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Renjun felt his heart beat faster by the second.
He’s been standing in front of his village gate for a few minutes now. It felt like hours. It felt like years. Heavy.
If you would ask him what he was thinking of meeting up with his ex long-term boyfriend on a random Tuesday night, he’d have no answer for that.
Maybe it’s stupid, reckless even, yet it felt right.
Hyuck always felt right for him.
The fresh-graduate unconsciously felt his eyes looking for the familiar black Honda—Hyuck’s car. His favorite. But to his surprise, a white Mazda pulled up in front of him. He felt time slow down as the window slid down.
“Hi! Tara?” Hyuck greeted him, his smile still warm.
Renjun could only smile back before a shaky hand pulled the door handle open. “Hi! Bago?”
Hyuck gave him a shy nod. “Yeah, ipon.”
“That’s great. I’m guessing the job in Singapore pays well, hmm?” Renjun said, making small talk.
“Hmm, pwede na rin.” Hyuck laughed as he steered the car back into the highway. “Ikaw, kamusta?”
Renjun looked out the window, appreciating the sun setting. The voice in his head told him he had his sun back but he knew just like the sky, he’ll be gone too.
“Well, eto. Graduate na rin, finally.”
“Wow, congrats! You really went to med school pala?”
Renjun shook his head. “Law school.”
This made Hyuck look at him, his eyes unreadable.
“Akala ko gusto mo maging doktor?” His voice was careful. He knew it was a sensitive topic.
“Alam mo naman pamilya ko. Parang ako, can’t take no for an answer.” He said to lighten up the mood.
The two share a solemn laugh, both not sure as to where the boundary should be. They’re not friends anymore, much more a lover. There are things you don’t talk about with someone you haven’t seen in years.
But for Renjun, Hyuck will always be that exception.
“Mag-tanong ka lang, kahit ano.” Renjun offered.
Hyuck hummed. “Beach or mountain?”
“Huh? What do you mean?”
“San mo gusto pumunta, beach or mountain?”
Renjun frowned in confusion. “Now?”
“Yes, now.” Hyuck gave him a smile. “Bilis.”
“It’s 6 PM on a Tuesday.. Anong meron?”
“Wala. I just figured that now, 6 PM on a Tuesday, is a time we have right now.” He started, eyes glancing back at him. “We don’t know what tomorrow holds so why wait? Kaya mag-decide kana, love.”
Natigilan silang dalawa.
Love.
Hyuck opened his mouth to apologize but Renjun finally gave him his answer.
“La Union. Sa fave beach natin mag-kakaibigan dati.”
Neither of them looked at each other as they felt the tension and confusion. Ano nga ba ginagawa nila?
“Beach, it is.
Hindi nila alam pero bahala na.
–
Iba na pala favorite mo..
Hyuck knew it’s been years since they left each other’s lives. Doctor na si Renjun at siya naman ay mataas na ang posisyon sa kompanyang pinag-tatrabahuan niya.
Hindi na sila ang mga idealistic na college students dati na punong-puno ng pangarap ang kanilang mga mata. Nasa edad na sila kung saan mas pinipili na nilang maging praktikal kaysa sa baguhin ang mundo.
Pangarap nila ang maging doktor noon.
Subalit, eto sila. Malayo na ang narating, ngunit hindi sa landas na kanilang inasam.
Malayo na rin sa isa’t isa.
–
“Here you go.”
Renjun happily took the Potato Corner paper bag from him. “Thank you!”
Hyuck put his seatbelt back on as he prepared to drive, stealing a glance at the happy kid beside him.
“I see the flavor has changed, but you still really love Potato Corner, no?” He chuckled.
“Yup!” Renjun exclaimed as he took another bite.
“You want?” He offered a fry towards him.
Hyuck hummed as he focused on back out of the parking space.
“Sure.” He absent-mindedly opened his mouth towards Renjun, but his eyes still fixed on the rearview mirror.
Renjun placed a fry on his mouth before he could think.
But when the thought settled in, the familiarity quickly fading away, realizing how this wasn’t the norm anymore, he gulped and looked out the window instead.
As they set their way on the highway, Hyuck noticed the other’s silence. He tried not to think much about it. But how can he? He’s still torn between knowing the person besides him best and completely admitting to the idea and perhaps, they’re mere strangers again.
–
“Antok kana?”
