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Typing sound is filling across his room. The longer he’s typing, the harder he’s pressing the keyboard. He lets out a sigh, covering his face with his hands until both reach his improper hair, pulling them out of frustration. He’s in need of idea, but nothing's coming into his mind. He had already done a lot of things to gain new idea, even searching through online on what he should do to continue his writing but still, nothing's work.
'I need to do something now, literally anything,' he thought in his mind.
Closing down his MacBook with disappointment, the tan changes his attention to the new arriving boxes that he gets earlier. Those boxes contain some of his old writings and books that he used to read a lot back in the past, totally opposite from who he is now. He had more books before, but he didn’t like them that much, so his mom donated the books to an orphanage in Iksan, his hometown.
Back to the present, since he is working on his first work of writing, he asked his brother to post them to him. He kept the boxes in his family’s store room. For that reason, it would be a burden to let his parent do it so.
“Right, why i didn’t think any of this?”, hitting his palm on his forehead, his legs move to the boxes' direction, as his mouth praising his stupidity. Later, a smile form on his face as he thought that at least those old writings will surely help him for now.
He just takes any box that is closer to him empty-mindedly. Mainly because he’s too lazy to move any further around. Seems like his mom had cleaned those boxes a little bit since he couldn’t see any dust or old traces. But weirdly, the box in front of him now doesn’t look that old either. Still, he opens the box and you can see a smile formed at the corners of his mouth, quickly calling a person afterwards, eagerly waiting for the person from the other side to answer his call.
“Hyung!!!”, he beams as he screams.
“Ya Park Jeongwoo, do you want me to be deaf or what? Guess you have already received the parcel”
Jaehyuk happily answers the phone while laughing.
“Why do you give me this playstation? It must be so expensive. Didn’t I tell you before that I could buy it myself?”
“Uigoo, if you don’t want it then give it back to me. I can give it to Asahi~”
“You know I would not let that happen don’t you?”
Jeongwoo smiles as he knows his favourite hyung only teases him. Besides, this is how he would show his gratitude to him, after being friend with him for a very long time.
“You’re welcome, then. Nevermind Jeongwoo, I would do everything for you~ Saranghae~. Don’t forget to give me nice thing for my birthday too.”
Jeongwoo chuckles as he hears those lovely words from him.
It’s been always be Jaehyuk’s way of showing his affection towards him and the others who are close to him.
“Thanks hyung. For real, I’m really grateful to receive this and I will be using it as much as I want”
“Hey, do not sleep late okay. I already have trouble to wake you up these days by calling. You better don’t stress me up!”
“HAHAHAHAHA. Okay hyung, then come back faster. I’m freaking boring here by myself”
“Aye, Jeongwoo ya, I need to go now, take care of yourself well okay, and don’t miss me too much, bye2, muah”
“Bye hyung.”
He put his phone down and opens his new precious thing. Leaving his work behind, he decides to call Asahi to join him playing the new playstation.
Soon, Asahi comes together with Mashiho, Junghwan and Doyoung. Jeongwoo didn’t even feel shocked because he's already used to it. Somehow he would do the same thing too, joining the others randomly if he free. Usually, they would hang out together at Jihoon’s place, but since many of them are busy working outstation, also the same reason why Jaehyuk is not at home, therefore, he always be with these guys these days together with Yedam. It just that, currently Yedam is busy recording his new song, making him couldn't tag along for the time being.
So, they play games together until late night and Jeongwoo feels super satisfied to has the playstation all by himself back. He used to has one before but it broke down when he played it with Haruto last time and left them no choice but to go all the way to Yedam's place only to play games for free. He can buy one but he doesn’t do it yet.
The reason? He doesn’t even know why. That's rare isn’t it? He guesses it’s not that bad to keep himself free from game for awhile. His family might thought he loses his mind if they find out about this matter since they know his addiction towards playing games is no joke.
Like usual, they have a talk before heading home while drinking soda, those that Jeongwoo had found in the fridge. Just random chat about their new life updates or funny stories etc.
“How’s your art exhibition preparation going hyung?”, Jeongwoo asks.
“Good”
“How about ur songs, hyung?” Junghwan the youngest asks.
“Good too, Haruto and Yedam help me a lot”
“Woahhhh, thats cool hyung”
Doyoung praises Asahi and Asahi sheepishly smiles as he thought of things that he loves to do.
“Didn’t Haruto tell you about this?” Asahi asks back while looking at Jeongwoo.
“Ofcourse I already know this. You never know how proud he is to help you with the project and keep on showing off to me”, Jeongwoo scoffs.
Asahi only replies him with a small beam while imagining Jeongwoo being sulk again when Haruto teases him.
“You two?”
Changing his attention to the rest, Asahi lifts his right eyebrow quickly upside down to Doyoung and Junghwan, asking the same question.
“I’m doing great, never thought my YouTube would get many attention. Hyung, don’t forget to like, subscribe and share my channel okay?”
Junghwan winks and does hand shot gesture using his both hands to Jeongwoo, Mashiho and Asahi.
“Im doing fine too”, Doyoung answers confidently.
They talk more about Mashiho too and finally go home only after Jaehyuk did a video call with them, complaining how hard it is to wake Jeongwoo up in the morning. Asahi silences himself while the others try to back him up.
