best?” “just any good ones you would recommend” but never
what’s your favorite flavor?
“Yujin? hello? are you okay??”
That brought me back to my senses.
“what? what’s going on here??” Yena went beside me with the muffin.
Oh god she is still eating the muffin??? What if Minjoo sees it???
And she sees it. She looks happy seeing it.
“i guess you really liked my muffins..” Minjoo said and there she is again with her proud face.
As she should.
Both Yena and I looked at her.
“yeah I like it so much that I want to share it with my friend—“
“OH MY GOD SO YOU ARE THE MUFFIN MAKER???!!? NICE TO FINALLY MEET YOU!!” Yena was so enthusiastic that she almost jumped out of the counter to hug her. Y can see how Minjoo tries to match her energy.
And fuck. shit. oh my god. I just remembered all of the muffin drama I told yena and I hope she won’t say it to Minjoo.
please please please please don’t.
I don’t want Minjoo to hate me.
“did you know my friend here…” I started saying silent prayers in my head now. “… is always too flustered to say thank you to you every time you give her muffins”
I want Minjoo to like me.
Yena winked at me. I smiled. I looked at Minjoo then I looked away. Maybe I blushed.
Maybe minjoo blushed too. I don’t know.
“okay i’m out of here now! gotta go back to my place and Yujin…” Yena tiptoed just to put her hand to my shoulder like she wants to say something important. “… i hope you let Minjoo bake the cake for your wedding”
What? I gave her confused look.
“your wedding with Minjoo” and she leaves us just like that. she left us in an awkward atmosphere.
I’m thinking of things to lighten it up by anxiously tapping my fingers on the counter.
“I’m a simple person and I like basic things so my favorite ice cream flavor is chocolate”
Minjoo let out a sigh, I don’t know what it means but she followed it with a smile.
“thank god i wouldn’t know what to react if you said mint chocolate”
I laughed and I think its the first time I ever laughed for a while not because I’m watching a comedy or Yena said a very unfunny joke.
I laughed. Minjoo laughed. We both laughed.
I laughed because I think I’m happy.
The rest of the day didn’t went well for me because my mind is over the place because of Minjoo.
When Minjoo left the shop I immediately hugged Yena like I just won the lottery and I bet Yena is surprised with what I did cause I don’t like showing physical affections.
I am happy. I feel happy.
I feel different today. I feel like a new person. I feel like finally I want to accomplish something in life.
I guess having another friend would be nice?
I skipped my way through the apartment. I happily hopped in the elevator and greet whoever is with me there. They looked shocked well very understandable if whole of my life here I just ignored them all.
And I happily skipped again all the way to my apartment.
Oh wait. I want to see Minjoo. I want to hear her voice. I want her to be my friend.
I rang her door bell twice. The door slowly opened. I can’t stop smiling. It welcomed me with Minjoo.. who isn’t smiling. I stopped smiling too.
She left the door open and walked away from me. ,aybe she wants me to go in?
So I did.
I looked around her apartment while walking in and even did a slow 360 spin just to take a better look.
“wow your place is nice—“
mMy whole body froze when I saw a garbage bag in front of me. Something spilled from the inside.
It was a box. The same box where Minjoo always puts her muffins when she gives it to me and it still has a muffin inside.
I can tell that its my garbage bag.
“what the fuck have you been doing Yujin??? if you hated my muffins you could’ve just said it to me!!”
Minjoo is angry to me. I need a reason.
“w-what are you talking about??? i always eat your muffins! i even bring it to my work today you see??”
She wouldn’t believe of course. Wait I still have another one.
“and… you give muffins to everyone here. i swear its not me—“
“i only give muffins to you on normal days but yes i gave all of the tenants who live on this floor once but that was only in the day i moved in!”
Fuck fuck fuck fuck. I’m such an asshole. I deserved to be the one who’s thrown in the trash. and most importantly I’m a bad liar and I deserved a slap from Minjoo.
But she didn’t. She just pushed me out of her apartment— and I feel like she used all of power just to push me out.
“minjoo i’m very sorry—“
She slammed the door to my face. Its okay I deserved it. I deserved to be hated by Minjoo.
Fuck you Ahn Yujin.
~~
I couldn’t sleep the whole night. I kept on thinking about ways to make it up to Minjoo.
I know even if I say a hundred sorrys its still not enough for Minjoo. She deserved more than that, more than just a sorry.
I slowly opened my door hoping to see a blue box and a note from Minjoo.
I should’ve expected something cause there was none. I guess she’s really mad at me and I’m such an asshole again for still expecting something from her.
So I want to do everything just to earn her forgiveness. I called sick for work today, Yena shouted at me like she’s the boss and I promise to work hard twice tomorrow.