Renjun asked as he noticed Hyuck yawning continuously for the past few minutes.
“Medyo lang.” He blinked the sleepy tears away. “Galing pa akong airport kanina eh.”
“Oh, ano ginawa mo dun?”
Hyuck chuckled. “I just arrived today, Ren.”
Renjun’s eyes widened. “What? You went straight to me? Baliw ka ba?”
“Mukha nga.” Hyuck laughed at the other’s expression.
The other scoffed jokingly. “Baliw ka, Lee Donghyuck.”
“Sa’yo?”
“Ano ka highschool?”
“Mahal ka since high school, pwede pa.”
It was only supposed to be light banter. Yet they knew the weight of those words lies heavy in their hearts.
“Corny mo.”
Renjun, despite his rational side screaming at him to keep his feelings at bay, let himself smile. Genuinely.
–
“Remember when we were in senior high tapos crush ka nung grade 12 na feeling pogi?”
Renjun laughed. “I remember, yes. At pogi naman talaga si Jaehyun, no!”
Hyuck rolled his eyes. “Wala akong pake.”
“Oh, go on.” Renjun chuckled. Still ever so seloso.
“Diba niyaya ka nun sa prom nila? Tapos pumunta ka kasi syempre, kinilig ka.” Renjun laughed again. “But turns out, ayun gago sinayaw lang ng ex niya. Iniwan kana. Gago talaga.”
Renjun shook his head with laughter. “Yes, I was there. Ako ang iniwan sa prom, hindi ikaw. Aware ako.”
“Ayun, naalala ko lang. Kasi ayun oh, billboard niya.”
Renjun looked over at the billboard in front of them. Oo nga, si Jaehyun nga. It’s been years pero ang gwapo niya pa rin talaga.
“Hmm, gwapo nga talaga siya.”
“Ako rin. Gwapo talaga.”
Renjun slapped his arm lightly. “Ikaw ba topic?!”
“Share ko lang naman.”
The two sat in silence for a little while.
“How are you, Ren?”
Renjun sighed. I guess kahit anong gawin namin, we’ll always go back to the fact that a gap between us is present now.
“I’m.. fine. Really.”
Hyuck nodded. “Plans after law school? May law firm kana bang pag-tatrabahuan?”
“Yang Law Firm, Ateneo Law, and even our small local law firms offered me space.” He started.
“That’s great. I mean, it is right? Ano pipiliin mo?”
“Wala.”
Hyuck couldn’t help but feel surprised. “Oh?”
“Yeah.. I can’t.. decide? Or baka being confused about it is a sign that I’m deciding against practicing law.”
Hyuck kept his mouth shut. He didn’t know what to say. He wasn’t sure if he’s supposed to ask more or should he respect the fact that he’s no longer a part of his life.
“Akala ko, okay na ako. I graduated with Psychology which was a great help for me in assessing the cases we had in law school. I passed the bar in one take. It’s all good things, yeah?”
Hyuck nodded.
“Pero bat.. ganito? Why don’t I feel good ?”
Renjun kept his eyes on the road. Appreciating the dark skies, the dim lights from nearby cars and even the ever few lamp posts they’re passing by.
“Okay naman ako. Okay naman talaga buhay ko. Pero bat.. ganito? Everything around me is fine. So why don’t I feel the same inside?”
Hyuck stole a glance towards him.
“You’re Renjun.”
“Uh, okay? Alam ko na yun?”
Hyuck playfully rolled his eyes. “Sungit.
“My point is you’re Renjun. Ikaw yan. You’re one of the most intelligent and resilient people I’ve ever known. Buong 26 years ng buhay ko, I’ve always looked up at how you seem to have your shit together all the time.”
“Not all the time..”
“Yes, not all the time. But you gotta admit,” Hyuck gave him a mischievous look. “most of the time, you do.”
Renjun chuckled. “Okay, maybe I do.”
Hyuck smiled back. “You do. Kaya whatever you decide, trust yourself. Sabi mo nga dati, ‘kelan ko ba pinabayaan sarili ko?’. You got his, Ren.”
Renjun looked at him. He’s still the comfort, the peace, the love, and the home he’s come to know most in his life. Siya pa rin si Hyuck. Hyuck niya.
Pero hindi na siya si Renjun na nakilala niya dati.
It’s nice to have these stolen moments with him, but he knows that once the sun comes up, his sun will vanish.
