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A few years ago
Sehun stares at the girl in front of him with a cold look. He actually won't believe what he just see, he knows some people already talked about her behavior behind him but he ignored it. That's because he loved her so much.
But now, it doesn't matter anymore. He can't accept this. She's cheating on him with another man!
"So.... This is your new boyfriend?" He asks with a cold tone.
"Sehun......" The girl just stand there, she's approaching Sehun but Sehun taking a step backward, away from her. "This isn't..."
"Stop. I just need an answer. Who's the one that you choose now? Me or him?"
Deep inside, Sehun still loves her. He knows that he’s younger than her, but he really loves her. He seriously wants to be with her. He doesn't want anyone else, just her. But now, he caught her kissing and dating someone else behind his back.
"Sehun, listen to me first...."
"I don't want to!" Sehun almost screams. He's really frustrated with this kind of situation. He wants to shout, he's mad but also sad. This is really breaking his heart. "Now choose, me or him!"
The girl just stay quiet for a while. Then saying, "I'm sorry....."
Sehun knows the answer already. She makes it clear when she let the man holds her hand.
"Fine. I won't ever see you again. We broke up now. I hope you're happy with this!" Sehun turns his back and leave the place. She already shattered his feeling, she ruins his trust.
Sehun tries hard to not cry. He already promise to not cry after the loss of his sister. But maybe today is an exception. He raised his head up to the sky, the small box on his hand slipped through and falls to the ground.
Today is supposed to be the day where he gives this ring to her, to celebrate their 3 years relationship, but there's no use of doing it now. It's over.
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Sehun hugged his knees. A bandage covers up his left wrist.
He doesn't know what crossed his mind when he grabs the knife and starts to cut his left wrist with that knife.
Blood runs through the open wound on his wrist and luckily, Mrs. Jung -- the housekeeper in the Oh's family -- found him before he lost too much blood.
Sehun remembered the way his mother screamed when she found out that he almost died.
His father was shocked. He thought Sehun still sad about the death of his sister. Actually it's not only because of that, but also because of his girlfriend, Irene, left him and cheated on him with someone else.
He always gave Irene all of his attention, he bought her what she wants, he tried to be the best man to her, aside of the fact that he's younger than her. But it seems like she's not that serious with him.
He feels stupid. He should just listen to Chanyeol when Chanyeol said to find another girl. He was too blinded by love.
A knock on the door disrupt his thought.
"Sehunie," it's Chanyeol’s voice. He opens the door and enters Sehun's room slowly, "are you okay now?"
Sehun nods.
"Can you do the practice now? The other members are waiting for us."
Sehun wipes away the tears from his eyes and raise from the bed. "I'll try."
Chanyeol comes to Sehun and sit next to him. "Come on, don't be sad."
Sehun stares at Chanyeol, his eyes are red because he starts to cry again. He suddenly hugs Chanyeol, he buried his head on Chanyeol's chest.
"I told you, right? She doesn't deserve you." Chanyeol said, caressing Sehun's hair. "You should forget about her."
"But I love her." Sehun said.
"But she already hurt you like this. She doesn't even come and said something to you after that. You'll find someone better, Sehunie." Chanyeol wipes Sehun's tears. "Come on, we still have a practice with Noir."
Sehun nods. He stares at the bandage on his wrist once more.
Deep inside, he knows that what Chanyeol said to him is right. This shouldn't happen again.
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A few months later
"Let's go to the new cafe," Chanyeol grabs Sehun's hand and pull him out of the seat that he occupied for the last few hours.
"I don't want to," Sehun lazily replies and back to reading the book in front of him.
"You need to take a break from this daily routine. Come on, you won't regret it." Chanyeol keeps on insisting for him to go and finally that works.
"Alright." Sehun sigh and close the book then grabs his jacket. After that, he follows Chanyeol to the cafe that he's been talking about.
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"How's your new teacher?" Chanyeol asks when they arrived at the cafe.
"Good. Better than the last time. If I want, I could graduate faster than those boys over there," Sehun said, pointing at some boys with a high school uniform that sitting on the corner of the cafe.
"That's good." Chanyeol drink his coffee. "You know, I've been thinking, maybe we should try something different, like investing some money and open up a trading company. If we can manage it well, it will lead us to a big success."
Sehun stares at Chanyeol for a while. His father once talked about this. They need to do something to make the small business that their family owned getting enough profit for their living.
"At least that will distract you from thinking about her all the time," Chanyeol commented.
"I'm not thinking about her." Sehun replies.
"But you still look sad."
Sehun sigh. "I can't sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me so she choose him."
"You're not old enough, you're not that rich, you're not famous. You don't own a luxurious car. You don't have your own company. She's on the way to be an actress. She needs fame. If you're with her, it may look like you're the one who used her for your own popularity."
Sehun sigh again. "Sometimes I still feel like I want to die."
"Oh, don't be stupid. Don't waste your life for someone like that again. I told you that you'll find a new one."
Chanyeol stares at the people around them. He caught a sight of a girl, sitting next to a boy, in front of that girl and that boy, there's another girl who looks upset at them.
Chanyeol told Sehun to look at them.
And that's the first time he see it. That person is so pretty. She got a shoulder-length black hair, she looks calm, while the girl in front of her seems mad at them.
