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sunwoo has a secret.
he reads fanfics about him. he once innocently stumbled across them back then, and now he reads them after long schedules to relax. thankfully, he doesn’t have a roommate. he can’t even imagine how awkward it will be to explain to someone.
he particularly loves reading fan fiction about him and changmin. he finds them adorable, finding it sometimes too accurate. of course, changmin doesn’t know. even though he is his best friend, he can’t possibly tell him this.
they just got back to korea, very tired from all the jam-packed schedules. it’s time to read fics to relax. he hasn’t read for a while, so surely there’s new content. he laid down and scrolled thru the website, bingo.
the story was about him and changmin being roommates and him realizing that he’s in love. wait a minute. why does it feel like he’s reading his own thoughts? surely, he’s not actually in love with his hyung and best friend. he just likes reading stories about them, but he specifically likes love stories about them. he strays away from angst.
the story ends with them kissing, sunwoo smiles at that thought. wondering how changmin’s lips will actually feel. he’s one of the members that take care of their lips very well.
wait a minute.
is it even normal to wonder how would it feel like kissing your best friend?
is sunwoo actually in love with changmin?
oh.
oh.
well shit.
and like it was magic, sunwoo gets a knock on his door. he knows that it’s changmin, just from how he knocks.
“sunu! have you eaten?”
“n.. not yet, hyung!” he answers.
“open the door, i have food for you.”
well that’s absolutely impeccable timing. it’s like the universe is playing a prank on him.
he stands up and opens the door, a very adorable changmin greets him. he’s wearing glasses, a big hoodie, sweatpants, his hair all down… cute.
“why are you staring? do i have anything on my face?”
“nope. you’re just cute.” sunwoo responds truthfully.
changmin frowns, “did you do something? is there something i should be mad about?”
“what? i can’t even call my best friend cute?”
“if you say so. i got you the same as my order. do you want to eat together?”
“sure.” sunwoo says and prepares his portable table. yearning over changmin can wait, right now, he’s going to enjoy his presence.
“were you about to fall asleep without eating dinner?” changmin asks as he distributes the food.
“no… i was on my phone.”
“doing what?”
sunwoo gulped. he’s definitely not going to say ‘reading fan fiction about us.’
“just on twitter. was going to eat in a bit.”
“and you’re not going to invite me?” changmin teases.
“i would if you were still awake.”
“i know, you love me.” changmin giggles.
sunwoo nearly chokes. he’s trying to have a peaceful dinner without having thoughts of what it’s like to kiss changmin, and these are the jokes that he makes.
“hyung…”
“hmm?”
“what do you think of dating?” sunwoo nervously asks.
“why are you asking all of a sudden? do you have someone?”
“maybe.”
“you better tell me who that person is. i should be able to get best friend privileges.”
it’s you.
“i will definitely tell you once i’m already sure.”
“well… to me, dating is fun when you like the person. i don’t know, i don’t really think about it a lot.”
“do you have someone in your life?”
it’s you.
“i don’t really think about it. i prefer to face problems when it’s already there.”
“i see.”
“what made you ask this? something bugging you?”
“nothing, i was just thinking of starting a new series while resting. some series really made me feel single.” sunwoo lies.
“alright, we could watch it together if you want.”
“i’ll let you know when i’m starting it.”
“are you done eating? i’ll clean up for you.”
was changmin always this caring or sunwoo is just overthinking everything?
“hey, is something wrong? you’re staring.”
“no no. just… tired. thanks for the dinner, hyung.”
“of course. don’t forget to brush your teeth. i’ll go back to my room, okay? rest well, sun.”
“thanks hyung. can i… hug you?”
“of course.” changmin extends his arms.
sunwoo lets himself melt into changmin’s embrace. his mind is very clouded, this definitely helped.
“come to me when you need help, hmm? i’m always here for you.”
“thanks hyung.”
“anything for my favorite baby.”
changmin would always tease sunwoo about how he’s just a big baby, saying that he is definitely destined to be in the maknae line.
“brush your teeth before you go to bed.” changmin reminds before he leaves.
sunwoo goes to the washroom to brush his teeth and does his skin care routine. why didn’t it click to him earlier? all the signs were already there. he liked reading fan fiction about them. he particularly loved fluff love stories. of course, he’s in love.
after quite a long time in the washroom, sunwoo goes to lay down on his bed. quickly dozing off to dreamland.
however, he was not in a dreamland. he was having a nightmare. his nightmare was about changmin leaving the group suddenly. out of fear, sunwoo wakes up in cold sweat.
he immediately runs to changmin’s door, banging on it for him to open it. he’s still not sure if he’s dreaming or not, but one thing is for sure, he doesn’t want his nightmare to be real.
“sunwoo…? what’s happening?” changmin opens the door, half awake.
“hyung! hyung! you’re not leaving me, right?” sunwoo enters his room, touching changmin’s arms to make sure he’s not dreaming.
“huh…? sunwoo, what are you talking about?”