I want to do something. If Minjoo likes baking and she shares it with me by a muffin then should I do something I like too?
But what do I like?
Wait.
I enjoy cooking. I sometimes cook whatever in the ice cream shop’s kitchen and turn it into a meal whenever Yena and boss Eunbi is lazy to order some lunch. My last few jobs involves me cooking.
I like cooking. Should I cook Minjoo something? yes. Yes I should.
So I did cook her something. I cooked her a lasagna. One of the dishes I am really confident in cooking.
Although I should not expect her to accept it. What I should expect is slam her door at me again making the lasagna fly to my face.
That what I should expect cause I deserve it.
So here we go. Here’s go for nothing.
i rang the bell twice. and one more time, which makes it thrice. was going to rang it for the fourth time when the door suddenly opened revealing minjoo who seems like she just woke up.
and still mad at me of course.
“minjoo.. I’m really sorry. I’m an asshole for doing all of that”
She just stared at me blankly. For the last time I need a good reason or else I’ll blew all the chances of being in good terms with Minjoo again.
Hold on.
“I’m really really really sorry Minjoo I should’ve told you that I’m…”
she was already slowly closing the door, she doesn’t want to hear from me anymore.
“i should’ve told you i’m allergic with eggs!”
She stopped. She swung the door wide open. Now she’s looking at me worriedly.
“and i know in baking egg is always one of the ingredients right? i’m really sorry minjoo i should’ve talk to you about it”
I think that was the most words I said to my neighbor for the whole time I was living here. My words are always cut short to five but now? it looks like I’m constructing an essay.
I was about to lose hope in asking for forgiveness when Minjoo finally speaks.
“its okay yujin” her voice was soft and had a mixture of worry in that tune. “and i’m sorry too if i was so harsh to you yesterday. I just had a bad day and…”
“now i want to fix your bad day. please accept this lasagna that i made for you this morning.”
Minjoo’s face slowly lits up. She is now smiling at me.
“okay… lets eat it together then??”
“i would love that”
And this is the first time I got invited and accepted it. The first time i eat in someone’s apartment and definitely won’t be the last.
As long as its Minjoo.
At the end of a day I made a new friend.
Kim Minjoo is her name. We finally know each other formally.
~~
Things with Minjoo are doing well. We became close friends in the span of two weeks. Our neighbor Jiwoo still couldn’t believe the change in personality that just happened to me.
Sometimes I would give Minjoo free ice cream secretly. Minjoo thinks its not okay cause what if my boss catches me but I just assure her that its fine.
A month has finally passed and things with Minjoo are doing great as I expected. I think we are inseparable now. I would always hangout to her apartment and she’d do the same thing to my apartment too.
I think Minjoo is growing inside of me, I think we are having a special connection that I just couldn’t distinguish it.
Definitely a different connection that I feel with Yena. The connection I had with Yena evolves in a way that I want her to be my sister and my partner in crime in everything.
But this connection with Minjoo its really different. Its like I want to keep staying with her all the time, I keep on missing her all the time, it irritates me whenever I don’t hear her voice.
what the hell is going on with me?
And who the hell is with Minjoo right now? a guy? She just walked in to the ice cream shop with a guy and it looks like they are discussing what flavor to buy.
I feel sick. My stomach is giving me weird sensations that I might need to use the bathroom right now.
“yena please take the counter for a bit i feel sick!”
I still heard Yena’s worried “what is happening with you” but I just ignored her and sprint to the bathroom, sat on the toilet and discharge whatever the fuck my stomach wants out.
But nothing happened. So I just sat there for 10 minutes until i just decided to step out of the toilet.
“bro! what happened to you??? are you okay????” I didn’t know she was waiting for me outside. “and oh minjoo just left with her cousin. its such a shame you didn’t meet him but she said he’s going to her apartment later so maybe you can still meet him…”
Cousin? that guy Minjoo was with is her cousin?
.
.
.
Oh.
“… so what happened to you?? ate something gross that made your stomach mad???”
“nothing actually came out… i just sat there for minutes and now after you said minjoo was with her cousin i feel better?”
Yena’s eyes grew big. Did she saw a ghost? I don’t know what’s happening to her but the next thing she did was laughed hysterically.
“bro… were you jealous??”
That word. I didn’t know that word still exists not until Yena said it to me. Jealous? me jealous?
“i don’t know?? is that the right term?? i’m jealous??”
I said like I am really clueless, well I am clueless as hell.
“and bro i think you’re also…”
Yena walked around me in circles while she’s checking me out and its making me feel dizzy I need her to stop.
“… in love”
What? I’m in love? what a silly word.
I still think that word is stupid.
I think falling in love is stupid.