"I think they're gonna break up soon. You should take the chance to introduce yourself to her. She's pretty." Chanyeol commented.
The girl stands up and leaving the black hair girl with the boy beside him.
Just when Chanyeol told Sehun to make a move toward that black hair girl, the black hair girl suddenly stands up and walks away, passing Sehun’s seat.
"Wait, Han!" The man follows him.
'So, her name is Han? She's pretty. Maybe Chanyeol is right. I should just forget about my past love and move on, starting over my life. But I don't think I could start a new relationship again soon. I'd better start to learn more about managing business.'
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"What's this now, Sehun?" His older brother, Kris, throw the books in front of Sehun's bed. "’How to build a company’? Since when you're interested with our business?"
"At least I want to be more useful than you, Kris."
Kris grabs Sehun's arms forcefully and dragging him downstairs to meet their parents.
"What's this? You let Sehun to do all he wants again?" Kris let out his complain.
"Kris, you better hear him first. He knows what he's doing and Park Chanyeol will also help him. I will also in charge of managing the company. It will be a huge turn back for us if we succeed." Their father explains.
"He's still 18! How can you trust him with this big plan?" Kris still upset with this decision. "Why don't you guys wait for me to finish my study in Canada?"
"By then, we will have to live under the bridge," Sehun commented. "Our grandfather only left us a small company that is on the verge of breaking down right now. If we don't take a chance and try to rebuild it, we're going to lose it forever."
"Oh, here comes the mister knows-it-all Sehun," Kris still looks upset.
"At least I'm not killing our sister!"
Kris grabs the collar of Sehun's shirt. "I'm not killing her!"
"You're the one who didn't pick her up as promised! You killed her! You're the guilty one and that will never change forever!"
A punch arrived on Sehun's face.
Their mother screams and told Kris to stop hitting Sehun.
"You're a killer! I hate you! I hate you forever!" Sehun wipe the trail of blood on his face and hits Kris's face too.
"You're gonna be a failure! You won't help this family!" Kris shouts when their father finally managed to separate them.
"No! I'm gonna show you that I will success! I'm gonna make a big company, I will gained everything I want! I'm gonna show you that I'm not a failure!" Sehun said that with full of confidence.
He will show it, not only to Kris, but also to his ex, he's going to prove it that he will get everything that he wants: fame, money, luxurious car and a big company under his name. And they will regret it for saying that he's a failure.
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Five months later
"This is gonna be my last time joining this group, I have to take care of my business, which mean I might not have time to join the practice anymore. But don't worry, if I have time, I'll hang out with you guys," Sehun stares at the other fellow members of his group.
He finally decided to leave his dance group that now already got more recognition and gaining more fans.
It's hard for him to choose this path because he really loves dance, but he can't keep up with the dance practice and their schedule anymore. He have to manage his family business. He already determined to prove that he can be success, so Kris and Irene won't look down on him again. Hence, this is the best way for him.
"We're gonna miss you," his fellow members said, hugging him.
He's the creator of this group, he named it Noir and he's actually happy that Noir received many support. No one knows their true identity because they always wear a mask or covering half of their face when doing a perform.
"You guys should take care of yourself after this," Chanyeol says. He's also the part of this group and decided to quit too because he have to help Sehun.
"Thanks, I believe both of you will also succeed in your business."
Both Chanyeol and Sehun smiles at them. That time Sehun realized there's a message arrived on his chatting application.
Sehun read it and smiles.
"It's that luexolu again?" Chanyeol tries to take a peek on the message.
"Yeah, she said she'll gonna come today. I feel bad to tell her that I'm gonna leave the group. She said I'm his inspiration to do her dance."
"Why don't you try to ask that person to go out with you?" Chanyeol suggested.
"Wh.. What?"
"Oh, come on, you look so happy when you read luexolu messages. I think this luexolu might be a pretty girl."
Sehun put the phone back to his bag and start wearing his mask. "You know that I don't want to start any relationship again. That's not my priority."
"You might regret it later." Chanyeol wearing his mask too.
"No, I won't." Sehun stares at the mirror in front of him to check out his outfit.
He's not ready to fall in love and start a relationship again. That's why after this, he already decided to not contact luexolu again.
He must be focus with rebuilding his business.
When the goodbye stage is over, Sehun and Chanyeol do their last greetings to their fans.
Chanyeol wipe out his tears, he’s actually really enjoyed performing with Noir, but he must make his priority and that is to accompany Sehun.
Meanwhile, Sehun just stand beside him, no one knows whether he's smiling or not because the half-face mask that covering his mouth like a ninja.
He just stand there, waving his hand, no tears falling from his eyes, because he already make a promise to himself to not cry anymore after those time when he wanted to do the suicide.
Kindness is unnecessary for his life right now, because being kind to others won't help him, instead he was always betrayed by being nice and kind to other people.
Yes, that kind of feeling is unnecessary. All he has to do now is just focused on the business that he will build.
He failed to notice the look from one of their fans who stand in front of the stage, hoping that someday he will get noticed by Sehun. That person takes out his cellphone and takes a picture of Noir with Sehun and Chanyeol for the last time then posted it on his social media account under the name ‘luexolu’.
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