–
Hyuck checked the clock. 9:47 PM.
He’s been driving for about 5 hours now and nasa may Pampanga palang sila sa NLEX. The Metro Manila traffic was hell as usual. They didn’t use the new skyway as he wasn’t sure if his cash would suffice for their impromptu trip.
Despite having a nice job in Singapore, marami pa rin siyang pinag-iipunan. Marami pa rin siyang responsibilidad at kahit paminsan-minsan ay pinagbibigyan niya sarili niyang gumastos ayon sa kanyang kagustuhan, his responsibilities for his family is still in his mind.
Ganyan talaga pag ikaw ang panganay ng isang middle class family. Kahit hindi mo naman talaga responsibilidad magbigay ng sustento sa pamilya niya ay kailangan pa rin. That’s why he took the job offer in Singapore fresh out of college. He needed the money.
Kung sa sarili niya lang, ayaw niya talaga lumabas ng bansa. He wanted to serve his Filipino people in terms of being a doctor. He wanted to treat the ones who needed it the most.
But his idealistic self died years ago.
Ang pinaka kailangan niya palang pagsilbihan ay ang pamilya niya. Kahit hindi na muna siya, sila nalang.
He grew up with a single mother, who later on got together with another man, and his three younger half-siblings. His mom was the sole breadwinner while he was still in college. Wala kasing kwenta yung lalaking kinasama niya in terms of finances. At least inaalagaan naman ng mabuti mga kapatid niya.
Donghyuck grew up seeing the ugly side of life at an early age. The struggles of being in a world where opportunities are scarce.
Mahirap talaga pag mahirap ka.
But now, four years post-college, he’s earning enough to provide for his family. Siya ang nagpapaaral sa dalawa niyang kapatid na senior high school at college na. Gusto niya sana pati yung bunso, kaso his mother insisted na siya na tutal grade school pa naman daw.
His mother is a selfless woman. Always thinking about her children, her husband, but almost never of herself. Noon, nagagalit si Hyuck sa nanay niya pag hinahayaan niyang mahirapan ito masyado sa trabaho o sa gastusin nila.
“Ma naman! Nagkakasakit kana, oh! Bat ba ayaw mong pilitin maghanap buhay niyang asawa mo?! Mamatay kana lang ba kakatrabaho habang nakahilata siya maghapon?!”
20-year-old Hyuck couldn’t keep his tears at bay. He was sick and tired of seeing his mother suffer for years for their family. And being helpless about it is making him feel even worse.
“Sabi ko naman sa’yo titigil muna ako sa pag-aaral at tulungan kayo. O kaya mag part-time ako para mapaaral ko sarili ko. Kaya ko naman, m-ma.”
His voice cracked.
“K-Kayanin ko.. para sa’yo..”
His mother fell down on her knees seeing her eldest son shed so much tears. Despite the world almost always being against her, she was still lucky to have a son like Donghyuck.
Hyuck fell down the floor with her and hugged her waist. “Ma.. hayaan mo na akong tulungan ka..”
“Shhh, ang anak ko talaga napaka-iyakin.” Pabiro niyang ani habang dahan-dahang hinahaplos ang buhok ng kanyang anak. “Okay lang si mama..”
Magsasalita pa sana si Hyuck ngunit hinigpitan lang ng kanyang mama ang yakap niyo sa kanya.
“Balang araw, maintindihan mo rin si mama. Mahal na mahal ko kayo kaya okay lang na mapagod ako basta mabuti kayo ng mga kapatid mo.”
Hyuck spent the rest of the night in his mother’s arms. At that time he didn’t understand what she meant, but as the years went by, he finally understood her.
He understood that in love, you sacrifice. Your love would be the reason for you to do things you never thought you could, whether it’d be for good or for bad.
Kasi ang pagmamahal, hindi madamot.
–
Renjun woke up abruptly.
Nakatulog pala siya, hindi niya na namalayan. He noticed they were parked outside an open beach. Akala niya sa resort sila pupunta but I guess Hyuck found a hidden place along the way.
He rubbed his eyes awake and after giving himself time to wake up, he decided to get out of the car. The late night breeze gave him chills down his spine but as he walked towards the shore, he felt himself warm up at the sight in front of him.
Hyuck was sitting along the shoreline as he looked far into the ocean. He didn’t notice Renjun walking towards him as his mind was too preoccupied.