I just shrug off what Yena said and went back to our places and the rest of the day went well expect Yena has to remind me every hour that I am in love with Kim Minjoo.
~~
When I’m back in my apartment. I went up to the elevator with neighbor 711 oh her name is Gaeul by the way. I stopped calling my neighbors by neighbor and their apartment number after knowing their names.
And I knew all of them now thanks to Jiwoo who threw a party to her place just for me to know all the people in this floor.
(Later on I found out that it was actually Minjoo’s idea, Jiwoo just made the idea to life.)
Gaeul is shorter than me and I think she’s the same height as Minjoo. While we were in the elevator we had a little chitchat about cooking.
I like cooking of course that automatically caught my interest in conversing more with her.
She told me that she wants to properly know how to cook. That’s good to know.
I didn’t know we were already in front of her apartment door when she cling to my shoulder. That action indeed surprised me.
“can you teach me to cook? i heard from minjoo that you know a handful of dishes..” She is still clinging to me. I want her to let go now cause I don’t really like people being touchy with me.
Unless its Minjoo.
“okay okay i’ll teach you some—“
“YEEEEYYY!!” Now she is jumping while hugging me. God now its a hug.
“yujin??”
Someone spoke behind us and Gaeul is still hugging me. I faced who might be this person is and— ITS MINJOO!
I smiled at her but she’s not smiling at me.
Fuck. Did I do something wrong again?
“bye yujin! see you this saturday okay??” Gaeul said before she went inside of her apartment.
I didn’t mind what Gaeul said. I’m just looking at Minjoo who looks upset.
“why? whats the problem?”
“nothing. my cousin’s already here and he wants to meet you” She said coldly. I think I just felt mt. everest’s breath in here. “or unless i interrupted some lovely chitchat you were having with Gaeul? its fine. we can wait”
What is she talking about? Gaeul already dismissed herself. Its only me and her here.
“no actually…”
“than great. lets go inside of my apartment” She is still upset.. with me? I don’t know what I did. I want to say sorry for whatever I did wrong this time.
I am too scared to step inside of her apartment because the last time I did and she was upset with me it didn’t quite ended well.
“HELLOOO! so she’s the girlfriend eyyy??” Minjoo’s cousin greeted me and she turned his head at Minjoo but Minjoo just glared at her. Her cousin just cleared his throat. “anyway. my name is Jungwoo and i’m sure you are Yujin”
“nice to meet you Jungwoo” We shake hands and minjoo is still upset at me. I want to ask but her cousin is here in front of me.
“hmmm i see what happened…”
Jungwoo said. Does he knows something I don’t?
Why does everybody always know something before I even found it out?
“i think she’s jelly for what you just did there…” Jungwoo got a slap at the shoulder from Minjoo after saying that.
Jelly? Minjoo wants jelly? if you want me to run into the nearest convenience store right now to buy you jellies oh I would.
“minjoo do you want jellies? i’d buy you jellies if you want?” Looks like Minjoo was surprised with what I just said.
Minjoo and Jungwoo just burst out laughing. I don’t know what’s happening but at least Minjoo doesn’t look upset anymore.
~~
Tomorrow is Saturday. I don’t know if I’m still going to teach Gaeul a dish or go with Minjoo who wants to go in an amusement park that she’s been talking about it for three days.
Tts almost 6pm and that’s where Yena and i’s shift ends. We are just heading to the trash bin to throw some trash. Minjoo is inside of the shop chatting with boss eunbi, they are already closing the shop too.
“have you sort out your feelings with Minjoo yet?”
what what what
oh.
It was a Monday when I met Minjoo’s cousin. The next day I had a talk with Yena about Minjoo.
The talk was just about.. my feelings.. for Minjoo.
All I said is that I’m always happy with her if happy is not enough to describe what I feel everytime I’m with her then I guess I feel like I am the happiest person in the world whenever I’m with her. Yena let out a tear when I told her that and I don’t know why.
Yena also mentioned that she had a little chitchat with Minjoo’s cousin yesterday. She didn’t tell me what they talked about but she just said its about me and Minjoo.
“Yujin you’re so slow!”
What does she mean by slow? we are still taking the trash, does she mean I’m slow at throwing the trash?
“doesn’t it scare you Yujin? what if someday Minjoo walks in that ice cream shop again, with someone else, someone that is not a relative or a family member.. then what are you gonna do??!”
“i would feel sick again?” I answered honestly and I feel like Yena wants to punch me right now.
“would you let that happen?” what? why would i let that happen?. “don’t you want to be the one walking beside Minjoo everytime? I thought you want to stay with her forever? now what?”
what does yena wants me to say I am scared. my heart is beating so fast.
“you like Minjoo right?”
“yes. of course” I answered in a heartbeat. Yena smiled at me.
