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Yae to Raiden Shogun -
Darling, when the storm gets rough you shouldn't throw the boat away and put someone else on the steering wheel, try to swim the distance to the shore, you should have stayed, if not for yourself, than for me and the rest of your country. I am not accusing you of disposing of me, I am merely suggesting that the sacrifice may outweigh the gain, that you will lose too much by staying away. I have done as much as I could these years, I have made an image, a reputation for myself, yet it's not with pride I go to sleep each day, it is with worry, sorrow and pain. For all the ways I could have stopped you back then, convinced you to not go that way, to not fall in a trap. I wish I could return to you, to our partnership, to being someone to you. I am filled with dread at the thought of you never seeing how beautiful this land could be. How eternity can be both freedom and stability, that they do not have to constantly be at war with each other. We could be both future and past, if you'd want. I am sorry, truly, if you find this letter in poor taste, maybe the years of isolation have given me a sentimentality you wouldn't appreciate, maybe I am pushing my emotions into places I shouldn't. I am quite aware I would have never wrote a letter like this when we were by each other's side, and that the past me would look at me now and think that what i'm doing is foolish and reckless, but it has also been brought to my attention lately, that things are very much not like they used to be. I am running out of options, I am running out of ways to make the civilians happy, to make the country not collapse in on itself, these people want and deserve a happy life, one I am not able to provide for them right now. If desperation seems to ebb from my pleadings, trust that it's not pity I seek, it's understanding. I have pleaded my loyalty to you, as you have to your people, I have served in all the ways you deemed fit, I have done the best I could with what I have been given, and it's not in weakness that i'm writing you this, it's in strength and trust in you. I am willing to be by your side again, if you are willing to come back from hiding.
Yours, Miko.