“Lalim ng iniisip mo ah.” Renjun light-heartedly teased.
The other only chuckled in response as he patted the space beside him. “Just thinking. Upo ka.”
“Hmm. Care to share?”
Renjun watched as Hyuck returned his gaze on the dark horizon. If he still knew the other well, it seemed Hyuck was debating whether or not he’d tell him what’s bothering him.
He was never one to articulate his feelings well.
“Si Jisung, graduating na. Si Ningning, third year na sa pasukan. Si mama naman, tumigil na rin sa trabaho at nag-bukas nalang ng sari-sari store sa bahay.”
Renjun hummed, urging him to continue.
“Everything’s.. going well.” Hyuck smiled. His eyes tell a different story though.
“But..?”
He sighed. “But I think there’s something missing.. and I feel like I don’t have the right to feel that way when there’s technically no reason to.”
Renjun followed his gaze and stared at the distant skies too. The sounds of the waves crashing and the idle hum of the wind was the only thing they could hear.
But he could almost hear Hyuck’s thoughts.
In all the time he’s spent with Hyuck, he always thought how selfless and good of a person he is. His family would always be his top priority, above himself. It’s an honorable trait, if he can say so himself.
But at times, the cracks are seen.
The times wherein Hyuck would feel empty as he gave his all for his family, and sometimes, to those around him too. Buong buo mag-mahal si Donghyuck.
And sometimes, love can be his biggest enemy.
“You’re doing well, Hyuck. I hope you know that.” Renjun whispered, voice almost blending with the waves.
But Hyuck heard it loud and clear.
“You give me too much credit, Ren.” He looked at him. “I’m just doing what I need to do. Nothing special about that.”
Renjun looked back. “It doesn’t have to be special to be able to do well, Hyuck. You really are doing so well.”
Silence embraced them.
Hyuck only nodded before staring off the horizon again. For him, Renjun has always been the one who never failed to remind him of a lot of things. Whether it’s something trivial like sleeping early or things he doesn’t even notice such as how he’s working hard.
“Thanks.” He replied. “You always know what to say.”
Renjun smiled.
“Tara inom?” Hyuck offered as he stood up.
Renjun laughed before standing up. “Tara.”
–
The two spend the night drinking along the beach, talking about the memories they have of each other.
Their shared times in highschool, competing against each other in academics, after school hangouts at their favorite convenience store and everything in between.
Then the conversation smoothed its way to college, surprising each other that they were enrolled in the same university as they kept it a secret to one another.
“Naalala mo yung nag-agawan tayo ng libro sa library tapos muntikan na tayo mapalawas ng librarian dahil sa’yo?” Hyuck laughed as he dodged Renjun’s hand.
“Anong ako?! Ikaw kaya may kasalanan nun! Ako nauna sabay sabi mo ‘paunahan nalang’?!”
The two laughed as Renjun threatened to chase Hyuck down the shoreline. The two clumsily ran with a can of beer in their hands. And as Renjun called it quits, they both laid down the sand, looking up at the stars.
“Tangina mo, hingal na hingal ako.” Renjun said as he breathed heavily.
“Sino ba may sabing habulin mo ako?” Hyuck felt his stomach hurt from all the laughter.
They spent a few minutes catching their breaths, calming themselves. It felt nice, running around and laughing. It’s almost like they were 19 again.
“We had our fun, yeah?” Hyuck started.
Renjun smiled, another laugh building its way up his throat. “Yeah. We really did.”
“Where did all the time go? Parang kahapon lang nagpapa-libre ka sa akin ng sisig sa 7-11 eh.”
Renjun sat up and gasped. “Kapal mo? Ikaw nga laging nagpapa-libre eh. Kwek-kwek nalang humihirit ka pa sa akin?!”
Hyuck sat up as well. “Sus, parehas lang tayo. Gift giving love language natin, diba?”
Renjun felt his heart drop. It was the first time their past relationship was brought up during the night. He can blame it on the alcohol all he wants but he knew the mention of it still had effects on him.
Hyuck noticed the change in Renjun’s aura.
“Sorry, maybe I shouldn’t hav-”
“No, it’s okay.” Renjun quickly said. “It was a great part of our history, don’t you think?” He smiled.
“Syempre naman.” Hyuck looked at him. “It was the best time of my life.”