I
like
Kim
Minjoo
I like Kim Minjoo.
“then say it to her— shit its raining lets go inside now!”
Yena is right, its raining. At first it was just a light pour and suddenly its giving heavy pours. Like the clouds is crying.
And yena is right again. I should say it to her right now.
“Yena why would you leave Yujin standing there??!?”
“I don’t know! I thought she ran with me when I told her it’s raining!”
“do you have any umbrella here? I’ll go get her”
Once again I feel like I have super biotic hearing powers cause why did I just heard Minjoo and Yena’s conversation.
I don’t know what gave me the strength and confidence to finally say what I feel for minjoo.
maybe its because of the rain?
I started walking to the shop again.
“MINJOO!!” I shouted. People couldn’t hear well in the rain right.
“YUJIN! WAIT I HAVE AN UMBRELLA!”
Or maybe I was just scared of seeing her again walk inside the ice cream shop with someone else.
I took a deep breath.
“MINJOO I LIKE YOU!!” I shouted with all of my lungs. I’m soaking wet right now. Minjoo was about to approach me with an umbrella. Yena gave me a thumbs up and boss Eunbi just smiled at me.
“KIM MINJOO I LIKE YOU!” I said again.
Looks like the rain is not stopping anytime and guess who else is not stopping at saying what she feels about Minjoo? ME!
“minjoo i like you so much! i want to keep on staying beside you forever! i want to eat more of your egg-free muffin! whenever i’m with you i feel like iam the happiest person in the whole world! and most importantly i don’t know want to see you with someone else that isnt me—“
Minjoo ran fast towards me in the rain to give me a hug. I was taller than her, I can even feel her tiptoe just so she can hug me and she also just buried her head in the crook of my neck.
I hugged her too. when we finally let go of the hug I prepared myself.
I’m preparing myself to get rejected.
“Ahn Yujin i don’t like you”
Fuck. So I really did got rejected—
“…because i love you”
That is the most beautiful sentence I’ve ever heard in my entire life.
I feel like crying right now. Do I even deserve this?? I ever deserve someone else like Kim Minjoo in my life??
“i love you to—“
Minjoo pulled my collar and crashed her lips into mine.
We shared our first kiss in the rain.
The second time our lips met it was because of me. The second time it was much longer, and sweeter and perfect.
I used to think falling in love is stupid.
But I guess I was wrong after all.
I didn’t know falling in love can be this beautiful.
I think falling in love with Kim Minjoo is beautiful.
~~
We’ve been in a relationship for 4 months now. Sometimes she would sleep in my apartment and I would sleep in hers.
I’ve got to know Minjoo more than I know her during in the first month we became friends. I’ve found out that her family is stinking rich and owns a lot of fancy pastry shops all over the country, so that is why I don’t see Minjoo doing jobs.
I know more about her, rather than just her favorite ice cream flavor.
Minjoo got to know more about me too. I told her about my family and my damned dreamless past.
But now I have dreams. I told Minjoo that I will try to reach out in my family again and tell them I have dreams now.
I want to be a chef and build my own restaurant. Minjoo said shes sure that my parents would be proud of me.
Our first date happened in an amusement park. Yes, the day where I ditched Gaeul to her supposed to be learn-a-new-dish-from-yujin-day and of course its me being reasonable cause Minjoo is already my girlfriend so why would I spend time with someone else.
Minjoo also told me to stay away from Gaeul cause she knows she likes me and she don’t like the thought of that, it makes her jealous.
Everything about my life is already perfect. What else could get wrong?
Nothing. Absolutely nothing!
~~
Today Minjoo came home an hour late than me. She usually would arrive first but when I waited for her in her apartment today, she’s late.
And she looks exhausted too. Where could she been? she doesn’t even have a job.
“where have you been??” I asked her but she didn’t answer. She just lazily lie on the couch where I’m also sitting, her head on my lap.
She smells like alcohol. Did she get drunk? why?
“Minjoo are you drunk?” I sniff her head and tried to fix her messy hair. “min—“ she raised her head to me only to give me a kiss.
Yes she is really drunk, her breath smelled alcohol and she tasted alcohol too.
I didn’t know when we will stop kissing but we just kept on going until she’s already sitting on my lap and she started unbuttoning my work uniform, she also guided my hands under her skirt.
I don’t know what’s happening.
“Yujin tonight… own me please”
And the rest of the night went wonderful. One of the best and memorable night of my life.
The next day I was late for work because I couldn’t stopped staring at sleeping Minjoo who has no clothes under the blanket. She looked extra beautiful that morning, not that she looked beautiful the other mornings I slept with her.
Its just that she gets more beautiful to my eyes everyday.
This is how whipped I am for Kim Minjoo.