Luckily, since Mashiho is there, he cleaned and left his house without any messes from earlier. Being used to the tan's habit, he knew Jeongwoo would leave it to be cleaned in the morning instead and it would be bothersome for Mashiho, since he is perfectionist.
Jeongwoo stretches himself and gets prepared to sleep. Suddenly his peace time is interrupted by the sound of notifications pop out from his phone's screen, unstoppable.
He quickly snatches his phone, knowing well who sends those messages. He could see 30+ new messages from Haruto, spamming his name to get him answers the chat. He rolls his eyes up as the new messages still appearing although he has already read the messages.
“Yaaaaa, do you want a dead wish from me?”
“HAHAHAHA, no I never ask you to”
Jeongwoo rolls up his eyes again before he replies. He always wonders how Haruto always being like this. The speed of his typing and replying his messages is really something else…
“What do u want?”
“Uigoo, is it wrong for me to care for my friend? ;)”
“HAHAHAHA, no I never ask you to,”
This time Jeongwoo smiles as he gets his payback.
“Ouch, that hurts me. Ya Park Jeongwoo, I’m gonna complain this to Jihoon hyung”
“Sure, just tell him, it's not like I'm scared of him. Who is him? He won’t even care about you ;p,”
Again, Jeongwoo makes a grave for himself. He knows he'll be dead after this but he decides to care about that later.
No reply afterwards, maybe the latter is waiting for him to type more. As he decides to continue the conversation, new notification pops up.
“How r u doing?,”
Jeongwoo knows this type of chat. This time, Haruto sincerely wanna know how he is doing.
“Great, come on, u should've already known that! Everyday we're chatting. It feels like u almost know everything what I do these days compare to when you’re here,”
Jeongwoo sends one of his confused memes sticker afterwards.
“HAHAHAHA, of course I should care for u. Bc im a good friend yk. You'll never find good friend like me anymore”
“I don't know. I take that as complement for me instead, for being able to handle your craziness over the years*-*,” Jeongwoo burns up again.
No replies for that afterwards. So, he waits.
“Jeongwoo”
“Mwo?”
“Jeongwoo…”
“WHATTT!?”
“Ya Park Jeongwoo…”
“WHATTTTT???!!!!!!”
Jeongwoo is annoyed. He gets another reply just when he’s furiously typing on the small keyboard, don’t wanna be defeated to the older one.
“I have a girlfriend”
'Oh'
This time Jeongwoo answers with his inner voice instead.
Jeongwoo fingers stop typing as he reads the reply many times. Many times like he reads an uninteresting textbook. It is so weird, the sentence is short but it takes awhile for him to understand and digest it as it is.
“Wow, this is so, ”
“Sudden”
He adds more.
“Congratsss!!! Who’s that unlucky girl :)”
Jeongwoo...
is in confusion. He could feel confusion is lingering around him.
It is too sudden. Sudden? Why would Haruto needs to tell him at the right time? They are bestfriend. Ofcourse the Japanese could tell him anytime he wants.
He doesn’t even sure why cause he feels shocked, very shocked indeed,
at the 'sudden' news.
“Thank you for the praise. Ofcourse the girl is happy to get me since I have a good face :). But I’ll tell you later about her okay, can I?”
'Okay, now why he is asking for his permission?'
Jeongwoo's inner voice is questioning again.
“HAHAHA, sure” the tan responds.
"Ige mwoga?" and more typing.
“But why?”
Jeongwoo asks him without hesitation. He waits for a reply, but it takes longer. The question is short, but he knows Haruto understands him well enough.
What he’s referring the question about to, it is not about the girl matter, it’s about why he has a girlfriend.
Jeongwoo starts to feel regret the moment when he realises that he just sends the message carelessly without second thought.
After awhile Haruto replies, “She is just, very good at loving me”
Jeongwoo stares at the answer. After a thought,
“Good for you then, I’m wishing u guys would work well”
“I wish so”
“Hmmnnn, I guess I'll be going, feeling sleepy yk ;)”
“Alright, sleep well Jeongwoo”
“Aishhh, stop it. You make it sound like we're a lover or what”
'What the-'
'Lover? Loverrr???!!!!'
Again, the wolf is screaming inside for his unfiltered respond.
Jeongwoo groans for a minute while kicking everywhere at the air. Soon, while scratching his head, he says to himself,
"This is crazy. I'm totally out of my mind"
For the first time, he didn’t ask Haruto how he is doing. Guilt feelings is stirring in his mind as he lost in his thoughts and acted by his feelings just now rather than focusing on Haruto.
He rereads back their conversation while he’s on the bed. Clearly, he can see there is something’s off in the chat. He could tell that the way he replied the messages is also weird and he’s not being himself in those moment. The matter that is keep distracting him now is that, why does he feels bitter? The moment when he questioned Haruto, he could feel that he is not fully blissful or lit to accept the news.
After a long pondering, he concludes that it’s maybe because he is sad the fact that Haruto never says a word about the girl before or he is just being protective over him, afraid if Haruto will be hurt. He knows Haruto. Haruto is not that kind of person who would do it just for fun. All he could think of is that, they must have known each other so well and for so long, for him to do such a decision.
His chest feels tight.
He couldn't sleep at first and it frustrates him. But later, while being engulfed by the sour feelings, in the middle of the night, he’s slowly drowsed, sailing into the deep sleep.