Renjun laid back on the sand. “Yeah, mine too.”
Silence enveloped them again. But it wasn’t awkward or empty, it was filled with words unsaid. Hyuck laid back beside him, shoulder to shoulder.
“Ren?”
“Hmm?”
“Gusto ko sana mag-sorry.. sa lahat.”
Renjun only stared at the stars, letting Hyuck’s words sink in. He wasn’t mad nor was he holding any grudges towards his ex. Naiintindihan niya naman si Donghyuck, lagi.
“Naalala mo yung huling beses na pumunta tayo dito sa La Union? The night before graduation.” Renjun started, eyes still in the skies.
Hyuck remembered it as if it was yesterday.
“Oo naman.”
“You told me that whatever happens, kahit dumaan ang panahon o humaba ang distansya natin sa isa’t isa, mamahalin at mamahalin mo ako.” Renjun smiled at the memory.
“I trust you, Hyuck. I trusted you then and I trust you now.” Renjun finally looked at him.
“I know you had to do what you did. I knew you had to leave. And I knew saying goodbye was never an option when it’s with me.”
Hyuck felt his chest tightened as he saw Renjun tear up. “Pero hindi pa rin yung excuse para iwan ka ng walang pasabi, Ren..”
Renjun shook his head with a smile.
“It’s not an excuse. But it’s your reason. And I knew you were leaving weeks before you actually did.”
Hyuck furrowed his brows. “Paano?”
“Your mom told me. Nag-sorry siya sa akin kasi hindi ka daw niya mapigilan na tanggapin trabaho mo sa Singapore. Alam niyang mahihirapan kang sabihin sa akin at natatakot siyang bigla ka nalang umalis, kaya sinabihan niya na ako agad.”
Hyuck couldn’t believe what he’s hearing. Hindi niya inakalang alam na ni Renjun nung mga panahong hindi niya alam paano sasabihin sa kanya.
“You knew..”
“I did, Hyuck. And I never felt the need to stop you. Kasi ikaw yan eh, ang hirap mo kaya tanggihan.” Renjun chuckled before taking a sip on his drink.
“I didn’t wanna be the reason for you to stay. You had such a great opportunity at hindi ko mapapatawad sarili ko kung ako magiging rason para tanggihan mo pa.”
Hyuck didn’t know what to say. He was at loss for words. He wanted to tell Renjun na sana sinabi niyang alam niya na. Sana pinigilan niya ito, sana nilaban nila.
“Sana sinabi mo sa akin.. alam mo naman isang salita mo lang, hindi ako aalis diba?”
“And that’s exactly why I didn’t, Hyuck.” Renjun closed his eyes, tears threatening to fall. “I loved you too much to be selfish. Masyado kitang mahal para pigilan ang magandang buhay na magkakaroon ka, kahit hindi na ako parte nun.”
Hyuck felt his own tears threatening to fall.
“Lahat ng yun.. hindi totoo? Yung kay Jeno..”
Renjun couldn’t stop the tears anymore as he laid back down. Jeno was one of their closest friends, the shoulder Renjun leaned on when he was losing his mind on knowing Hyuck’s departure.
“Oo. H-Hindi totoo yung kay Jeno.”
The two laid in silence as they let their own tears flow.
Hyuck cried for all the nights he blamed himself for leaving Renjun. For all the calls he never answered from one of his closest friends. For all the times he believed Renjun could betray him.
Renjun cried for the decisions he hastingly made for the one he loved. He cried as he remembered begging Jeno to act like they had an affair just for Hyuck to leave him with no regrets. For the times he didn’t listen to Jeno as he told him it would be the biggest mistake of his life.
“I’m sorry, Hyuck. It was stupid of me to make you think na may nangyari sa amin ni Jeno.. It’s so fucking stupid. I want you to know na walang nangyari sa amin, ni halik o kahit pag hawak ng kamay, wala talaga. I’m so sorry, Hyuck.”
Renjun was full-on crying now as he faced the other.
Hyuck wrapped an arm around him, pulling him closer. “Shhh, tama na. Tapos na yun.” He whispered.
Renjun buried his face in Hyuck’s neck, crying his heart out. For all the times he didn’t, as he always thought he didn’t deserve to cry for something he did.
They laid there for sometime, just wrapped in each other’s arms as the night went on.