~~
7 months into our relationship and were still steady as ever.
Two months I contacted my parents, I told them something they wished they want to hear 2 years ago.
‘mom and dad, I finally want something in my life’
Minjoo was the happiest for me that day that she even cried.
Then 3 days after that I went home. To my house where I grew up to, home.
I went there with Minjoo, then I introduced her to my family as one of the reasons I have a purpose in life again.
She’s one of my dreams and a purpose in life.
Back to when I said our relationship are still steady as ever, well. Maybe I’d say just ‘steady’.
Now back to that day when she went home drunk and sad I thought it would be the first and last time I’ll be seeing her like that.
But then it happened again then it happens at least once a week. There were straight two months she didn’t look sad. I mean seeing her sad while we watch a sad movie is a different kind of sad right?
And we don’t fight at all, like never. So I’ve never made her sad or I will never.
Today she went home sad again and drunk. I want to ask her everytime she’s like this but it just keeps on getting pushed because…
“minjoo wait i’m out of breath—“
“no just keep on kissing me”
She’s on top of me like the usual and later on we’ll just yeah switch.
But tonight I don’t like that. Tonight I want to talk to her.
“minjoo lets talk about what’s keeping you upset and sad like this”
Then she stopped whatever she is doing. It looks like she didn’t like what I just said.
Now she looks upset.
“talk about what? and i don’t look upset and sad” but you do sound like that right now.
“minjoo—“
“yujin no” She really don’t want to talk about it. “lets just go back to what are we doing okay—“
“minjoo i want to talk to you about what’s upsetting you cause it’s upsetting me too!!”
Minjoo was startled with my action. Oh shit I didn’t mean to raise my voice at her.
Now she won’t look at me.
Now she won’t let me hold her hand.
Now she won’t listen to me.
And now she ran out of her apartment.
And now I have to chase her and say sorry to her.
I guess I can finally say we’d just had our first fight.
~~
We weren’t on speaking terms on the next day.
And on the day after that Minjoo just let it all pass and we’re good again
It feels weird. It feels like I had to do something but I didn’t and now I feel like our relationship is already tainted.
I hope its just me.
So I started attending culinary classes cause I’m going to be a chef!
Me attending classes means I can only work at the ice cream shop every weekends, but its okay, my family is there to support me with my expenses.
Attending classes means also having less time with Minjoo.
When I used to work on the ice cream shop on normal days Minjoo would visit me there anytime but now she can’t do that while I’m in class anymore.
But I promise to text her everytime I can and even if I’m on class.
Today when I came back to my apartment and decided to visit Minjoo’s first, I was about to enter her apartment when some guy walked out it. I’m confused. Does she have other family member? or relatives?
Fuck.
It broke me when she said “he was just a friend Yujin no need to worry”
So he’s not a family member or a relative. Fuck again.
Why?? what is he doing here?? everything looks normal. Nothing looks suspicious going on.
No shit I’m just trying to think positive.
I excused myself and told her I just want some fresh air. Something in me just don’t want to face her right now. She agreed and let me go.
I went back 2 hours after. She asked me where I have been and I said I just had some walk and had dinner with Gaeul.
I also told her that I brought home some takeouts.
and now she’s mad.
I don’t know why she’s mad? is it because I only brought her takeouts not a whole new meal?
“why were you with Gaeul?? you could’ve just hangout with Jiwoo—“
“and what about me going with Gaeul?? she’s just a friend what’s the problem with that??”
So she’s mad that I went with Gaeul? okay.
“Yujin”
“you know Gaeul. and you were also with a friend i clearly don’t know earlier! did you see me having a problem with it? no Minjoo”
I don’t know what’s happening to me. I’m just saying anything what’s in my head.
And I don’t want to look mad.
“ah. so you’re trying to get back at me—“
“no minjoo. I was just trying to understand you”
Then I walked out of her apartment. i thought she’s going to follow me.
I should’ve not expected.
We weren’t on speaking term for 2 days. On the second day I collapsed during our classes.
The last thing I remember was that my head hurt so much. But when I woke up the doctor said maybe I smelled something so bad my head didn’t liked it.
I don’t know anymore. The doctor is saying a lot of possibilities, can he just point it out? what kind of doctor is he.
Minutes after I woke up, Minjoo came running to me, crying and hugged me so tight.
God I missed her so much that I also cried during the hug.
“you still love me right??” I asked her.
She just giggled. “silly of course i still do and i will always do”
She kissed my nose and I was the one who grabbed her cheeks to kiss her on the lips.
I just missed her. These two days feels like hell without her
The next day when I got discharged on the hospital and I were about to enter manager Eunbi’s car, she fetched us, none of us has car except her.
