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ASHLYN POV:
I started camp not knowing was about to happen. I started hating on Val with no reason. And now I realise that I wasn't mad about her I had a crush on her, and I still have it. I don't know what to do now, I don't know if she likes girls. But, what am I talking about? I have a boyfriend, a perfect boyfriend and he is waiting for me back home. And here I am, thinking about other girl, my mind is now a mess and I really don't know what do about it. I think I will meet Maddox and I will tell her, in the end after all she also likes girls so she can help me.
So, I decided it, I was going to look for her. I found her, she was as happy as always, with that bright smile with that lifts everyone's spirits. I wished I was like her, always happy, I was so jealous of her. I ran to her, she was talking to other members of the camp, so I told her:
- Can we talk a sec, Maddox?
- Of course! See you later guys! - she said goodbye to the others, as sweet as ever – so tell me, what’s the matter?
- Oh, it's not very important, not for you of course, for me it seems important, but for you I'm sure you don't even care and I don't know – I started panicking a bit, I didn't know that telling someone that you started liking girls would make me so nervous.
- Ey, are you feeling okay? Of course I would care, if it is important for you it will be important for me – she told me that while making eye contact with me, always so much... her.
- Well… okay. So, you will glad to hear this, you were right. I was always mad about Val, because I… like her - it came out of my mouth quickly, and I closed my eyes as if it wasn't there, as if hiding so I wouldn't have to deal with it.
- Oh my God, Ashlyn, you can open your eyes, I’m not going to eat you or something – she laughs softly.
I opened my eyes slowly, with a bit of fear, but it was okay, in front of me it was only Maddox laughing, but not in a rude way, in a kind one.
- So… what do you think?
- I think that… I told you so!
- Oh my God, Mads - I rolled my eyes – this is serious.
- I don’t know why it is serious, oh, true, you have a boyfriend, what are you going to do with him? Are you going to break up with him since… you don’t longer like him?
- That’s the problem. I still like him. And I think this is only a stupid crush that it will pass, it’s not like I am going to end up in a relationship with Val, she’s 19 years old, I’m 16, it’s just a silly crush.
- That’s what you tell to yourself, don’t you?
- I mean, I don’t know what I feel for him anymore, I haven’t seen him in a while, he isn’t here, I’m okay without him, I mean, I miss him, but I can live without him at this moment, and I really want to know if I have any chance with Val, because I’m obsessed with her.
- Ow, okay, I didn’t know that you had that strongest feelings about Val. Then, you have all clear, so, why do you need my help?
- I was asking me, why would you do if you were in my… place?
- I honest don’t know, do what your heart tells you ? I don’t know, if you'll excuse me, I have some things to prepare – Maddox started leaving.
- Oh, okay! - I shouted because she was leaving – thanks for everything! - and she didn’t hear me anymore.
That was a a strange encounter, did I say something wrong? Well, I don’t mind, I had more difficult problems to deal with than a girl with sudden mood swings.