“i don’t want to lose you, hyung. never leave me. please.” sunwoo says hugging changmin tightly, tears already falling from his eyes.
“i’m here, sun. i’m here. i’m not going anywhere. i’m not leaving you. ever.” changmin reassures, hugging sunwoo back.
“what happened, baby? did you have a bad dream?”
sunwoo nods.
changmin wipes sunwoo’s tears and kisses his forehead, “whatever that dream is, it’s not real. i’ll never leave you.”
“in my dream… you were leaving the group..”
“i won’t leave you. ever. do you want to stay with me tonight?”
“yes please.” sunwoo answers and tightens the hug.
changmin guides him to sleep in his bed, holding sunwoo close to him.
“you’re safe with me. i’m here.” changmin continues to reassure sunwoo.
the next morning, changmin woke up with sunwoo cuddling him and still holding on tightly. he looked so handsome just peacefully sleeping. changmin really hopes sunwoo didn’t have another nightmare after that.
changmin plants a soft kiss on sunwoo’s forehead. he has so much love for sunwoo, both as his best friend and for someone who wants to be more than friends.
changmin decides to sleep more, he also feels safe with sunwoo close to him.
an hour later, changmin woke up again. sunwoo was still sleeping peacefully. however, this time changmin’s stomach was already growling.
he carefully detached himself from sunwoo and quietly left the room. he was immediately greeted with chanhee’s eyebrow raise.
“well… sunwoo is not in any of our rooms. i’m assuming he’s in yours?” chanhee asks.
“yeah… he’s still sleeping.”
“we were worried, his bedroom door was open and he was nowhere to be found. what happened?” hyunjae asks.
“i don’t think it’s my place to tell. but he’s fine.”
“is there something wrong? we also heard banging on a door at like.. 3 am.” juyeon says.
“i’m sorry…” sunwoo suddenly says, evident that he just woke up.
“are you okay now?” changmin immediately asks.
“yes. sorry for making you guys worried. i just had a nightmare.”
“so you went to changmin’s room?” younghoon asks.
“yes. i’m fine now. just a bit hungry.” sunwoo answers, clinging to changmin by holding his hand.
“there’s some food left. we thought you left or something.” sangyeon says.
“i’m sorry for making you guys worry. i’ll make it up to everyone. lunch is on me.”
“yes! forgiven!”
while the group was busy gathering their order for lunch, sunwoo grabs the opportunity to give changmin a hug.
“thank you for not telling them without asking me first.”
“of course. that’s your privacy. let’s order lunch with them, you said you’re hungry.”
a few hours later, after eating and taking a shower, sunwoo once again lays down on his bed. wallowing in misery about his feelings. so… what now? is he going to confess? does changmin even like him back that way?
would he risk possibly losing changmin’s friendship? but he said he would never leave him, and changmin isn’t one to break promises. they have been best friends for more than 5 years, surely there’s a tiny bit of chance that the feelings are reciprocated?
suddenly, he hears a knock on his door. disturbing him from his thoughts.
“come in!”
the door opens, and without hesitation, changmin lets himself in. closing the door first, then immediately laying down with sunwoo on his bed.
“hyung? what’s wrong?” sunwoo asks, coming closer to changmin. he can sense that his best friend is troubled. changmin always liked to hug or cuddle whenever he’s stressed or dealing with something.
changmin doesn’t say anything but proceeds to hug sunwoo, melting in his embrace. sunwoo immediately hugs back, feeling warm.
“sunu… am i… am i unlovable?”
“what? what are you talking about?”
“of course not. who made you think this way, hyung? they’re wrong!”
“just… i don’t know. half of our group is already dating. younghoon and hyunjae hyung are happy together. haknyeon and eric are going strong… i’m just. i don’t know.”
“are you perhaps… wanting to be in a relationship?”
“i was very busy during my trainee days, i didn’t really have time to even think about dating.”
“sunu…”
“hmm? it’s okay to want to date, hyung. it’s nice to feel wanted.”
“can i kiss you?”
sunwoo was stunned. did he hear it correctly?
“yes…” he answers.
changmin closes the gap between their lips. both of their soft lips felt good pressed onto each other.
after a few moments, kissing turned into a full makeout session. with changmin already on top of sunwoo, still taking his time to get to know sunwoo’s lips.
after a while, they pull away to catch their breath. both of their lips are bright pink, and they’re both blushing.
so… is it normal to have a makeout session with your best friend?
changmin lays down again beside sunwoo, still breathing heavily.
“your lips are soft.” changmin comments.
“yours too. i can taste the strawberry lip balm.”
suddenly, they hear a knock on the door.
“sunwoo, it’s chanhee.”
“come in, hyung!”
chanhee lets himself in, but immediately frowns, “are you guys…?”
“what?” changmin asks.
“oh my god. did you do the…?”
“do what, hyung?”
“pink lips, a bit swollen… hair is a bit messy… flustered faces. oh my god! did you guys do the horizontal tango?”
sunwoo sits down on his bed, evidently confused, “what?”
“thank god i knocked first! i would’ve seen something!”