I saw that guy. The friend Minjoo had in her apartment about 3 days ago.
What the hell???
I closed my eyes. Maybe I’m just seeing things.
“you okay Yujin??” She asked me with those soft and worried eyes. I smiled.
“I’m okay”
And when I looked around once again, I don’t see him anymore.
~~
11 months into our relationship and 1 more month till we celebrate our 1st anniversary.
However, our fights became more often.
It scares me of course. I don’t want to lose Minjoo, its my fear.
And it also scares me to admit that it feels like I’m losing her each day.
Jiwoo told me that she somehow still see that ‘guy’ or what we would like to call ‘sneaky link’ (my coping mechanism cause sneaky link sounds funny to me), whenever I’m not there.
Of course I don’t like the idea of that.
Minjoo told me randomly one night that she’s not seeing him anymore and that he is just a friend.
But sure Minjoo I believe you.
I used to.
~
“where are you going?”
Its already past 10pm. I was sleeping in her apartment and was about to leave but then she caught me.
I was just going to buy something for my migraine. I can’t believe culinary school can be this stressful or is it even because of that?
“to a pharmacy” I said softly. “just go back to sleep and later you wouldn’t notice I’m already back, hugging you”
She smiled with what I just said. I love that smile.
Everything’s going fine not until I opened the door then there revealed Gaeul. Oh my god I think my migraube just doubled.
“pharmacy huh? so is this sort of like a code name? you think i didn’t count how many times you said you’re just going to a pharmacy at this time?? and what else? Have you two been fucking each other behind my back???”
“Minjoo take back what you said. Ididn’t like that”
She’s not getting the point and I don’t even know why Gaeul is here but yes I called her but I didn’t told her to wait here.
But here’s the thing we both know, Gaeul is a pharmacist. Sometimes I just ask her some meds and she got it. and sometimes I don’t so I really go to a nearest pharmacy to buy some.
“no Yujin. i would rather repeat it again that you two have been—“
“hey hey hey! you think i didn’t know you’ve been seeing that guy friend of yours secretly behind my back???”
This is how we fight. We have something always to bring out whenever we are fighting.
And of course I hate it when we are fighting.
~~
A day before our 1st anniversary.
I told Minjoo that we’d go in a vacation but she declined. she said that its very tiring and she’d rather spend our anniversary every minute beside me.
Well I hope you know that I’d love to spend the rest of my life every minute beside you too.
And by the way the most important thing is that we avoid fighting now. I love that.
“do you like it?”
Oh my god. Minjoo brought a car.
“wow. why?? god i feel bad! i should be the one buying this—“
“its okay! my parents said that its a gift for us”
Her parents. Oh right i keep on forgetting that they are so rich. Yet I never saw them for once. Minjoo said they are just very busy and are out of the country everytime.
“and another news… i’m meeting my parents again tomorrow! i’m bringing them here! Yujin i will finally introduce you to my parents!!” she said enthusiastically.
I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR MINJOO RIGHT NOW.
I know she’s been dying to meet them for a year now, ever since she moved here but like what she said they are so busy and always out of the country.
I’m glad they finally made time for their daughter! and tomorrow too for our 1st anniversary!
As long as Minjoo is happy then I am the happiest.
The day of our first anniversary.
“happy anniversary minmin i love you”
I greeted her of course as soon as she woke up. I kissed her and then I kissed her again and until it turned into a hot making out session and we all know what happened next.
After that. We proceed to eat breakfast and we talked about our plans for today.
And duh of course! I have a surprise for her and I will bring her there to the place where I realized that I love her.
The ice cream shop.
I will bring her there— after she fetches her parents which is the thing she’s going to do after all of this.
She’s going for a short ride to fetch them.
the plans:
minjoo - fetch my parents
yujin - wait for minjoo
minjoo & yujin - go to that place yujin said to go after
That’s what we written on our cute whiteboard hanging somewhere in Minjoo’s living room.
I told Minjoo that she has to take a shower first but she refuses to because she is so excited to meet them and she doesn’t want to take away my scent while she’s driving alone. Oh God Kim Minjoo.
I said I wanted to come with her but she don’t want cause it will ruin the fun and that’s the part where I finally plead defeat. Okay miss Kim Minjoo!
“yujin” minjoo said after she opened the door to the driver’s seat.
“minjoo?” I walked closer to her and was surprised when she pulled me for a kiss that I had to stop it before it turns into something quite unstoppable energy again.
“i love you so much yujin. i love you for the rest of my life and even if i’m dead i would not stop loving you!”
I giggled cause she is just so cute. I love it when we say random I love you’s to each other in the most random moments.
“i love you minjoo and i will keep on loving you forever”
So now I watched her enter the car and left.
Now all I do is wait for her and organize the ice cream shop now while she’s away.
