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Enji woke up that morning feeling small, little space was tugging at him, whining at him to come and play.
But he couldn't, he hadn't regressed since Hawks moved in. In fact, after his boyfriend discovered his little gear, he had lied and told the bird he didn't regress anymore.
Hawks had been sceptical, but Endeavor managed to convince him.
Actually, it wasn't technically a lie, he didn't regress anymore, for a multitude of reasons. He had so much work, plus he didn't have a caretaker. But it was mostly because of shame and embarrassment, he was a grown man after all.
Enji usually regressed down to five or younger, only adding to his humiliation.
So, Endeavor pushed little space away and started his routine, but god was it hard.
He was slipping, he was sluggish and his head felt fuzzy and he just wanted to go back to bed.
"I'm heading out!" Hawks stopped in the bathroom to kiss Enji goodbye before heading out.
Gross.
Wait-
With Hawks gone; he wouldn't be back until night; he could..
No.
No no no.
You can't.
He wanted to resist, but he was slipping, dropping. So he shamefully called in sick, struggling to stay big during the phone call.
As soon as his freedom was secured, he went to the closet to retrieve his things buried in the back.
It was a bit of a struggle staying big long enough to get himself changed into a sweater and pajama pants (humiliatingly, he did also diaper himself, just in case) but he did it.
He also grabbed a sippy cup, his stuffie (a tiger that even he struggled to wrap his arms around fully), and his favorite paci.
He plopped down on the couch and finally slipped his paci into his mouth.
He dropped so hard.
It felt so good to be little again, after so long of denying himself.
He always struggled to accept this part of himself. It made him feel weak, and especially embarrassed. He was 46 years old and wearing a diaper with a pacifier in his mouth.
Oh well, might as well leave the self-hatred to big Enji.
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Enji was now on his stomach on the floor of the living room, he was coloring a dragon in (the dragon was purple, because duh). He had also figured out how to put cartoons on the TV, so Paw Patrol was playing in the background.
He didn't know how much time had passed, but he was suddenly reminded that he hadn't eaten all day.
So, he did the sensible thing and he went to the kitchen. Walking was a bit hard, he wasn't very stable, but he made it without tripping.
Setting his stuffie on the counter, he started going through the cabinets. He stumbled across boxed Mac & cheese and stopped.
He didn't know how to use the stove, but it couldn't be that hard. So he grabbed the box and a pot, he had seen Hawks do this tons of times.
There were words on the back, but he couldn't read, luckily though, there were pictures. So he set to work on his first obstacle, opening the box.
Kiego always opened them with his feathers, so knives were the closet thing. He grabbed a knife from the drawer, but someone took it out of his hand.
He whipped around and came face to face (or chest to face) with Kiego.
When did he get home?
Enji couldn't think about it now, not with the embarrassment and humiliation of being seen like this coursing through him.
His knees buckled, he dropped his paci, and he fell on his ass. Hawks put the knife back and reached for him, but Enji crawled backwards and away from him.
"Enji, Honey, you don't have to be embarrassed-" Hawks was cut off by a sob. Enji's bottom lip trembled as he cried, crawling away again and opting to hide under the kitchen table.
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Hawks had suspected. He wasn't stupid, no matter how good Enji was at lying, he could tell.
It hurt him that Endeavor felt the need to lie, to hide this from him. He was his boyfriend, Kiego would never judge him, not for this.
So, when he came home early to find Enji, clad in comfortable clothes with a pacifier in his mouth, he wasn't as shocked as he probably should've been.
He did panic a bit when the obvious little grabbed a knife from the drawer, though.
He, a gently as possible, took the knife, but he scared Enji in the process.
Now he had a crying little hiding under the table.
Great.
"Enji, c'mon Baby, come out."
"Mm-mm!"
He sighed and looked around, trying to figure out how to calm the little down. Then he spotted a tiger plushie on the counter.
"What's this guy's name?" Endeavor made a confused noise from under the table. Hawks grabbed the tiger and sat down on the floor so Enji could see them both.
"Him," he showed Enji the plushie, "what's his name?"
".....Ash." Got him.
"That's such a cool name, almost as cool as Enji of course."
He could see Enji blush. Hook, line, and sinker
"By the way, what were you doing in here? A little guy like you shouldn't be playing with knives." It was true, the little could've gotten hurt.
After a bit of hesitation, Enji spoke again, "M'hungry, I was cookin'."
"You're hungry? Well, I can cook for ya Bud!"
Endeavor looked sceptical, he knew what Hawks was doing, but he was too small to care.
When Enji didn't answer, Hawks took it as a yes.
He set the plush down for the little to grab and stood up, meanwhile feathers whizzed around, grabbing anything Hawks would need.
Instant food was, luckily, the only food Hawks could cook without burning the house down. So he could also keep an eye on Enji.
The little had found his way to the table and was now avoiding Keigo's gaze and chewing on his sweater sleeve.
That won't do.
Hawks located and grabbed the dropped pacifier and washed it off. He could feel Enji's skeptical gaze on him, of course he was still defensive in littlespace.
Then, Hawks went over and held out the pacifier for Enji to take. He hesitated for a bit, but eventually broke and popped the paci into his mouth.
God he's adorable.
Now that he was sure Hawks wasn't making fun of him, Enji sucked on the paci happily, completely succumbing to the fuzziness in his head.
Meanwhile Hawks was celebrating gaining the little's trust, so feeding him was easy. Enji eagerly accepted every airplane, giggling the whole time.
Kei even managed to find Enji's stash of stuff, everything he needs to care for his boyfriend was right there.
He was still upset that Enji kept this from him, but that was something to discuss with the big version of the big guy.
Right now, it was playtime.