“we don’t understand, chanhee.” changmin says and sits up too.
“what were you guys doing before i knocked?”
changmin and sunwoo both looked at each other, eyes a bit wide open.
how are they going to tell chanhee that they were making out before he knocked?
“i knew it! i knew it!” chanhee started jumping around in joy.
“what?” changmin says, still confused.
“you guys were doing something!”
“yeah. we were breathing, hyung.” sunwoo stands up to shoo chanhee away.
“i see. i’ll comeback later to annoy you guys more.” chanhee says before he leaves. it was evident in his tone that he was teasing.
“was it obvious?” changmin asks.
“i think so. we made out for a good twenty minutes.”
“do you… do you want to do it again?”
sunwoo smirks, “yes.”
so… is it normal to have two makeout sessions with your best friend in one day?
sunwoo was beside changmin who was sleeping for the afternoon. he still doesn’t know what’s happening. are the feelings reciprocated? what was the kiss for? does making out as friends exist?
he’s going to go crazy. he needs to talk to someone. and he knew who the right person was. he carefully went out of his room, careful not to wake changmin up.
he then bolted to chanhee’s door, knocking on it.
“come in.” he hears.
“hyung.” sunwoo says as he gets in, immediately locking the door so nobody can disturb them.
“i knew it. you’re in love with him, aren’t you?”
“well damn. how did you know?”
“i’ve been with you guys both. there are times where you just stare at changmin lovingly.”
“do… kissing as friends exist?”
“ah. so you guys were kissing before i knocked?”
sunwoo nods, “maybe making out is the more accurate term.”
“well, people don’t make out as friends. there’s definitely something going on between you two. it’s just a matter of time until you guys date.”
“so… you think it’s reciprocated?”
“of course. notice how you’re the only one that changmin calls baby ?”
“he’s teasing me.”
“hell no he’s not. i promise. besides, you two made out. that’s a clear indication that you like each other.”
“what if we’re just kissing as friends?”
“…what?”
“what if… he just… liked kissing?”
“kim sunwoo, are you hearing yourself?”
“yeah…?”
“would you kiss me?”
“of course not!”
“see! you won’t kiss a person, let alone make out with a person if you don’t like them!”
“but—”
suddenly, they hear a knock.
“chanhee? is sunwoo in there?” he hears changmin say.
sunwoo immediately runs to open the door, changmin greets him with a hug. his hair is still messy, evident that he just woke up.
“i was looking for you… you weren’t there…” changmin whispers as he lets himself melt into sunwoo’s embrace.
“i was just asking chanhee hyung something. want to go back to my room?”
changmin nods. grabbing sunwoo by the wrist, the proceeded to walk to his room.
“close the door next time please!” they hear chanhee shout.
they enter sunwoo’s room, changmin made himself comfortable with sunwoo’s bed.
“come here. cuddle with me.” he calls out.
sunwoo lays down beside him, his heart beating a bit fast. so… does changmin also like him?
“sunu.”
“hmm?”
“i like you.”
sunwoo was definitely not expecting that.
“y… you do?”
“of course. would i kiss you if i didn’t? i don’t go kissing random people.”
“you better not.”
“look at you getting a bit possessive. you didn’t even answer me yet.”
“of course i like you too, hyung. would i have kissed you back if i didn’t?”
“i heard you ask chanhee if kissing as friends existed tho.”
“you heard that?”
“only a bit. for your information, i don’t make out with my friends. hell, i don’t even hold hands with other people. you’re the only one i want to hold hands with.”
“…since when did you realized you like me?”
“reveal era.”
“really?! that long? you could’ve said something!”
“i did. you just… ignored it. i guess you didn’t really think of it that much.”
“what? what did you tell me?”
“i love you.”
“but i thought you were saying it as my best friend!”
“hell no, i wasn’t! i never directly said i love you to the members, i instead describe what kind of love i feel for them. i never said i love you directly. i only said it to you.”
“r…really?”
“really. why did you think i would always ask you to cuddle with me? did you think i was doing it for fun?”
“i don’t know. maybe you liked cuddles.”
“your cuddles. i like being cuddled by you.”
“i was really clueless..”
“you were. i even contemplated on liking another person for a while.”
“you did? don’t do that again.”
“of course, i have so much love for you.”
“who was the person?”
“getting jealous already?”
“is it a co-member?”
“maybe if you gave me a kiss, i would answer.”
sunwoo closes the gap between their lips, eager to hear the answer.
“i contemplated on moving on from you and liking… nobody. i couldn’t do it. every single person, i always compared it to you.”
“so you’re that in love with me, huh?”
“i take back everything i said.”
“you’re not allowed to.” sunwoo says and kisses changmin’s cute nose.
“so… should i call it making out with my boyfriend now?”
“is this your way of asking for a make out session?”
“maybe.”
“you’re such a flirt, kim sunwoo.”
“they always say, three times the charm. let’s kiss to seal our confession.”
“such a hopeless romantic.” changmin jokingly rolls his eyes and proceeds to kiss sunwoo.