Time check 1:11 pm. She’s been away for two hours now and Ii thought she’d be here back in the apartment for like 30 minutes ago.
She told me the place that she’s going to fetch her parents is not that far.
1:30 pm. She must be here anytime now.
1:57 pm. I’m getting worried.
2:15 pm. Tried calling but she’s not answering but I just shrugged it off cause she might be driving.
2:39 pm. Kim Minjoo where are you?
3:00 pm. Minjoo’s number finally called me thank god!
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But it was not her voice.
“hello is this ahn yujin? you’re in her emergency contact so i called you first”
Then i fell into my knees, my head is spinning.
“yujin are you here? just want to greet you a happy anniversary with min— OH MY GOD YUJIN ARE YOU OKAY???”
Thankfully Jiwoo paid me a visit. She helped me to stand up but I still can’t get off the ground, its like theres a magnet pulling me to the ground.
I told her to put my phone on speaker but still I feel like I couldn’t hear anything or my brain chose not to.
“yujin… minjoo is…”
the words ain’t processing to me but all i’m hearing is
Car. Crash. Minjoo. and something that starts with the letter d.
That’s all I heard before passing out hitting my head on the floor. I still heard Jiwoo’s loud gasped.
But no, I can’t stay like this, not now, Minjoo needs me I need to go to the hospital.
Minjoo I’m coming.
Maybe I came there late.
When I went to the hospital the first thing that welcomed me is that ‘guy friend’ the sneaky link. he was about to say something but i just punched him instead, also he was getting on my way.
Then Gaeul’s there too. Why the hell is Gaeul here?
And then there’s Minjoo on the bed.
Covered in sheets. Lifeless. not moving.
My whole body froze for a moment upon seeing that view, then I breakdown seconds after.
I cried so hard. I cried like I’ve never cried so loud before. I cried so loud that I hope Minjoo hears me and she would stand up in that bed to shut me up and tell me that everything’s okay.
I couldn’t think of anything at the moment. All I can feel is my heart aching and breaking every loud cry I give.
It fucking hurts so much that I couldn’t breathe. That I wished it was me in that bed instead.
Minjoo. I called her name.
Minjoo.
Minjoo.
Minjoo.
Minjoo.
I keep on calling her name but there was no answer from her.
Minjoo.
Minjoo.
Minjoo I love you please don’t do this to me.
And then I gave up.
So now the room is only filled with my crying.
After crying for almost an hour I feel numb. I feel like I’m back to my old self.
Myself before there was a Kim Minjoo in my life.
Right now I’m sitting in a bench outside her room thinking what would be my life now without Minjoo.
Minjoo’s guy friend sat beside and I feel like I want to punch him again except I don’t have any energy anymore.
“you didn’t arrived late. minjoo was already found dead in her car when they pulled her out of there. no signs of heartbeat”
He told me the whole story about what happened to Minjoo, he said her car crashed into a bridge, then it fell into a river.
God. I can’t imagine how much she suffered in that situation.
They don’t know the reason why that happened but the police said it might be something with the breaks.
But it just doesn’t make sense. Minjoo’s car is newly bought, why would it have a problem?
Minjoo’s guy friend soon introduced himself as Minjoo’s Doctor and that just added the confusion in my head.
Why would Minjoo need a doctor?
“and wait a minute…” I realized something. “did minjoo has any company in the car?”
the guy friend just shook his head. “she was there alone in the car”
“but she was suppose to be fetching her parents—“
“yujin i don’t know about that but all i know and what i’ve been told, she was just alone in the car”
So I can assume she didn’t got to see her parents which just pains me more for her. How can I say this to her parents now?
Soon after Gaeul sat beside me on the other side. She said she works here and she knows Minjoo’s agendas and her guy friend.
The guy friend has a name by the way, his name is Minho. Gaeul said she knows Minho and how she keeps on seeing Minjoo with Minho.
Minho also added that he knows Minjoo is already taken in the day they met so he has no intensions on hitting her, he swore to me with his life.
This Minjoo, Gaeul and Minho thingy is not helping me right now. What’s going on? do they know something I don’t?
“minjoo gave this to me earlier this morning when you were taking too long to escort her in our building’s parking lot..”
She gave me a white envelope with a ‘to yujin’ written neatly at the back.
“i thought its just some of your first anniversary gimmicks but after everything that happened today…”
She didn’t finish her sentence, she just looked at me sadly.