–
The next time Hyuck opened his eyes, it was nearing sunrise. He squinted as he searched for Renjun. He was standing by the shore as he hugged himself, watching as the sun slowly rose in the horizon. Hyuck stood up to follow the other but he heard a phone ringing. He picked up Renjun’s phone to give it to him but the caller I.D made him freeze.
“jaemin ko ♥”
“May tumatawag?” Renjun suddenly came up to him.
“Yeah, Jaemin daw.” Hyuck said as he gave him his phone. “Sagutin mo na.”
Renjun gave him a look before walking away, answering the call. “Hey baby… yeah, nandito pa rin kami.. mhmm.. okay, see you later.. I love you more..”
Hyuck fixed his gaze in the skies, appreciating the variety of colors painting the sky. He tried his best not to eavesdrop but the silence of the early morning made it hard not to.
He should have known. It’s Renjun. He’s someone who’s easy to love and anyone who would have that privilege is the luckiest person in the world.
He deserves to love and be loved.
Hyuck would be lying to himself if he wasn’t hoping for another chance with his greatest love but then again, so much time has passed. It’s impossible to just pretend that nothing has changed and to pick up where they left off.
Magkaiba na ang mundo nila. Magkaiba na ang buhay nila at magkaibang tao na rin sila. Hindi na sila ang high school friends na sabay umuwi lagi o ang college sweethearts na mahilig kumain ng sisig at kwek kwek.
At hindi na rin sila ang Donghyuck at Renjun na nagmamahalan at pipiliin ang isa’t isa sa lahat ng pagkakataon.
The night they spent together was great, it was one of the times that Hyuck would hold in his heart for his lifetime. It’s a stolen night that he was lucky enough to spend with one of the people he cherishes the most.
Pero hanggang doon na lang.
Hanggang dito na lang tayo, Renjun. My greatest love.
–
To My First,
When I first met you, you were giving me the side-eye kasi mas mataas score ko sa’yo sa physics and being the school’s mathlete, you weren’t happy about it. That was the first of our many debates and rivalry in high school. I remember getting so annoyed at you that I almost wanted to drop out and transfer schools.
But as the years went by, I found myself looking forward to dismissal time. That meant I get to spend an hour or two with you as we walk home together or fighting over the last sisig meal at 7-11. Bat ba laging kulang stock sa branch na yun? I swear the universe wanted us to keep fighting over the littlest things.
Then suddenly, I found myself purposefully letting you win bato-bato pick natin para lang makita yung ngiti mo (habang nang-aasar) habang kinukuha yung nag-iisang sisig meal sa bwiset na 7-11 na yun.
Alam mo 'yang ngiti mo? Nakakabaliw. Sobra.
Ang daming mga gabi na hindi ako makatulog kakaisip ng tawa mo, ngiti mo at kahit pang-aaway mo sa akin.
And when you screamed at me saying how blind I was for not noticing how in love you were with me in our sophomore year in college? I knew I was done for.
By then, I knew you had me wrapped around your fingers.
In the years you were in my life, it was my favorite version of myself. It wasn’t the best but it’s my favorite for the reason that you were by my side.
You were stubborn, so stubborn that you called me out whenever you noticed I wasn’t myself, drowing myself in my own personal hell and ultimately pushing you away.
The screams you let out as tears flowed down your cheeks still haunts me. I never want to see you in pain ever again. So, let me apologize for all the times you found it difficult to be with me.
But those days are far behind us now.
Renjun, as you take your vow in your wedding, I hope you remember the times when you kept saying how promises are never meant to be broken. That the saying is bullshit and the person breaking the said promise was never genuine in the first place.
I promised myself that I will do everything that I can to ensure you the happiness you deserve. And now, I can tell that you’re happy—far happier than ever.
At kahit hindi na ako kasali sa kasiyahan mo, masaya pa rin ako para sa’yo.
Sa mga panahon na pakiramdam mo walang sumusuporta sa'yo, sana alam mo na kahit anong distansya ang meron sa pagitan natin, may Donghyuck, na mahilig sa kwek-kwek, na nagmamahal at gustong sumaya ka.
As you walk into a new chapter in your life, I want you to know how grateful and honoured I am to be a part of your previous ones.
Pero hanggang dito na lang ang Hyuck mo.
Hanggang dito na lang tayo, Renjun.
My greatest love.
From a Character in Your Old Book,
Donghyuck