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Luz sat in her room. The only source of light was from a dim lamp, surrounded by crushed papers.
She had to find a way back.
She had to save King.
And find Eda.
This was her fault.
It was her fault Phillip became Belos.
It was her fault Eda was cursed.
It was her fault Amity, Gus, and Willow didn’t have their families. They didn’t have to be dragged into this.
Everything went wrong because of Luz.
She crumpled another paper and threw it behind her. She let out a frustrated groan.
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Amity sat in the kitchen as they all ate. She looked at the spot beside her. It was yet again empty. Once everyone became done Amity scraped her food into the trash.
“Are you okay cariño?” A voice behind her asked. Amity jumped into the air. “I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scare you.” The voice tried to say.
“I was just thinking Miss Noce-” Amity began but was cut off.
“Please call me Camila, Amity. You’ve been here for three weeks almost.” Camila said. “Were you thinking about Luz?” Camila asked, her voice was full of sadness.
“Yah.” Amity said, looking down. “She just doesn’t seem happy anymore. And is too focused on finding a way back. She hardly comes down anymore and barely eats.”
“I’ve tried to talk to her. But I can’t seem to get through.” Camila said sadly. She reached to move Amity’s head up. “How about you talk to her?” Camila asks.
Amity looked away clearly deep in thought.
“I-I don’t know. . .” Amity said.
“I will take the others out so you and Luz can talk in private. I know how these talks can go in a relationship.” Camila said with a small smile. “I am sure if you bring it up Luz will realize she has to take care of herself as well.”
Amity felt determination fill her.
“Okay. I’ll do it.” Amity said. Camila smiled at her again.
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Amity stood in front of Luz 'door as she let out a breath.
True to her word Camila took the other out.
Now Amity had to fulfill her part. She reached up to knock on the door.
“Who is it?” A voice weakly called from the otherside.
“It's me.” Amity said back
The door opened a crack.
“What do you need?” Luz asked. Amity could see her eyes slightly, there were darkened bags that weren’t there when they arrived at the Noceda household.
“I-I need you.” Amity said weakly.
Luz opened the door to look at her.
Luz looked like crap. And that was putting it nicely. Her curly hair was tied back besides the two pieces that framed her face. She had on an over sized tea shirt and sweats. And by looking at her face you could tell that sleep was pretty much non-existent for her.
She moved into the room and Amity followed. Closing the door behind her.
Luz sat at her desk and Amity sat on the bed. While the room was dark Amity could tell that there were papers almost covering the area around the desk. One thing Luz had packed in her bag which she seemed to bring with her was Phillips journal.
“Luz you need rest.” Amity began.
“Rest?! I need rest!?” Luz scoffed. “Amity, I'm trying to find a way back to the Boiling Isles to fix my mess that I created.” Luz said disbelief was doused in her words. “I don’t get rest.”
“What do you mean your mess?” Amity said, looking at her. “This is no one’s mess but Belos.”
“That’s what you don’t understand.” Luz laughed. “I HELPED BELOS!”
Amity looked at her in confusion.
“What do you mean by that?” Amity asked.
“The time that Lilith and I went to find the time pools to look for Phillip. And it turned out he was a massive ass. I taught Phillip the light glyph.” Luz said.
“Are you saying Phillip is Belos?” Amity asked.
“Yes.” Luz said.
“Well that wasn’t your faul-” Amity began but was cut off.
“Amity. You, Willow, Gus, and Hunter are stuck here because of me. Eda could be dead because of me. King is stuck with that child. BECAUSE OF ME! EDA LOST HER MAGIC BECAUSE OF ME! YOU HAVE NO FAMILY BECAUSE OF ME. WILLOW AND GUS WERE DRAGGED INTO THIS BECAUSE OF ME!” Luz yelled tears falling down her cheeks.
Amity sat there dumbstruck. Her girlfriend thought everything happened because of her?
“Luz you don’t understand. MY life got better when you came into it. Eda got to make up with her sister. Willow and I are friends again because of you.” Amity said. “I DON’T SEE WHERE YOU FUCKED EVERYONE’S LIFE UP!” Amity yelled.
“I WOULD BE TRYING OUT FOR A SYSTEM THAT WAS FULL OF LIES! YAH I LOST MY FAMILY! I CAN’T LOSE YOU EITHER!” Amity yelled she was also sobbing at this point. She stood up from the bed.
“Y-You looked so ready to stay back . . . You would . . . You would have left us here in the Human Realm alone. WHY? WHY DO YOU FEEL THE NEED TO PUT OTHERS BEFORE YOURSELF!?” Amity cried out hiccuping. She fell to the floor and pulled her knees against her chest as she clenched her eyes tight.
“BECAUSE . . . BECAUSE I HAVE TO FIX ALL OF THIS AMITY!” Luz said sobbing.
“Why won't you let us help then?” Amity asked, “You don’t have to do it alone.”
“It’s my fau-” Luz began but was cut off.
“Give me another reason. Please do.” Amity said, holding her knees to her chest tighter.
It was silent.
“That's what I thought. You’re too busy blaming yourself you can’t see that I need you. If I’m just a distraction. I’ll go and you won’t have to worry about me bothering you.” Amity said she got up but was pulled down and a head rested on top of hers.
“I’m sorry. Please don’t leave me.” Luz whimpered. “I should have thought about you not having anyone more. I should have seen that you nee-”
“I won’t leave you, dummy. But you need to stop being so hard on yourself Luz. It isn’t good for you. But I can’t say that we are okay. We have a lot to work out . . . together.” Amity said into Luz’s chest.
Luz slowly felt herself drift to sleep. The last thing she left was a kiss planted on her forehead as a blanket and arms wrapped around her.
She needed this, she needed the rest.