When I opened the envelope that’s where Gaeul and Minho left me to have some privacy while reading the…
letter.
dear yujin,
first of all, i love you and second, i love you so much.
i don’t know why am i writing a letter when i could’ve just tell it to you but i just don’t have the heart to tell you and i’m starting to think that i don’t deserve you yujin.
so before anything else, i’m sorry and i love you again.
throughout our relationship i’ve told you one truth and one lie.
let me start with the truth first, the truth is i love you. i love you so much and that is a truth. i love you so much to the point that i can’t stand telling you this cause i might end up hurting you— which i will soon write about in my letter.
now lets go with the lie. i lied about my parents. my parents are dead yujin. after they died i got all of their savings and since i have no siblings anyway. i had enough money for me to last without working for many years but that made me guilty as hell.
i’m the reason my parents died. i was driving our car and they are sitting beside me, i didn’t know the car’s breaks are broken and that made us crash in an incoming big truck.
my parents got the most impact. i would not call myself lucky cause i survived but if only you know i much i wished i went away in this world with them.
after all of that. i think something in me died too, i didn’t have any reasons to live. i might have all of the money but what the fuck am i suppose to do with that?
my friends suggested me to go on therapy while i am healing my wounds from the crash and i did. 6 months after the crash i feel a little better somehow.
i decided to move into a new city and i chose this city. moved into a nice apartment and maybe end some things in that new apartment too.
like my life.
did you know the first time i saw you was during your shift in that ice cream shop? you didn’t know of course.
after i finished moving things in my new apartment i craved for some ice cream and then i saw this ice cream shop just a few blocks away from the apartment.
when you were taking my order, you smiled at me.
and i just needed that the most that day. i think i just needed a smile from someone, even if its from a complete stranger and thank god it was from you.
i was planning to visit the place again the next day just to see your face again but who would’ve thought we would ended up in the same apartment building.
i tired asking you but you just acted snobby towards me but thats okay maybe you’re having a bad day that time.
then the few next days was me baking you muffins. i don’t just bake for everyone, i bake only for you. and i love baking and maybe i already love you.
but then that day when i found out you were just throwing out the muffins i gave you of course that broke my heart. it felt like i broke up with you even though we’re not even a thing. i was so mad at you that i swore to myself i don’t want to talk to you again.
then the next day you knocked on my door, offered me a sorry, some great lasagna and an explanation that you are allergic to eggs.
oh fuck i should’ve known that before getting mad at you! and after eating the lasagna you made, i think i’m back at falling in love with you again.
i feel like i already love you even before i met you and know you.
the day when you told me you love me i guarantee you that i was the happiest person in this planet that day. and that was also so bold of me to initiate our first ever kiss in the rain.
but you know yujin i really just can’t forget about my past. no matter how hard i try, no matter how many therapy session i would go i just can’t get out of this dark past.
remember that one night i went back to my apartment drunk and sad? it was my parents death anniversary.
then when i thought all of my misery has come to an end, one day i went to see a doctor cause i keep on getting migraines well it turns up theres a growing tumor in my head.
my life couldn’t just get any better yet it just keeps on getting worse.
i’m so sorry that you let a fucked up woman to your world. i’m sorry that out of all of the other woman in the world you chose to fell in love with me.
but thank you for saving me, i didn’t know life still left something great for me.
you were the only good thing in my life, yujin.
so i love you yujin. i’ll keep on loving you forever even if i know forever doesn’t exists cause nothing lasts forever.
but for you i would let it exist. i love you forever yujin.
remember the random “i love yous” we would say at each other? that’s the best part in our relationship.
the way i keep on doing that because i don’t know when will my time come and i’m just afraid that i might disappear someday without telling you i love you.
and i think this is the part where i have to disappear in this world now yujin.
but before that, i want to tell you again how much i love you.
i love you yujin and i don’t think saying this is enough.
i love you in all ways how i love you can be said. i bet that’s enough now? hahahahaha!
i will find you in another life yujin, i promise.
i love you.
love, minjoo.
I don’t know what to feel after reading Minjoo’s letter.
I feel sick. I feel like I want to cry hard again. I feel like my stomach is twisting because of these unexplainable emotions.
I’m a complete mess right now.
That letter just made think that I’m not going to ever recover from this day again.
But then it made me realize something, throughout our relationship i also told a lie too that I didn’t have the heart to tell Minjoo the truth.
I don’t think I will.
I don’t think I’ll going to get the chance anymore.
But Minjoo, I was never allergic to eggs.
~~~
10 years later.
I have a house of my own. A restaurant where thousands of people line up for everyday and proud parents.
And I live alone.
I never opened my heart to anyone anymore, its like I just chose to be alone forever. I rejected too many hearts just to keep this heart of mine that has been mourning for like how many years now? 10?
My heart still screams for Kim Minjoo and it will always be her.
And like what I used to say back then, that falling in love is stupid, well it is.
I still think falling in love is stupid and will always be stupid for me.
It’ll just give you nothing but blues.